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:: 2006 25 January :: 11.11 pm

I can never be any more or any less than who i am. I may change but I will never fail to be a hundred percent me. If you do not like it you can wait for me change, but do not think it is becuase I am be too much or too little of who I should be that you are displeased.

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:: 2005 23 December :: 12.27 am

My name is Nick and I am the best person in the world.


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:: 2005 8 November :: 6.12 pm

HAPPY Birthday Ben!!!

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:: 2005 27 September :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: vertical horizion - Everything you want

just a blink of an eye
So here I sit in my bed staring at a blank scren trying to figure out what to say. I'm not sure if it is because i don't know where to start or if I'm not sure that it would mater. It's just another journal entry right? Wel then why am i rambling.

So I moed out of my parents house prety much the night i graduated. I just reccently started renting a house in GR. My house is over by heritage hils near GRCC. It is on Franklin and Madison. They call it the mayflower because it used to be painted mayflower.

I live here with my bestfreind Ben, my sister Katti, Her boyfriend Oliver, Jim his supervisor, and Travis Jim's underling. Life is interesting lately. I work from 10 until 4 monday through friday, and I go to class most of the time from 6 - 9 monday through thursday. Life seems a litle exhuasting sometimes, and i hope that it doesn't alway keep this pace.

I am madly in love with Rachel Harper Greggs, and i can't wait until she has the same last name. Yes sometimes we fight and sometimes we drie eachother crazy, but i have never felt this in love with anyone, and I don't think I would want to. Like I said she drives me abosutely mad, but I love her to death! Live gets crazy for us sometimes and leaves us spinning but i guess we really have two opitions in the end anyway, hold onto eachother as tight as we can and see where we end up, or let go... Personaly I think that the second sounds like less of an adventure.

Rachel is such an amazing person. She cares so much about everything and everybody. She has such a beautiful imagination that is capable oof such spectacular things, and yet at the same time the worst of nighmares. i love being with her, i love her smile. I love the way that she laughs. I love her eyes. I love her.

Well I know that you are wondering when you can stop reading, and I guess that was a few paragraphs ago. But if you feel persistent, her it is! I miss you all. the people that i grew up with. went to school with. Annoyed. I just wonder what's going on in your lifes. How are you doing on this new adventure? Are you there? Are you reading this? I love you all regardless of any stupid bad blood between us. If you feel up to it leave a reply. Say hi! Leave an e-mail address where i can drop a line or something. Good luck and God bless on your adventures.

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:: 2005 12 July :: 8.25 pm

Why are people soo stupid to assume and conclude from what they hear on TV and read in the paper. I just love how blatenly obvious things seem to be to people when they see it on tv or read it, yet they completely forget that these trusty newspapers are owned and ran by people who have their political agenda's and rely on income from certain investors who are a little more loose when they recieve beneficial publicity. Oh and television don't get me started there. People get such rediculous ideas based on what is sold to us on the tube. The whole point of tv is to tell us what we want to hear, and make us think what they want us to think, and keep us from leaving our seats for as long as possible so that they can get paid, by companies of questionable ethical quality, for guarenteeing a certain amount of people will see their next wonder idea to take money out of our pockets, but if you ask me these defenitly can be considered realible sources of information to judge and concluded and possibly even condem people that we haven't even met for a few second in our entire infintesimaly wise lifes.

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:: 5 5 May :: 12.10 pm

Today it feels like we are all grown up. Last night we went to the viewing for Jess, not for her mom but for jess. She needed us and instead of people being self-ish or self centered last night for the first time in a long time, I saw all of us there together dressed up, and focused on the things that do matter. I don't know if maybe it was the circumstances or if we have actually grown up. Things that didn't matter, all the little stuff, seemed to have no place last night. It was just nice to see that for once all the stupid High school crap had been left behind, and that we might actually be growing up. I care about you all and I do hope that you feel the same way. We will all be going down different roads soon and I wish you all the best of luck, and if nothing else I will see you all again when we meet the end of our roads. It's been a great life and it will be great to grow old together or apart.

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:: 2005 4 April :: 9.34 am

Abigail, btw it is Greek for God is joy

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:: 2005 17 March :: 8.05 am

Why does life feel so synthetic sometimes. So made up with a pair of protective gloves on. Why can't people display something personal, something that comes from their heart, everything has to be so steralized or stripped of meaning. We some how find a way to put ourselfs in the giant bubble in which everything is some type of lie, wether it is what you are saying or how you are saying it. Why can't people be uncomfortably close. Share things a little too much. Go one step beyond what is acceptable. Intstead we live with white walls and thoughts we never say, not because they are uncalled for, but because somebody decided it was out of place.

What happened to an absolutely spontaneious hug, or the random back massage. What about the hey your looking nice today, or boy I sure am glad you are here. Why is it that we put a condom on our mind and are only allowed to think, speak, and act in this static free way.

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:: 2005 15 February :: 11.34 pm

So my mother has been un-employed for almost a year now. My dad has been cut back to 8 hours a day. I lost my job about 2 weeks ago. We can barely afford to pay for our house. I went onto FAFSA filled out the information, but apparently, my parents can't afford to pay the bills, but some Genious thinks that my parents can afford to contribute 17,541 dollars to my edcation a year!!!! WTF!!! I have to go to college too, i can't afford not to, because if i don't then I am dropped from my parents health insurance, and my last operation cost 18 thousand dollars for 12 hours of surgeory! Life Blows!

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:: 2005 13 February :: 2.34 pm

If you don't want to talk to me then fine I won't make you do anything you don't want to.

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:: 2005 1 February :: 8.55 pm

Just read the bold part for the important info and don't kill Rachel.
Hi, I'm Nick and I am ruggedly handsome. I am dreamy, cute and I have the most beautiful eyes ever.

I'm the best boyfriend in the world and the best guy you'll ever meet. It's hard to meet me though because you have to wait in line behind all my women. They worship me.

I'd be so totally more awesome if I updated more but I work a lot and World of Warcraft is too awesome. In fact, my only day off this week is Friday. I even have to work on Sunday.

I'm going to kill Rachel once I find out she updated my journal without my permission. Hopefully, I love her too much to kill her. I know she loves me a lot. That should make up for a brief lapse in judgment and happiness. In fact, I could just delete this entry and pretend it never happened if I really wanted to. After changing my password and telling Rachel never to mess with my things when she's in a really good mood, of course. In fact, reprimanding her might want to come first.

I don't know if you've heard about my totally awesome cat. She's totally awesome. So awesome, in fact, that we don't even know if it's a girl! She's been living in my garage for a long time and for a while we didn't see her and thought she had died! Rachel called the vet today because she loves my cat and wants to see what she'll have to do to introduce it to her house. It turns out that this great expedition of reintroduction will cost at least $60 and maybe even $143! That's a lot of money but my cat is so totally worth every penny. Rachel will have to get a job to pay for the kitty. I hope she does, she loves that cat.

Hey, I was thinking we'd all go to Qdoba's on Friday if anyone wants to join in on the excitement. You should come. It'll be awesome. I was thinking of having us all get together every Friday night and hang out. It'd be awesome once we're all in college and jazz. We could catch up on what's going on in people's lives.

So yeah. You should come. And not kill Rachel. Because she loves you. A lot.

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:: 2005 20 January :: 11.05 pm

this is an update

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:: 2004 2 December :: 11.38 pm

I was waiting for you to make do, but i geuss you didn't feel like it.

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:: 2004 2 December :: 11.38 pm

I was waiting for you to make do, but i geuss you didn't feel like it.

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:: 2004 30 November :: 11.56 am

Okay so I'm hoping that Rachel or ben will read this soon and I am hoping that you can do this for me. There is a link (the one below) and it is a copy of a java compiler I would love it if somebody could download it and put it on a disk for me and if somebody (Ben) could drop it off at my house today while I'm gone it would be awesome.

There is also a second file that goes with the first, a budle pack that I need to work with some things.

I would love you all forever if this happened, I must have a copy of this java program so I can beggin my venture to take over the world one line of code at a time.

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