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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 21 May :: 10.08pm

Lookie guys..
I can make a spade!

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 21 May :: 8.00pm

I need HELP...

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 21 May :: 6.03pm

Ya know ...
Of all the other girls, why the fuck did I have to be the one responsible?

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 21 May :: 5.25pm

Bryan's trial was today ...

Me and Mom didn't know anything about it. Jeff has known for about two weeks.
My attourney had told Jeff that Me or Mom had needed to be there and he told her No and that we didn't need to go through that right now.
So he did it for us...
Earlier, Pam called (Attourney's Secretary) and she told Mom that we were lucky to have him and that we had no idea how much he loves us.
She said when Jeff got onto the stand, they argued a lot with him to see if he'd change his story.

He didn't.

Pam said eventually, he got really mad and told everybody that Bryan had torn his family apart.

Jeff and I don't have a good relationship and to know that he stayed there the whole time and went through all that so Mom and I wouldn't have to means more to me than anything probably ever has.
And for people to call and tell us how much Jeff loves us ...

Bryan got 30 years in prison. He can try for parole after 15 years.
They said Bryan's family was there and he cried a lot through it. The Psychiatrist found him Sane ...

Ya know ... he had a really bad life growing up. SOMEBODY should have helped him.
Why didn't anybody help him?

I really just wish that I could tell him I'm sorry ...
or fucking FIX it all.
And I can't.

In 30 years, he'll be 53.
His life is nothing.

I just ruined somebody's life ...
-_-;

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 21 May :: 2.41pm

Went shopping with Grandma today ...
Got some Jeans and Some shorts a nice carton of cigarettes so I can fill my lungs with a shitload of tar before I have to stop smoking.

DUDE. X_X!
Lynyrd Skynyrd is gonna be at Wild Adventures June 5! And I was supposed to go to Wild Adventures somewhere around there but I think we'll be in Jacksonville then.
My poor little heart has broken to pieces :( *sniffle*
I am forever undoomed.

*sigh*

I finally got my notebooks today. I can start writing my Journal entries into the notebooks so I'll always have it.
Lots and lots of writing...
But at least it'll keep me busy.

We're going to Valdosta for the flea market thingy for the weekend tomorrow.

I'm determind to buy the Kurt Cobain shirt I've been wanting forever sometime within the next week.
So I can wear him and gaze at him all day...

Ahhhhh... He's so pretty :)

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 20 May :: 8.37pm

Everybody always leaves...

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 20 May :: 5.40pm

Kinda sad how when you're almost ready to completely give up, the most perfect thing walks into your life.
You're so happy and you don't understand HOW it could have happened to you.
Then, within a matter of days, it's gone.

And you'd be stupid to think it would have been there forever.

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 20 May :: 5.38pm

Thunder... =)

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 19 May :: 11.30pm

Brandon's hair is gone.... =(

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 19 May :: 11.03pm

I was helping Diana and Grandma clean out their storage today and we ran across my Great Grandma's Jewerly box. I found two really old skeleton keys inside =)
Grandma said we were giving the jewelry box to Mom so I took one of the keys out and put it on my necklace.
I asked Grandma what it might be to and she said it might have been Grace's house key when she was little.

Yayness =)
*Excitment*
'Tis mine FOREVER. ;D

I went to the dollar store today. hehe... I found a bag of Kiddi Pops that I didn't think I could live without. The lollipops looked gigantic but they're really only about the size of a Blow Pop. I don't understand why they have such gigantic wrappers but they're nifty lookin'. I sent one to Brandon =)

Why do they call blue suckers "Blue Raspberry"? Why don't they just call them BLUEBERRY?
That will forever remain a mystery to me.
*sigh*

Mom told me she called The Music Box to see if Marcus would do a tattoo for her. They said he left a few months ago =(
Sadness...
I had big plans for Marcus when I turned 18. He was doing ALL of my tattoos. He just didn't know it.
They told mom that it would probably cost around 300-500 dollars to do a tattoo that would cover all the scars on her arm.
Jeff said tattoos are "trashy" though so I'm sure there's gonna be a giant argument.

Tra la laaaaa... FUCK Jeff.
Ehness.

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 17 May :: 11.13pm

Mom's firefighting chief is in Jail. Sexual assault against his 8 year old step daughter.
I guess the story is that his step daughter got pissed off at him because he grounded her or something and she went and told her mom he was sexually abusing her.
If she's lying, she just fucked up his whole career and probably his life for him.

*sigh*

He never seemed like one to do that.

Mom said they were all out somewhere and they were wearing their Potter County shirts and some people came up to them and asked if all potter county fire fighters liked to molest little girls.
They all have to be careful about what they wear now.

That was probably the one person Mom looked up to in the whole world. When she would drink, she'd hold her pager really close to her and listen to them all go on call. Then, she'd cry and she'd tell me "I want to be just like him..."
And now he's in jail for Sexual Assault.

Pretty pathetic...

I'd like to believe he didn't do it though.

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 17 May :: 4.53pm

People are fucking morons.

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 17 May :: 1.25am

Okay... I've decided.
Andrew is eval and he's never coming back to talk to me.

Because like I said. He's eval.

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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 16 May :: 8.18pm

The Perks of being a Wallflower
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year that Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that aws the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.


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collageof-frozenfear

:: 2004 16 May :: 12.51am

I'm getting SO fucking sick of this shit...

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