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:: 2006 29 June :: 2.30 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Fucking job.
Fucking life.

I hate this.

My birthday wasn't great at all. I got 3 cards. No hugs. ....nothing?

I hate myself for failing Bio... now I have to take summer school which cost me 300$ right out of my bank account- then for cancelling my criminal report appointment I have to pay an 80$ fine.

This sucks.

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:: 2006 4 June :: 8.43 am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: 'Stars Go Blue' - Tim McGraw

Rob's coming home from Toga today... He went up there for the weekend to visit his mama and whatever. I miss him! I'm making him Rice Krispy Treats! I hope they come out good... You know, I'm not that great of a chef, even with something as simple as that. Lame! That's ok... it's from the heart. I mean come on. haha.

One week of school left!

June Sched:

June 13: Last day of school (For me, anyway)
June 17: GSMHA Horse Show - Triple Judged
June 18: Chammings/Cloverleaf shows
June 20: CAVITIES GETTING FILLED- Wisdom teeth out? Scared!
June 24: Casey's Eq. Center Community Service
June 26: Camp Starts
June 27: My birthday! 17 much?
June 30: My brother's Birthday, turning 18, Camp ends.
July 1: Party at my house- Giving pony rides and such. Great!

Busy busy mother fuckers- Btw, I got a new cell phone... Same exact number though, so don't worry about changing numbers... Just give me a mother fucking call! Thanks! 908 797 2825


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:: 2006 1 June :: 10.36 am
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: I'm gonna love you like it's the last day of my life...

Finals start next week, here's the lowdown:

Full week of school this week- Finals on Friday, hour 7 & 8. Bio and US History. Then Monday I have English finals and I come home. Tuesday Algebra finals, come home. Wednesday I'm not going to school because I don't have any finals that day- and that's it! So Tuesday is my last day of school, which is good, because I really need to focus on my horse shows now that Summer is just about here.

I love my life most of the time.

Lots of things have been going on- Robert (Boyfriend) moved down to NJ from Saratoga, and I love his company. He lives at my house, for the most part- Works locally as a bank teller. I'm trying to make his living here as easy and stress-free as possible for him, but it's tough! With all the shit going on right now I feel like I can't give him enough attention- or at least the attention he deserves. Another reason why I can't wait until finals are over so I can just relax and love my amazing boyfriend and do whatever I want to do for 3 months. I know he loves me and I love him more than anyone in my life right now, but I can't help but wonder if he thinks I'm ignoring him sometimes. I can't help it! I have to get through this school year and I have to focus. I love that man, and I swear to you, he is the one that I want to marry.

Whoever dated him in the past and let go of what they had sure as hell missed out. He is an amazing guy and I could never let him go. I love him so much.

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:: 2006 2 May :: 2.56 pm

Getting there- almost done with school, less than a month to go. Then you'll have plenty of posts from me and won't know what to do with yourself because there will be so much literature! So much literature!

Dear God, I'm too old for my age. Does that make sense? I'm too far ahead for where I should be at 16. Whatever.

Keep riding, keep breathing, keep living.

{}-{} 3 Barrels, Two hearts, One Dream {}-{}

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:: 2006 2 January :: 7.33 am
:: Mood: mellow

I'm so in love. ♥

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:: 2006 4 January :: 7.31 am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: The Drama Club

Don't expect me to post much until school is out- or close to then. I just started back in school, it's fucking stressful and I'm standing on the line and I can't afford to wobble left or right. I'm barely handling this, and I can't be distracted right now, at all. I've gotten everything I don't need out of my life and that's good- and this, for now, it's not important.

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:: 2005 15 December :: 7.48 pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: [None]

My arm hurts like hell.
As you all pretty much know.

I worked like a mother effer today. And Charlie got mad at me because I denied him for coffee. He was like... "Are you sure? Can't you just come with me?" and I was like... "um. I'm working." and then he asked if I wanted anything and I said no thanks and he looked so sad. hahaha. I didn't have to work that long... which was nice... Alfonso and Antonio were all over the place. Laugh my ass off.

I just posted a new myspace picture.
I look 5.
I hate it when that happens.
I just had to get that family picture off.
It was driving me

We're putting up the Christmas tree tomorrow. ...After my psychologist appointment. Ugh, which reminds me. Next week I'm going back to school to see what I can do to get back in, since I basically dropped out last February. I don't know what the hell I'm going to do. I am a mother fucking high school drop out. How lame. I need to be put on new meds. Ones that don't make me want to eat people. Ones that will let me sleep. Ones that won't make me use force upon myself. ...haha.

I wish it wasn't 20 degrees out.
I will survive.

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:: 2005 14 December :: 8.35 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Jet

Baby dootsie!
I just found old pictures of the little doots-meister when he was a newborn.... still wet! haha... they're too cute. I'm not going to post them, cause I'm lazy, but take my word for it... they're cute as hell.

Tomorrow I have to work. I really don't feel like it, but I need the money... especially after this 250$ cell phone bill that... unfortunately... I have to pay. My mom's so pissed. Needless to say, she took the phone away and now.. I can't talk to anyone. THAT SUCKS. Uhm hey. But you can leave me messages on my phone at 908 797 2825. Same old. Same old. But yeah. As I was saying. Work tomorrow.... more work when I get home... sleep... then.. it's fucking Friday. I want to do something. Anyone want to adopt me for the weekend? Comment.

Goodnight lovies.

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:: 2005 14 December :: 10.36 am
:: Mood: calm

Wrapping presents...

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:: 2005 14 December :: 10.24 am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: James Blunt - "You're Beautiful"

i love when people don't know the whole story, but still act like they do ... if there is one thing i have learned about from going to church for the pass 16 years, it is FORGIVENESS.

One: I never said I knew the entire story.
Two: Neither did I act like I knew the entire story.
Three: What does the entire story matter? All one needs to know is that the fuckers did it in the first place.
Four: What is there to forgive? So they turned themselves in. Good. So they apologized. So Ed wrote me a message and said he was sorry. I appreciate the apology, but you can't just "forgive" someone for doing something so stupid, just because they said "I'm sorry." That's not how it works. It's still punishable, and it's still stupid. No matter how sorry they are.

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