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goodbye

:: 2024 8 March :: 1.26pm

It is very challenging to navigate everyone else's feelings and to never have space for my own.

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goodbye

:: 2024 2 February :: 7.53pm

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goodbye

:: 2024 24 January :: 12.18am
:: Mood: Sick to my stomach

I can't do this anymore. I can't be such an afterthought. I can't mean so little to the person who I should mean the most to. I don't understand your continued mistreatment amd disregard for me. I can't continue to justify this with your past trauma. You've had so many chances to correct it. A second trip to Japan where I'm not included after the damage it did last time; you continue to make choices that don't reflect any love for me. I'm heartbroken and you can't take it back. And I can't ignore it anymore. And as much as you have tried to make me believe otherwise over the years, I know, deep inside my soul that            I deserve better than this.

I just don't know why I should keep on forgiving this stuff when the most minimal amount of foresight would have prevented it from happening.

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goodbye

:: 2023 4 December :: 9.32pm

You are literally killing me. I have heart pains from this. This is completely unsustainable. It's impossible being in this, with you. It doesn't matter if I enjoy your company when things are good or if I love you deeply, it is causing my limited time on this earth to be all the more limited due to the incredible stress you put me through every other day.

I can't do this anymore.

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goodbye

:: 2023 6 May :: 5.21pm

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labyrinth

:: 2021 20 December :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: sleepy

Still at the same place. Less progress but better at staying awake now. Less progress means I haven't done anything to make a living. I list some things for sale on Etsy. I only sold 2 items. I need more to get sold and live my dream of becoming an artist from home. I pretend to be an entrepreneur because it makes me feel excited. Gonna have to keep making new drawings everyday

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labyrinth

:: 2020 25 December :: 11.30pm

Life is short. Gotta focus on what really matters.

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