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just_peachie

:: 2007 19 October :: 11.05am

So, this weekend should be pretty good. Leaving for central at 2, then me, Katie, and Brian are going to Brian's parents house for a weekend long slumber party! Oh and of course, plenty of partying at MSU! Kara and Sam are coming out Saturday. Should be oodles of fun!

Aaron is out in Cali right now with his sis, then he's going to Alabama, and hopefully he's coming home. I miss him!

In other news, my mom had her monthly check up at Henry Ford Hospital yesterday. For those of who are still in the dark, my mom finally got her liver transplant, actually on my birthday of this year. The appointment brought good news, they're starting to back down the steroids. Everything seems to be looking a little bit on the bright side! Have a fun weekend kiddies!

Words Of Hope?


just_peachie

:: 2007 15 October :: 11.48pm
:: Mood: exhausted

so I was stumbling like a fool across the internet, bored with facebook and myspace, and all of a sudden, out of no where, it hits me smack in the forehead: WOOHU!

So I feebly remembered my password, logged on, and started to read. So many memories, so many lost friends, so much evidence as to how immature I was...:/ Really. Although, in high school I apparently had a larger vocabulary and was a tad more witty in how I structured my sentences. Meh.

The times may have changed, the people are different, and the situations altered, but undoubtedly, there is still issues with life. And undoubtedly, they will be posted here from now on. I heard it was good for the soul to release the tension through paper, or the keyboard. I need to be eased, starting tomorrow. The wine is kicking in and I have class at 8.

Until tomorrow,
Amylynn

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jennapie

:: 2007 6 March :: 9.28am

I'm sick of hurting, so I'm done, I'm not going to think about it anymore, and I'm not going to deal with it. I feel like a freakin machine, just going through the motions of everyday life. But if I'm supposed to go back to normal, I'm already there. My life before is exactly how it is now. I go to school, and work, and home, and I occassionally hang out with my friends. Back to normal....

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brokenmentality

:: 2007 9 February :: 6.47pm

it sure has been awhile
i was just reading my old entries. i used to be so happy.

he did that. made me happy that is.

i love him for that.

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swimfan14

:: 2007 21 January :: 3.03pm

It doesn't matter that he didn't mean it.

I still think it's true...

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jennapie

:: 2007 15 January :: 8.16pm

yummm...strawberry yogurt shakes from steak n shake!!! I love my tanners! ahah!

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jennapie

:: 2006 12 December :: 11.45am

hmm, I'm at school, and I'm pretty darn hungry, and I don't have class till 1:15, then work after that till 10:30, so I guess I better eat something. But what!? hmmm....

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swimfan14

:: 2006 14 November :: 8.23pm

This is all just a waiting game...

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just_peachie

:: 2006 28 September :: 11.17am
:: Mood: excited

Road trip after class today to go see the ONLY Kevin worth seeing....I'm totally stoked. :P

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jennapie

:: 2006 23 September :: 7.57pm

boo
I'm in another bad mood. But it's not because of the weather this time. I have been disappointed more this week than ever before. and it's awful. I don't know how to get over this! i'm so frustrated and i can't content myself doing anything!

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jennapie

:: 2006 22 September :: 4.12pm

I'm having a very bad day, and I'm really sick of it. I wish it was over.

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just_peachie

:: 2006 11 September :: 2.43am
:: Mood: nauseated

God, please...don't let it be.
:'(

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miniredhawk

:: 2006 10 September :: 6.23pm

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5 Years. They may have fallen. But they still stand high in our hearts.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 10 September :: 1.29am

I don't know why that bothered me so much, but it just did.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 4 September :: 12.23am

So long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

Hey thanks
Thanks for that summer
It's cold where you're going
I hope that your heart's always warm
I gave you the best
Gave you the best that I have

So, so long sweet summer
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays
So long sweet summer
I fell into you
Now you're gracefully falling away

I hate the winter, in Lexington
I hate the winter, in Lexington
In Lexington, Lexington, Lexington.

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just_peachie

:: 2006 28 August :: 10.07pm

If only you would just sing it to me...
I have to block out thoughts of you
so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape
to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that
make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride,
a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you.
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me
just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one
accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
is the one thing I won’t touch again

In a sick way I want to thank you
for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself,
you were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions
on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

2 Chances | Words Of Hope?


just_peachie

:: 2006 27 August :: 6.52pm
:: Mood: Empty shock

How could someone be that cruel? I thought shit like this only happened in the movies. I honestly didn't think I would ever meet someone so heartless and fake in my life. And to think that I was with the unbelievable for a year and a half, and only now just find out the true oneself. And to know that I was the one who was made to feel crazy because of the 1,000's of times I called it out I was miraculously right because I knew this foul being inside and out. Oh, the 1,000's of faflse reassurances I was given. But the keyword is false. I was right all along. I was cohersed into not believing in myself, and I am ashamed that I was. How could I let someone tell me who I am and who I will be? I don't think I've ever felt so foolish in my life.

He is
FAKE
1. prepare or make (something suspecious, deceptive, or fraudulent): to fake a report showing nonexistent profits.
2. to conceal the defects of or make appear more attractive, interesting, valuable, etc., usually in order to deceive
3. to pretend; simulate: to fake illness.
4. to accomplish by trial and error or by improvising: I don't know the job, but I can fake it.
5. to trick or deceive (an opponent) by making a fake (often fol. by out)
9. anything made to appear otherwise than it actually is; counterfeit: This diamond necklace is a fake.
10. a person who fakes; faker: The doctor with the reputed cure for cancer proved to be a fake.
11. a spurious report or story.
13. designed to deceive or cheat; not real; counterfeit.
Synonyms: affected, artificial, assumed, bogus, concocted, counterfeit, fabricated, false, fictitious, forged, fraudulent, invented, make-believe, mock, phony, pretended, pseudo*, reproduction, sham*, simulated, spurious
noun: actor, bastard*, bluffer, bum, bunk, bunko, charlatan, cheat*, counterfeit, deception, deke, fabrication, faker, flimflam, forgery, four-flusher*, fraud, gold brick, gyp, hoax, imitation*, imposition, imposture, junque, make-believe, mountebank, phony, pretender, pretense, pseudo*, put on, reproduction, scam, sell, sham*, sleight, spoof, swindle, trick

CHEAT
verb (used with object)
1. to defraud*; swindle: He cheated her out of her inheritance.
2. to deceive*; influence by fraud: He cheated us into believing him a hero.
3. to elude*; deprive of something expected: He cheated the law by suicide.
–verb (used without object)
4. to practice fraud or deceit: He cheats without regrets.
5. to violate rules or regulations: He cheats at cards.
7. Informal. to be sexually unfaithful (often fol. by on): Her husband knew she had been cheating all along. He cheated on his wife.
–noun
8. a person who acts dishonestly, deceives, or defrauds: He is a cheat and a liar.
11. an impostor: The man who passed as an earl was a cheat.

Synonyms- con man, conniver, cozener, crook, deceiver, decoy, defrauder, dodger, double-crosser*, double-dealer*, enticer, fake, hypocrite***, impostor, jockey, knave, masquerader, pretender, quack, rascal, rogue, scammer*, shark, sharper, shyster, swindler, trickster

MALICIOUS
Having the nature of or resulting from malice; malicious gossip.
1. full of, characterized by, or showing malice; malevolent; spiteful: malicious gossip.
2. Law. vicious, wanton, or mischievous in motivation or purpose.

Synonyms: awful, bad-natured, baleful, beastly, bitchy, bitter, cussed, deleterious, despiteful, detrimental, envious, evil, evil-minded*, green*, green-eyed*, gross*, ill-disposed, injurious, jealous, low, malevolent, malign, malignant, mean, mischievous, nasty, noxious, ornery, pernicious, pesky, petty, poison-pen, poisonous, rancorous, resentful, spiteful, uncool*, vengeful, venomous, vicious, virulent, wicked

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jennapie

:: 2006 20 August :: 10.27am

I'm coming home today!!!!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 24 July :: 6.04pm

I'm in Washington D.C. right now at our hotel. This place is definitely beautiful. Our flight was at 6:30 am this morning and we were an hour away from the airport so my cousins and I have been up since 3:00am. I barely slept on the plane either. Tomorrow we are going to Virginia Beach for the rest of the week. *Smiles*.

<3

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jennapie

:: 2006 21 July :: 5.26pm

I hate having bad days.

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kellilynn21

:: 2006 20 July :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: Content

Got This From Brie*

TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: yeah…
2. are you happy: im not sad…
3. are you talking to anyone right now: yeah
4. are you bored: obviously because im doing this survey.
5. are you german: nope
6. are you irish: nope
7. are you french: nope
8. are you Italian: F YA BABY!
9. are your parents still married: nope
10. are you in love with someone right now: nope

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: The Big G-Rap baby!
2. hair color: Brown, duh… brunettes do it better!
4. hair style: umm… a new one, just got it cut.
5. eye color: they change between green, blue, and hazel.
6. shoe size: 6-7ish
7. mood: content.
8. orientation: umm… don’t understand the question.
9. available?: Single: yes.
10. lefty/righty: riiiight.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: Yes.
2. do you believe in love: Yes.
3. why did your last relationship fail: we grew apart, it happens.
4. have you ever been heart broken: who hasn’t?
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: yeah…
6. have you ever fallen for your best friend: “BEST” friend, no. Friend, yeah.
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: duh, who hasn’t?
8. are you afraid of commitment: scared shitless.
9. have you ever kissed someone you liked: umm duh.
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: yeah.

TEN THINGS:
1. love or lust: Love
2. hard liquor or beer: beer’s nasty.
3. night or day: Night.
4. one night stands or relationships: relationship.
5. television or internet: Both.
6. pepsi or coke: MD baby!
7. wild night out or romantic night in: both!
8. colored pictures or black and white pictures: Both.
9. phone or in person: person duh!
10. aim or phone: Phone.

TEN HAVE Y0U EVERS.
1. been caught sneaking out?: Yes.
2. skinny dipped?: Yes.
3. done something you regret?: who hasn’t?
4. bungee jumped?: no but I want to someday.
5. been on a house boat?: Yes.
6. finished an entire jaw breaker?: sadly… no.
7. wanted someone so badly it hurt?: Yes.
8. been caught by your parents with a hickey?: nope.
9. danced in the rain?: I LOVE IT!!!!
10. had a hang over?: why would you ask that!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 19 July :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy

Off the coast of somewhere beautiful.
Hey. I guess it's about time I updated.

Last weekend on Friday I hung out with Elyse. We stayed the night at my dad's new house. I really like my new room. We went to Olive Garden and then my cousins Brooklyn, Kyla, Kaylie, and the new baby Briley came over. I love her, she is so cute.

Saturday I went out on the boat. It was definitely interesting to say the least. Haieligh and I went tubing with Casey and Chad. We had some pretty fun times.

Sunday I went to Holland to watch Luke's basketball games.


I can't remember when, but I went and saw Pirates of The Caribbean 2 with Luke and The Devil Wears Prada with Elyse.

This week I've just been hanging out with Luke and my friends. Our power went out on Monday. We just got it back yesterday. That definitely sucked.

Friday I'm going to Champion with Elyse in the morning and then later on my family is going to Grand Haven for the weekend and we are staying at a hotel on the beach.

I just found out a few days ago that on Monday I'm going to Washington D.C. and then we are going to Virginia Beach. I'm going with my dad, my uncle Mike, and my cousins Rachel and Sarah. I'm pretty stoaked for that. Our plane leaves from Detroit on Monday morning. I think I'll be gone for a week. I honestly don't really know the details since my mom just informed me of all this. It will be fun though, except I'll be missing Luke, a lot.

I guess that is about it. Much love.

Ashley

When you whisper you want this, your eyes tell the same. Picking up speed, I can barely breathe, 'cause I'm caught in suspension.

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jennapie

:: 2006 16 July :: 3.48pm

It will always amaze me how people and things move on so fast, and never look back, like they didn't truely care to begin with.

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miniredhawk

:: 2006 14 July :: 7.43pm

Panic! At The Disco

Beyond awesome!

And for that, I say, thank you Anne!
Best. Gift. Ever.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 7 July :: 1.07am
:: Mood: sad

My world almost just fell apart.

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