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:: 2005 26 November :: 7.57 pm

I’m like really tired and its like only 10 to 8:00, that’s kinda sad. Just got back from Kerri’s. She’s leaving tomorrow… blah. We pretty much did nothing, then KJ stopped by, then she left, then we went to mee-jers, got ice cream and slushy's, then… nothing, then I went home. I was suposta go shopping with Ashley, but that kinda went down the drain. Anyways: I know how lame this sounds, but I think im gunna go to bed lol.

<3 K

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:: 2005 22 November :: 8.50 pm
:: Mood: Tired... Again.
:: Music: Hey Mama- Kanye West

Im Really Tired*
I just got home from hanging out with Ashley. We went to Alpine and went to the book store for like 3 hours lol. They have some pretty school stuff there… besides books lol. Then we went to Olive Garden. I pretty much ate like a pig, lol jk. I had… Fettuccini Alfrado, mmmmmh. It was funny cuz we went there wanting to get the soup and salad for whatever it is… $5.79 or whatever they advertise it for, and like before I could even say how much is the soup and salad, our waiter like read my mind and was like its $8.00. I was like oooohkay then. Then she like looks at me and Ash and was like do u need help with the menu, lol. We were like uuuhh no, lol. Then on our way back to Ashley’s, (I kinda think this was a had to be there thing) but earlier when we were leaving the book store Ashley was telling me how at school she always like almost gets run over and I was like ‘by cars?’ and Ashley was like ‘No, by cows!’ lol, so yeah on our way back to Ashley’s we were talking about how I should dress up like a cow and run her over and I was laughing so hard that I could like hardly drive. And I showed her that paint spill on Shaner. Every time I go by it I like crack up. Anyways: so yeah nothing to exciting for you guys to read but I had a fun night and that’s all that really matters lol.


Ya Know: Im Really Starting To Not Like You Anymore*

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:: 2005 21 November :: 9.35 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Heard Em Say- Kanye West

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:: 2005 17 November :: 9.53 pm
:: Mood: Surprisingly Happy*

What A Day!
Today was.... totally unpredictable.

This morning was like the worst morning ever. But then it got a little bit better, then it was horrible again… but then the afternoon was wonderful.

I drove to Kerrilynn’s today after school and staid there from like 3:30-9:00, and her dad cooked us all dinner and stuff. Little Katherine hung out with Kerri and I, and watched Charlie & the Chocolate Factory with us. I’ve fallen in love with that family.<3

Haha- Today during 1st hour me and Jess sat in there for like 20 minutes just catching up on like... EVERYTHING. We should so do that more often;) lol jk.

Im Not The Only One Who Thinks Im Making The Right Decision.

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:: 2005 12 November :: 11.17 pm
:: Mood: tired

So I just got home from hanging out with Brie.

Honestly: It Sucked.

Just Kidding. It was actually a lot of fun. I really didn’t think I was gunna have so much fun with doing nothing. We just went to the bowling ally… then had to leave because there wasn’t any open. So we went to subway… and the guys there thought we were like high and asked us if we were ok because we were laughing so hard and couldn’t stop. Then we went back to the bowling ally and played 2 games even though we only paid for one. We still don’t know how though. But it doesn’t matter lol. Then we just went back to her house then I left. Nothing to exciting but I still had a blast. I don’t think if laughed that hard in a while.

On other notes: school, grades wise, is going way down. And still trying to figure out what’s going on with my better half. She comes home on Wednesday so I’m really excited to see her. I hope that she’s ok. Everyone who prays: please keep her in your prayers even though u PROBABLY don’t know her.



I just realized its Saturday. I said nothing about Friday. Again: had a blast with the lovely AshMeg. I <3 her. I went and picked her up from play practice, well actually I got a sneak peak cuz I got to watch most of it. Its coming cool Becky (sp) is perfect for her part that’s all I have to say. (not in a mean way… she just fits that which perfectly with her voice and everything lol) then we went to Alpine and Ash got 2 ‘Gossip Girls’ books and some photo printer paper. Then we just went to Ashley’s dads house and spent the night there. Ashleys dad is so nice. He gave me gas some money and like filled up my tank. Well anyways so then today (well this morning) Ashley practiced driving and then I ended up driving her car down to Ball and Leonard at that A OK place to help her practice for her test cuz they like set up cones there and everything. Then me and Ashley went to Fred’s Pizza on Plainfield. (of course Ashley’s dad paid for it again- he’s so nice). Then I just dropped Ashley off at home and went home and got ready to hang out with Brie. So yeah this was a really long entry and most people don’t read this anyways so… yeah.


Wakey Wakey... Eggs And Bakeyyy

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:: 2005 8 November :: 7.34 pm
:: Mood: shocked

Sometimes... Life Just Sucks.
I Just Got A Phone Call That I Really Didnt Want.

Sometimes I Wonder Why Things Happen For A Reason... Especially When You Dont Know What The Reason Is.

Why Does God Punish The People Who Least Deserve It? And Why Is It With Something So Life Changing!?

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:: 2005 5 November :: 2.56 pm
:: Mood: giddy

Who's Driving On The Road?! ME!

Yes... I Am Driving, So Stay Away



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:: 2005 28 October :: 10.15 pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Break Down Here- JR

Who's Birthday Is In 4 Day?!

Yup: *MINE*

Damn Stright Fools: Its Almost Here.

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:: 2005 23 October :: 12.11 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Since You've Been Gone- KC

i dont mean a thing to you, you've made that perfectly clear.

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:: 2005 18 October :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: [My Humps- BEP]

[Why Cant It Just Be Friday?]
I just got back from shopping with the lovely Kari Ann. It was fun. I <3 hanging out with her. She makes me giggle.

Has anyone felt like yesterday or today feels like Friday? Yesterday felt so much like a Friday, and today KINDA did.

So yesterday after school I went to Jordan’s, Duh. We had a Disney day. We watched Aristocats (sp). I loved it. I named my fish, well its not MY fish because its in her fish tank, but I got to name it. I names it Tulus (sp) from the kitty on Aristocats. I love Jordan. She’s like the only one that I would watch a Disney movie like that with and not feel retarded at laughing at the movie.

So yeah this weekend: probably the Forest Of Fear with Brianna and Jordan and more then likely Joey and Dan… Mmm well maybe I shouldn’t go. Kinda seems like 5th wheel to me but idk. I’ll figure it out lol.

Always: Saturday is my DrIvErS tEsT. Im scared shitless. Pray for me!

<3 .kell$.

*14 Days*

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:: 2005 16 October :: 12.54 pm
:: Music: Gold Digger- K. West

This weekend has been so much fun. I hung out with AshMeg and Lisa. Friday: Me and Jordan went to my house and we both got ready for whatever we were doing, then Jord brought me to Ashley's then Lisa came and picked us up and we all went to the game in Sparta. Then Lisa brought me and Ashley back to Ashley's, while she hung out with Chris. She didn't get back to Ashley's until like 2 in the morning so me and Ash were sleeping lol. Then Saturday morning all 3 of us went to Big Boy for breakfast. After that Lisa brought me home and i got ready for The Haunt. A bunch of people went. Kourtney and Justin, Megan and Luke, Emily, Brittney, ETC. I was suppose to to meet Brianna there too, but when i finally found her everyone was yelling at her for cutting. It was friggen one person but whatever lol. (Sorry Brie). Then the whole group went to the Corner Bar and ate, then after that Megan brought me and Ash back to the car pool so that Lisa could drive us home, but Lisa has a game today so she went home. And today: Me and Ash are just gunna watch movies and eat all this food her mom just bought lol. So yeah this weekend was so much fun. Its kinda nice to hang out with everyone that i did, sense i don't really hang out with different people that much, I'm usually just with Jordan (*Not Saying That I Don't Love You Jordan*). I was suposta see her(Jord) at the Haunt but they decided not to go. So yeah that was my lovely weekend. I have so much fun with Ashley. Shes so funny.


*Comment.... It Makes Me Happy*

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:: 2005 3 October :: 9.48 pm
:: Mood: excited

Woot Woot

- - DaYs- -



[B i R t H d A y]

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:: 2005 22 September :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson- I Hate Myself For Losing You

Questions To Ask Yourself*
In Order To Gain Yourself, Are You Willing To Lose Yourself?

If You Think Life Is Hard, What Are You Comparing It To?

Why Be Afraid Of Something You Want?

Is It True That You Have To See It Believe It, Or Rather, Do You Have To Believe It Before You Can See It?

If You Don’t Have All The Things You Want, Are You Grateful For All The Things You Don’t Have That You Don’t Want?

What Would You Attempt If You Knew You Couldn’t Fail?

If Not Now... When?

Can You Really Live Life Without Loving Life? And Can You Love Life Without Living Life?

Do You Let Yesterday Use Up To Much Of Today?

Do You Treat Love As A Noun Or Verb?

If What’s In Your Dreams Wasn’t Already Inside Of You, How Could You Ever Dream It?

What Good Has Worrying Ever Done?

Who Are “They” Who Hold So Much Power In Our Lives?

Have You Begun Today What You Wish To Be Tomorrow?

Do You Have Enough Risks In Your Life To Stay ALIVE?

Are You Making New Mistakes Or The Same Old Ones?

What Would You Think About If You Were Not Taught What To Think?

If You Give All Your Love Away, What Do You Have Left?

Is It Really Always Better To Be Safe, Then Sorry?

Where Do You Draw The Line Between Possible And Impossible?

Do You Love Everybody You Say You Love?

How Do You Want To Be Remembered?

Will You Ever Really Know How Brave You Truly Are?

How Far Would You Go To Chase What You Really Want?

If You Had 5 Minutes To Live, Who Would You Call?... Why Are You Waiting Till Then?

Is Not Every End, A New Beginning?

Maybe We Should Start Over From Scratch... But Where’s That?

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:: 2005 21 September :: 6.49 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Crazy- Natalie

My Birthdays Coming Up:)
*(41 Days Till My Birthday)*

Today was ok. I have a Algebra 2 test tomorrow... Eek. So I have to study for that. Lost is on tonight... 2 hours long though. Lee and Rachael brought me to Jordan‘s today after school. I guess she was busy, so I was there by myself. Then my mom picked me up and we weren’t and dropped off a couple more applications. I have a interview on Monday for Little Ceasers. Not the biggest or best job, but it’s a start and I really need one. I’m kinda excited, wish me luck everyone! Other then that, nothing really to exciting. I’m doing pretty good in school so far, I’m kinda excited about that lol. Even though its only been like 3 weeks, but so far its pretty easy stuff. (knocks on wood). Homecoming is coming up. I don’t even have a dress yet, eek. Im going shopping with my mommy this weekend. I’m happy about that. Gotta love shopping with mom’s, especially mine. She’s so funny when we go shopping. Anyways that’s all I really got. Leave some comments!

'Ill Be Your Best Kept Secret And Your Biggest Mistake'

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:: 2005 11 September :: 7.22 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Black Eyed Peas- My Humps

So this weekend, boring. Friday I actually got a day to myself. It was nice. Then Saturday and Sunday I had to baby-sit. Now- I’m home. Getting ready for school tomorrow. I really don’t like school already and its only the beginning of the second week. I guess that’s kinda normal though. I’m only scared about 2 classes this year, Algebra 2 and Literature. Algebra 2 is really easy so far but I’m just waiting for the hard stuff to come cuz I know its coming. Lit, the only reason why I’m scared about that class is because so far Mrs. Eilola seems really really strict about everything so far.

Today was a good day: I got a letter in the mail today from Ashley and it was the cutest thing ever. I miss her.

I’m so dreading tomorrow. Big Bad Monday, Yay (not really).

I still cant friggen wait till November. I can just tell already that November is going to be the best month.

I’m going shopping with my mom in 2 weekends! I miss my mom too.

I miss a lot of people.

Hmm... Well Face-It meeting this Wednesday but that’s all I got planned for this week except for... homework. (it feels weird saying that)

Oh summer- how I miss you already.

*51 Days Till My Birthday*

Its September 11th Today, Say A Prayer Tonight.

*What You Gunna Do With All That Junk, All That Junk Inside That Truck* (Funny Funny Song)

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:: 2005 4 September :: 2.08 am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson- Hear Me*

Yay For November!!!
Ok So I've Realized Today... That *November* This Year, Is Going To Be Great lol.

A Lot Of My Friends Birthdays Are In November... Like *Tia *Robin *Amanda *Jess- And I'm Sure There's Others.

AND TOTALLY MY BIRTHDAY! Not Only Is It My Birthday, But My Sweet 16, So I Can ((FINALLY)) Drive.

PLUS: This November Is The 'Fall Out Boy' Concert

Also: Thanksgiving... Yay. Who Can Turn Down That Holiday... FOOD!

And Kerrilynn Comes Home Too. (Big YAY)

ANNNNNNND: Its Closer To Christmas. (HHHEECKK YESSS)

Well- And (This Is Kinda Way Out There) But You Have Like A Bunch Of Candy From Halloween.

So Yeah- I'm Dedicating This Entry To This Up Coming November... I CANT WAIT!


Also, The Wonderful Ashley's Birthday.

(How Did I Forget That, Its Both Our Sweet Sixteen's YAY Finally)

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:: 2005 30 August :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson- Because Of You

Nothing really exciting has happened.

Sunday night I went to Jordans, and then we went to orientation the next day. Which of course… dumb. I have the same locker and same locker combination as last year. We start school next Tuesday. Yay, not really.

I think tomorrow: Jordan and I are going to Club Revolution, and maybe ‘job hunting’ in Cedar and Rockford. I guess it all depends.

I cant wait till I can drive, ug. Everything would be so much easier, and I wouldn’t be so bored all the time. Oh well- my time will come.

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:: 2005 23 August :: 12.58 pm
:: Mood: Grateful And Blessed
:: Music: Latley- Samantha Mumba

I Dont Want To Love You If You Dont Love Me
I Dont Want To Need You, When You Wont Need Me Too
I Dont Want To Care About You If You Dont Care About Me
You Say That You Need Me, But You Dont Show Me.


Im So Grateful For You. What Would I Do Without You?


I Wanna Know What Your All About, Please Dont Turn Your Back On Me

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:: 2005 17 August :: 12.58 pm
:: Mood: jealous

[How I Feel... Within A Song]
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs

Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place

She's lost inside

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:: 2005 15 August :: 1.42 pm
:: Mood: confused

[i need you]
Even Though Your Always There For Me When I Need You...

Your Never "Really" Here.

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:: 2005 6 August :: 5.33 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

[Shit Happens]
Best friends are so over rated sometimes, because most of the time… they end up betraying you a number of times or you get in a fight and you stop talking… and I’m sure there’s a billion other things out there of why ‘best’ friends aren’t friends anymore.

But thankfully, I know who are my friends and who are my best friends and luckily I only I have 2 I have to keep tabs on lol.

I hate it how people think that just because your best friends with someone, means that you talk to them all the time and you hang out all the time, because that’s not true. I have the bestest friend ever- but I hardly ever see her. It just bugs me when people question stuff like that. She happens to be the best person I know, which really also sucks because we don’t really get to hang out a lot. (I miss you like you wouldn’t believe)

But thankfully (also), my other best friend, that I love to pieces and even though sometimes we both want to strangle each other, I do see all the time and hang out with… normally lol. She means the world to me, and I love how honest we are with each other about everything. I think the best thing about our friendship, that I really haven’t seen a lot of with other peoples friendships is that when we fight… 5 seconds later were talking and laughing again. We just yell at each other then, start laughing about it. (except for one fight that I can think of).

I just hope that everyone out there knows who their true friends are. And make sure you keep them, because I know that I’ve had a lot of best friends before in the past that I thought we would still be friends too. So just make sure that you work hard at your friendships… there not something worth throwing away over a fight or something dumb like that.

Words Of Hope?

:: 2005 28 July :: 12.27 am

Fuck This...

& Fuck You.

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:: 2005 18 July :: 1.32 am
:: Music: Kelly Clarkson- Hear Me

...Oh Boy....
I’m so happy. I’ve been hanging out with everyone I missed like a lot lol.

Jordan came and picked me up on… Friday I think… and Friday we went and spent the night at Kevin’s. It was me, Kevin, Jordan, Joey, Lee, Rachael (sp) was there for awhile, Chris and I think that’s it, until we all just went to bed at like 4-5 in the morning lol. Then the next day me and Jordan left and went to great day to get some gosh dang food lol, then went back over to Kevin’s lol. Then went back the next day again to wake them up because it was 2:00 in the afternoon and they were sleeping. So pretty much to make a long story short I’ve been hanging out with Jordan, Joey, Kevin and Lee and here and there other people a lot the past 4 days lol. We all went to the beach today… Amy’s birthday party… but by the time we got there it wasn’t really a party anymore lol, so we all (me, Jordan, Kevin, Joey, Amy Mercer, Josh Gates, Amy’s cousin Danielle, Dan Krieter (sp), and Lee) all went over to Grand Haven cuz we were at Muskegon, but then we… left lol. And then got back at about exactly 12:00 lol.

I’m glad I’m hanging out with all my friends now again. I was kind of just sitting there at my house feeling sorry for myself for awhile lol, but hey its all good now. So yeah now me and Jordan are just… not tired at all so were up… like losers lol. So yeah that’s all I really got…

So yeah… bye lol.

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:: 2005 11 July :: 10.49 pm
:: Mood: lonely

I Miss My Friends....

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:: 2005 3 July :: 10.07 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: We Belong Together

Yay, Im Home... Well Kinda.
Im Home, Finally. Im Not Really Home Home Right Now, But Im Not At Camp Anymore. Right When I Got Home I Had To Babysit, So I Havent Really Been Home Yet. Im All By Myself At Someone Else's House From Saturday Morning- Monday Night. Eh- Oh Well Im Getting Paid *GGGGGGOOOOOODDD* lol. Anyways I Just Want To Say Thank You To Everyone Who Wrote Me.

So... Thank You :)

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