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:: 2004 22 September :: 5.05 pm

[Caro]Well, it's official. I have the killer cold from hell. Mom kept me home from school despite my begging to go. Can we say weird? My resoning?
1. Freshman Seminar (Dun wanna lose credits)
2. Don't wanna miss classes
3. I would have had my first period off, so I could hang out with friends. X_X


Yea. The cold sucks though.

I drew this crazy picture though, when my eyes were doing that thing where I can't see straight and things like, go up and down and bend and such. It's a cool picture.

Anyway, so I've been home all day which is kinda nice, but also kinda sucks.

Well, I'm gonna go work on that piture. See yah.


Nee, give me a ring.[/Caro]


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:: 2004 20 September :: 8.23 pm

Talk Talk
Caro: Well, anyway, today I told mandi that I think I'm still in love with her and she said, "Yea, I've been getting that vibe from you lately, but I'm falling in love with Mat. I love you, but not in that way."
Kelly: damn.
Caro: Yea.
Kelly: i'm sorry.
Kelly: <3
Caro: It was kinda like...
Caro: Ouch.
Caro: Like, not what she said, and not how she said it...
Caro: It was just kinda ouch
Kelly: awww sweetie.
Caro: Heh. It was kind of funny, really.
Caro: 'Cause I knew that that's what she was going to say, but...
Caro: Yea.
Caro: I guess I hoped she would say something else...

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:: 2004 20 September :: 7.31 pm

Well.
I spent all day at the mall with Mandi. I told her that I think I'm still in love with her and she said, "Yea, I've been getting that vibe from you recently. But, I'm falling in love with Mat, and you know I love you...just not like that." I said that I hoped this wouldn't make things weird between us, she said it wouldn't.

Uhg.


All is dark...
I am alone.
All is black and bleak...
There is no light.
I have fallen here,
And I'm not sure how to get out,
To get up.
I yearn to fly, but my wings...
They are broken.
I'm stranded alone here,
Beating my wings helplessly,
Hopelessly.
I'm fallen.


~{:Caro:}~



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:: 2004 18 September :: 8.28 pm

Anime Convention was today. It was really fun. I made friends and such, but I forgot to get peoples e-mail addresses T_T
Yea. I saw some AWESOME cosplays. Nicole was there, and of course, I went with Jon and his friend Max. I bumped into Alan for like, two seconds, and I saw Alea (hana's friend, or ex-friend, I'm not sure.) I had fun hanging out at the piano when I got bored of watching Naruto with no subtitles (I had done that earlier, too.) and that was all good. I met who I call Random Person. I am known to her as Pocky Addict. ^_^ I'm talking to her right now, actually. I don't know her name yet. XD Yea. SO I had the time of my life (kinda). I bought loads of pocky, an Evangelion cd and a Rikku wall scroll. It was supposed to be Lulu, but when I noticed and went back, they had just sold the last Lulu one ;_; oh well. Rikku is cool. We got there at 10:00 and left at five. Long day.

Nee needs to get online tonight. If I'm on, I need an rp *NOD*

WE GET MONDAY OFF FROM SCHOOL!!!!



GO JOIN THIS SITE http://www.avidgamers.com/Rysphegal/
Kat started it up and it needs members! ^_^ Go for it!


~Caro

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:: 2004 17 September :: 5.39 pm
:: Music: Sad Lisa, Cat Stevens

Well, I had food poisoning or something that made me throw up very violently last night. It was NOT fun. I'm still feeling a little ill which is bad, because the Anime Convention is tommorow. x_x I'm sure I'll be better by then ^_^ My head kinda hurts right now, though @-@ Mandi and Mat had a spat. Mandi is really upset about it. She was punching stuff and such. And so it begins...

She still has my pants. Those are the only black pants I have ><


~Caro

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:: 2004 17 September :: 5.39 pm
:: Music: Sad Lisa, Cat Stevens

Well, I had food poisoning or something that made me throw up very violently last night. It was NOT fun. I'm still feeling a little ill which is bad, because the Anime Convention is tommorow. x_x I'm sure I'll be better by then ^_^ My head kinda hurts right now, though @-@ Mandi and Mat had a spat. Mandi is really upset about it. She was punching stuff and such. And so it begins...

She still has my pants. Those are the only black pants I have ><


~Caro

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:: 2004 16 September :: 6.31 pm

Well life isn't so swimming at the moment. Nee is having troubles, Mandi is dating a rebounding seventeen year-old who is using her as a sex toy, (He's actually a really cool guy, who I like, I just don't think she should be DATING him since he's doing that), my sister just left to be in California for eleven days and she just got back from China a few weeks ago, and she might be getting a job there soon. Kate is so depressed that she isn't going to school for the time being. GAH.

You hear me!?

GAH!




~Caro

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:: 2004 11 September :: 7.17 pm

Yea... Jeganshi, I'm sorry about Zanbuza and his fucking assholeness. I flamed at him and left the site.

Yea. I had a mental breakdown in Language Arts. That was fun as all hell -______- Rah...


For some reason I can't think of all the other events in my life that have happened recently. Sad, huh?

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:: 2004 8 September :: 6.59 pm

Horror story of the day! XD

Not so horrible, just embarassing.

I got to school at 7:30, thinking I was supposed to be there early. My internal clock got fucked up...
So, I went to my classes at the wrong times and had to get teachers who happened uppon my missfortunes to give me excuse notes. XD

I was supposed to be in govt. when I thought I was supposed to be at pottery, and Math when I thought I was supposed to be in Archery.

*Laughs* It's quite funny actually.

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:: 2004 7 September :: 9.57 pm

GO LOOK AT THIS
http://www.planethalflife.com/cscz/leon/legendaryfrog/bocovoice.htm


AHG. Well, my post got deleated, so here's the short version.

Today's horror story!

THE PEARLSTREET MALL STORY


!Caro: Care for the horror story of the day?
Kara: What happened? and yes
Caro: Okay.
Caro: Soooo, I'm in the lunch line and someone punches me in the shoulder (hard). I turn around and it's Stephanie!
Caro: She says, "Lets go get pizza!" So I said okay, and we walk.
Kara: mhm....
Caro: We're headed twards the mall and she says, "Hmmm...to get pizza, or ciggarets?" Now, I don't smoke, but I don't mind if she does. I'm not hungry so I say, "Doesn't matter to me."
Caro: So she goes and bumms some off a guy and we walk to the mall (Which is kinda far from the school.)
Kara: Boulder High?
Caro: yea
Kara: mkay.
Kara: its not that far X_x
Caro: XD
Caro: For me it ish
Caro: lol
Kara: two blocks?
Kara: O.o
Kara: aaaanyway. so you're bumming ciggs
Caro: XD Baaad boots to walk in
Caro: I forgot to mention that
Kara: meh, a REAL girl can walk in ANY shoe! X_x
Caro: LMAO
Caro: I'm more a boy than a girl
Kara: yeah, well then what are you doing wearing crazy shoes?
Kara: BURN!
Kara: anyway, story time?
Caro: So, we get there, taking the fucking slow way, as she tells me once we get there as I have eight minutes to get to class from there, an I be a sloooooooooooooow person.
Caro: So, in these boots, I sprint half way there and, being the unhealty person I am, am out of breath and my legs hurt like a bitch.
Caro: Then I get to the fucking longest light ever known to man
Caro: -_-
Kara: its boulder! Cross the street! people will stop :-)
Caro: Then I walk as fast as I can to the next peice of road, and, people did not stop.
Caro: X_X
Kara: ah, new college kids. right.
Caro: *So I'm like X_X
Caro: And I run across the road and get to the sidewalk leading there.
Caro: And, I'm hurting like a bitch as I said. And I don't have my watch, cause it's in my backpack from pottery. I mannage to get there and I look up the stairs.
Caro: SIX FLIGHTS to get to my next class.
Kara: What language do you have?
Caro: I don't. I'm in SPED.
Caro: x_x
Kara: ah. well then
Kara: good study hall.
Kara: So, you get up the stairs
Caro: But, hey. All my classes are on the third floor, so I have no reason to complain
Caro: and I dash to LA. I open the door and I say, "Sorry I'm late..." *Choke, dies*
Caro: So, I'm sure I was lite ><
Caro: I hope I made tardy
Kara: your horror story was being late?
Kara: O.o
Caro: But Mrs. Halbe likes me
Caro: Yes.
Caro: XD
Caro: And now I hurt reeeally bad
Kara: whoa. My horror stories totally pownz yours.
Kara: what grade are you in?
Caro: XD I'm sure.
Caro: ninth
Caro: *Nineth
Kara: (I've completley forgotten who I'm talking to by now, you haven't Im'd me in a long time)
Kara: ah.. that would explain it.
Caro: so, that's my first tardy yet.
Caro: (XD I be Caroline)
Kara: haha. late to class. *wipes tear from eye* you amuse me, young grasshopper.j




~Caro

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:: 2004 5 September :: 10.08 pm

My fucking dad is on my fucking back about fucking cussing and why I fucking don't eat corn and fucking helping with the fucking dishes and so on and so I'm just gonna go on fucking cussing so fuck him!

Andf it's funny. I was just talking to a friend of mine who I hadn't talked to since the incedent with being picked up from Alisson's and he said, "How are things going with your dad?" And I said, "All is well ^_^"
Funny how things go wrong after you say they're going well, huh?


~Caro


P.S.

FUCK.

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:: 2004 4 September :: 10.46 pm

First Matter of Buisness:
Many thanks to my dearest Nee (14outtanone) for making this FUCKING AWESOME layout.


Second Matter of Buisness: The past few days
I've tried to update a few times the past little while but, alas, I keep closing the damned window without pressing the update button. Clever girl. am I not? Well, anywho. On Wednsday I sucked so badly at archery, even the teacher was stunned. I was like, "DAMNATION!" Didn't say that, though. x_x I later found out I had the arrow on the wrong side of the bow. That's right the wrong side of the bow! Dhur. It needs to be on the inside of the bow. --; Anywho. I also got a cellphone a little while ago, dun know if I said that already. When I told Max about my Anime convention outfit he laughed really hard: A schoolgirl with pigtails with ribbons, a purple sweater, a grey pleated skirt, argile socks, goggles, fingerless gloves and combat boots. ^^;; I'm debating spike bracelets. Give me your input. I bought the boots today. They're reeeeally cool. I also went and saw Hero today. It was soooooooo good. You need to go see it. Now. Okay, wait till you're done reading this. Then go see it. XD School is going great. I'm happy there. I've been talking to Nee and Kate a lot over the phone and internet, so that's good. Talked to Kelly yesterday, also good. Saw Tess yesterday, hung out with Amanda yesterday, haven't seen Rowan around much. Had to go see my Grandma wich is not always fun, because she's always so pissed about Tiff and Beedo [Peter] (My brother and his wife). She was pretty okay today, though. Aimee talked about China with her and such. Kept her off of ranting about various things (which she is prone to doing) and whatnot. Oh, yea. Aimee is back. (W00T!) Okay, I have to go. I think that's about it anyway.


Toodles.


~Caro

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:: 2004 31 August :: 10.56 pm

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Nightmare Before Christmas!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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twisted
You have a twisted soul! Twisted Souls are never
bad, and actually, are a rarity amongst souls.
These souls are a little combination of
everything, with always a little of their own
chaos to add. Twisted Souls are kind, loving,
weird, zany, temperamental, and very talented.
They have their own firm opinion, and can at
one time be very outspoken and passionate, and
the other time shy and feeling insignificant.
Twisted Souls have good senses of Humor and
other times can be a bore. You can act quite
intelligent at one time, and grasp concepts
easily, while other times they can find it
difficult to understand. Twisted Souls are
always very fun and Kind, and can be party
animals. But, if you love someone, youre
serious about it, intense, and forever loyal.
Congratulations-the world should have more like
you.




Woo.

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:: 2004 31 August :: 9.22 pm

Well, long bus issues involving many calls to the transportation department. I ended up not riding the bus anyway XD

ARCHERY:

We sit outside waiting, baking in the sun for fifteen minutes. WOO. -_- However, once Mr. Taylor got there, it was worth it all. I was the person up in my group (The only person from my group who shot today). It was awesome. I wasn't doing so well though. But there was this guy sitting behind me and he started giving me tips. He said he took a Japanese archery class as well. I said, "Do you like anime?" Yes, he says. ^_^ I MADE A NEW FRIEND! ^____^ His name is Max. woot. ack, must go.


Much love.


~Caro

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:: 2004 30 August :: 9.19 pm

School
School was kinda fun. My classes went pretty smoothly, even though I forgot my LA homework x_X; Lunch was fun, 'cause I got to talk to Aksel the whole time, so I wasn't bored (woo!). But he wants to start up this D&D thing up, and I don't really want to, but I don't really want to tell him that because he'll be all sad, 'cause I think he only knows one other person who plays. :/
So, it went all happy joi untill my last class.
Archery was no good. I couldn't find them. I looked in the meeting spot, I looked at the archery range. I walk back. I find another girl from archery and ask her where people are. I had forgotten that we were supposed to meet in the blechers, but she said she looked there and they weren't there.
So, we started looking around
And out in the hall, who should I bump into but Matlin and Reed! (Which is cool) I said "Why are you guys here? You go to Tara!" They said they were looking for someone and had I seen her. I said no, and thay were like, bummer. We both needed to go, so we continued our search. Finaly we figure out they up the back stairs, behind a wall where we can't see them! (Tricky bastards. XD) I've been a little preocupied, though, because of the dreams I had (see below post).So it's been a mixed day. fwah.

Nee, I hope to talk to you soon.

~Caro

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:: 2004 30 August :: 8.07 pm

Dreams
Well, I had weird dreams last night. I think they might be significant. I can only remember partsof these dreams. These are them. (They sound really dramatic, but this is how they were.) (And you don't have to tell me parts of them are stupid.)

This is only the end of one of the second dream I had. I can't remeber the rest.
There is a great battle going on. This battle will decide the fate of the human race. I am one of the great warriors of this battle, bit I am still me, Caro. I had made a fatal error, the battle looks as if it will surely be lost. I run into a nearby building, seeking someone within. I dash onto the stairs which are like they are on the alley-side of New York appartments. There are many floors and I seek one of the highest. I dash through the hall, into a room. Two figures stand there. One is Amanda, whom I grab and kiss feircely. "I had to let you know how I felt..."
She looked at me, stunned. "I love you, too." We held eachother for a moment. The other figure spoke.
"Quickly! If you get in this time machine you may be able to turn the tide of the war!" I look at Amanda, knowing that once I do this, these events might never take place. I let go and step forward...
I woke up then.


The lighted crystal (She=me)

She was in bed in her room. It was late and dark. She was awake due to insomnea, not anything unusual. She heard a noise: "Plink plink TINK* Again, *plink plink TINK* It sounded like something was bouncing down the floor lamp next to the bed. The sound began to sound more like bongo drums being played very slowly. *Tump tump TUMP tump tump TUMP* A voice spoke through the darkness. "You have drums in your room." She went stiff; the voice sounded like it was coming from the space between her and the lamp. He continued to speak. She wanted to reach out and turn on the light, but she was afraid. She could picture him in her mind, sitting crosslegged with the drums in his lap. She finaly reached out and turned the switch. Nothing happened. He grinned, "Nothing will happen if you do that, Caroline." Her eyes widened. He knew who she was. What was he!? Suddenly there was a white light. It came from a crystal on a necklace she wore. She held it up defiantly to see who was next to her bed; there was nothing there. She looked around. Suddenly she was on the ground, tangled in blankets. She yelped. The sky was lightening now. Her parents ran into the room.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes. Hey, does it feel like the house is tilting?" The house fell onto it's side and they were falling into blackness, screaming.
I woke with a start, still feeling like I was falling.


"What does it mean, what does it mean!?"
-Jack Skellington

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:: 2004 26 August :: 9.29 pm

Well, today was freshman orientation. (eeevill) You'd have to guess that I made a friend. You'd have to guess that she smokes and does drugs. What am I, a magnet? Technicaly, I'd be the peice of metal, as I am apperantly attracted to them. x_x I don't particularly care. My mum does. Besides that, I don't want to be associated with anybody at this point, and I particularly don't want people thinking I smoke, cause I don't. But anyway. I'm not sure how to find my fellow geeks. They can be hard to spot. X_x Anywho, orientation was TEDIOUS, but I got to see Ms. Hallabe, so that was cool. Mandi and I hung out, but I only saw Tess for about 30 seconds. ;_; Aksel was there, too. I hope to see Stephanie tommorow (if she shows up for school) I'm so nervous. raah...


~Caro

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:: 2004 25 August :: 5.46 pm

School starts on Friday, but I have to go to fresman orientation tommorow, so it's like it starts tommorow.

I have purple streaks in my hair. Dun think they're gonna was out this time ^_^;

I've finaly decided what I'm going to wear to the anime convention. Hopefully I can put up pictures. ^^

There was something else...can't remember. I'll post it when I do.


~Caro

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:: 2004 24 August :: 2.13 pm

If you don't like Bush, you'll get a kick out of this
A lobbyist, on his way home from work in Washington, D.C., came to a
dead halt in traffic and thought to himself, "Wow, this seems worse
than usual."
He noticed a police officer walking between the lines of stopped cars,
so he rolled down his window and asked, "Officer, what's the
hold-up?"!
The officer replied, "The President is depressed, so he stopped his
motorcade and is threatening to douse himself with gasoline and set
himself on fire. He says no one believes his stories about why we went
to war in Iraq, or the connection between Saddam and al-Qaeda, or that
his tax cuts will help anyone except his wealthy friends; the press
called him on the lie about Iraq trying to buy uranium from Niger, and
now Campbell Brown is threatening to sue him for a sexual innuendo he
made at a recent press conference. So we're taking up a collection for
him."
The lobbyist asks, "How much have you got so far?"
The officer replies, "About 14 gallons, but a lot of folks are still
siphoning."

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:: 2004 24 August :: 1.12 pm

So I just got back from Mt. Rushmore. Fifteen Hours in car (round trip). @_@ Not counting how long it took us to get to MT. Rushmore from the hotel. Fwee...Will update more later.

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:: 2004 24 August :: 1.11 pm

Accidentally deleted this
:: 2004 20 August :: 8.49 pm
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RRF!
Dude. This is scary:

insanepyrovampy (6:18:59 PM): Hello
max_max330 (6:19:06 PM): how r u
insanepyrovampy (6:19:18 PM): I'm doing alright. Yourself?
max_max330 (6:19:34 PM): I am so good
max_max330 (6:19:49 PM): ready for school?
insanepyrovampy (6:20:23 PM): Hah! Not really. I've been having a nice lazy summer. What about you?
max_max330 (6:20:56 PM): I was busy through the summer finishing up my thesis
insanepyrovampy (6:21:20 PM): What was it on?
max_max330 (6:21:54 PM): it in EE, electromagnetic theory
max_max330 (6:22:25 PM): so what is u studing?
insanepyrovampy (6:23:12 PM): *Laughs* I'm sure you think I'm a lot older than I am, and you'll probly leave after this. I'm a freshman
insanepyrovampy (6:23:16 PM): In highschool
insanepyrovampy (6:23:18 PM): XD
max_max330 (6:23:56 PM): really
max_max330 (6:24:09 PM): would u mind if OI ask how old r u
insanepyrovampy (6:24:56 PM): I would prefer not to disclose this information. *Laughs*
max_max330 (6:26:53 PM): ok
max_max330 (6:27:02 PM): but around what
insanepyrovampy (6:27:20 PM): Why do you ask?
max_max330 (6:27:39 PM): I would like to see if my age is suitable for u or not
insanepyrovampy (6:27:48 PM): Heh. How old are you?
insanepyrovampy (6:27:53 PM): Then I can tell you.
max_max330 (6:28:28 PM): however we can still friends any way
insanepyrovampy (6:28:35 PM): Sure.
max_max330 (6:28:44 PM): age is not a problem for me
max_max330 (6:29:07 PM): I can get any one with any age so happy
max_max330 (6:29:16 PM): I am 30
insanepyrovampy (6:29:34 PM): *Laughs again* I'm in my teens.
max_max330 (6:29:47 PM): 15
max_max330 (6:29:54 PM): or 18
insanepyrovampy (6:30:03 PM): around fifteen
max_max330 (6:30:11 PM): hehehehe
max_max330 (6:30:19 PM): it's ok for me
insanepyrovampy (6:31:14 PM): I have a rule about not dating anyone more than five years older than me. XD
max_max330 (6:31:38 PM): do u have a photo
max_max330 (6:31:41 PM): ok
insanepyrovampy (6:31:59 PM): No. My Digi cam is DEAD.
max_max330 (6:32:18 PM): it may I can make u much more than happy
max_max330 (6:32:43 PM): however I can help u so much in both sides
max_max330 (6:34:36 PM): so what do u think
max_max330 (6:35:23 PM): I can help u with ur study and with experiences in fun
insanepyrovampy (6:36:13 PM): Nah. I totaly can't.
insanepyrovampy (6:36:25 PM): But tell me. What kind of music do you like?
max_max330 (6:37:21 PM): metal. rock, clasic
insanepyrovampy (6:37:39 PM): I'm into techno and rock, mostly.
max_max330 (6:37:51 PM): waaaaw
insanepyrovampy (6:38:00 PM): o.o?
max_max330 (6:39:11 PM): do u like movies
insanepyrovampy (6:39:20 PM): Yea.
max_max330 (6:39:51 PM): what is the last movies u have seen
insanepyrovampy (6:40:44 PM): Uhm...What the ?!# do we Know, HArry Pottr and the Prisoner of Azkaban
insanepyrovampy (6:40:53 PM): *Harry Potter
insanepyrovampy (6:42:44 PM): Ack. I need to go.
insanepyrovampy (6:42:50 PM): Dinner.
max_max330 (6:43:31 PM): I have a phone call would u mind if I respond

I then blocked him, which I beleive made it appear that I logged off.


It was freaking me out.

Anywho, I leave for Mt. Rushmore tommorow. Out of nowhere, my mom was like, "Let's go to Mt. Rushmore!"

So we leave in the morning. o.O This means I miss RPG this week. -___-


My dog is sick.



Love you all.


~.:-Caro-:.~

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:: 2004 15 August :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: So tired...

Some of the guys were talking about going to see Ailen vs. Preditor, so I was thinking I'd go with them. So I call up my mum and she's like, "You can't go unless an adult drives you!" So she said that if I got all the information that maybe she would take me. So I told Remy to call me when Ike got back so she could get the info. So I called her a few minutes ago and she said, "Well, I don't think either Hunter or DJ is going." Well, that meant that she wouldn't be getting any information any time soon. So, now I wasn't sure I was going to go. So I told my mum as such and she said that she didn't want me to go out cause I looked to tired. x_x That killed that idea. I know I bitch about my mom a lot, but I really do love her. She's just been irritable lately...But it's difinitely been a pain in the ass.

But anyway, anyone who's ever hung out with a group of guys for long periods of time would know how much you just want to be one of the guys. I thought, you know, going to the movie would kind of be like being one of the guys. Though, I think I mostly am considered one of the guys, after all this time. They act like I'm a boy, and I don't mind that. I'm actually really glad.


~Caro

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:: 2004 15 August :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: So tired...

Some of the guys were talking about going to see Ailen vs. Preditor, so I was thinking I'd go with them. So I call up my mum and she's like, "You can't go unless an adult drives you!" So she said that if I got all the information that maybe she would take me. So I told Remy to call me when Ike got back so she could get the info. So I called her a few minutes ago and she said, "Well, I don't think either Hunter or DJ is going." Well, that meant that she wouldn't be getting any information any time soon. So, now I wasn't sure I was going to go. So I told my mum as such and she said that she didn't want me to go out cause I looked to tired. x_x That killed that idea. I know I bitch about my mom a lot, but I really do love her. She's just been irritable lately...But it's difinitely been a pain in the ass.

But anyway, anyone who's ever hung out with a group of guys for long periods of time would know how much you just want to be one of the guys. I thought, you know, going to the movie would kind of be like being one of the guys. Though, I think I mostly am considered one of the guys, after all this time. They act like I'm a boy, and I don't mind that. I'm actually really glad.


~Caro

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:: 2004 15 August :: 10.37 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Policy of Truth, by Depche Mode (Good song)

8:46 am Do you ever sometimes just feel like you wanna fucking die, but know you don't really wanna die, but just wanna die anyway,but you still know you know don't really wanna die, so you just want to maim yourself of something...But you know you don't really want to do that either...So you're stuck? Really stuck.


That's how I feel right now.

My mom's being stupid. Stephanie left to go sleep for like, an hour about a half hour ago, but I had to call Stephanie and tell her not to come back, cause we're going out to breakfast with my grandma. WONDERFUL. Just great.

I got one hour of sleep last night. Woo! One whole hour! I went to sleep at four and woke up at five. Yippie!

-____-


So, I'm alone, my mom's pissed off at me, I have to go out to breakfast and RPG (Sweet Salvation) isn't untill noon. *SCREAMS* Ahg! Even my dog has left me alone. No one's online, nothing! The boredome...It hurts so bad...

~Caro

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:: 2004 14 August :: 9.33 pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Flash Man's Theme (A very laid back version, however)

shades of grey
7:31 p.m. Waiting for Stephanie who is late, as per usual. Getting bored. Threr are pretty clouds outside as the sun fades, but they too, fade to grey as time passes. It's dark in here. Only the screen on my computer lights my keyboard in the failing light. Tommorow is RPG. I'm dressed kind of anime-like today. Baggy strappy pants, a shirt with an anime fairy, pigtails in my hair and goggles on my head. Fun bunnies. Time seems to be passing slowly, but then again, it always seems to be passing slowly when you're waiting, eh? I haven't talked to Nee in ages. I miss her. Kelly starts school on Moday...I'm going to miss her as well. I myself am quite scared to start high school. Kelly is a pretty strong person. She's had a few hard blows, but she keeps on going. I admire her greatly. She's also having to ride the bus from Laffayette to Denver, every day. So, I'm probably not going to see much of her for alittle while, which majorly sucks. I've been talking to Kate for great amounts of time every day, which is great. It's like the good old days. I still haven't seen her, though, for a long time.
7:41 p.m. Where the hell is Stephanie?I bet she's not coming 'till eight...
7:42 p.m. The sky is still fading into grey... My special edition Pokemon Yellow Version Gameboy is sitting next to me. I picked up my Pokemon Silver Version today and realised I had no Idea where I was or really, what to do. That's just sad. That game (Along with Gold Version) used to absorb all my life. But now it's absorbed by RPGing on the internet. Not like, EverQuest or something. Person to Person with my friends. Mostly plot as opposed to fighting. There's a lot of fighting in Hunter's RPG, but that's okay, because you're actually there, together in a room, rolling dice and laughing together.
7:48 p.m. It's apperantly raining very lightly out, if I heard my dad correctly. I cant see twards the West, so I don't know if it'll rain more or not.
7:50 p.m. She's still not here. I hope she didn't bail on me. That would be super flakey.
7:52 p.m. I hear the Baseball game my parents are watching in the background.All the cheering and yelling. Sounds like fun. I like watching baseball, actually. I think it's fun to watch, but not to play.
7:54 p.m. She's here.


~Caro

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:: 2004 14 August :: 12.13 pm

The List
Kate and I came up with a list of things you can say when someone says to you, "What's up?" Please send the list (Everything between the two lines) to your friends. We'd apreciate it. ^_^ Comment if you send it.

(And yes, we know most of them are pretty lame.)


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Just whip this thing out whenever someone asks:



"What’s up?"


1. The Sky
2. The clouds
3. The atmosphere
4. The solar system, but that’s not really up, it’s kinda all around, but that includes up, so I guess it counts.
5. The ceiling
6. The ceiling fan
7. The flood lights
8. The ceiling lights
9. The top shelf on book shelf
10. The tree outside
11. The top cupboard
12. The pots and pans hanging from the ceiling
13. The telephone pole
14. The Empire State Building
15. The Eiffel Tower
16. The top of the refrigerator where all the dust bunnies live.
17. The VCR
18. That picture up there…
19. That thing up there by the picture that is up there…Wait…What the hell is that thing up there??
20. The roof
21. The Skylight
22. The spider on the ceiling
23. The fly about to get eaten by the spider
24. The chimney
25. The mountains
26. The stairs
27. The Ozone Layer
28. The way to Oz
29. (Somewhere over) the rainbow…
30. …blue birds (fly).
31. Miscellaneous birds.
32. The pencil I stuck in the ceiling at work
33. The fuzzy things…I swear, hardly anyone else can see them…
34. AHHH! THAT MOSQUITO! *Runs*
35. That rock was before it hit the window…
36. Oooh…butterfly…
37. Airplane
38. Helicopter
39. Stars
40. The second star to the right and straight on till morning.
41. Mount Doom
42. The Heart of Gold
43. That house that fell on the Wicked Witch of the East.
44. An earthquake (if you’re standing on your head)
45. A kick
46. The opposite of down
47. The VCRs that are falling from the sky
48. The men (that it’s raining)
49. That dragon up there…AH! FIRE! Burn! OW!
50. The UFOs (They're looking for me...)


Created By Kate W. and Caroline P.

(To contact, e-mail insanepyrovampy@yahoo.com)
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Hope you enjoy the stupidity of the list.


~Caro

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:: 2004 12 August :: 5.57 pm

I talked to Kate all night last night. She made me feel better.

Mostly.

Stephanie called this morning and said, "I was worried about you, sweety."
She really cares about me, and I'm starting to get mom to see it...

Mostly.

Mom and I are back on good terms...

Mostly.


~Caro

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:: 2004 11 August :: 10.23 pm
:: Mood: pissed off

So, mom and I had a huge fight that started out as something else, but ended up being about Stephanie.


It's unfair that she won't fuggin give her a god damned CHANSE! *Slams fists into desk*

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:: 2004 7 August :: 10.35 pm

I SAW THERESA TODAY! WOO!


Yes, it brought back memories, like those of accidentaly stabbing eachother with pencils and getting the lead embeded in our arms...Ahhh, those were the days. *Wistful look*


~Caro

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:: 2004 5 August :: 12.24 am

Wow this post is stupid.
Girls group today. We went to the reservoir and I was having issues swiming and breathing in the water. XD YOu're supposed to take a swim test but Kelly and I were like, fuck that. So we just went under the rope, and the lifegaurd is staring right at us and she's goot this look on her face like, "whatever." It was funny.

Nothing is going right for my mom right now, so she's really pissy and such.

I might be going to see Theresa on the 'morrow. That would be awesome.

Kelly starts school soon. It's sad. T.T

Much love to you all.


~Caro

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