I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark.
And all the friends that I was telling.
And all the playful misspellings.
And every bite I gave you left a mark.
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck,
and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.
Today I remembered that I forgot to sign up for Spring classes last week, so I got a pretty crappy schedule.. But, I found out that I will be done Fall of next year.. Not sure what I will do when I don't have school anymore.. I will have to go back to work, because I have an ass load of student loans to pay back.. Maybe I can put off getting a job until Reagan is in school full time.. Seems weird that I will be done with college in a year..
Can't sleep.. Not sure if it's because I don't feel good, or because my mind won't shut off.. 7 Years later and I still can't believe we are together.. Pretty sure neither one of us thought it would last this long.. We sure press each others buttons, and annoy the hell out of each other, we aren't perfect, and we both might be a little on the bipolar side.. But I am glad that I said yes to going on a date with him. I can't picture anyone else I would want to go to bed next to each night..
Iím doing well. I'm in school once again. This time I'm getting my one year certificate for accounting and my bs to be decided at a later date. I got a nice promotion at work. I am now a night auditor and front desk manager. Never thought I would enjoy pushing papers and crunching numbers as much as I do. My mom was an accountant thought so perhaps it just runs in the family.
I'm on top of life right now and it's great.
I'm sick of this town though. I'm jumping ship as soon as I can. There is nothing left for me here. I'm going to save up a little money, find a job in Kalamazoo and move back. Itís rather exciting for me to think about. I miss Kalamazoo and I know it holds more opportunity for me than this shit hole. I'll be by family and friends, and a little closer to GR which makes me happy. I just need to have a job secured before I make my move.
In two days I will officially be the owner of a new car :) Itís been two years since I had my license or a car so I'm pretty geeked.
This guy I was seeing turned out to be a total boner so that is no more. Lol oh well, I feel better single so I won't complain any.