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:: 2004 12 May :: 10.15 pm
:: Mood: cold

Hurt me
Here I am
Rape me
Let me live
Rip away
Here to stay
Hate to feel
Never real
Never true
I hate you.
Killing light
Hate tonight
In your eyes
Never rise

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:: 2004 7 May :: 6.34 pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: Brother//Alice in Chains

I am... ready to go out with my friends. To that place... something I won't ever do again. I'm relieved. I'm over all the clique-ness... can't wait for summer.
Next week will kick ass.
The week after will kill x.x.
Tomorrow is six flags! I'm very excited. It's always fun :D.
Magz' house now with the bubble gang... lol.

More INTERESTING updates later. Ta!

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:: 2004 4 May :: 6.48 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: what the hell have I/alice in chains

Your paradise illusion-- Keep it close, don't fall apart

Don't Forget Me

:: 2004 2 May :: 9.10 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Over Now-Alice in Chains

In a land where apologies don't exist, you can never make mistakes.

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:: 2004 1 May :: 7.05 pm
:: Mood: Giggly//hyper
:: Music: APC songs ~.~

Woop woop
My hair! Has been dyed. It's darkest brown, and it glints black. woop woop =) I do love it. My parents WILL murder me, though. HAHAHA. They aren't going to be back till tomorrow night *.*

People, people!
If you don't go there... you're missing out. Muchly.

I got motion sickness from reading in a chair yesterday. XD.

Off to the movies with my free pass [score] today, avec brandi et laurel. Aussi, le sleep-over a chez brandi. Tres choutte!

My ears hurt =/ But, otherwise.. wonderful, white-cold weather and peacefulness.

Pictures of my newly dyed yed later.

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:: 2004 30 April :: 9.20 pm
:: Mood: nauseated
:: Music: Crossroads-Cream

the way it sturred me up
Ooook.... a bunch of updates here.

At the bookstore, I was reading girl, interrupted... (which by the way, is the second book I read today following "echo") I kept getting these weird hallucinations that my body was pulsing or I was jumping or something.. even though I was sitting in my chair. Then the pages started quivering and I couldn't tell if I was imagining it or not.
So weird.

I don't need to go into details in two different journals.

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:: 2004 29 April :: 5.25 pm
:: Mood: average
:: Music: People Hate Me-Murderdolls

[people hate me//murderdolls]
And people hate me, cause I'm better than you
And people hate me, and that's the motherfucking truth
People hate me, and you can all fuck off
I'm perfect, pissed off, beautiful, I'm god

They are so distant, they don't know true hate...
They are so naive, they don't know true tears

And if I could I would take your hell and enjoy it...

I'm in a fine mood, everyone... how strange of me! Heh.. woot. My new lj layout is pretty awesome.

Have you ever met someone who's felt so much pain that it makes you feel innocent... and guilty?

Damn the outline

seriously, I had an averagely good day. I just listened to my ipod in every class. And slept.
I love finishing the fucking standardized test in twenty minutes, while the time given is three hours. Mmhmm =].

Can't wait.

Don't Forget Me

:: 2004 28 April :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: Apathetic
:: Music: Down In A Hole//Alice in Chains

Longing for

Party at Julia's. Hell yes. FREEDOM!

The plan...
Friday>> Arbor with Brandi and Kae, bookstore, buying hair dye
Saturday>>Jackie's at Lake Travis, people coming over to my house and us doing whatever we want wherever.. oh yes. Dying my hair. >=]
Sunday>>Maybe the thing with the place; guitar lesson, movie

Kristen, you might like this...

Lol. I just cut that out because I don't want to offend anyone. Talk to me later.

Here's another clip though...
Adam Carolla: "How tall are you?"
Caller: "Uhh.. 5'12", almost 6 foot"


I still want --- muchly. Muchly. I need to think of something.


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:: 2004 27 April :: 6.59 pm
:: Mood: Aggravated
:: Music: People Hate Me-Murderdolls

Mmm. I'm sick of updating and emailing ^^; should've started with this.

TAKS and people who are just plain stupid not leaving me alone today =).
THEY are going out of town this weekend!

Saw a chick flick last night with Arie. It was alright. I never get to pick the movie anyone ever goes to.. so whatever. =];

I wonder why your's are horizontal and mine are vertical... *goes of dazed looking to ponder*


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:: 2004 25 April :: 9.54 pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Slit My Wrist-Murderdolls

I kept a promise o.o
I'm so glad there's one promise I can say I didn't break. I don't really make promises, in general, but... mmhmm..
Makes me think.
I really like Murderdolls. *-*
My fave song of theirs remains "I Take Drugs." LOL. Kick ass.

The words won't come out the right way
It's the same again today
My only wish is that you'd stay
Never stray, never stray
Be my truth

Ay. Decisions, decisions. I can't wait till I get my fucking allowance... 5 days till I have a plan. ::grins:: Twill be awesome.

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:: 2004 25 April :: 7.54 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: angry chair- alice in chains

If I'm left behind, I don't know what I'll do.
It burns.

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:: 2004 24 April :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: My head hurts
:: Music: Led Zeppelin

My head hurts x.x
My head hurts.
Ay, now you know! Heh. Gahh.. I need for my head to stop hurting x.x...
Watching Almost Famous. o.0
Abortion?: Yes.
Death Penalty?: It's terrible, uncivilized, and just fucking wrong.
Prostitution?: Sure? If you want to.
Alcohol?: Be careful. Age restriction should be 18.
Marijuana?: Sure. Be careful.
Other drugs?: o.0 I wouldn't inject anything into myself, though. be careful.
Gay marriage?: Yup.
Illegal immigrants?: Yes.
Smoking?: Eh. If you want to.
Drunk driving?: It sucks.
Cloning?: For People? If the clone's gunna have a normal life like a uh.. non-clone o.o.
Racism?: Wrong.
Premarital sex?: Why not? =)
Religion?: Should be respected. But, no one should ever try to convince someone to believe something or tell them something is wrong because their religion says.. *sigh*
The war in Iraq?: Bullshit.
Bush?: Lying fuck up.
Downloading music?: I download. So shoot me.
The legal drinking age?: 18.
Porn?: ...don't care
Suicide?: I can't keep up with everyone's suicide attempts.... *sigh*

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:: 2004 24 April :: 6.46 pm
:: Mood: Apathetic

Porcelian Masks
Last night was horrid, then wonderful, and eventually looped back to even worse. Mm. As well as this morning. =P I can't figure it out.. maybe I have a dependancy. o.0 or not.

Finished "Ecstasia." Awesome book.
Same thing as lj.. this poem by Francesca Lia Block is really great, though. =D

If I were a needle
I'd put love into your veins
If I were a needle
I'd take away the pain
If I were a wish
I'd grant myself to you
If I were a dream
I'd make myself come true

If I had a wish
I'd make the dying end
If I had a wish
It would be childhood here again
If I had a wish
Love would be safe and pure

I have a wish
It's for a cure.

=)). It's been raining on and off since last night... awesome.
It's awful how I meant those words...

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:: 2004 23 April :: 11.17 pm
:: Mood: carefree
:: Music: Them Bones-Alice in Chains

Breezy breeze
Lotsa new piccys! Check em out. =)))
Kristen is so gorgy *-* ::dizzy::
I just love this, Kris.

Felt shitty, then went to Arbor with Brandi and Kae. Had fun. =).
Brandi bought a hamster, I changed my mind and bought ice cream at amy's, [amy's is fucking awesome] went to the bookstore, hung in the park. We were a sight to see, people.. LOL.

Ay, did you know that the fake food in pottery barn is REAL?! Omfg.. I tried some and it was really good. I wish I'd gotten more. *-*

No waiting...
I'll be safe soon. *-*

Reading: Ecstasia. Awesome. Francesca Lia Block is definitely amazing.

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:: 2004 23 April :: 8.24 am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Dirt-Alice in Chains

rise the stars
Bookstore today.
Brandi n I may be getting pets today ^.^ Cuz we're so weird. And we're writing a duck story. XD someday.
I feel safe.
You know, crazy people can be pretty smart, just evil. Lol. @.@
I haven't been on aim for a while.
I've been overly tired for about a week. Can't do anything but lie around, literally... and I actually sleep. my tummy hurts x.x

well anyway =) <333

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