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:: 2014 27 November :: 3.36 pm

Funeral on Saturday and Sunday
My grandfather passed away this morning. My dad received the phone call from my mom. I was sleeping and had to wake up. I'm going to attend his funeral on Saturday and Sunday. I work on Friday and get off at 4pm. I'm going right after I get off from work. I like to take off from work when I get the chance because work has been boring and unfulfilling.

Today is my day off. I feel that it's too short. My day is almost coming to an end. I didn't get enough rest. *Sigh* I don't enjoy my job at all. I used to look forward to going to work all the time back when I was at Phuket. I loved my job and could stay there for over 10 hours. But here, when it's 4, I quickly leave and change off of my uniform right away.


:: 2014 9 November :: 6.41 pm

I'm working at Novotel. I first started as a cook, now I switched in being a waitress. I didn't keep track of how many days I've been working in this section, but I'll count about 10 days or so. It's a boring position but I can't move now. I move so many times. This is my last stop.

Anyways, I wonder what life after death is like. When I was hospitalized and was recovering from being poisoned with drugs, I thought I slept in bed for a year, was rotting to death, was dying, a demon was messing with me and was on my way to hell. I don't remember clearly what really happened. Was it drugs or did I experienced going into the afterlife? I had my blanket covered my face and head. I was ready to die, but my mom pulled the blanket down from my face. It was really weird. I thought I was going to hell. I was hearing voices even when I was taking a shower like someone was speaking to me. It's likely that it's meth. I can't die and come back to life. It's impossible.

Eversince I moved to Rayong, I don't hear voices anymore. I'm still on medication and it's really helping me. The pills I took are for people with bipolar disorder, but somehow it works on me. I'm not bipolar.


:: 2014 1 September :: 5.32 pm

Missing the USA
I'm not employed at Marriott anymore. I worked there for two months and resigned. It just didn't click. I'm now sitting at home unemployed again. I applied to this one hotel called Novotel. I'm waiting for them to call me and go in for an interview. I might call the hotel tomorrow to follow up. Then I would apply to more places. This is probably the fourth workplace I worked at for less than two months. I keep on having to change my jobs because it just doesn't work out.

Anyways, lately I've been having dreams about the states. I actually really miss the states. Today, I felt like I want to go back. There's not much for me in Thailand. If I was back in the states, I would be eating a burrito at Chipotle right now and trying all the different taquerias, watching movie screenings, going to awesome concerts, meeting new people and such. I miss all of these activities that I once had. It was my life back then, but it all changed when I moved to Thailand. I go online and sometimes I feel depressed. I don't get to shop at Hot Topic anymore. I still keep my souvenirs from the states though. I had several shirts I don't wear that I keep in my cabinet and some movie posters kept at my mom's friend's house.

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:: 2014 18 July :: 5.20 pm
:: Mood: okay

New job
After being umemployed for a year, I got a job at Marriott hotel. I started my job on July 11. I'm not used to my new workplace yet because I don't know my duties clearly. There are many employees and trainees at the hotel, so there's not a lot to do. Waking up early is the hardest part. Since I start work at 8am, I have to wake up at 6:55am to get ready so I have time to eat breakfast at the staff canteen.

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:: 2014 4 July :: 2.16 pm
:: Mood: bored

Happy 4th of July!

It seems like nowadays people don't go on blogs anymore. I recently got back to livejournal and I don't see a lot of active users on there. Lj clone sites look dead, but there are a few active users though.

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:: 2014 3 July :: 2.21 pm
:: Mood: happy

Got it!
Someone recently gave me a one worded username on lj today. I'm happy with that. I now have a one worded username blog. I've been waiting for it for a few days and finally got it!


:: 2014 28 June :: 1.55 pm
:: Mood: blah

lj clone sites
I think lj clone sites are pretty interesting. To name a few: insanejournal, scribbld, deadjournal, dreamwidth are all lj clone sites that use the livejournal codebase. I joined on all the sites.

Man, I've been bored for weeks! Why can't I get a job? I applied to Marriott, but I haven't received a phone call from the human resources department for a month now. Will I get the job? My mom and sister said I didn't need to worry about not having a job now because my sister has a pretty good salary, but I feel unproductive.

I want a one worded username blog. Where can I find it?

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