I Have To Be With You To Live, To Breathe, You're Taking Over Me.

Well, it seems as though I've slipped back into depression. I should have seen it coming, I've been slowly swallowed by it for weeks. It's just finally taken me completely in. You can see it in my eyes, I can see it in my eyes. My eyes are dull and grey now. They're not the same bright, sparkly blue they once were. The only one who can pull me up and out of this depression, is in a state of depression himself. I've tried to help him, I'm trying to help him, but as I'm helping him, I'm falling down deeper into this monster's stomach. I love him. I do. More than anything. I'll always love him. And I'd do anything for him. But right now, I've just gotta do what I feel is right. And what I feel is right, is not changing they way I act around one of my friends. It's maybe turning it down a bit, but not changing it totally. Whatever.

sever the ties veins






My wounds cry for the grave. My soul cries for deliverance. Will I be denied Christ, tourniquet.. My suicide..

It's the usual. Which band do you prefer, blah blah blah.
A Perfect Circle, or Silverchair?:	Silverchair
AC/DC, or Led Zepplin?:	Led Zepplin
AFI, or Travis?:	AFI
Aimee Mann, or Jewel?:	Jewel.
Aqua, or The Cardigans?:	Aqua!
Avril Lavigne, or Michelle Branch?:	Michelle Branch
The Bangles, or the Go-Gos?:	The Bangles
The Beatles, or the Monkees?:	The Monkees!
Ben Folds Five, or Ben Kweller? o.o; are they the same person? whatever.:	Never heard of either of them
Bif Naked, or the Distillers?:	The Distillers
Bjork, or Dido?:	Bjork
Blink 182, or Sum 41?:	Blink 182
Blondie, or The Raveonettes?:	Blondie
The Blood Brothers, or The Locust?:	I dunno.
Brand New, or Hot Hot Heat?:	Brand New
Bright Eyes, or Deathcab for Cutie?:	Bright Eyes
Chantal Kreviazuk, or Nelly Frutado?:	Neither.
Christina Aguilera, or Britney Spears?:	Britney Spears
The Clash, or The Cure?:	The Cure
Counting Crows, or Radiohead?:	Counting Crows
Courtney Love, or the Yeah Yeah Yeahs?:	Ick, neither.
Elastica, or Veruca Salt?:	Uh, never heard of them.
Everclear, or The GooGoo Dolls?:	Goo Goo Dolls.
The Faint, or The Postal Service?:	...
Garbage, or The Yeah Yeah Yeahs?:	Garbage
Heart, or Joan Jett?:	Neither
The Hives, or The Vines?:	The Vines
Jack off Jill, or Kittie?:	Jack Off Jill
Jet, or Franz Ferdinand?:	Jet
K's Choice, or Nina Gordon?:	...
Kill Hannah, or Our Lady Peace?:	Our Lady Peace
Ladytron, or Metric?:	Never heard of em.
Le Tigre, or Sleater-Kinney?:	.....
Nine Inch Nails, or Orgy?:	Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana, or Nickleback?:	NIRVANA. I hate Nickleback
Oasis, or Coldplay?:	Oasis
Self, or Starlight Mints?:	...
Ladytron, or Stars?:	....
Sugarcult, or the White Stripes?:	Sugarcult
Smashing Pumpkins, or Wilco?:	Smashing Pumpkins
o.o; Was this any good?:	Sure...

Bands, This or That. (Indie/Rock/Pop, Mainly.) brought to you by BZOINK!

Yes. I'm still listening to my Nirvana CD. -hugs CD- It's awesomeness. Hm.. well.. I woke up about three hours ago.. which was one o'clock. And yeah. I've done absolutely nothing today, except the dishes, and make fun of some of the morons on the message boards and in the chat room. Meg's at work, so they're not being bolfed. Yeah.

Haha, dude, I even made a Nirvana signature for the message boards. It's part of 'Heart Shaped Box'. Yeah.

Woot.

Um. I'm off to talk to my boardies, and my Good Charlotte chat roomies. Later punx. <3

New colors!!!!

Woot. New colors, and new pic, and new like.. set up.. The journal title and comment links are based on Yellowcard's "Miles Apart".. Yeah.. And, the pic is, of course, Joely. But, the colors in the pic kind of matched the colors of the journal, and I didn't have a Yellowcard one yet, so I said 'What the heck?' and put Joel on there. But yeah. Whatever. Um.. I'm gonna go find something to do on the internet.. Perhaps a survey.. or three.

If I could be anything, I would be your tear, so I could be born in your eye, live down your cheek, and die on your lips. <3

Robbie, I love you. I told you that earlier today in the note I wrote you. -smiles- You're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.. I'm not being stupid. I'm being serious. You're the one that makes me happiest, and I don't want to waste my time looking for someone else. You're the one I want. You're the one I've got. You're the one I'll always have by my side.

Six more years, baby, six more years.

Man, I'm feeling all flirty, and Robbie's no where near. -cries- Hmph.

Lookie, I think this is one of the cutest things ever! :

A guy once gave a girl 12 roses. 11 real ones, one fake one. He said, "When the last rose dies, that's the day I'll stop loving you."

-giggles- isn't it cute?!?

and..

"If you stand in front of the mirror with twelve roses, you'll see thirteen of the most beautiful things in the world."

^.^ Aww. It's so sweet! -whimpers- I miss my Robbie.

Hm. Okay. So, Jess is mad at me. Because I've "changed". -Blinks- That confuses me. People change. You get over it and move on. You don't get mad at them. I'm just hitting fourteen, of course I'm gonna be changing. I'm trying to figure out who I am. You don't wanna be a part of it; too bad. I'm not gonna cry over it.

Hm. Today was okay. We learned pass� compos� in French, which was nasty. We did like.. seven activities in the book. We took notes and did activities for the entire 90 minutes.

Um.. Math, we're doing more junk with GCF and Prime Factorization and whatnot. Whatever. I just wrote a note to Robbie in between taking notes on GCF and PF and talked to Justin and stuff.

English we watched the rest of "Roll Of Thunder, Hear My Cry" and read a bit of "Coraline" for the last fifteen minutes. We're gonna have to do a bunch of junk on Monday in that class, dude. And it's gonna suck major balls.

And in Government, we took notes on Criminal Law and Civil Law and stuff.. And yeah, did worksheets and crap. Nothing really special. Though Mr. D. is starting to get annoyed with us. We talk way too much during transitions. Yeah..

I just did that in complete backwards order.. But, whatever. I stole Robbie's hoodie this morning before homeroom. Wahaha. So he had to freeze the entire day. Sorry Robs. <3

Afterschool, I went to guitar lessons. Manabu is awesome. Haha, we talked about Ian for a bit, since he's instructing Ian too.. He says Ian's really good. And he is. But yeah. I learned some of the basic chords today... no comment there. But Mommy bought me the Nirvana CD! Then on the ride home she asked me what I wanted to do for my birthday. I really don't know. Maybe I'll just have like.. a few friends over for a while.. Like.. Ian, Chelsea, Robbie, Jared, and like.. Dixon and Coleman and Kristen or something. I dunno. And then, we went to Subway to get subs for dinner, and came home and here I am! Yay. But, no call from Robbie. -whimpers- I miss you baby.

When I Wake Up Here Tomorrow, Things Will Never Be The Same Cause I Won't Wait, Cause You Won't Change. You'll Always Be This Way..

After being asked how his day was, Daniel responds:

DrumNdanjr71148: i did a play thing in History but i died.
DrumNdanjr71148: but i burned a girl alive first.

Haha, yes, I was talking to Daniel again.. But not for all that long this time.. So yeah.

Today was okay.. Everything was cool until 1:30, because Robbie had to leave for soccer.. But, it was all good, because when I went to my locker after Math, there was a nice little surprise from Robbie in there. <3 Te he. I love him. Then.. went to band and re-sightread Metropolis.. We did okay, actually.. Then just played through the first 12 measures of Star Wars. >.< No comment there. Then.. had guitar club afterschool. I just hung out with Ian and Coleman and Victor and read up on the GCNaptown message boards on Mr. D.'s computer, and listened to music of Coleman's choice, which really wasn't all that bad.. And then.. yeah. We looked up tabs for some songs and Coleman played them.. And we just chilled and took pics for the school newspaper, which is gonna come out tomorrow, and I'm gonna be in it. Woot. And then.. came home.. and hung out for a bit, then Bopbul came and took me out to a movie and dinner.. and yeah.. I can't remember what the movie was called,though.. So yeah. but it was pretty good. I just have a bad memory. Then.. got home around nine and took a shower, and here I am. And it's like.. ten.. And Robbie hasn't called. -whimpers- So yeah.. I dunno. I think I'm gonna go.

DrumNdanjr71148: lata pimp stuff.

xD <3 Haha.

LOVE YOU ROBBIE! <3 And.. thanks. A lot. I really love you. <333333333333333333333333333333333333

DrumNdanjr71148: lets schedule it tomorrow for deep conversation ok?

Haha, that kid is so cool. We talked for almost another hour.. I'm really, really glad we're talking again. Daniel is the bomb. ;)

Robbie hasn't been on.. I'm starting to get sad. Hmph. Justin and I were talking about Robbie. About how Robbie says I flirt too much and too often.. when I'm really not flirting. It's just the way I joke around with my friends, and it seems different because most of those friends are guys.. But what he calls flirting and what I call flirting are two totally different things. They really are.. and I told Justin all this and he said..
[ NONsenseBassRcks: he just doesnt wanna loose u babe he loves u ]
So yeah.. I dunno.

But seriously, dude. Compare the # of guy friends I have in school to the # of girl friends..

Guys
Robbie
Josh
Ian
Coleman
Jared
Justin
Daniel
Andrew
Andrew S.
Victor
Kyle
Brent
Eddie
Cody
Danny
Nathan
Dixon
Pete
Doug
Keary

then...


Girls
Chel
Ena
Kristen
Kim
Brittney
Paige
Cayla
Kelsey
Ashley
Ashton..

Seriously, dude, that's like.. it. 20 : 10
So.. yeah. I joke around the same way with my girl friends, but it seems different when I joke with my guy friends, because, well.. they're guys! I mean, I'm affectionate to all my friends. I hug Chelsea, Ena, Kristen... but if I have a few inside jokes with my guy friends, everything's different all of a sudden. I understand that, I have a boyfriend, and that can sometimes get on his nerves, but.. seriously.. Those guy friends are nothing more than my guy friends, some are closer to me than others, but they're not the people I am in love with. There is only one person I am in love with, and that is Robbie. Robbie is my one and only. I don't know what I can do to make him stop worrying about my guy friends.. they're nothing more than guy friends, and they're not going anywhere.. If they were to go away, Robbie wouldn't like the person I would become. I'd be very cold and distant and bitter without them, because they're my friends!! .. whatever.

Robbie, I love you. I always will love you. More than anything in the world. No one could ever take your place. No one wants to try to take your place. You are my one and only. My pride and joy. My sun, my stars, my sky, my smile, my hope, my love, my warmth, my protection, my feeling of comfort.. my everything. No one can take that from you. No one will ever take that from you. Honestly, Baby, you have nothing to worry about. I'm true to one person. And that person is you. I'm not going to betray you. I could never do that. I hate seeing those pretty eyes of yours clouded with pain. And I'd hate to be the cause of that pain. I know it may seem as though I'm not there at times, but Baby, I'm always gonna be there for you. I'll be there to guide you through the dark, I'll be there to pick you up when you fall.. I'll be there. You've just gotta use me. You've gotta come to me for help, talk to me, but please.. be patient with me. If I don't stop now.. things are gonna become more complicated, and you're gonna be here for days reading this.. I love you baby. Just know that I love you. xo.

Today was sex. We had the stupid Writing SOL, which sucks major monkey balls.. Yeah.. That lasted until the end of second block.. And tomorrow we have to take the writing prompt. Ick. I hate eighth grade.. A bunch of crap hit the fan during third and fourth blocks.. but I think it's all good now. Then I came home and got on the net and signeg up for a GJ, so my username for that is punkfruityx. I haven't really decided which I wanna use.. I may just continue using Woohu. Whatever. Then I talked to all my super cool buds in the Good Charlotte chat.. And yeah.. I talked to Daniel for like, an hour and ten minutes today. It was so great. We had a really good conversation.. I'm glad him and I are talking again, I really missed talking to him.. And now, I think I will go shower. Hardcore, dude. Hardcore. xD

I love you Robbie. More than anything in the world. And you know what?? I always will. <3

Chelsea Panos. I swear to GOD. She took my Meteora CD.. Omg Omg Omg Omg Omg.
-flips out- I NEEEED my Linkin Park CD, man! GAH. I hate her I hate her I hate her.

CHELSEA B. -> Chelsea Panos took my Linkin Park CD! *cries*

Well.. I think I've decided what I want for my birthday. I want a cell phone, an electric guitar, or a better digital camera. Not all of them, just one. A cell phone would be nice, so I could have it this summer while I'm in Jersey and I could talk to my homemade g-muffins (LMAO Sam!) while I'm working or whatever.. But I doubt that's gonna happen. I'm hoping to get the electric guitar for Christmas, because right now, we seriously just don't have the money. Dad's always taking days off of work due to hangovers, and Mom doesn't have all that many jobs. So yeah.. And Mom and I already talked about the camera, so that's probably what's gonna happen. But whatever. If not, I just want like.. money or a giftcard to Suncoast/FYE/Sam Goody.. or Hot Topic, that'd be nice. I need to get some bondage pants.. Ahh, I love making my parents give me stuff for my birthday.

Woo, I am cool now! I have been introduced in the Good Charlotte chat as Kate! Hahah, and I've learned people's names. There's Meg, and Rachel, and.. Taylor, and Kari.. and Jas.. and yeah. I am in the cool group now.. The Good Charlotte chat has become my second home once again. Today it was slow there.. the most we've had all day is around.. ten I think.. And there's a bunch of morons in there. Hm... whatever.

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla

Woohu was being a homo at like.. one-thirty this morning. It was all "not responding". Hmph. Stupid mofo.

See, I wanted to update this morning, but I couldn't, and NOW I can't REMEMBER what I wanted to say. Gr. Whatever.

I'm out, like wh0a`*

Woooo! New colors, dude! Haha. Check out my new icon. Lmao, it's from the DVD, when they're showing the commentary on TYATH video, and Joel's all saying how he's always wanted to direct vids and blah blah blah, and he's all "Yeah, I have a picture of me and Benj, and Sam, with the.. *does hand motions* the.. what's that called? Ah, yeah, the slate!" and Benji's all making fun of him, "I'm a video director. *does hand motions* What's that slappy thing?" LMAO! xD It's great stuff, I'm telling you. If you don't own the DVD, you should go out and buy it, because I say it's funny, and I say you should. And just because I say you should means you should. So you should.

Watching Me, Wanting Me; I Can Feel You Pull Me Down. Saving Me, Raping Me. Watching Me...
Okay, so maybe I don't hate my mother. She can actually be pretty cool sometimes. Like today, she didn't yell at me all day, though she did get a bit annoyed with me when someone called, and she told them I wasn't here, but then I was on the internet talking to that person. Lmao. But before church, she was all asking me if I needed money for anything. -sigh- I almost feel bad for hating her all those times she was being a hateful, ungrateful wench. Or like when she was quoting the Bible like she was some awesome Christian. That pissed me off, dude. She was all like "Like the Bible says, 'Honor thy mother and thy father.'" Well, maybe I dun wanna. Maybe my mother and my father are unhonorable. Maybe they aren't worthy of honor. All they do is drink and fight with each other anymore anyways. I swear, I am determined not to let Robbie and I turn out like them. Whatever, dude, I am NOT gonna be like them.

Tonight- Went to church.. Youth was awesome, man. Hampton MC was there, and they led worship. It was incredible. Dude, and Jessie was there! The really hot guy from the Girls Only retreat! The one with the cool hair and awesome pants. Yeah. He was there. Yum. And Kim, she was awesome. "Your mom!"; "Salty dog!", "Yeah, well, PEPPERY KITTEN!". That was hilarious. Kim is my hero. And then during Youth, David was talking to us.. and I was crying.. because it was all so incredible, and he looked at me and was like "I'm so glad you're here. So glad." Which made me cry harder, but yeah.. Dave Vogt is my new idol. <3

Hm. Last night I went to Stillhouse's band practice. They were okay, but the singer's voice was incredibly whiny and was giving me a headache, so I had Mom bring me home. Yeah.. I dunno. I didn't do much yesterday. Just hung around the house until like 5:30, then I went to see Stillhouse.

You know, I was just thinking about GC's VMA performance.. When Benji kissed Billy and Paul. That was hot. Yeah, I think I'm gonna make a website. And then I can link Mr. D. and he can put it on the class webpage, because I'm super-cool like that, man! HardxCore, dude, hXc. ^.-

Another Survey. Deal.

About You...
Full name:	Stacy Katelyn
Nicknames:	Kate, Katy, KT
Birthdate:	April 2
Age:	13.. will be 14
Hair Color:	Dirty blondish.
Eye Color:	Blue. <3 I love them.
Weight:
Height:	5'2"; and the person who measured me rounded up. -.-'
school:	Westel sucks.
Hospital you were born at:	Mount Holly Memorial; Mount Holly, NJ
Siblings:	Chris, Carrie, Sammy.
Screen Names:	punkfruityx, EmoKidAmerica, BenjiSucksMyDeck...
glasses:	Nah
braces:	Nah
piercings:	I wish
tattoos:	Ditto.
zodiac sign:	Aries.
color you never wear:	I hardly ever wear orange, dude.
color you wear at least once a week:	Black..I usually wear it everyday
how many pairs of shoes do you have:	One.
do you wear belts:	Yeah.. my studded one.
do you wear hats:	If I had one I liked, I would.
shoe size?:	depends.. most of the time around 9 or 10
Favorites..
Color:	Black
Food:	I dunno
Drink:	Water
TV Show:	All Things Rock
Movie:	A Walk To Remember
number:	13
season:	Fall/Spring
ice cream:	Moose Tracks!
website:	GoodCharlotte.com
comedian:	Adam Sandler
Band:	Good Charlotte
room:	Band room or my room.
place to be:	Robbie's arms. <3
time of day:	Later afternoon/early evening.
flower:	Lily.
game:	Hm..
childhood toy:	Slinky, dude!
Animal:	Fox.
hoilday:	Valentine's Day.
shape:	? I dunno.
boys name:	Joel, Chase, Christian.
girls name:	Harmony, Melody, Grace.
rapper:	ICK.
singer:	Joel Madden
candy:	Twix, dude.
month:	April/February.
day:	April 2nd, Feb 4/13/14
concert youve been to:	Mest, GC, Goldfinger; Richmond, VA, October 23, 2003
Relationship/Crush:	Robbie. He is my lover. ^.-
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?:	Uh, yeah.
Who are they?:	ROBBIE.
Where do they live?:	Um, like.. in the same town I do.
what color hair do they have?:	Dirty blonde.
what color eyes do they have?:	Big blue/Green/Brown puppy dog eyes.
Describe them:	He's sweet, caring, understanding, loving, affectionate.. and i love him.
what kind of music do they listen to:	Christian stuff. <3
when is their birthday:	Feb 13.
Their favorite band:	Like.. DC Talk or TFK.
The sweetest thing theyve ever said to you:	I love you.
kissed yet?:	Yeah.
hugged?:	Yeah.
Had sex?:	Heck no.
Held hands?:	Yeah.
cuddled?:	Yeah.
Why do you like them?:	Because, he's one of the best things to happen to me. He's been there through a lot of tough times and he's helped me through, and I've been there for him.. I love you, Robbie.
what do you look for in a guy/girl?:	Just someone I can be myself with, someone who loves me for who I am, someone I can have fun with and who can make me laugh, a good listener, and a really great friend. <3
whats the first thing you notice in the oppisite sex?:	Eyes. Definitely the eyes.
Last ....
person you kissed:	Robbie
person you hugged:	Kim from Hampton Masters Commission!
person you talked to:	Mom.
person that IMed you:	Jess.
person you hung out with:	Chelsea.
drink you had:	Strawberry Hi-C, man! HardxCore!
food you ate:	Ritz Chips!
show you went to:	Show? Like.. Punk rock show? GC/Mest/Goldfinger.
CD you bought:	I bought Story Of The Year-Page Avenue, Taking Back Sunday-Tell All Your Friends, and Blink182-Enema Of the State all at the same time.
movie you saw in a theatre:	50 First Dates
movie you saw not in theatre:	A Walk To Remember.
person you went to a movie with:	Mommmmy.
time you talked to your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush:	Friday night.
person you were thinking of:	Robbie.
Cry:	I cried during Youth Services tonight.
time you were happy:	Tonight.
book you read:	The Giver
time you cleaned your room:	Whoa...
Current
Clothing:	My cloud pj pants, my 'On The East Coast We Ride..." GC shirt, and my GC hoodie.
music:	I have Evanescence in the Windows Media Player, but it's not playing..
person your talking to:	Jess
annoyance:	My stuffy nose.
thing making you happy:	My music.. it's playing now.
Random
Friends
Hottest Guy:	Robbie/Ian/Coleman.
Hottest Girl:	I dunno, I dun judge girls on if they're "hot"
Nicest:	We're all pretty nice.. when we wanna be.
Funniest:	Coleman/Ian/Victor.
Funnest:	All of us.
Boringest:	None of us are boring.. though if I had to pick, it'd be Kelsey. >.<
annoyingest:	I dunno..
bestest:	I can't pick! You're evil!
coolest:	None of us are cool.
smartest:	Robbie/Jared/Kristen.
dumbest:	me or Chel.. or COLEMAN.
sweetest:	Robbie.. or ME. Dude, lmao, joking.
most caring:	We're all caring when it comes to each other. Now, when it's other people, we say "Your mom!" and continue on our way
one youd consider dating:	Maybe Coleman. But I'm perfectly content with Robbie. I'm not leaving him.
one who likes you:	Robbie! Weee!
you would rather spend time with then any other:	Robbie.
greatest:	I think they're all great. I love them.

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Mascara xo: ITS A MOTHER FLOCKING HOBBIT

LMAO. Hahah.

Nirvana Rules, Dude.

I'm so happy.
Cause today I found my friends.
They're in my head.
I'm so ugly.
But that's ok. 'Cause so are you.
We've broke our mirrors.
Sunday morning.
Is everyday for all I care. And I'm not scared.
Light my candles.
In a daze cause I've found god.
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Last night was awesome. We got a two, 7th grade got a three. So yeah, Mr. Cottrill was happy with us. <3 I got to cuddle with Robbie on the way back.. so yeah, that was exactly what I wanted. Though, there was a mishap on the way up, but that's none of your business; and the people who were there better keep their mouths shut. Yeah.. And Daniel was there with us! Yay! I love Daniel. He's my buddy again. <3

Well, I'm going to shower now. I love you Robbie. More than anything in the world. <3

In School, Dude.
Yeah, I'm in the computer lab. I was looking up tour dates for the Vans Warped Tour, and they're not coming to VA. Stupid homo's.. Um.. yeah. I dunno.. Boredness. Yeah.. I posted in NONsense's guestbook that Justin sucks. So yeah, that was me, and I think Chelsea did too. Lmao. I'm posted under "Anonymous". Yeah. I can't wait until this afternoon, dude. Districts, man. We're gonna get a 5 and a half.. cause we suck.. Yeah man. I dunno. Gonna go before I get in trouble.. Later punks.
-Peace

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I Don't Wanna Be Told To Grow Up..

I dunno. Today was okay, I guess. First block was okay, though we took a test.. I did really well on it, actually. I got.. an A+. Woo hoo for me! Yeah, Mr. D. showed me my grade during guitar club. So, woo hoo. Um. Yeah. Second block was cool; we just did some SOL crap.. but I got to be with Robbie, so it was all good. I turned Robbie's hands into my canvas.. I drew and wrote all over dem'z shiz. So yeah..

Um.. not much else happened, though me and Ian got in trouble in Mrs. Davis's class. Wench. Blah. But yeah.. Went to guitar club after school. That was fun..

Districts is tomorrow. So yeah, wish us luck!

Happy Birthday Benji and Joel!

Got Alotta Heartache, He's A F*cking Weasel!

Hm, yeah. So, Mr. Cottrill heard about a bunch of crap that happened in the chorus room the night of the concert. Which is a bunch of BULLCRAP. Yeah, me, Robbie, Chelsea, Ian, Ena, and Victor were all making out with each other, with like.. fourty other people in the room. Pff. Whatever. So.. Mr. Cottrill gave us a lecture today in band, only I missed it, because I was in French, taking my "Beaucoup de verb" test. So yeah, yay for me!

Went to church tonight. I'm doing the human video with the youth group for Easter, and then doing the sign language thing too.. Gah, the sign language thing is awesome. Me and Chelsea already know we're gonna be walking down the hallway singing and signing to it. Hehe. It's so graceful and pretty, and I love it!

Yeah, me and Chelsea are going to hopefully get Robbie to pray with us at the start of every day in school.. Just to pray for our day.. and yeah. I like that idea..

Doug came by today.. at like.. twenty minutes to nine.. and got my Government notes, and his mom is gonna drop them off in my homeroom tomorrow morning for me. So yeah. . Yay.

Districts is in two days. Yayness! Mom still needs to hem my uniform pants.. And yeah.
Benji and Joel's birthday is tomorrow! Yay! Hehe, they're gonna be twenty-five. Wow..

Well, I dunno. It's past my bed-time.. and there's no one else home.. but I'm tired, so I think I will depart now..

I love you Robbie. More than you'll ever know, and more than I could ever show. And no matter what I say to describe my love for you, you have to know that it's never going to be able to describe even an /ounce/ of what I feel for you. There's no words incredible enough. It's like.. you're trying to describe God to someone, but He's so powerful, and mighty, and loving, and.. He's just.. GOD. There's no other way.. Well, when I try to explain my love for you.. it's like that. It's just.. Love. You can't describe love. It's too mighty and powerful.. Too incredible.. It's so amazing.. And I love you. It's simple as that.

Oh, yeah, and I'm supposed to write a lesbian-emo song for Ian.. I'm going to title it: "Ian's Lesbian-Emo Song".
Creative, huh??

Loveness,
Staceness.

The Truth Is, You Could Slit My Throat And With My One Last Gasping Breath, I'd Apologize For Bleeding On Your Shirt.

Hm. Yeah. Okay, I am back in business. I got my computer back, got a new monitor and everything. So yeah. It's all good. Um, I have a new AIM screen name.. BenjiSucksMyDeck

Wahaha. Um.. yeah. I need new colors. Um.. Now I need food.

Later.

Don't Stop Looking, You're One Step Closer, Don't Stop Searching, It's Not Over. Hold On..
Mmk. Yeah. It's Wednesday, and I'm over Chel's house. Um.. yeah. Mom found out about me and Robbie kissing, and now I'm grounded from everything. Blah, it's stupid. If it wasn't for Heather, no one would have known. But nooo. She had to go run her mouth. Gah, whatever.

I'm bored.. Oh, dude, Ian asked Chelsea out on Monday. Weeness. Wahahaha. And it's been two weeks for me and Robbie. Um.. I went to Robbie's party last weekend. There was plenty of kissing going on there.. Haha, And Dixon's talking about having a party, so yeah. Wahaha. Mom hasn't told me how long I'm grounded, but she made me get off the phone with Robbie last night, and then took the phone away from me. Gr, Stupid wench. I wish she would go back to Florida or New Jersey. She just pisses me off anymore. And her and dad are fighting all the time now, and about stupid crap too. But whatever, I don't care about anything anymore. BLAH. Well, gonna go now. Peace!


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Woohoooo!
Haha, I so rule! Right now I'm in Mr. Rehm's computer lab, supposed to be taking this online math test. There's only about five of us in here, so it's all good. Activity day is today, and I DONT GET TO GO! Weeeesh! Wahaha. I'm probably going to get busted, but whatever. My computer still won't connect to the 'net, so I can't update from home. Yeah... Um. Today is Robbie's b-day. And.. tomorrow is his party. I'm going with Kristen.. yeah, and then I'm spending the night at her house after the party. Um.. Oh, yeah. Robbie gave me a V-day present today. -.- Stupid boy. He got me an adorable stuffed puppy. ^.^ And chocolate! Weeee! Hehe, I dunno. Not much to say... Oh, Mr. Otto called me and Robbie into the office to talk to us about PDA. LMAO. Hilarious stuff. He's all like "Good luck to you and Robbie, and make true love last forever. Wahaha. Yeah. Anyways.. gonna go do my work before Mrs. Wench (Davis) comes in. I LOVE ROBBIE!!!!! Wahaha.

Until next time.. which could be... next year.. So long

WEEEEE.
Hehe today was so totally awesome! Robbie asked my out at lunch. *happy dance* Hehe, and Ian REALLY likes Chelsea. Yay. So she's in a good mood. Woo hoo! Score for.. all of us!!! Wahaha. Now.. I'm at Chelsea's house.. and she's playing Final Fantasy 8 or something.. Yeah. Zeek da chocobo! Woosh. He's soooo cuteness! *grins* Yeah, well my computer at home is being wicked straight, and won't connect to AOL, so I'm not gonna be on the net for a while, unless, by some miracle, it decides to stop being a hetera, and connect to the freakin' internet. If not, then mom is gonna have to rush that thing to Bit By Bit, because I'm going insane without my internet. Wahahha. Yeah. Anyways. Comment. Oh.. and

I LOVE OU ROBBIE! <333333333