We Are The Few

We Are The Few

:: 2007 15 March :: 11.20pm

to coalesce,
then completely fall apart.

i still love him.
it is no longer mutual though.

i'm wondering when it will start to hurt less.

Curiousity screams

imugly

:: 2007 15 March :: 10.02pm

you wont survive me
anarko loves me.

its been at least a year since i last burned incense. thats something to do tonight. i havent written anything in any of my journals in almost 6 months.
i just realized its not them im writing for.
its me.

ftw.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 8 March :: 11.30pm

i've lost my glow.
my eyes are dull and lifeless.

i am dead,
in spirit.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 25 February :: 5.47pm

i guess this is closure.

he has no romantic feelings for me anymore.
and has no interest in picking our relationship back up.

the past 3 months of my life have been a lie.

i want to be happy again.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 22 February :: 8.57pm

i can't even trust my best friend anymore.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 20 February :: 10.10pm

"i love you,
i just can't act upon my feelings."

that is not love.
don't ever fucking say you love me.
ever again.
unless you mean it.

and so with you.
je suis fini.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 18 February :: 1.33am

all i want is for you to talk to me.

about anything.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 15 February :: 2.15am

i haven't had a good day in weeks.

and you don't understand,
how easily you could have made it one.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 13 February :: 7.11pm

sitting on the railing with my feet hanging over the edge,
i look at the ocean, and the reflection of the moon,
sparkling. like millions of little diamonds.
i can see the water move,
i can almost feel the current.

and in this moment,
i realize i am alone.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 11 February :: 9.38pm

how quickly i forget...

everything
you put me through.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 10 February :: 12.01pm

make up your mind.

i can't take this for much longer.

Curiousity screams

xsilentxsuicidex

:: 2007 5 February :: 6.48pm

i wish falling out of love
was as simple and fun as falling in.

i know in my head that i should just forget this all,
and move on with my life.
but there's a little feeling i can't shake...
and it's small. but it's making an impact.

everytime i start to feel like
i should give up and forget about it,

you'll do something. nice.
and you'll act sweet.
and act like you care.
like you used to.

and i'll wonder why i ever doubted myself in the first place;
(of course i should hold on.)

but then you'll be distant.
and you'll lie.
and i'll know.

and it starts all over again.