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:: 2005 30 March :: 11.28 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: none

Woo Woo Woo
I said I hip, hop, I'm hippin', I'm hoppin'
yeah I hip hip hop and I don't stop
I rock it I'm the easter bunny
say up jumps the bunny to the rythm of the bunny's two feet
well it's on 'n on 'n on on 'n on my beat don't stop till the break of dawn
I said E.A.S.T.E.R
EGG with a double g
I said I go by the unforgettable name of the rabbit called the Easter B
Well my name is known all over the world by all the little fellas and all the little girls
I'm goin' down in history as the cutest Hopper you ever will see!
Now I'm passin' out eggs, jellybeans too:
Easter fun courtesy of you-know-who
You start poppin' ya' candy and chompin' your treats
and groovin' this easter to the crazy

*dances around laughing like a maniac*
*looks around*



>. >

you did not just see that =p


hmmm......anyways.......I was going to catch you up on everything that's been going well as telling you
about H2Oasis and my incessant seemingly biological invitation to complete strangers to start up conversations with me.


but that can wait til tomorrow..........cause I'm freakin tired.


Play A Song For Me

:: 2005 24 March :: 7.57 pm layout ^^

Half of the background probably doesn't work for most poeple...but oh's what I see that counts =p

Play A Song For Me

:: 2005 12 January :: 9.54 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: None

Yup....ish me, updating my journal in the middle of study hall....

Me, do work?? are you kidding? =p's not like I have any work to do anyways...I didn't even come to school until the middle of 3rd period.... of course...that could have something to do with me not having class until 2nd...which happens to be math, which I happen to be dropping....and 3rd is Study Hall...and since I don't have any math's not like there's anything to do XD

<3 the choice of of taking classes online ^^ no more math assignments every single day that are just about as understandable as greek that I don't do anyways....well...I do half of the assignments =p
Next quarter is going to be......interesting o.o And I have to take Alaska Studies!! how stupid is that ?? I mean hell.....I -LIVE!- in Alaska.....I already know everything I'd ever give a damn to know by now...of course...technically I'm not allowed to take the class until next year...but I couldn't find anything to fill 4th period so Ally let me in. <3 teh Ally ^^ Now I dun have to take it next year, so I can get it done with. I can't believe they made that a requirement to graduate. *rolls eyes* the ASD is so stupid...honestly, I don't know how any of them passed high school back in the day. Then again....normal public high schools aren't really all that good at turning out graduates who actually have bearable IQ's. XD

I'm taking -8!- classes next semester x.x fun fun....of course....did I mention that 1 is a theatre production, and another one is gargoyle making?? >. >

I know....I'm so lazy =p Mom calls them Basket Weaving Classes XDD

Anyways...I'll stop babbling...although, babbling is much funn fun =p


7 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 31 December :: 1.41 pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Sarah McLachlan - Stupid

Have you ever felt the urge to just curl up into a ball and die???

I have

It didn't work..................

1 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 15 December :: 9.22 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Smile Empty Soul - This is War


You Know It's All About You (Over 100 Questions)

Created by niney123 and taken 6202 times on bzoink!

.:General Info:.
Name:JD, well...not really, but oh well for you =P
Height:5'3 1/2" or 5'4" , I don't remember
Birthday:August 23, 1989
Hair Color:every natural color there is
Describe yourself in one word:ráca
Describe your personality in one word:ango
.:School Life:.
What grade are you in:9th bleck
What school do you go to:Polaris
And where is that:Where I live
Do you get good grades:On the things I turn in
Favorite Subject:Seminars
.:Love Life:.
Sexual Preference:Opposite
Do you have a bf/gf:no
If so,what is their name:
How long have you been dating:
Do you consider yourself in love with them:
If so,why:Geesh, look to #2 already
Have you had your first kiss:Ick =P
If so,when:o.o
Do you have a crush:nope
If so,what is their name:
Why do you like them:
Do they know you:
Do they know that you like them:
How long have you known them:....What is life 101?? o.O
Best Friend(s):Alexis, Rene, Ricky (Bastich!), and George (Sam)
How long have you been friends:Alexis-forever, Rene-7 months I think, Bastich-6 months, Sam- uhh, no idea....this year.
Do you consider yourself a good friend:When I'm not having a bad day
How many friends do you think you have:Just friends?? tons.
Most popular:Rene (fake popularity from being a pb mod XD)
Most conceited:o.o err......Emma's a little concieted...I don't really have any.
Meanest:Raymond?? o.O although it's more like "tough love" than mean though =p
Craziest:Alexis =p
Oldest:My teacher Bill is a friend...XD
Youngest:*blink* that require me to actually be able to remember dates
Most recent:uhhh, *thinks* might be Lomy far
Food:Turky with green beans and mashed potatoes with gravy ^^
Person:favorite person?? o.O
Number:3, 6, 36, & 63
Song:Seether - Fine Again
Band/Singer:Band - Seether, Singer - Josh Groban
Place in the world:The carribbean
Dream Vacation:Going to the Carribbean
Dream House:2 story mansion on a lakeside
Dream Room:Black walls, silver carpet, a black leather couch, 4 poster bed made out of cherrywood with black curtains, and a wolfy blue bedspread with a fluffy rug bearing a white tiger.
.:Last Time You:.
Watched T.V.:umm......2 days ago??
Went to the bathroom:o.o
Ate:3 hours ago
Slept:13 1/2 hours ago
Listened to music:I am right now
Used the phone:uhh.....days ago
IMed someone/Got an IM:Yesterday
Went to school:this morning
Played a game:Ages........before school started I think
Took a shower:Our shower is broken
Hugged someone:o.o 2 weeks ago??
Went on a date:Never
Wrote a letter:like the kind you mail?? I wrote a letter in email form to a friend 4 weeks ago
Cried:Early November
.:Last Person You:.
Kissed:on the cheek.....o.O ages and ages and ages and ages ago and it was probably daddy
Laughed at:Raymond
Cried over:Mom
IMed/Got an IM from:Rene
Talked to:Rene
Spoke to on the phone:The Doctors office
Ate with:My family
Spent time with:Alexis
Saw:My brothers sitting behind me
Missed:Bastich =( *sniffle*
Played with:Alexis?? o.O
.:Have You Ever:.
Been out of the country:nope
Been out of state/province:yup
Done drugs:no- err....not willingly no
Done anything illegal:Probably tons of times. Nothing serious though (does riding in the open trunk of a car count as serious?? o.o)
Slapped someone:Yes
Cut yourself:yes
Played an instrument:yes
Hurt someone for no reason:yes
Hurt someone:yes
Killed an insect/bug:well duh, I live in aslaka, we're mosquito food
Gotten stung by a bee:yes
Lied to your parents:tons
Stole Something:yes
Kissed Someone:nope
.:This Or That:.
Rock or Rap:Rock
Singing or Songwriting:Singing
Tennis Shoes or Sandals:Sandals
Phone or Computer:Computer (more people at once...hehe)
Biking or Skating:Biking
Analog or Digital:Digital
Coke or Pepsi:Coke, Pepsi tastes like spit
Sprite or Sierra Mist:Sprite
MTV or VH1:neither
R&B or Country:R&B
Cingular or T-Mobile:Cingular
Cats or Dogs:Dogs
AIM or Yahoo:AIM
Bzoink or Quizilla:I take the 5th XD
.:Word Association:.
Peanut:"thats nice peanut"
Good Charlotte:Boys of the Summer.... o.O
President Bush:Whoot
T.V.:Witch Hunter Robin
Evil:Muchly fun fun
.:Right Now:
Watching:the computer screen scroll down
What is on your mousepad:an eye cast in blue tones
What are you doing:taking this dumb thing
What song are you listening to:Smile Empty Soul - Nowhere Kids
What's in your CD player:o.o nothing
Wearing:Black Tank top, Black Baggy Cargo's, black socks, black bracelets, umm....o.o heh...and a golden locket ^^
Time:9:18 pm
Day of the Month:15th
Day of the week:Wednesday
What website are you on:Bzoink
.:Random Things:.
What color is your mousepad:Blue
What color is your keyboard:cream
What is the phrase you use the most online:I wuff you
Did you like this survey:mmm.....
Are you sad that it's over:not really
What are you gonna do after this survey is over:post it in my journal
Do you like pop-up ads:DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How long have you been online:since I got home minus dinner

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1 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 15 December :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: Irritated
:: Music: none

Bah long as I don't use transparency I can deal with the weirdness........which quite possible might actually be due to a damn spyware That keeps re-installing on my computer. *is killing it right now*

so teh moving journal and theme music is back....with the new song coming after the original one..I just had too XD

Keri still gets cookies if she gives the right response to the second song <3

Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 15 December :: 7.14 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: None

Heh computer is non embedded music friendly.....but at least the wma doesn't mess the page up as until I find a replacement get to listen to this song now instead.

(it has longer silence in the beginning too)

Cookies to Keri if she gives the right response ^^



2 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 15 December :: 4.52 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Clay Cross - Stained Glass Window

*bangs her head on the table*
(Just beneath the rafters, in a church of stone)

I love Siri...really....but the urge to smack him is so strong today -.-

(Lays a stained glass window, in the attic...all alone)

I forgot to write down the homework for math friday, and I missed school monday and yesterday. So I come to school today, ask Siri (my math teacher) what I missed, he says the two assignments written on the corner of the board (6.4 and 6.5), plus 6.3 on friday

(A work of art forgotten)

so I write them down.........

(a treasure thrown away, taken from the sunlight..... it was just a useless thing)

Ten minutes later he reminds us we have a test tomorrow.........


I of course am confused because as far as I know, we still have 2 more assignments before the chapter is over and we're ready for a chapter test.

(The things in life we take for granted)

So I ask him about it, he says we already did 6.6 and the chapter review...I ask when, he says monday and tuesday. I remind him he just told me that 6.4 & 6.5 were Mondays and Tuesdays assignments.


He says I ask when we did 6.4 & 6.5, he says last week. I say we did 6.3a on Thursday, and he assigned 6.3b on friday.

(The things of wonder we could know)

He says "I dunno" I spend 20 minutes trying to figure out how we went from 6.3a to 6 Review (5 assignments) in the space of 3 days.


After several more guessing and getting "I don't know we did it, maybe the class went through a time warp while you were gone"

(I want to be Illuminated)

I gave up

(Full of heavens light.....Shining through my life)

So now.....I have 5 homework assignments to do on top of the other billion I already have stacked up

(Let the window of my heart reveal your love)

Oh yay

[I wuff that song ^^]

Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 15 December :: 12.18 pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: None

YAY!! ^^
I -finally- got my school ID!!!!!

after -3- months
*whacks Mark and his class for taking so damn long*

My picture scares me o.o

It's the best one I've ever had taken.......but I have my sunglasses with their anti-reflecting coating on them....and so instead of a glare from the light...theres this huge white circle on my lense o.O

*will have to photoshop it off for computer version*


Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 14 December :: 11.52 pm
:: Mood: Bah
:: Music: J.P.Morris - Laguana

Well, I was going to give you the option of turning off the music....but either my computer's being a bitch again, or gci's being a bitch and it's screwing with my veiw of the journal...........

I'll work on it tomorrow

9 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 14 December :: 11.19 pm
:: Mood: Pissed
:: Music: Crossfade - Cold

When I go to college I am going to learn everything I can about backtracking sources that are downloaded into your computer from things like Spyware and Adware, and I'm going to find a way to backtrace all the way back to the damn harddrive that created it.

Then I am going to send a virus to said harddrives and -FRY- them.

And when I say fry, I aint talking about chicken legs.

I had so much crap on here the layers on my compter were having holes drilled into them everytime I opened a new window.


I just lost 3 hours that could have been used to write the 6 page paper I was already supposed to be done with.

Now I have like....37 minutes to write it



2 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 14 December :: 2.17 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Clay Cross - Stained Glass Window

New Layout!
Ishn't it prettah?? ^^

Took me ages to get it right.........I couldn't find a text color color that would show up with the first background I wanted to use =(

But this looks awesome it's okay.

4 Will Feel Better Miles Away From Home | Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 12 December :: 1.39 pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: The Killers - Mr. Brightside

The Pain I feel
wow.....have I ever mentioned how much I love LAUNCH???????? probably not...

well I do

especially the way the play random songs.....cause I think I just found an even better one than my theme song o.o


overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
in an hour i'll be ok
i pray this pain will go away permanently someday
I'VE seen more than...
I should have to...
I'VE seen this on my own

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...

reoccurring drowning effect entrenching my brain,
i hope you'll be ok someday,
so i can say that you moved on in the right way...
WE'VE seen this and
WE'VE breathed this and
WE'VE lived this on our own...

this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...
your own...


this song is a,
poem to myself,
it helps me to live...
in case of fire,
BREAK the glass,
and move on into your own...


When I start to choke on the bile that rises in my throat, only things that give me hope help my lungs to breathe again

Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 12 December :: 12.03 pm
:: Mood: Psychadelic
:: Music: Crossfade - No Giving Up

Theme song o.o
so you found out today
you're life's not the same
not quite as perfect
as it was yesterday
when you were just
getting in the groove
now you're faced with something new
I know it hurts
and I know you feel torn
but you never gave up
this easily before
so why do you choose today
to give it all away

well it's not so bad y'all
together we all fall
just as long as we get up
we'll stand tall
we shouldn't waste another day
thinking 'bout the things
that we forgot to say
I'm hitting back y'all
I'm kicking these four walls
just as hard as I can
'till I can't crawl
I won't waste another day
with all these silly things
swimming in my brain

There's no giving up now
do you really wanna give this all away?
can't you ever see things in a different way someday...
such a beautiful thing to throw away
you should think things through
over and over again
all over again

so your scars fade away
you soaked up the pain
a better person 'cause you
lived through those days
and now you know what it's like to prove
you can overcome anything that gets to you
well it's alright
we're saying our goodbyes
to the past and everything that ain't right
we won't waste another day
with all these silly things in our way

There's no giving up now
do you really wanna give this all away?
can't you ever see things in a different way someday...
such a beautiful thing to throw away
you should think things through
before you give it up now

I know we have given
all that we can give
when there's nothing to lean on
I'd remember this
all we make of this lifetime
has always been within
and remembering that's why

we should never give in

do you really wanna give this all away?
can't you ever see things in a different way someday...
such a beautiful thing to throw away
you should think things through
over and over again
all over again
There's no giving up now!


I think I just found my theme song o.o

Play A Song For Me

:: 2004 11 December :: 5.00 pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: A Perfect Circle - Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

(Imagine all the people sharing all the world)

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.


I may not agree with the religion part... (although I love that in the music video, they showed a clip of the pope!!!!! I wouldn't blink an eye if Catholic Religion was abolished.....*waves a dull spoon at pedi preists*)

This song really makes you think though.............-can- you imagine a world without any dividing differences?? A whole world.....united as one, no hate, no hunger, no wasteful deaths, no conflict............

A dream made from dreams

I can imagine, but I know it will never happen. It reminds me so much of all the liberals....preaching to us nasty unfeeling people about how it's all our fault the world is the way it is. If everyone were nice, if everyone cared, if we stopped getting jobs and making money, and instead we give everything we have to the poor, everything would be so much better. They use examples like the boy where I live, who'd been kicked around in school, always made fun of, never had any friends, who got high one day and chopped his mother into peices and stuck her in a freezer for his father to find later that day. If he'd been loved, and treated with respect as a child, he never would have done it. But what about the boy who had everything, who had family and friends and a good school environment, lots of money and a comfortable life, who paid assasins to kill his mother because he wanted the damn tv??

I attended a church service in Oklahoma, visiting my Grandmother 2 years ago, who's preacher spent the whole time preaching about not living for what you can make by getting a job, but to give your money to the poor, and hungry, and the suffering, while conveniently forgetting to mention the few thousand dollers he gets every month for telling you not to get a job so you can feed your children. Everyone seems to be telling people to stop making money, but to give it away. What I want to know is, just where do they think the money's going to come from? It comes from -making- money, money doesn't grow on trees, it doesn't show up on peoples doorsteps, you can't pray for food to feed your family and then just wait for someone to give it to you.

I used to think Star Trek had the perfect solution, get rid of money, have everything based on trade. But where would you get the things to trade with? Who would have the right to say what everything was worth? If someone had a diamond, what would make it worth so much more than a man trying to trade a tin watch that had been in his family for hundreds of years? And why are diamonds so damn expensive anyway? It's a bunch of bloody minerals that got compacted and transformed in the dirt over a few thousand years.

And then, even if we got rid of money, made it so no one really owned anything, if there were no countries, no law, no religion, just a world of people unified, how would it stay that way? what would keep someone from trying to change it, what would stop another Hitler, or Stalin or any other conquoror, who didn't believe in everyone being equal? What would stop someone from deciding that black people didn't deserve to exsist, or spanish people, or white people, or any other color race. What if someone decided that anyone with brown eyes was a freak because there wasn't enough color?

Do people really believe that there is no such thing as someone who is just -evil-? someone who -likes- to do things that are wrong, just because they want to? It's like they think everyone is just born with good genes, and society makes them bad.

I wish they were right.........but wishing isn't reality, there will never be such a thing as total unity, theres no such thing as peace. It's a dream, but only one that is reality while you sleep.

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