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labyrinth

:: 2016 22 September :: 4.11pm

Midwest
I have plans that may or may not happen, but I thought it through last night. I thought about it a lot, not just yesterday. In 5 years, I might go back to the states. But I want to go to another state. Maybe Minnesota because my friend lives there. I really really want to go to the midwest and I'm going to make it my goal. I have 5 years to prepare myself. Of course, I already have a college degree, so it's no problem.

If the Lord wants me to be there, I will know then, but if not, I will know also. The Lord God is the creator of this world. It doesn't matter where I go, he'll always be there.

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koalalady

:: 2016 13 September :: 9.28am

Anyone can whistle
That's what they say, easy

Anyone can whistle
Any old day, easy

It's all so simple
Relax, let go, let fly!
So someone tell me,
Why can't I?

I can dance a tango
I can read Greek, easy

I can slay a dragon
Any old week, easy

What's hard is simple
What's natural comes hard

Maybe you could show me
How to let go
Lower my guard
Learn to be free

Maybe if you whistle
Whistle for me

sing


labyrinth

:: 2016 4 September :: 5.36pm

I felt better about my life, exactly today. I went to church, and I see a new crowd of people. It helps me to forget the bad part of my life that already past. This is exactly where I needed to be, with the Lord. Today was the Lord Supper, and it went by quickly. It's a new start for me today. Some things I learned about life. Don't believe in people's words too easily, don't be too kind or helpful if unnecessary, don't get drawn in easily with what you think is appealing, don't open up to easily or else you will end up losing more than you will gain, most importantly, don't let anyone take advantage of you in an evil way, if you sense there is something wrong with them, back away immediately and stay away even if it means you won't have any friends.

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koalalady

:: 2016 27 August :: 3.11pm

"...Goodness gracious, my generation's lost
They burned down all our bridges
Before we had a chance to cross
Is it the winter of our discontent or just an early frost?

"Goodness gracious, of apathy I sing
The baby boomers had it all and wasted everything
Now recess is almost over and they won't get off the swing

"Goodness gracious, we came in at the end
No sex that isn't dangerous, no money left to spend
We're the cleanup crew for parties we were too young to attend
Goodness gracious me, goodness gracious me

"'Goodness gracious,' my grandma used to say
The world's a scary place now, things were different in her day
What horrors will be commonplace when my hair starts to gray?"

-- Kevin Gilbert

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koalalady

:: 2016 19 August :: 1.27pm
:: Mood: free
:: Music: Boys playing DotA

Sipping fresh coconut water from a coconut that we just broke open.

After yoga this morning, I came home and burned everything from my journals that I don't want lying around. I just didn't need some of it anymore.

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koalalady

:: 2016 16 August :: 10.48am

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koalalady

:: 2016 15 August :: 10.16am

why is it so hard to accept

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koalalady

:: 2016 7 August :: 7.41am

My game = desperately trying to be OK with something that I have a gut reaction, fundamental problem with. Yayy koalalady, overriding instincts since c. 2011.

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koalalady

:: 2016 16 July :: 8.36pm

There's one good thing you can always say about Michigan: we know how to brew a damn beer.

8 little birds | sing


koalalady

:: 2016 9 July :: 12.11pm
:: Mood: conflicted
:: Music: Moby

Changes
Something is always going to be "wrong." Life is never going to be perfect, and it's certainly not going to be the perfect vision you see in your head. Like trying to find the Pleiades in the night sky. It gets blurred and faded when you look at it straight on, but you can see them more clearly in peripheral vision. Same with getting what you want, attaining the object of passion.

This is not the end of us, not yet. I will stay for another year, and just let the good things that are happening, happen.

And if I do need to leave, like go exploring or disappear or blow everything up again, he supports this. Like really actually fucking wants me to do what is best for me. Even if that's leaving (hopefully not permanently...I don't need to be totally untethered. Just enough to figure shit out on my own and be my own person.).

You'll never know how perfect it is until you see it from the outside.

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