I think I'm going to try weening myself off of day-time sleeping. It's unlikely that I'll keep this goal, because I never keep my goals, but it still feels good to make them. Staying up until 8 a.m. on weekends really has no excuse, not matter how you cut it. It would be really great to have enough energy and vitality to get all the things done that I want to in the day at a reasonable time, and to get a good night's sleep and wake up feeling good instead of waking up to every part of my body burning from lack of sleep. It sounds too good to be possible, but I'm going to try.
I'm going to set an alarm to wake me up every day, tomorrow at 9, then two days at 8:30, two days at 8, etc. Hopefully that will work. It's exciting just talking about it.
2007 14 January :: 9.24 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: [The Apples In Stereo] + [Submarine Dream]
I guess it's time for an update. I don't have that much to say. I haven't been feeling good lately. Too many things have hit me at once, and they're things that I wish didn't bother me, but they do. I think I need to just reclude a little bit and hang out for a while...
I just signed his guestbook. It made me feel a little bit better. I wanted to go to the viewing but my mum didn't want to take me. Class of 09 has forever changed.
Today Jess's friend came over, talking about how the bus was taking so long and he had to use the bathroom. The bus was held up by the funeral and he was complaining about it. I know he couldn't have known, but I think Jess did. I was almost about to run out of the room crying.
This was not how I expected the new year to begin...
I'm getting kind of restless, almost, a little frustrated. At least today. There's nothing to do, I'm tired but when I try to sleep I just lay there, and I'm hungry but food makes me sick. I hate these limbo days. I think, and this might sound really dumb, but I think it's the tension building from the holidays, and maybe some other things too. But mostly I'm okay, and that's good.
Cassie called me today. I was so glad. I was starting to miss her a lot lately. She's doing great and we talked for like an hour, and it made me feel good. I MUST visit her soon. Being away makes me forget why I liked her so much, but once we talk I get reminded all over again...*sigh*
2006 5 December :: 10.14 pm
:: Music: [PENICILLIN] + [Little Love Story]
Every Little Thing
Neutral Milk Hotel
Simon & Garfunkel
The New Pornographers
The Beach Boys
Architecture in Helsinki D
Snow Patrol D
THE BACK HORN
deathgaze (have them already)
My Chemical Romance
The Magnetic Fields
The Dresden Dolls
Architecture in Helsinki*
Hot Hot Heat
My Morning Jacket*