He seemed no different from the rest
Just a healthy normal boy
His mama always did her best
And he was daddy's pride and joy
He learned to walk and talk on time
But never cared much to be held
and steadily he would decline
Into his solitary shell
As a boy he was considered somewhat odd
Kept to himself most of the time
He would daydream in and out of his own world
but in every other way he was fine
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A temporary catatonic
Madman on occasion
When will he break out
Of his solitary shell
He struggled to get through his day
He was helplessly behind
He poured himself onto the page
Writing for hours at a time
As a man he was a danger to himself
Fearful and sad most of the time
He was drifting in and out of sanity
But in every other way he was fine
He's a Monday morning lunatic
Disturbed from time to time
Lost within himself
In his solitary shell
A momentary maniac
With casual delusions
When will he be let out
Of his solitary shell
I don't know what compelled me to log into this site today. I can't believe I even remember my login info. I feel like I have something to say but nothing is coming to me. I guess I don't.
why did i bother coming to this site today? why am i bothering to write here? the only people that know about this, and could possibly read it all hate me. so why am i here? dont know... there are a lot of things i dont know.
i do know what im doing right now and i know what im going to do next, and for the rest of the evening. that i do know... i dont know why i haven't called kathryn back yet either. i told her i would and i want to but i just havent...
i really dont know why im writing in here... you all hate me anyway no matter what i do
My parents are watching Wan Helsing...that brings back soooo many memories. Many good and many bad...but overall its a happier feeling reflecting on the experience
boring survey, only read if your bored
These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would ever think to ask. Answer them, then REPOST the bulletin:
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? : my hair...is it so messy that i am forced to fix it or can i just leave it and get away with it?
2. How much cash do you have on you? : $20
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": Pest
4. Favorite planet?: Pluto
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your MOBILE phone? : Mom
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: Your Body is a wonderland
7. What shirt are you wearing?: Black hooded sweater
8. Do you "label" yourself?: Band Dork, Theatre Freak, Loser...yes
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?: im wearing striped socks. but normally i wear payless shoes i dont know what brand cuz it wore off because there the greatest shoes ever and i wear them almost everyday!
10. Bright or Dark Room? which do i prefer or which do i have? i have purple elephants on my walls covered up by many show posters, props, and picture frames with cool people in them. oh and an awesome cymbal :) so its technicolor...
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?: Keister Rocks!
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: im not totally sure on that one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?: eating truffles
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?: today was a long day
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: no, theyre annoying
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: thats cute
17. Who told you they loved you last: Matt
18. Last furry thing you touched?: K.C.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? just Levoxyl and thats perscription
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? like 4 and i got a digital camera 3 years ago so i dont even know whats on them
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy?: school
23. What is your current desktop picture?: Mexico...blue water blue sky, palm trees and white sand. its pretty, i just changed it today
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?: I got excited when my mom brought me my pills. i think i said yay! thank you! (exciting right?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: million bucks...the things i regret i have learned to put past me and get over...so in okay right now
26. Do you love / like someone?: Yes! :)
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2005 29 August :: 7.20 pm
:: Music: Emo raido station
This weekend was purdy good if you were wondering...
Friday i only had one class :) then i just took care of some stuff i'd been meaning to do, and worked a wee bit and then went hot tubbin with that kid...
Then saturday i partied hard with Elisa when we went to visit david at school and couldnt find him cuz he went home so we just went to this random frat party...lol funny joke...yeah i compleatly convinced matt that all of that was true, david came home for real and the 3 of us hung out for a while, but yeah i was joking around with matt cuz he was with ben and asked where i was and somehow he believed me...then david went over to his house, we thought for sure he'd figure it out but he just said hey jill davids over...so i said ha! thats why we couldnt find him. He kept thinking it was weird that i left the state and didnt tell him...hehe. then i walked into his house and just stood there. it was so funny. yeah but you had to actually be there. yeah...
im listening to yahoo radio, the emo station its sweet... hehe they play jimmy eat world and fall out boy. jill likes. :)
woo theatre class tomorrow! I am not going to tell you how much of a dork i am because you will laugh, because even my mother laughed at me when i told her what i did, so i will keep this to myself now...hehe
I wish i didnt have to play the other people liking my boyfriend game...but i guess thats just life. ill get used to it.
speaking of my boyfriend...he has friends, and they talk to him, and sometimes when my "friends" talk to him while he's at work, they tell my boyfriend about it...thanks guys...thanks a lot...
Blah Senior assembly was today, and BAcklight Banguet was last night. I didnt cry today or last night, its very suprising. I would have cried last night if the end of the year video was better, but it was all actors, acting and such. So that had no affect on me. In the senior video today there were parts where i was dancing in pep band. And there were a lot of times where i was like hey! i was standing right next to that person but i got cut off. And of course there was the part with me and david from turnabout. And now im in the library because i dont know what to do, and i didnt want to do anything i wanted to just sit in the music department but they wouldnt let anyone sign in so im here. But im alone i dont know where patrice went. Which is why i am tlaking to myself in this wornderful journal entry. so today is the last day of school. and the bell just rang and i dont know what that means, no one is moving. I still have to sit here in severe boredom for much longer. poop.
Last night was the last band concert...but i didnt cry. Im suprised. I really thought i was going to. O well...Assembly today woo! that means 5 minutes less of boring classes! :) that makes me happy weeeeeeee! i did pretty well with my color slides yesterday, thats sweet i can finish today, and then do my final woo hoo! :D!!! Things are goin dude....they're goin