::
2005 21 February :: 8.35 pm
Darling..
Two months last Friday.
|
::
2005 14 February :: 7.01 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Elvis Presley - So Glad You're Mine
I love you, Bradley Gerret Blair.
Hold me close, hold me tight
Make me thrill with delight
Let me know where I stand from the start
I want you, I need you, I-I love you
With all my heart
Ev'ry time that you're near
All my cares disappear
Darlin', you're all that I'm livin' for
I want you, I need you, I-I love you
More and more
I thought I could live without romance
Until you came to me
But now I know
That I will go on
Lovin' you eternally
Won't you please be my own
Never leave me alone
'Cause I die ev'ry time we're apart
I want you, I need you, I-I love you
With all my heart
Well, I thought I could live without romance
Until you came to me
But now I know
That I-I-I will go
On Lovin' you eternally
Won't you please be my own
Never leave me alone
'Cause I die ev'ry time we're apart
I want you, I need you, I-I love you
With all my heart
I Want You, I Need You, I Love You By: Elvis Presley
|
::
2005 31 January :: 7.17 pm
:: Music: My Chemical Romance
So, go on live your life, but I miss you more than I did yesterday.
|
::
2005 26 January :: 7.35 pm
I was so fucking wrong.
"Talking online really isn't good for us."
"But, if we couldn't we'd grow apart from not talking."
Yup.
|
::
2005 25 January :: 3.59 pm
:: Music: Dresden Dolls - Good Day
Picked up the pieces from my broken ego.
That was the best compliment I have ever received from a teacher. My day was going pretty shitty until then. I wrote a paper, and he said it was the best paper he has ever read, he never expected something from a class like this, it blew his mind, and it's audition material. And so much more.
I don't know..it just made me happy.
I didn't think I even did the assignment right and it was perfect, heh.
Ok, I sound like I'm bragging, I'm not. It's just..he's like a friend to me, so what he thinks means a lot more than other teachers.
Anyway, today was pretty shitty. People are stupid. But, I did get to talk to Brad for like.. 13 minutes, felt like seconds. *sigh* Either way, it was nice.
Yeah, I'll get to my homework now and stop wasting your time.
[Lisa: Let me know about seeing Brad on Thursday.]
|
::
2005 23 January :: 8.04 pm
For some reason.. I don't like what I'm hearing.
I need to talk to you.
|
::
2005 22 January :: 1.06 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes
Man, I love that boy. Hehe.
|
::
2005 19 January :: 3.54 pm
You just can't relax,
and you can't rely..
on anyone, for anything.
So, you make your complaints,
and all everyone's let you down.
You just can't ever win.
Convinced there's a war on.
It's always everybody versus you.
Convinced that your critics are watching.
And you've always got something,
you've always got something to prove.
So tie the noose.
And raise the cross.
The martyr's arrived.
A desperate plea for sympathy,
it's all you'll need.
A laundry list of problems
doesn't make you interesting.
And never getting help doesn't make you brave.
Not listening to reason doesn't mean that you have faith.
Your just cutting off your nose, to spite your face.
So tie the noose.
And raise the cross.
The martyr's arrived.
A desperate plea for sympathy,
it's all you'll need.
And you want it all.
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all,
You want it, you want it all.
-Straylight Run - Sympathy for the Martyr
Crush me |
::
2005 18 January :: 6.37 pm
Bleh..
|
::
2005 18 January :: 6.30 am
:: Music: Death Cab for Cutie - Passenger Seat
:)
One month today.
1 Broken heart |
Crush me |
::
2005 17 January :: 5.27 pm
I need you.
"There was a whole page of it, and one line was bad enough."
If it makes it any better.. I didn't mean it. I was just mad.
*sigh*
I feel like.. things are changing. I hope to God they aren't. I need this more than anything. Without it.. I'm dead.
|
::
2005 16 January :: 10.47 am
:: Music: Dresden Dolls - Missed me
Half hoping.
I'm better now.
You have this unpleasant chip on your shoulder, which is very unattractive.
|
::
2005 14 January :: 3.40 pm
"There will always be ten more people better than me."
"And there will always be ten more people better than them."
|
::
2005 12 January :: 8.04 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - The Invisible Gardener
I hate when I am falling apart and there is no one to keep me together.
I don't care if you call me emo. I don't care if you think I whine. I don't care if you think I am depressed. I just don't care.
I am so used to all of this. I don't want to be.
|
::
2005 10 January :: 8.50 pm
:: Music: Johnny Cash - The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face
I'm not strong enough..
|
::
2005 9 January :: 9.09 pm
:: Music: The Cure - Lost
I can't find myself, I got lost..in someone else.
If I felt any stronger I feel like I'd just die.
Words do no justice. I can't even explain it, so I won't try.
I need you. So fucking badly.
|
::
2005 9 January :: 12.37 am
Some lyrics I relate with greatly.
Again I Go Unnoticed
Read more..
2 Broken hearts |
Crush me |
::
2005 9 January :: 12.00 am
:: Music: The Used - Cut Up Angels
I want to give you whatever you need. What is it you need? Is it within me?
I wish I could make things better. Instead I just sit there and watch everything get worse. I don't help, even if I know I could. I don't say anything. Even though I know it would fix things.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
If I'm so scared, none of this makes sense.
|
::
2005 6 January :: 4.52 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Don't Know When But A Day Is Gonna Come
*sigh
Part of a song..
...so that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But, when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself it is best to compose a poem. An honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing, baby don't worry. 'Cause now I got your back.
And every time you feel like crying, I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass. And I will keep you company through those days so long and black.
And we'll keep working on the problem, we know we'll never solve,
of love's uneven remainders. Our lives are fractions of a whole.
But, if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall.
Then I think we would see the beauty. Then we would stand staring in awe, at our still lives posed, like a bowl of oranges. Like a story told by the fault lines and the soil.
Bright Eyes - Bowl Of Oranges
6 Broken hearts |
Crush me |
::
2005 6 January :: 3.57 pm
God.. I hate being so incredibly negative.
2 Broken hearts |
Crush me |
::
2004 29 December :: 2.28 am
Tears..
Like I've been waiting for, for so long.
|
::
2004 28 December :: 10.53 pm
I wish I could just understand.
|
::
2004 26 December :: 8.43 pm
:: Music: Brand New - The No Seatbelt Song
And..
I love how you don't care.
|
::
2004 26 December :: 6.11 pm
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Sunrise, Sunset
I need you.
I'm not kidding.
|
::
2004 21 December :: 9.11 am
:: Music: Rilo Kiley - Portions for Foxes
Just one more kiss.
The hardest part of my day is letting you leave.
|
::
2004 18 December :: 9.22 am
:: Music: Bright Eyes - Well Whiskey
It's like we're all far too immature to handle something so fucking stupid. It's slowing driving me insane. So much tension, guilt.. bleh.
You used to push back the darkness like a floodlight, but tonight that is a secret like the soul of a whore, that if you want to have fun you will just have to ignore. Now let my troubles solve themselves. I used to get involved, but I'm just no help, but tonight let's pretend that we are just like we were. Bright Eyes - Well Whiskey
2 Broken hearts |
Crush me |
::
2004 15 December :: 11.28 pm
tears streaming down my face.
I love you.
|
::
2004 14 December :: 6.35 am
:: Music: The Good Life - Night and Day
*sigh
What a shitty way to start out my morning.
|
::
2004 12 December :: 11.08 am
Kashmir - Make it Grand lyrics
Read more..
Crush me |
::
2004 11 December :: 3.16 pm
"I'm ready to die for you."
Then die.
|
|