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:: 2013 27 July :: 10.58am

Who's still here?

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:: 2011 16 December :: 9.19pm

Isn't it rather amazing how one bad day ruins the several good days leading up to it? I find it fascinating that one person, who treated me well for the better part of two weeks, can completely ruin the memories of the good days in one foul swoop.

Does this ever happen to you? Or am I that negative where I only focus on the bad?

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:: 2011 13 December :: 8.58am

I love waking up in the morning to the smell of baby shit...
Ya know, a lot has changed for me over the course of the last year and half or so. Not that that isn't the case at any given point in our lives, but even more so in the past year and a half for me. I finally became a person I like looking in the mirror at. And that's saying something, considering the majority of the time when I look in the mirror I see baggy eyes, unplucked eyebrows, and pasty skin. When I look down at my naked body all I see is my toes protruding from behind a too-big tummy ravaged by scars... Scars from carrying the most beautiful baby boy I've ever seen, scars from a surgery necessary so an i.u.d. didn't kill me, pudge from making my son a good home while he grew inside of me. When I look at these "less than beautiful" attributes about myself I am not ashamed. I'll poke some fun and myself for not working off the baby weight and move on with my day. Because my days are now filled with a totally different kind of fun. This is the closest to being a carefree kid I've been since I was a carefree kid. By no means am I careless or carefree, but I feel a sense of innocence surround me that I haven't known before in my life. Haevin does that for me. He makes every difficult time worth it's weight in gold, and then some! Am I a perfect mother and wife? Hell no. But I try, and I am pretty happy with who I am. Even better is that I don't really care who I am to anyone who doesn't matter. If they don't like me, tough shit. The people who are closest know what I stand for, and so do the strangers. If they don't like it... they can take a hike!

Onto my main point. I love the little things in life. I love waking up in the morning to the smell of baby shit. It means that my son is healthy. Yeah, it stinks. But it's a life-affirming sort of stench, lol. I get sick of reading about people who are so focused on "getting there." Life is a journey. It's appreciating everything, the good and the bad. It's not a race to the finish line. If you ever make it to that finish line you better plan on croaking the following day, because that's about it son. When you've stopped learning and caring, and appreciating, your time has come.

This morning I was paid a very nice compliment by my sister on my Facebook page. She said she loved me and was proud of the person I'd become. That really made my day. That someone else can see and appreciate my growth even though it has little, if not nothing to do with them is very refreshing! I have some amazing family to be grateful for. Life is good. And if you haven't realized it yet, start looking for your bliss. Because there will always be negative things in your life to focus on. If you allow them to consume you, you will spend your life miserable. This, I promise you.

So, as corny as it may be... Be the change you want to see in the world.

Rant concluded!



:: 2011 1 December :: 8.40pm

I am extremely lonely. I am so grateful for Brenton's job, but I miss him.

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:: 2011 20 June :: 11.00am

I am now a married woman! <3

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:: 2010 19 October :: 7.25pm

I am happy.

I am content.

It feels so good to say that.


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:: 2010 17 August :: 10.11am

the hardest part to swallow is I chose it, it didn't choose me.



:: 2010 28 April :: 12.59pm

And the plot thinkens!!! simply put, how droll!



:: 2010 30 March :: 6.12pm


It's such an amazing feeling, when you get both sides to a story. You wonder to yourself...

...who to go after first...

How would you like to be entertained today ladies? Ya'll want some freestyle or some hardcore rockstar shit?

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:: 2010 26 March :: 2.57pm

I feel like fighting, who wants to fight?

ok here we go,

Did I ever mention that hair dressers are worthless humans? I like how ugly fat people think they can make us normal people "pretty" or "Hansom" you know what else i think is funny? how fat nasty bitches that log into your FB and MS accounts call you a stalker, shit if it was me Id sue the piss outta that cunt for slander and or deformation of character, because that's what it is, also making "Idle threats" as there put, are punishable by law so keep running your mouth, thats harassment, I got the prof, and if you got beef ill put the biscuit on the patty.

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:: 2010 26 February :: 6.50pm

I think that pigeon needs to shut it's mouth, events outside it's cage is information it is no privy to, despite what other pigeons inform them of.



:: 2010 17 January :: 5.47pm

9 days, 4 hours and 22 min without it....

*deep LOOOOOONG [sighhh] *

oh well, not as bad as I thought and that job will so totally be worth it, Buuuut, It may raise another concern, I think I need that queer red GTP more then anything, and thats scary.

(It is a freakin' sweet car tho )



:: 2009 24 December :: 8.13pm


Damn straight Ford. Keep it up, Scoop us betrayed Pontiac owners.

<3 Mustang <3 Fusion <3 Focus <3 Ford

<3 <3 <3 Grand Prix GTPs tho =)

oh and BTW, Santa, you fat som'bitch
I better get all this for christmas and more...

17x7'' GPA 5-V spoke rims


SLP GenII spoiler



some of these


glossy black 'll do'

ehh and throw in some 1000w Kicker subs too while your at it.

nigga gunna pay what he owe!


Merry Christmas!! None of that queer ass Happy Holidays BS

Roads are crap, drive careful almost everyone. I realize not all of you have a dodge shadow =D



:: 2009 26 November :: 6.23pm

what I'm thankful for ehh?

besides the usual God, GTPs, America and all that stuff

I'd have to say, I'm most thankful for my family and friends...

you know, Dad,mom,caleb, grandpda, aunt, uncles,cousins and my buddies, Brenton, Stephanie, and Jay.

I think it's pretty fricken' awesome that I've been blessed with such a group of people.

Not one back stabbin', two-faced, antagonistic bitches in the bunch...

and that's a good thing.

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:: 2010 2 February :: 1.53pm

lemme redo this a little better.

I HATE CHILDREN WITH A FUCKIN' PASSION Brenton and Steph know What i'm talkin' about

<3 Jordan, <3 Chells

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