friends | profile | guestbook

as breathe by breathe, I suffocate

recent entries | past entries

:: 2005 6 September :: 10.02 pm

I lay strewn, across the floor. Can't solve, this puzzle. Every day, another small peice, can't, be, found.

the peices are lost, the peices don't fit

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 24 July :: 9.53 pm

ashes fall and I'm rising up again.. ashes fall and I'm rising up again.. ASHES FALL AND I'M RISING UP AGAIN, ASHES FALL! ASHES FALL! FAAAAAALL, FAAAAAAALL...

we all begin to burn.. autumns flame dances, in my eyes.. set alight for all we've learned.. my ashes falling..

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 20 June :: 5.09 am
:: Music: AFI-Black Sails in the Sunset-Malleus Maleficarum

Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth.
I'll die drowned by your standards.
Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath,
so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn.
Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned.
My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin.
So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again.
Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 12 June :: 10.30 pm

You're not always right...

but I can't always be right either...

so who do I beleive.. me.. or you..

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 2 June :: 6.11 am

I have nothing to say.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 22 May :: 11.13 am

I wonder how many of these freshman actually KNEW him.. as in FRIENDS and hung out together and stuff. cause idk.. it seems like everybodys overreacting.. but then again, I don't know how their relationship was with him.. but it seem sEVERY girl that's a freshman is like.. really upset about this.. and you couldn't have all known him. it's funny how girls freak out about someone's death.. even if they didn't really know them.. and guys don't as much. It's not FUNNY... it's just weird. nothing to laugh about. and I'm NOT saying this is no big deal.. someone died.. it's a huge deal, don't get me wrong. Just saying my feelings about this whole thing.. cause it's a journal... and that's what you do in journals.. so don't attack me for my thoughts.

14 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 15 May :: 3.48 pm
:: Music: Shut your mouth and open your eyes-AFI

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 1 May :: 4.34 pm

anya thinks I am sick for some reason. and I'm..not. yep.

2 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 1 May :: 1.55 pm

yep. well, nothing's been going on lately.

I feel empty in a good way, I like it.

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 17 April :: 9.21 am

afi live...and some not live videos, I'm sure none of you will go and look at them..but I don't have anything else to do.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 16 April :: 10.27 am

yesterday me and gabe played like..from 4 o clock to 8 o clock..just playing music. it was really fun and we didn't get bored..surprisingly. My dad came down, and I played the guitar part of seek and destroy, and gabe played drums,a nd my dad sang! haha, it was so cool. (he use to be completely obsessed with metallica, just like me with afi)

and me and gabe were like screaming for an hour of that, so our voices are shot today. so..yep.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 13 April :: 7.07 am

hello everyone. I only have three minutes so it'll be pretty short.

spring break was okay. I got sick, and that made it pretty bad.

I only get one hour of computer and or drums a day now, cause of my grades, from not doing homework, and I have to sit up in my dad's office for an hour right after school and just do work. It's not too bad, and I got all my work done! so I think it'll help.

hm...g2g, I'll update fuller after school, sorry I havn't been updating lately.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 8 April :: 7.07 pm

I'll take your idea's and your values, I'll make you turn them all around, I'll break your individuality, I'll take you down.

Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 4 April :: 12.11 am
:: Music: AFI-This Celluloid Dream

Havn;'t updated for a while.
Joy Division is a good band. Old and bad recording, but good all the same.

and Sophia, if you read this.. I can burn The Art of Drowning, and Sing the Sorrow by afi for you for your trip :)

wow, I havn't checked my "top 25 played songs" on iTunes for a long time...I've played This Celluloid dream 66 times. in like..not very much time, cause I restarted the play-count on iTunes about a month ago. haha..I love that song. I've played the leaving song 57 times.. the last kiss 35 times..and the lowest on that list is 24

anyway.. um..I don't really have anything to say... today I went to anya's house with gabe and mandy.. sophia was gonna come..but couldn't, and nora was gonna come, but couldn't... but we watched eurotrip and ate pizza. we were there for like 5 hours. pretty fun. anya thought it was boring..I didn't think so.

I poured zippo fluid all over my hands and lit them on fire at gabes house...I haev a couple blisters from that, the fire woudln't fucking go out. damn that hurt. other than that I havn't done anything today.

yesterday sophia, mandy, and anya came to my houes and gabe and I showed them our songs..and covers and stuff. gabe pussied out on singing the verses on the one song we have lyrics we like and can sing. we're never going to get anywhere..he was afraid to play in front of our best friends.. we'll never be able to play anywhere. on the other hand. I did my yelling version of 'I wanna mohawk (but my mom won't let me get one) by AFI..and played guitar at the same stuff. we watched spinal tap again, and for anya it was the first time. That movie only gets better and better. then we just kinda..hung out for a while until we decided to leave my house. we were about to go and Iw as gonna spend the night at my house when I scratched my arm and was surprised to find a mother fuckgin tick on my arm. sooooo, I had to go take a shower, check for other ticks...and THEN we all left. I guess they liked our songs..but they would never tell us they sucked I don't know if they're telling the truth.

wth is up with AIM!?!? it hasn't been working at night..for me or anyone else I think... it's pissing me off. oh well, I guess I'll go to bed now. good night.

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 30 March :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: sooper dooper happy
:: Music: AFI-Dancing Through Sunday

I called sophia after school sometime and talked to her for a bit, of us had to go I can't remember who. and I didn't talk very much at school. maybe saidl ike 20 words, except the conversation I had with nora..who is mad at me now...

in 5th period me and my group thingy went in the hall to work on a video presentation. we were interviewing "hitler" and then these two kids came over wondering why we were talking about hitler. after we said it was for a project and we had made fun of hitler a bit, we found out the kids were german foreign exchange students..whoops. lol...hmm..yep,t hat's all.

2 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 29 March :: 4.46 pm

holy-FUCKING-shit. I hate people. people make me want to die.

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 28 March :: 8.53 pm

I'm feeling a lot better now.. for.some reason. Idk.

1 Black Rose | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 28 March :: 5.58 pm
:: Music: takes my mind away from other things.

I'm at the YMCA and I didn't want to go. it's pissing me off. nothing good except lunch has happened today. and I'm taking it out on everyone else, doesn't that figure. I want to start own little hand-written journal..but not enough. I want to so I can take shit out on THAT instead of other people. I'm feeling depressed again. just want to die, but barely not bad enough..I just have to wait, like before and hope it passes..again. I won't be able to play drums today, and I couldn't yesterday either. I don't have a guitar... my dad keeps kicking me off of the computer in the middle of stuff, like, he does it, so Icant say good bye to dear friends, even if he makes me get off for a good reason, it's not fun.

I hear the morning chior, sing to me..their elegy

I can't express myself, no words will come.

2 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 27 March :: 6.57 pm


my drawings always look better to me when I draw them. but whenI look back on them they look like shit.

2 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow..

:: 2005 27 March :: 12.41 pm

Hm...I guess I'll update in here until someone (that I know and am willing to give to) wants this.

Sophie's house was fun.

spinal tap is still the best movie ever.

I love AFI.

2 Black Roses | Scream the Sorrow.. | Random Journal