I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling. And all the playful misspellings. And every bite I gave you left a mark. Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.


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:: 2004 8 July :: 12.28 pm

Satan's children!! They're in the corn field!

Yeah.. I really have to find myself a life.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 5 July :: 12.38 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - The Center of the World

Happy 5th of July, bitches.
So getting home from work before the time I usually wake up isn't much fun.

Ah well.

I need the money.

Have I mentioned I love corn rash?

you worry too much

:: 2004 3 July :: 8.21 pm
:: Music: Kill Hannah

Well I made my friends only journal public now. If you are interested.

Name: fallenfaces

Knock yourself out.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2004 3 July :: 6.24 pm
:: Music: Dashboard Confessional

Work starts Monday.. bleh.

New email address:

Add me on MSN if we usually talk.

That's all. Later kids.

you worry too much

:: 2004 30 June :: 11.16 am

The funny thing is I thought he was over it. I figured he had stopped talking about it. Yet.. I find out he's still telling people shit. It's also funny, he just realized what I look like or something. And is just now making fun of me for it? Ok then. Find something else to talk about, for your own good. That is extremely sad when I'm all you have to talk about. That also shows how much you "hate" me. Quit lying to yourself. It'll catch up to you.

oh and a helpful hint: Don't talk about me to my friends.

Anyways. I'm excited about the warped tour, it's not until August, but ah well. I can wait. My job should be starting soon, which is good. I really need.. well want the money. Yeah, not much to say.. just bored.

7 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 27 June :: 12.26 am
:: Music: Brand New - Guernica

Toasted bread is not toast. Shhh. Yeah, couldn't think of a subject.
You try too fucking hard to be different. Give it up.

Anyways.. life right now: pretty close to perfect, in my eyes any ways. Two full months and some odd days left before school starts again. Everyone kept telling me I'd miss school. Haha.. I haven't had one day pass wanting to go back.

Concert was good. Church was.. well it was church..enough said.

Oh, the sweet boredom which leads to these pointless ramblings. Yeah..

Night kiddies.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2004 22 June :: 3.59 pm

Well.. allow me to state. It's none of your buisness.

We all need to grow up.
You need to stop talking.
You need to fucking get over it.
If you could die, that'd be great.
I didn't mean that.. but you should still shut the fuck up.
You're just as guilty as me.
To prove me wrong you tell more people, which is only proving you're just as much of an asshole.

In conclusion, summer has been worth every day where you were not present.

I hate you.

And.. I don't care.

P.S Fuck off.

you worry too much

:: 2004 20 June :: 8.47 am

who caaares
I need sleep. No one is online, haven't slept at all. Bored. Tired. Headache. Blehh..

I have a feeling todays gonna be one of those days I'm just gonna fall asleep in the middle of everything. Fathers day, yeah well no one cares.

Oh God.. I'm rambling.

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 16 June :: 5.51 pm

Got drunk off your parents favorite wine.
We were an accident. You'll always be my favorite one.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 15 June :: 5.57 pm

Yes, there will be fire.
Ok. Party is Friday (18th) 7pm-12
Feel free to bring someone.
If any fights start about dumb shit, you're gone.
And.. umm.. food ideas?

Also.. if someone could tell Brad, Kelly, and David about it that'd help me out.

Need directions? Ask.

8 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 15 June :: 1.54 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday

If I had a party this friday night, would/could you come?


If you need a ride
Justin (beaver) : " I might give people rides there if the price is right."

Matt (Whetzel) : "Ungrounded from the keys Thursday so I can give you a ride."

Alright, thanks kiddies.

15 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 14 June :: 4.31 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Contrast and Compare

Enjoy your summer fling.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 9 June :: 11.07 pm

Marker Fight.
Read more..

13 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 8 June :: 9.52 pm

"So tomorrow if you're not awake I'm still going into your house at ten..and I'm going to lay with you in your bed..and then you'll wake up and I'll be with you....in your bed. Just so ya know."

How scary is that?

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 8 June :: 9.32 pm

Copied Becky.. tee hee.
Things I did today:
1. Went to the lake
2. Put a giraffe in my shirt
3. Put other random things in my shirt and forgot about them
4. Dressed like a whore
5. Stole a thong (funner than it shounds)
6. Also got offered sex by some random man, who decided to grab himself
7. Told people we were all lesbians. (they believed us after asking "are you really lesbians" 67 times).
8. Got asked to make out with a girl
9. Danced seductively in Great Day
10. Listened to everyone having "orgasms" in Lisas car for 20 or so minutes
11. Heard the word "vagina" about 90 times
12. Got made fun of for saying "dykey dykey bitch"
13. Almost got in a fight at the lake with bitchy girls who said.. "Yawannagoyafuckingbitch?" I swear it was one word.
14.Watched some old guy check us out, because we all looked like hookers apparently.
15. Got offered money to makeout with Becky. (he didn't have money so no go)
16. Attempted to get a tan, didn't work
17. Had a damn good day.

10 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 4 June :: 4.18 pm

Some random quotes and short conversations that were said..(continued from the last time I posted quotes: 4-10-2004).

Read more..

[Some of these Kate may have posted, so sorry for the doubles]

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 3 June :: 4.29 pm

I don't think the school year could have ended any better.

11 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 27 May :: 11.09 pm

A story Kate wrote
Read it bitches

Stacy the Porn Whore

Stacy the porn whore was walking through a horn store. She saw a pretty trumpet display and grabbed a silver one to play. Her tune was bad and made the customers sad. They began to shout and kicked her out. Stacy walked on, meeting a man named Don. "Why hello," he said, but Stacy had his mind read. He slipped her a dollar and said, "I'll make you holler." "I don't play that way," she began to say. Then she walked right past, the man got mad fast. "Come back!" he yelled, dropping the dollar he held. Stacy flipped him off, and merely scoffed. A few minutes later, she saw an alligator. He wore a top hat and sat on a cat. With his mouth full of lint, he asked for a mint. Stacy declined then left from behind. Being quite flustered, she pulled out some mustard. Gulping a glob, she heard a loud sob. Across the road sat a huge toad. Covered in napalm, it was gnawing on lip balm. "You're sick!" Stacy stated, though her remark was belated. For the toad flew away, on its barrel of hay. Suddenly she fell, to the deep pits of Hell. But Hell it was not! T'was a peanut butter pot! She ate to her fill, till the butter was nill. A small bit remained, for she left it unclaimed. Something was wrong.. she spotted a bong! As she was lighting it up, a wigger yelled, "Sup?" She looked up in surprise with her squinted red eyes. He unzipped his head, and Kate popped out instead. "Dude, I'm so high," was Stacy's only reply. Kate smashed the bong, then sang an educational song. Stacy ran away with the possums to play. The moral Stacy learned was.. well I don't know, she never returned.

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 23 May :: 2.07 am

where the giraffes are..
Kenya believe it!

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 21 May :: 11.00 pm

Proof I am as Bored as a mother fucker:
1) Justin and I made a club.
2) Kate and I just finished a Soap Opera.
3) I'm talking to Mitch.
4) I random Journaled.
5) I read old emails.
6) Justin and I talked about rocks and sand, I even told a terrible joke.
7) I wrote a letter to the president (due to not knowing him personally Kaylen worked out just fine).
8) I have been playing with starbursts for the past half hour.. and there are only three.
9) I watched Never Been Kissed and Legally Blond (shoot me).
10) I started counting the letters in the previous sentence then realized how bored i was.
11) I am making a list of every CD I own.

"Dear Mr. The President,
I'm going to kill you.
Love, Stacy Meow

Dear Mrs. Meow,
I am happy to hear you want to assasinate me.
Love, the president

After that I want to have sex with your naked dead body.
Love, your killer

All right, there won't be a stiffy problem (rigor mortis).
Love, the president"

I hate the radio. They say "Thirty minutes of commercial free music." This is said about 60 times after every 1 or 2 songs, so it is defeating the purpose. That is a commercial.

Ok.. that's enough. I guess. *shifts eyes*

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 20 May :: 9.47 pm
:: Music: The Smashing Pumpkins

it wasn't thaaat see through..
Drivers training is.. done. I passed the test, driving hours are finished, permit thingy received.

This makes me extremely joyous. Ha.. I get all my free time back, and maybe I can stop slacking off in school.

Two more weeks of school. Thats two weeks too long.

Night children.

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 18 May :: 6.39 am
:: Music: Brand New-good to know if I ever needed attention all I would have to do is die

lets all be dramatic, because we are all so fucking good at it.
School is almost over, I won't have to be around these people, I won't be hearing all this drama, maybe people will even stop fighting about stupid shit (ha, right like that would ever happen). I have to keep telling myself this in order to not completely go insane.

How hard is it to be a logical person? To just not be so dramatic, to think of others before yourself here and there, to not be jealous, to let things go, forgive, or to just shut the fuck up.

I'm starting not to care about other peoples problems because half of the time they are the ones making it worse every day. I guess the world teaches me how to be a terrible person, or these stupid fucks I'm surrounded with every day.

I'm not about to fight for something I'll lose.

15 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 16 May :: 3.38 pm
:: Music: Pedro the Lion

"I have a neice here that doesn't even know what to say to me."
I know what to say, only it would not be all that nice. A simple "fuck you" would work wonderfully.

I hate when family visits me. I'm forced to talk to people that know nothing about me. Then they give the 'you act like you don't even know me, or want to talk to me' speech. That's because you don't know me and I don't want to talk to you. A visit twice a year doesn't show you care, sorry. It's more like a time for them to make fun of me for not being in any sports and spending all my time on the computer. Then they make me hug them when I'd rather stab myself repeatedly. Ah well, as soon as I am 18, I'm gone. If any family members besides the ones I live with and my step-brother (Keith) think I am staying in touch with them they are going to be greatly dissapointed.

Today is terribly dull, but it's not raining, there's a change.

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 15 May :: 12.27 pm

New TBS Album..

eeee! :)

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 13 May :: 9.21 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes

i saw a dog on a roof today.
so.. four days of drivers training done. two to go.. (if i don't need an extra hour). driving has been frustrating lately. i can't pay attention with so many things filling my head and clouding my eyes. i know the instructor is there to help, and without him i'd pry crash.. but when he tells you what to do then, what you're going to be doing, what you did wrong, where to look.. etc, all at the same time it makes me want to crash the car into a tree. ok.. i'll stop ranting now. (driving is going to be the death of me).

soo.. the seniors leave tomorrow. doesn't effect me too much, but i will miss a select few.

i get to be certified in cpr tomorrow. hardy har har..a fucking joy.

anyways.. i have realized this is much too long of an entry and lacks far too much importance. night.

oh and.. seeing you sad, makes me sad. you can make it. *hug
(not that it even matters)

10 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 9 May :: 6.24 pm
:: Music: Cake - The Distance

a wonderful weekend was exactly what i needed and i got it. :)

it's raining..i love the rain..but the power going out from time to time doesn't entertain me too well.

well.. off to read. night kiddies.

you worry too much

:: 2004 7 May :: 7.03 am
:: Music: The Used - Choke Me

you're so crazy.
good morning.

drivers training is.. ehh. driving isn't too bad, kinda fun actually. four more days of driving and two more weeks of class and im done. until segment two.

well this saturday and sunday are open, so whoever wants to hang out please tell me. i don't want another dull weekend.

time to go to that wonderful place..

you worry too much

:: 2004 3 May :: 10.46 pm
:: Music: At the Drive-In - Alpha Centauri

haha, Brent is so great.
So here i am..whining to Brent about driving.. and he kinda just makes fun of me..

stacy says:
how long does it take to pretty much learn what you're doing
Brent says:
4 seconds?
Brent says:
red light = stop
green light = go
yellow light = floor it
stacy says: haha.. i know thaaat.
but like parking, and backing in.. i'll pry hit something.
Brent says:
..maybe if you floor it going backwards.
its a thing called a steering wheel, it helps you out in those situations.
stacy says:
haha..im not that stupid!
Brent says: i know. i'm trying to show you how easy it is, and how much of a big deal your making it.
stacy says:
haha, i know. but im a girl, thats my job
Brent says:
and i'm a boy, i punch girls in the face for being stupid
stacy says:
you wouldnt
Brent says:
i know ^^

haha. so yes, tomorrow. driving. lets just hope i don't hit anything.

2 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 30 April :: 1.56 pm
:: Music: The White Stripes - There's No Home for You Here

i would have rather walked there.
yeah so.. that was no fun at all.

i don't enjoy half days much. if i have to get up early i would much rather spend the whole day suffering in school.

anywhore.. i hope all you kids have fun at prom. later.

9 kids | you worry too much

:: 2004 28 April :: 3.51 pm

lets go our seperate ways, we'll be just fine..
i seriously can't wait until i am out of highschool and i won't have to deal with all this crap and these stupid people.

I'm not complaining, simply just saying i would rather be somewhere else wasting away my school days.


12 kids | you worry too much

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