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2004 12 October :: 9.02 am
:: Mood: baddd day
:: Music: stupid noisey freshman class
today is the worst day I've had all year :-)
yeah well today started off bad and just keeps getting worse. I'm in the computer lab right now with Lizzy. It's the first time I've talked to her in a long time..
Anyways, I hate when I find out my friends lie to me.. it's probly the worst thing they can do. And especially when they lie because they're trying to hide something that a friend wouldn't usually do in the first place.. Whatever, I don't have the patience right now to talk to you so when you read this I want you to know I give up and you can just have him ok....
I dont get you, you wanted me to move on & be happy and now you're contradicting that..??
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2004 11 October :: 3.35 pm
:: Music: Crossfade ` Cold
NeW LaYouT...
comment.
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2004 11 October :: 12.14 pm
:: Music: Juvenile `Nolia clap
Last night when me and katie smoked I thought about alot of stuff...
and I decided I'm just gonna quit. I've said this like 394723 times but I know it's the only way to let go of my past.. and move on.. I just need to stop everything I've been doing since the Summer of '03.. and just move on.. it was fun while it lasted but alot of the memories I keep are just haunting my future.. and the only way to let go of them is to move onto something new.. and make new memories.
So good-bye to everything.. hopefully October 31st will be a nice final episode
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2004 9 October :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: not sure
:: Music: none
Havent updated in a while..
hmm yeah well I havent updated in a while.
I just got home from work, my feet hurt.
anyways tonight I get to hang out with my favoritest people ever :-) my babyboy got mad at me today cause I said something I shouldn't have said.. :-[ but were ok now I think so thats good
peace =)
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2004 4 October :: 8.11 pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: lloyd banks `karma
'good day
well today was good, don't know why but yeah
fyi I'm using SweetNostalgic for my cell now and this for regular AIM..
yeah thats it. Half day tomorrow =) yay
any ideas on what I should be for Halloween? :o)
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2004 3 October :: 8.12 pm
:: Mood: just one of those moods
:: Music: Do or Die ft. Twista `Do U -favorite song of all time
Something's gotta give
can't understand how people front happiness and a smile then turn around and talk of how their hearts are shattered and broken
"I am the weakest link"
no matter how hard I try I just can't move on.. everyone around me can do it but nope not I. one day "I fucking hate him" the next day I can't deny it, I love him
every time I pick myself up and start to walk something just pushes me back down. then there's my crazy stoned thoughts that turn my A+ effort into nothing.. there's always some obstacle in my way that I'm just too weak to fight. It's gonna take something extreme to pick me up and let me live my life again.. I only hope I have enough patience to wait for something like that to come along.
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2004 2 October :: 11.28 pm
:: Mood: quiet
:: Music: After Midnight
shit talker(s), you know who you are..
make sure you read my 8th comment cause obviously what I do is of some importance to you.. so that is for you to read.
I decided I'm a very confused person. Actually I'm alot of lots of things.. just confused at this point. Seems like I've come to a point where I have so many options that I don't know which way to go.. I've sort of dug myself into something that I'm not sure if I want yet.. but that's part of moving on I guess, opening doors for yourself.. seems like I have too many open now.
that was alot of garbage that half the people who read this WON'T understand but comment if you think you know, I'll give you a cookie
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2004 1 October :: 11.29 pm
:: Mood: ripped
:: Music: Bone Crusher ` Grippen the Grain
that feeling always comes back..always :-/
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2004 29 September :: 8.02 pm
:: Music: grateful dead `althea
so true...
maybe in a different light
you could see me stand on my own again
'cause now I can see
you were the antidote that got me by
something strong like a drug that got me high
I never really wanted you to see
the screwed up side of me that I keep
locked inside of me so deep
it always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
so many things you should have known
what I really meant to say
is I'm sorry for the way I am
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2004 28 September :: 10.07 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: The Doors ` You make me real
New Layout..
let me know what you think.
yess.. comments... keep them cominggg :-)
mL <3
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