:: 2003 18 November :: 3.25 pm

I like someone other than Chris!! OMG

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:: 2003 17 November :: 7.11 pm

hey all, I wish more people would talk to me!

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:: 2003 15 November :: 11.29 pm

BabyAngel0411: are u okay now?
Trailblazer12345: no god damnit
Trailblazer12345: stop
BabyAngel0411: what
BabyAngel0411: what the hell is ur problem.
Trailblazer12345: i want my g/f back thats what my problem is
BabyAngel0411: Mike, I am sorry for asking, I just don't want you to do anything stupid and i don't want you to hurt urself. I care about you and your feelings and I try and talk to you but when I do you get mad and yell at me and I don't like it. I understand you want Amanda back and u have to give her time and thats what she needs.
Trailblazer12345: thats it
Trailblazer12345: im going to do it tonight then
BabyAngel0411: do what?
Trailblazer12345: this time im not lieing
Trailblazer12345: die
Trailblazer12345: do i have to do it over the phone
BabyAngel0411: Mike stop, people care about you and love for you are. One person can't bring u down. Sometimes you have to make decisions that ur not gonna like and you have to accept it. Listen, I may be only 16 but I know it feels. It hurts. I think the reason she wants to take it slow. I try and talk to you and tell you how it feels. Mike, please don't hurt urself cuz then u will hurt all of us and make Amanda feel as if it is her fault. We all care and u don't understand we do a lot.
Trailblazer12345: bull shit
Trailblazer12345: im not playing anymore no one takes me serious anymore
BabyAngel0411: I am serious, Mike I am taking u very serious.
Trailblazer12345: well mandy doesent
Trailblazer12345: no one fucking does
BabyAngel0411: Don't let Mandy pull u down.
Trailblazer12345: im goingto
Trailblazer12345: im sorry
BabyAngel0411: Ur become depressed, and I don't want u to hurt urself. Cuz I care. I don't like the fact you want to pull urself down. I care I really do. Mike, u have to face the fact. Mandy does love you, just give her time.
Trailblazer12345: she doesent
Trailblazer12345: ok
BabyAngel0411: She does, alot. U don't think she does and she does. More than u could think.
Trailblazer12345: how the fuck do u know
BabyAngel0411: cuz I talked to her after she unblocked u
Trailblazer12345: whatever your lieing
BabyAngel0411: I don't lie. Lieing is a sin.
BabyAngel0411: She wouldn't have unblocked u if she didn't love you. She cares about you. I care about you, I may not knoe you well, but I care!
Trailblazer12345: she doeesnet
BabyAngel0411: Yes she does.
BabyAngel0411: Believe me.
BabyAngel0411: trust me
BabyAngel0411: Mike
BabyAngel0411: Mike, please stop.
BabyAngel0411: This is bullshit
Trailblazer12345: noonono=-no-nko
BabyAngel0411: what
BabyAngel0411: Mike, stop.
BabyAngel0411: I don't know, why u are doing this?
Trailblazer12345: cause i love her
Trailblazer12345: dont u understand
Trailblazer12345: its over
BabyAngel0411: I know
Trailblazer12345: im done
Trailblazer12345: i have the knife
BabyAngel0411: I do understnad
BabyAngel0411: Mike, fuckin stop bein IMMATURE. SAYING UR GOING TO KILL URSELF. ALL YOU ARE DOING IS MAKING AMANDA FEEL LIKE ITS HER FAULT.
Trailblazer12345: no im going to do it
Trailblazer12345: ok
Trailblazer12345: ive tried it befoe
Trailblazer12345: im going to make it happen this time
BabyAngel0411: WHATEVER, WHEN U DO. THATS UR FAULT. I TRIED TO HELP YOU BUT U DIDN'T FUCKIN LISTEN TO ME. BE IMMATURE AND EVERYONE WILL KNOW THAT U CAN'T CALM DOWN AND LET THINGS GO SLOW.
Trailblazer12345: no
Trailblazer12345: im so worked up right now
BabyAngel0411: mike, what can I do for you to please you? like asking amanda if she will take you back or what?
BabyAngel0411: ?????
Trailblazer12345: stop ok
BabyAngel0411: I am tryin to help you.
BabyAngel0411: but u won't listen cuz u want to kill urself over one tiny thing
Trailblazer12345: u think its tiny
Trailblazer12345: u know how happy shes made me
Trailblazer12345: huh do u
Trailblazer12345: god damnit
BabyAngel0411: then why did u screw it up?



WOW!! I HATE BEIN IN THE MIDDLE OF THINGS LIKE THIS!!!

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:: 2003 6 November :: 9.11 pm

Why does Cedar Springs have to be so dramatic? That pisses me off! If u want to know why I ask, ask me!

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:: 2003 6 November :: 9.06 pm

People are so done.

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:: 2003 5 November :: 9.29 pm
:: Mood: angry

It's nice how I get yelled at by Jacki when I didn't do shit. That pisses me off and now I am gonna blow a fuckin top cuz I am sick of it. I didn't do shit to Jacki and I get bitched at about all that shit. I wish people would stop talkin shit and tell people I said shit and I didn't. Well, g2g!

Janice

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:: 2003 3 November :: 9.59 pm

Haven't said anything in here in a while! Some things are good now and some things are bad. I can't wait for Sunday because I get to bowl with my dad and then I get to see Chris which is awesome. Anyway, school is okay. My grades are good and I am passing I am not failing. Halloween was fun, even though I had like 6 people scare me in that night which kinda sucked. So, how is everyone? Chris and I are doing okay and I am glad that he said what he said to me cuz if he didn't then I would have a emotional breakdown. Chris said that he wanted to be with me forever and marry me. Jacki I missed you so much. I am glad u are better!

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:: 2003 2 November :: 6.45 pm

This weekend sucked!

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:: 2003 29 October :: 8.11 pm

My cousins moved in with me today and now they are stayin at my house startin tonight. Chris and I are gonna hang out for Halloween and its gonna be awesome. Anyway, whats been up with everyone!

Janice

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:: 2003 22 October :: 9.17 pm

o0o Janice is lucky, some guy named Matt likes her and he is in college!! o0o!!! I am sooo happy!

Haha, are any of you happy for me?

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:: 2003 21 October :: 9.24 pm
:: Mood: blank

Well, I went at got my glasses fixed today and now they are not crooked. Then, umm...I came home and did my homework and got it all done. I took a nap and thought about Chris for the rest of the time and since then I am watchin the baseball game! GO YANKS!!!! Anyway, Heather I am sorry about your mom, I wish I could help you and I really can't.

I miss my life, my old life!

Who hates me and who likes me?

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:: 2003 12 October :: 9.16 pm

I need to know who is going to my house this weekend? I need to know though! I can't wait for it this weekend. Hehe, I had a good weekend I went to KahunaVille with Val, Neil, and Chris and Val and I were on that dancin game, oh my god was it fun!

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:: 2003 10 October :: 9.40 pm

Three things that scare me:
1:	My mom
2:	My dad
3:	My Boyfriend
Three people who make me laugh:
1:	Chris
2:	Mike Dunmire
3:	Heather
Three Things I love:
1:	Chris Oles
2:	Sex
3:	Babies
Three Things I hate:
1:	Punks
2:	Goths
3:	Stupid People
Three things I don't understand:
1:	Me
2:	Life
3:	School
Three things on my desk:
1:	My school Pics
2:	Phone
3:	Paper Weight
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:	Looking at the computer
2:	Reading
3:	Talking
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:	Get married
2:	Have Kids
3:	Get smashed (Drunk really bad)
Three things I can do:
1:	Have Sex
2:	Eat Gum
3:	Back up the shit I say
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:	Funny
2:	Bitchy
3:	Sad
Three things I can't do:
1:	play an instrument
2:	do 4 things at once
3:	talk on the phone and read

Three Things brought to you by BZOINK!

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:: 2003 7 October :: 9.42 pm

Hi

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:: 2003 6 October :: 9.50 pm

I think I made a mistake! I don't know but I think I did. @ my party I am a free women!

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