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:: 2006 22 January :: 6.59 pm
:: Mood: energetic

Tonight was interesting to say the leastÖ

Danielle and Meghan came over as they always do on Sunday nights. I made dinner as usually and we chilled and talked. My computer kept making noises from people messaging me on msn. They got curious and ran to my computer room. I chased them down and turned the comp off lol.

Danielle and Meghan decided at that point that I am leading a secret life. Ha Ha, I think there loosing it. As Danielle spent like 20 mins trying to find shit on my comp, Meghan wrote me a story about myself. This is how it wentÖ..

ďThere once was a dumb dork named Jade. She smelled like pee so no one would have sex with her. She had two wonderful, beautiful friends named Meghan and Danielle who were only her friends because they felt sorry for her. But Jade had a secret. She was having a sexual relationship over the internet with a smelly boy. They liked each other because they were both smelly. They liked to exchange nude photos of each other, masturbating with cactuses and forks. Jade didnít tell her beautiful friends about the porn because she was afraid that they would laugh at her and poke her with sharp pointy sticks. But Meghan and Danielle were extremely smart so they knew Jade was hiding something. Danielle tried to get the secret out of her by curb stomping her. Meghan laughed and encouraged her, but Jade would not reveal her secret. Just when they were about to give up, a picture popped up on her computer. It featured a boy covered in pancake syrup with a gopher shoved up his ass and a monkey rubbing his balls. Jade was so overcome with desire that she ripped off her clothes and began shoving a spoon up her ass. Luckily Meghan and Danielle had looked the other way. They ran out of the house and never returned. The boy ended up moving in with her and a large assortment of small animals for their sexual pleasure.

The End.

Ps. None of the following is true. Now Jade tell us what the fuck you are hiding.Ē

I hope you get a laugh from that story because when I was reading it I couldnít stop laughing I almost fucking cried.

Other than that it wasnít a bad day, I spent most of it cleaning and I did a little bit of shopping.

Oh ya and my friends are fucking dumb asses.

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:: 2006 21 January :: 11.57 pm
:: Mood: excited

Hmm, 11days...what shall i pack?

Bah, I have to meet so many plp in 6 days....we are gonna be so busy lol

Can't wait, and yet a little scared :o

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:: 2006 21 January :: 11.23 pm

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

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:: 2006 21 January :: 11.19 pm
:: Mood: happy

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

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:: 2006 21 January :: 12.19 am
:: Mood: excited

Scorpio & Capricorn

The Scorpio admires Capricorn's ambition and determination to reach the top. The earthly realism of the latter complements the aquatic intuition of the former. Mutual respect for a social or mystical quest unites a couple animated by a shared desire for security. Their sex life is vibrant and intense. But their power struggles may be just as passionate. And when these two clash, the sparks fly! Each is too stubborn to make the slightest compromise. If this couple avoids conflict, it can reach great heights.


Oh and the best part....

Their sex life is vibrant and intense.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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:: 2006 18 January :: 9.45 am
:: Mood: scared

Well, I was hoping you would be online before I left... You have convinced me it is in my best interest to go to the doctor. I don't wanna just go to a Medi Centre so Iím going to the hospital thatís by my house. Iím sure ill be there for like 235298357 hours.

Wish me luck baby, I hope it isnít anything serious :(


If I ingnore it will it go away?

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:: 2006 17 January :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Are You Gonna Be My Girl- Jet

Ha Ha, i just got this sent from a friend, It is a messed up quiz however really true.

Write down your answers!!!

1. Which is your favorite color out of: red, black, blue, green, or yellow?

2. Your first initial?

3. Your month of birth?

4. Which color do you like more, black or white?

5. Name of a person of the same sex as yours.

6. Your favorite number?

7. Do you like Flying or Driving more?

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more?

When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat!)


1. If you choose:
Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.
Black - You are conservative and aggressive.
Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.
Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is:
A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.
L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum &your love life
is soon to blossom.
S-Z You like to help others and your future love life looks
very good.

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will
discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.
April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will
not last long but the memories will last forever.
July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a
major life-changing experience for the good.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will
seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you
will be glad for the change.
White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

7. If you chose:
Flying : You like adventure.
Driving: You are a laid back person.

8.. If you chose:
Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.
Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

Some of my results:

Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.
Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.
Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.
Flying : You like adventure.

Heehee, I love quizzes, there so lame it's fun :D

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:: 2006 16 January :: 6.06 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Last Resort- Papa Poach

Do I have a sign on my back that says ďKick MeĒ?

I donít understand what I have done wrong in my time on this earth or maybe it was in a past life that I did something horrible and it is coming back to kick me in the ass.

For as long as I can remember, as soon as something good happens to me not far behind some thing bad comes along to rip it away.

I have been hurt so many times in my life I donít know if I will every get to a point of just being happy. Iíve been lied to by friends, family, and lovers. Iíve been cheated on and Iíve been hit by people who say they love me. Iíve put up these walls to shield me from others in the attempt to guard myself from being hurt again. I donít know how much more I can take before I break and canít be put back together again. Every time I feel like Iím finally moving forward and I start to take walls down, I get hurt again, and they just get higher.

I have lost, friends, lovers, and family.

I canít and I donít understand why people feel the need to Kick me when Iím down, or kick me to bring me down.

In the last 10 months I have lost 4 friends. When I first moved to this city I befriended a guy named Nick. We were friends form grade 4-12 and when we graduated we still hung out and talked to each other about problems we were having. He was someone I could turn to is I needed a shoulder to cry on. He moved in with his girlfriend this summer and since then we have not been able to speak to each other. I was friends with her for the last 2 yrs and she never once told me she had any sort of issues with me. I received a phone call late one night from her saying that ďtheyĒ have talked it over and ďtheyĒ feel it is best if I didnít come around or hang out with Nick anymore. He was a friend and a brother to me for almost 11 years and poof it no longer means anything. I just donít understand.

I started to get really into online video games; I enjoyed meeting people from all over the world and building friendships based on personalities. I had the pleasure of meeting so many people who were easy to talk to and fun to play the game with. When I first started to play I was a total n00b, I new nothing. It was my first time playing a game on the computer and I had a lot of trouble trying to learn. I met a guy named Brain and he was so nice, we quested together and he would tell me tricks to the game and things that really helped me. For like 4 months we would quest together and talk about school and things we would like to do and things we have done. He would tell me about his girl friend and what he was planning to do for her the next day. He would ask me what surprises would make her happy and the best flowers to get. It was fun and I enjoyed helping him. However, Bam just like that I got an email from him stating that he deleted his characters on that server and he will be switching servers to play the game with his girlfriend. He feels that it would be best if we didnít talk anymore as she is uncomfortable with it. I never did find out what server he went to and I donít know how he is doing, I just hope he is happy and alright.
There have been other incidences with the same results, both in my RL and with online friends. I understand where these girls are coming from especially if they have had as rough of pasts as I have had with my exís. I just wish that they would give me the chance to show them I donít want anything more out of there boyfriends than another person to talk to. I respect there wishes, It just hurts when I donít understand.

Iím hurting and Iím tired of it. I just want it to end. I want the pain to go away. I want to be happy yet I donít know where to start. I just want it to stop. I want it to end. I donít know how to make it end, and I donít know if it ever will.

The only thing keeping me going is someone special to my heart. I donít know if I love him, but I do know I care a lot for him. He makes me smile when Iím down. He makes me laugh when I think it is impossible. All I have to do is just look at him and every thing, all the pain, the frustrationÖeverything just goes away. Its like Iím in my own world with just him and no one can come in to hurt me. When Iím about to fall, he is there to catch me. I love his red hair, I love his laugh, I love the way he treats me, and the way he knows the right things to say. I love everything about himÖ I think I may be in love but it is too soon for me to truly know. I do know it will one day just pop from my mouth when Iím not even thinking about it and at that moment I will know how I truly feel.

Donít leave me, please donít hurt me. I donít know how much more I can take.

I just wish the sign on my back will fall off.

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:: 2006 15 January :: 5.59 pm

what alcholic beverage are you?- quiz

I am.....

Your Results:
you are wild, and full of pizzaze, you are not afraid to show your true colors! you are a margherita!

WTH!! I dont like Margerita's.....

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:: 2006 15 January :: 5.48 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Don't Go Away Mad (Just Go Away)- Motley Crew

Why is it that people feel the need to drag me down into there issues. I understand people get jealous but, thatís not my fucking problem. Sometimes you need to just step back and think before you act.

I donít want to be the cause of people fighting, If you have an issue with the past you need to work it out. Donít fucking take it out on me.

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:: 2006 15 January :: 4.51 am
:: Mood: sleepy

Today was greatÖ


Went to bed at like 7am because of someoneÖ PJ
I didnít roll my ass outta bed till like 5pm, lol, what a waste of a day. I was great!

Here I am now after a night of WoW. Yes, I know I said I might quit yadda yadda yaddaÖmust be that time of the month. Man I was bitchy the last couple nights. Anyways I just spent like the last hour looking at Add-ons for the game and I must say WOW!! There are a lot of cool ones. Iím way to tired atm itís like 5am, so ill test them out when I get up.

Bah, because I didnít do anything today, Iím going to have to clean and do my running around all when I get up.

It was worth it to be able to sleep all day. I havenít done that since I was a kid.

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:: 2006 14 January :: 12.12 am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Don't Get Mad, Get Even- Aerosmith

Wow ok Iím not a superstitious person but, today was BAD!!! It may not have had anything to do with today being Friday the 13th but still.

I woke up late.
I missed my bus.
I forgot to lock my house door in the rush.
Had to go back home to lock it.
Was 45mins late for work.
I forgot my lunch in my fridge.
Messed up like every order I tried to ship out to customers.
I forgot my bank card at home so I couldnít buy food.
Fell down the metal stairs while I was carrying boxes for an order.
Hurt my shoulder and neck.
I ran out of smokes.
I missed my bus after work.
And the worst part today was supposed to be my day off but, I decided to work it because my prior plans fell through.

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:: 2006 12 January :: 7.01 pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Gotta Get Away- Offspring

When did fucking video games become stressful? I mean damn there suppose to be fun and enjoyable. I have no interest in play WoW now.

I get fucking shit on when I ask questions about changes....
I get shit on when I canít go to ZG every night...
I get shit on when I canít stay up late...

WTF!!! I HAVE A FUCKING LIFE. I have bills to pay and i have work to go to.

I'm not sorry I donít take the game so serious.
Iím not sorry I disagree with decisions now made.
Iím not sorry when i say ALL of u can go fuck yourself.

I get told \ "Well, Jade you know u can go if you donít feel that this is the right guild for you. I don't want you to feel like your trapped"

Well fuck you too!!!


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:: 2006 11 January :: 10.30 pm

I got my hair cut and streaked....feels a thousand pounds lighter.

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:: 2006 11 January :: 10.21 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap- AC/DC

Woot!!! I officially have Feb 2-7 off of work. What shall i do with my time........

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