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:: 2005 22 June :: 6.02 pm

Will Rennar: ...So you'd be running a combination cult/brothel?
Lithaladhwen: Possibly.
Lithaladhwen: Depends on the quality of my followers, really.
Will Rennar: ...This new faith intrigues me...
Lithaladhwen: We would worship the almighty Whatever High Up On The Thing.
Will Rennar: :O!
Lithaladhwen: The Whatever gives unto me amazing magical powers that are only visible to my followers after they consume the necessary ritual narcotics.
Will Rennar: Okay, that's it, I'm sold! ^_^


:: 2005 20 June :: 12.20 am

You know how in The Sixth Sense you don't notice that no one ever talks to Mr. Guy-with-an-irrelevant-name until the very end?
I want to know how he failed to notice. I used to have days in high school where I would be in a room with other people and only one of them would acknowledge anything I said or did, like she was the only one who noticed me. From time to time (like after every two hours or so, or after more than one instance in a single day) I would request that she turn to someone else, point at me and ask, "Can you see her?"
Just to make sure I'm there. Because some one of these days, I won't be. If that happens and I don't notice... well then we'll know that it's easier than it looks to forget to confirm your existence with actual evidence. And I'll laugh at myself. Because at that point I deserve to be forgotten anyway.

I think that at field school I'll be a little glad to be away from instant messenger. Sure, I'll be cut off from a source of entertainment and communication. On the other hand, I'll know that everyone I'm talking to is talking back. The reason I try to reply to IM conversations and chats so quickly is because I'm trying to stave off one major fault of instant messenger: you know damn well no one is really paying attention to you. You know they all have something more important to do. Talking to you is something they do while waiting for a page to load or a CD to finish copying.

So... every now and again ask yourself. "Can they see me?"
Maybe they can't. Maybe they haven't for a while.


:: 2005 19 June :: 2.32 pm

Because Dave told me to...
Fathers Day post about... my fathers, I suppose.
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:: 2005 18 June :: 3.52 pm

I ordered a tent a few weeks ago and I just found it. It must have been here for days, but instead of leaving it at the front door, they left it in the garden by the back door. Read: in the garden.


:: 2005 17 June :: 5.22 pm

I'm Lithaladhwen
Lithaladhwen: My mother said she just ate at a restaurant called "Massa's."
Lithaladhwen: She said the service was fantastic.
Lithaladhwen: When I asked, she said, "No. They did not call me Massa at Massa's."
CGNakibe: Heh.
CGNakibe: You had to ask, eh?
Lithaladhwen: Come on. Of course I did.


:: 2005 5 June :: 12.31 pm

Sometimes I wish I had something to talk to people about besides RP... but I guess I should be grateful that nothing is going on. What's that old Chinese curse? "May you live in interesting times."

So, while I may be very boring to the rest of you for a while, I'm content with the lack of excitement for the moment. Nothing much will happen up here this summer... nothing good. So, if I ever throw down a really long entry you'll know that something bad has happened and I've decided to be interesting again.

So. Voila. Another post.


:: 2005 3 June :: 4.26 pm

The Slippery-Slope of Same-Sex 'Marriage'

And to balance us out...
Logical Fallacy: Slippery Slope

I'm not trying to start a debate here though one would be fun, I'll not deny. I'm simply passing on an interesting connection. I can't believe the article proclaims its own key flaw so proudly, like a neon sign that says, "LOOK! We don't fully understand logical argument!"
At some point when I'm really really bored I'll go through and find as many of the formalized fallacies as I can in this article. Right now I'm just content to read it and laugh. I feel if even one person is offended by this journal post (either by the article posted or my scornful attitude), I've done my good deed for the day.


:: 2005 3 June :: 1.56 pm

Pass the damn thing. I command it.


:: 2005 3 June :: 12.28 pm

Cut tag to preserve you from angsty introspection
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The Angel

I dreamt a dream! What can it mean?
And that I was a maiden Queen
Guarded by an Angel mild:
Witless woe was ne'er beguiled!

And I wept both night and day,
And he wiped my tears away;
And I wept both day and night,
And hid from him my heart's delight.

So he took his wings, and fled;
Then the morn blushed rosy red.
I dried my tears, and armed my fears
With ten-thousand shields and spears.

Soon my Angel came again;
I was armed, he came in vain;
For the time of youth was fled,
And grey hairs were on my head.
~William Blake


:: 2005 2 June :: 12.49 pm

you are a..MODERN vampire. you are pretty much in
the middle of good and evil. you dont mind
humans, but you like going along with your
insticts as well. you show your opposite sides
at very different times. you can be kind and
merciful, but suddenly harsh and cold. you
sometimes make a game of it. are you kidding?
are you serious? one wrong step and who knows!
you love tranquill water, going with the flow.
you are pretty nutral

what kind of vampire are you?(hellsing pics)
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:: 2005 1 June :: 9.35 pm

I'll be back in Plymouth in a little over a week.
I'm wondering who I'll see. If I'll get to introduce Brian to my arch-nemesis who really isn't as much of a threat as a nemesis ought to be. She certainly shouldn't be my nemesis anymore, but hey. Love fades. The hatred you felt for love's crack dealer will never die.


:: 2005 29 May :: 1.05 pm

I break my temporary silence to announce one thing to the world:

It has been one year since I've seen Caleb, or even heard his voice.
First of many, I hope.

Here we go! Go! Hashiri tzuzukeru...
dare ni mo tomerare wa shinai
mirai no jibun e to give a reason for life todoketai...


:: 2005 27 May :: 7.09 pm

Enough! The lot of you!

Why must I constantly be expected to divulge personal information on command to make someone else feel better? I will not be made to feel guilty for the way I choose to live. If I lie, it's because I have a damn good reason. I can't trust you people!

To the bloggers: When you read my posts just to give yourself a grain of hope that maybe you're not the most fucked up person alive, I hope I can offer you that. When you read my posts because you're looking for someone to pity, I hope you die. When you read my posts because you want me to read yours, fuck you. Everyone. Everyone who reads and says nothing, everyone who replies to entries that mean something with silly juvenile bullshit. Everyone who thinks that the worst thing that could happen to a person is people might not like you. People might not accept you. People might think you're a whiny little bitch who has nothing to say except mindless appeals for pity.

To the anonymous lurkers: If you have something to say, say it. Don't pussyfoot around because you want me to spend that much more time thinking over just what you have to tell me.

To my friends: There aren't many of you. But you know who you are. You are important. Fuck the people who don't know me and are comfortable with that. You listen to me bitch, and I try to make sure I'm listening when you need the same.

To the people I know over the internet and actually communicate with(namely RPGWWers): Without you I'd probably have no one to talk to. I can talk about politics or the worship of pastagami or my budding interest in video games. Any number of things. You are also important.

I'll be back with the blogging foolishness. When I have something more to say to any of you. It won't be as long as I think it'll be because I'm just pissed right now. I'll get over it.
Meanwhile, I'm going to restrict communication to people who actually talk back.


:: 2005 26 May :: 8.55 pm

You may ask me one question. But I always lie.
There's nothing inherently wrong with lying. On the other hand, it could be considered the only real evil in existence.

Chibikeriana and I are having a conversation about sincerity in terms of being accepted at school. Here's my unabridged rant in all its glory:
I never thought of it as fear of negative reprisals, but rather in terms of the potential rewards of manipulation. A little prevarication here, a few windows washed there, and teachers don't question anything else they see. All they want is to believe that kids are okay. If you can help them do that, they'll get you anywhere you want to go.
I figure it's better to live a lie than sit at home for the rest of my life contemplating a sincere suicide because I'm sincerely dissatisfied with the way things have gone for me.
A lie is often better than nothing. As much as I value the truth, in my experience the only ones who know what it is are the ones who are forced to contrast it with something. As much as you can apply the laws of economics to abstract concepts, the more scarce truth is, the more people realize how important it is.
I tell the absolute truth to one person. Everything else is a lie. And I like it that way. The way I live is the way I live. I lie. The sooner people accept that, the sooner we can all live in happy bunny peace and harmony.


:: 2005 26 May :: 11.19 am

Your Star Wars Pickup Line

"Hey, Beautiful. What's a nice girl like you doing waiting in line without bathing for 10 days?"

Star Wars Horoscope for Pisces

A typical Pisces, you have your head in the clouds.
You're self-sacrificing and a bit too passive to stand up to the dark side.
You become fairly pessimistic when put under pressure.
You are a chameleon - wanting to change your scenery on occassion.

Star wars character you are most like: Lando

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:: 2005 25 May :: 7.10 pm

*sniff* Psychopathic? Really?
I guess it has been suggested.


:: 2005 24 May :: 3.27 pm

:: how jedi are you? ::

Your Lightsaber is Blue

Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.

What Colored Lightsaber Would You Have?
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:: 2005 19 May :: 6.40 pm

Telemarketers Anonymous


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