I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling. And all the playful misspellings. And every bite I gave you left a mark. Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.


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:: 2004 11 September :: 3.38 pm

Conversation with my dad.
"Finish your food!" -Dad
"Nah.. I'm not hungry anymore." -Me
"You act like food grows on trees!" -Dad
"Uhh.. dad.. some food does grow on trees.." -Me

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 8 September :: 11.11 am

I want a new lunch.


4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 7 September :: 4.03 pm
:: Music: The Postal Service - Sleeping In

Saaave meeee.
Everything is the same.

Nothing ever changes.

7 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 6 September :: 10.13 pm

It is slowly becoming impossible to find the good in anyone.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2004 6 September :: 8.04 pm

Mishy says:
I am like so happy that we are back together. We're like Bonnie and Clyde, Britney and Justin, Sonny and Cher, Thelma and Louise, Laverne and Shirley, Lucy and Ricky, Fred and Ethel, peas and carrots, PEANUT BUTTER and JELLY!

How's that for obessed, eh?

13 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 5 September :: 9.58 am

If you don't want to hear a lot of bitching, don't read this. I warned you so you can't whine about me complaining.

First off, fuck you. I'm not some 'lost cause' because I don't make the same exact decisions as you. If you're going to complain about my actions, tell me. I seriously can't stand it anymore. I have five (or more) people talking behind my back about shit they think they know about (I have proof.) You're not my friends. I feel like an idiot for thinking you once were.

I met some guys from Grand Rapids. So now all of a sudden I am a complete moron because they could "hurt me." Ha.. riiight. First of all, they are barely taller than me, they are skinny, and one is 15. Honestly, if need be I could injure them in some way to stop them from raping me.. because, well, you all should know anyone that's not from Cedar wants to rape me. Oh wait, I couldn't stop them.. because I'm drunk allll the time. Silly me.

I also forgot everywhere I go I need someone there to watch over me. It's not like I'm 16 years old or anything and can make my own choices. Oh! Here's another tip, when someone is smoking or drinking around me I CANNOT control myself, I just take that drink right out of their hand and drink all of it. Same with cigars or cigarettes. [You all know I'm addicted as well, right?] I must smoke every one I can get my hands on.

Same goes for crack cocaine.

If you're not noting the sarcasm, fuck off.

And don't pull that, "I'm trying to save her." or "I just worry." bullshit.
I already have a mother for that, and I'm not a lost soul.

So in conclusion, wake up, you stupid fucking idiots.

10 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 30 August :: 11.38 am
:: Music: The Cure - Let's Go to Bed

1. Tv Pro/ Martino
2. Modern Lit/ Olsen
3. United States History I
1860-1932/ Norkus
4. Drama I/ Harnden
5. Creative Writing/ Eilola
6. Yearbook/ Stark

[Edit]: Does anyone know how the lunches go?

8 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 28 August :: 6.11 pm
:: Music: The Smiths - Asleep


I'm so happy.

Mishy is staying.


:D x 10million

I love you.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 25 August :: 5.28 pm
:: Music: Cursive - Harold Weathervein

I'm sorry but if I hear one more person seriously say "I want to die." I'm going to tell them to fuck off.

Life is not that bad. Wake up and realize what you have. Not what you don't.


I don't care if you're single. I don't care if your boyfriend or girlfriend broke up with you. I don't care if you're fighting with your parents, if you don't have money, if you're lonely or confused, or whatever else there is to complain about.

Get over it.

:: 2004 21 August :: 9.36 pm

At least he'll die quicker.
Dad is talking to me.

This can only mean one thing..
he's drunk.

you worry too much

:: 2004 16 August :: 6.16 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - One-Eighty by Summer

Content and tired.
Well, the warped tour was amazing, it could have been better. I got all of Taking Back Sunday's autograph's, saw them play, met all of them, and shook Adams (lead singers) hand. Hah.. nevermind it couldn't have been better.. :D What they sang: Read more.. Just so you know.. Adam is absolutely beautiful in person, haha.

I also saw Matchbook Romance, Sugarcult (got the lead singers autograph), Anti-Flag, met Yellowcard and got their autographs, saw some other bands.. not exactly sure who. Oh and I saw New Found Glory and Good Charlotte, which doesn't matter because well.. I kind of have this hate for them, that's putting it nicely. Yeah, anywaaay.. it was a lot of fun. And I know none of you really care.. deal with it.

There's a lot more to be said but I don't have the time or patience.

P.S. Thank you Brad. So much. Without you I wouldn't have saw Taking Back Sunday and probably would have gotten killed in that evil TBS mosh pit.

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 10 August :: 2.10 pm

That was seriously the craziest night I have ever experienced.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 9 August :: 3.05 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - A Decade Under the Influence

Normal Toys R' Us Cart:

Birthday Toys R' Us Cart:

Amazing, eh?

10 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 3 August :: 1.49 pm
:: Music: Rilo Kiley

Thanks to Chris, Joe, Justin, Mitch, Kevin, Liz, whoever the 'anonymous' person is Jay, and whoever else is defending Kate and I against that Jacqui bitch. Or at least agreeing that she is fucking retarded.

Especially since we never asked you to.

It's greatly appreciated.


11 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 2 August :: 10.57 pm

Dumb bitch.

Oh, sorry. I forgot The Backstreet Boys have way more talent than any of the bands I listen to..

Yup, she gets dumber.

And she's saying being gay is wrong? She is obviously a Backstreet Boy fan.

Fucking bitch..

[excuse all the anger]

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 27 July :: 8.24 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - I Am Fred Astaire

Ya know why?! Because I got the CD!
I got the Taking Back Sunday CD. Yeah, the new one. Yeah.. that's right. Uh huh... I know you're jealous.

Goal achieved!

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 26 July :: 4.10 pm

Grass tastes bad.
I found out today that when I'm bored, in a corn field, and someone is daring me to eat random objects I'll do it.

So will Kate.

Kate will also vomit afterwards, hahaha.

13 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 24 July :: 7.28 am
:: Music: The Cure - Us or Them

I suggest you all to see Napoleon Dynamite.

It's just too great to miss.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 23 July :: 6.12 pm
:: Music: Radiohead - Backdrifts. (Honeymoon Is Over.)

The Birthday cart.

The best part is.. it was the same as all the other carts. Blue.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 21 July :: 2.42 pm
:: Music: The Cure - The End of the World

400th Entry, bitches.
Well I decided to do something kind of special for my 400th entry since I won't be having a high number for awhile. So check it out.

Read more..

12 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 20 July :: 8.39 pm

Look at me! I'm l33t!
Yeah.. that's right.. I'm at eDen!

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 20 July :: 2.21 pm
:: Music: Posed to Death [The Calculators Remix]

I never knew how much fun techno music was until my brother decided to turn our house into "Club Dustin."


6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 20 July :: 1.19 pm
:: Music: The Cure - Pictures of You

I've come to the realization that people who whine when you kill an insect or say something like "Why'd you kill it? It never did anything to you." should all be shot.

8 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 18 July :: 7.32 pm
:: Music: The Cure - The End of the World

One month. :)

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 17 July :: 12.25 pm

First check: $215.73

Not too shabby.

12 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 15 July :: 12.52 pm

So yesterday there were cops around my road all day. I heard something about someone getting shot. Anyways, I left for the day then later Lisa was taking my brother and I home. Around 9:30, my mom calls and tells us that the killer is in our back yard. At first we thought she was just being stupid, but we got to Simmons and there were cops lining the entire block and blocking off the road so no one could go down it. Lisa tried to and the cop yelled at her. So we call my mom again and she's telling me how the cops are all over are yard and the killer was hiding in our woods in one of our gun blinds. So then we drove to Algoma, only to see more cops lining the entire side of the block, and searching all the woods. Haha.. interesting I guess. I had to spend the night at Lisas, it was fun though. And I got outta work for today! So in conclusion, I guess the killer is an alright guy. Haha.. just kidding. But they found the dude. It was on the news n' such.

And that's the end of my lovely story.

8 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 14 July :: 7.19 am

Happy Birthday, Joe.

I love you.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2004 13 July :: 3.29 pm

Boobah's on.

Time for my weekly false acid trip!

Look what I can do.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 12 July :: 9.10 pm
:: Music: Get Up Kids - Fall from Grace

I saw a giant carrot today.

Dancing in the air.

14 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 10 July :: 3.21 pm

A conversation with Kate about bathroom situations, haha.
I'm just wondering if anyone else has these problems.
Read more..

4 kids | you worry too much

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