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2010 29 July :: 8.49 pm
Janelle is coming over Friday! Which means drinks, naughty games, Stateline and some extra use of the bed ;3 she's cute, funny, smart and has huge boobs! What more could you ask for?
Then Samantha possibly in the mix for Saturday or Sunday :3 she's even more into me than Janelle and I think she's fuck rad :D and probably the most successful mom my age group I've ever met! I'm so impressed with her kid!
This weekend is shaping up to be awesome with friends XD
and Sus throughout the whole thing..?
Joy-gasim!!
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2010 28 July :: 8.53 pm
:: Music: Mike Posner
Bitch
If I could write you a song to make you fall in love
I would already have you up under my arms
I used up all of my tricks, I hope that you like this
But you probably won't, you think you're cooler than me.
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2010 28 July :: 8.18 pm
I'm scared.
Today I cried. It's the first time in a long time.
1 no |
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2010 28 July :: 11.22 am
:: Music: NIN - I Ghost - 3
I don't know why but this song is srsly an orgasim for my ears.
Oh Trent, there is a small place in my heart just for you.
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2010 27 July :: 6.51 pm
I hate how much time and experience changes a person..
It makes me feel so helpless to stop this spiral I see you on.
We never talk anymore and when we do it's always defensive manuvers..
We're like two fighter pilots with something to prove as we crash into this ocean.
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2010 26 July :: 7.24 am
<3 love is putting 6 1/2 days of music on my iPhone <3
I love you Sus!
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2010 25 July :: 6.06 pm
bleh..
I need a change or I'll go crazy.
Blue hair soon :)
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2010 23 July :: 7.26 am
Hello, exhaustion, my constant companion.
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2010 23 July :: 12.59 am
Tonight: HELLA FUN and serious possible new bff in the mix
Tomorrow: looks to be HELLA FUN with parents and Emily :3
Sometime this weekend: fabulous sister of wonderful doom!!
this weekend is looking to be fan-FUCKING-tastic :3
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2010 19 July :: 6.43 am
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: "missed the boat" by modest mouse
something that's been nagging for a looooong time
We're all just trying to figure shit out. Why do we have to make it so god damned hard for each other?
I can't help but think most people are pieces of shit because they'd rather focus on how fucked up everyone else is rather than fixing their own internal issues.
If you don't like who I am or what I do: a. it's none of your business b. I probably don't care your opinion if I didn't ask for it and c. think about it - you're probably just jealous because I can make radical changes in a day that you will never be able to do in your whole life time.
So just jog on and worry about your shit and I'll worry about mine.
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2010 18 July :: 9.37 pm
Congrats on finally admitting it............
4 years later.........
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2010 18 July :: 2.53 pm
Drinks + cute girl + me + Sus + joy = one helluva fantastic night
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2010 16 July :: 6.19 am
Eeeee! I've lost 3 lbs this week!!!
1 no |
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2010 14 July :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: happy
happy belated birthday to me!
I just got home from a truely WONDERFUL FANTASTIC MAGICAL dinner with my mom, dad and Zuzu!
We went to Scratch and had drinks and food and talked about silly things and funny things and there was a whole lot of laughing and it felt just like i've always wanted.
I felt like I was finally part of the family again and it felt like they all really wanted to be around me. I felt happy and loved and myself.
I really can't express how happy I was at that dinner. And how excited I am for the future.
I feel like taking a nap and having sweet dreams finally.
ahh! :D best birthday dinner ever!
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2010 13 July :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
finally change is coming...
Ahhh! :D
I love things.. And stuff.. And things :)
[ e d i t ]
the last few days have made me very happy.
happiest i have been since i lived in everett.
i finally get to have my family back..
i finally get to move on past all the trauma and bad feelings..
all the things in my life that have been difficult or fucked up are now on the mend. and while its only taken me forever to finally do something about it, i'm so glad i waited and the way it happened (for me) couldn't have been better for my mental health.
I feel like i may acutally have a chance at getting better. at being off my pills, at feeling like i'm worth something. i can't wait for the future.
i'm going back to school, i'm starting a fantastic career with a fantastic company, i'm getting out of debt on my own, sus is going back to school and starting a fantastic career. we're starting a beautiful life and i'll have two families who love me.
i can finally believe i'll be successful. i can finally believe i'm loved. i can finally know that there is something to wake up for and the sun is just as beautiful as it was so long ago.
i'm just SO fucking excited.
and SO fucking ready to get my life on track.
and compared to the road that i've been on, everything in my future feels like it's going to be a cake walk.
i love life.
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