when it comes to relationships...im the cumbest one, and i dont mean just with girls i mean with everyone, your illustrations always point out just whats wrong with me its CHAPSTICK AND CHAPPED LIPS A
hey journal!!! i am feeling pretty good right now. im trying to make plans for Friday, i need something to do, but i also want to see The Passion. i cant wait till church tomorrow, tis going to rock hard core!! today at school sucked, i was tired and i had an exam. tomorrow is gonna be worst, i have 2 exams and im pretty sure ill be pooped. anyhoo.....im pretty much updating for now....toodle-ooo

i know you got the feelin and i cant say im agreein with your topic of convorsation....
Hey Journal today has been grrrrreat/painful. i have had a KILLER headache all damn day. but me and Roberta we're having a ball today at lunch. Okay, i think i actually might like this George kid. CRAAAZY i know, but i cant help but look at him...and hey everyone seems to be going through the "go out with a 7th grader" phase...so why cant i?! okay...get this crap, Tiffany Frank was balling her eyes out today cause Cecil Lemmons broke up with her, and i know your thinking that its okay to cry...but SHE CHEATED ON HIM! maybe she should have thought twice before she rammed her tongue down another guys throat. and whether or not you think that comment was mean...i dont care, its my damn journal! i dont know why people insist on cheating on their boyfriends, its just wrong. anyways...tomorrow i have a damn Weather test! how gay...and friday i have a damn Ga History exam...grrrrrrowl. but its all good cause i plan on passing with flying colors, hah. how dorky of me. tonight i have ChUrCh! wooooooooooot. church is raw, and i love going with Berta, which i am tonight...cause we are just plain MANIACS and we run wild all over the church! and Auntie Jill is so cool! i love her! and we get to sing with the Mega-Life [[ highschoolers]] Wink Wink! haha and best of all i get to see My Jew, AMELIA!!! AMELIA MORGAN IS SO HOT! lol this friday i think im gonna get my dad to take me to see The Passion...because i want to see it SO bad! and saturday....who knows. i know i gotta start working out, i lift weights everyday to tone my arms but i need to walk more...but last sunday i walked 6 miles...HOLY CRAP! my legs where killing me, to say the least. well im gonna go now. ill write sooner or later....peace out dudes and jews

4 more days!
hey journal, lifes good. im a bit worried though for a reason i cannot yet state. but lets just say...it involves a guy. another reason im scared is because on Friday my mom is getting a hyterectamy...[[a major surgery]] she will be out for a week, two at the most. i hope she heals fast. tonight i have church, i cant wait. church is like my escape. its where i talk to people i dont talk tot at school, but at the same time..i feel like an outcast at church, hmmmm. well its okay cause RoBeRtA and I always have fun. this weekend i have no idea what im doing, probably helping my mom out with stuff and just plain chilling. i aslo will probably go and see The Passion Of Christ. yeah, im scared/excited...and friday i have to go to a concert for my Cousin...which will be awesome. well i have to go to school now...ill write later on.

peaceness

pickin on a 6 string...
hey journal. well today im so confused. im so confused on what to do about this guy. but enough of that. im getting Brittany to go to church with me Sunday! twill be awesome. im gonna get her to start coming...maybe shell decide she wants to get baptised. and if she does ill be there to back her up 100%. school was a drag. boring as crap....

i was thinking today...alot really about how i wish i could find a guy like this:

1. is a nerd like me
2. is polite [[holds doors...ect.]]
3. is sweet, and kind of a mommas boy
4. is willing to do stuff i like even if he doesnt want to
5. someone i can go to church with and have over for dinner
6. someone who suprises me

if your that guy....please let me know, haha

O! and also if you play guitar and have a nice voice...thats a plus, haha.

i think im gonna stop worrying so much about guys and be more focused on diff. stuff....for instance, [[guitar, friends...ect]] and maybe that guy will find me...hmmm anyways im out for now.

stick em up punk hit them low hit them high!
hey journal-wournal. sup nikka (haha luke) my day was bland. except Mrs. Phillips thats always a riot, with Amy and Kevin and Brandon. me and Amy always rub on the guys legs who sit at our lunch tables and this kid Kevin is SO damn scared of me, i can see it in his eyes, cause im always like "i love you baby!" and he says i laugh too much, but i honestly dont see whats wrong with laughing and i dont see how someone can laugh too much...do you? hmmm anyhoo me and Berta found out that George (7th grade) likes me...the funny thing about this is, well one day at lunch i saw him and i was just like "Hey thats my brother" and i kept saying it, and i started waving to him and stuff, and this girl Syndy told Berta he liked me...haha. i thought it was funny, Amy said he was an imbred, LMAO! i was like, yup! hes pretty cute, he seems quiet but i like shy boys. i doubt anything will happen but me and Amy decided i should wink at him at lunch tomorrow, HAHA! poor boy...another victim of the Liz-Amy Conspiracy, haha. Katie is staying with me till sunday! last night was her first night, and tonight she has a soccer game, well its going on right now i supposed but this weekend (t/m really) me her and my mom are going to Columbus to see my g-ma. but im glad cause i want to get out of the house and stuff. exams are in two weeks, i need to do good. i mean in math i want to get at least an 80...maybe a 90. i really want honor roll its hasnt really always been a priority ive jusy always gotten it w/o the effort, but when i didnt get it i realized how much my mom was dissapointed, ya so i need it. i got these pic.s developed, and there is a pic of me and Shane, i nearly cried when i saw it. i miss him so much, i wish i would have been with him when i had the chance or at least told him i liked him, but he is like a bro to mr (literally) i mean ive been in his bed with him and i dont think it ever occured to me he might like me in the least, but i guess i was obviously wrong and now he is gone to Kentucky with a bunch of girls probably 100x prettier then i am and way cooler, and im sure he is in heaven while i sit her broken-hearted and alone. all the while my friends are in great relationships or every guy likes them, and im just some poor girl in the corner with no one but Jesus by my side....but hey, thats life right? its a bitch. anyways......next saturday im going to see The Passion! wooooooooo. its gonna be grrrrrrrrrand! plus i got a 100 on my tri-board and everyone was clapping for me, and that crazy Ricky goes "WOOOO!" lol i was so happy about that. well....im out like a trout. later skater

Thank you Caroline!
thanks to Caroline, i decided to keep this journal. wow i really didnt know people read it, but now i do ill make sure to make it up to your standards, haha...ya. well Wild Adventures was raw as crap. Me and katie didnt even watch the damn concert, we rode the roller coasters. OoO...and we did that Rip Cord thing, holy shit i think i had a pre-mature heart attack/ anxiety attack! haha but it was AWESOME! wow i would do that again, for sure! today me and mom went grocery shopping, how fun is that! actually...it was fun, my mom is really cool to be with, i can talk about alot of stuff with her and she doesnt get mad very easily. and i can vent on her too! Score. and i got a new cd from Best Buy, then new John Mayer cd [[my ideal guy, haha]] and its so greaaattt! me and mom listened to it, and we both agree it was one of his best! gosh, i so am not looking forward to school tomorrow, but hey guess what....i have to go! damn! and i have a poster due on tuesday i think, woo hoo! paarrtttyy for me, right? NAH. today me and mom walked 3 fucking miles! on this really cool trail, and it was fun...plus im losing weight, joy to the world!...umm. lets see.....Oh ya! NEVER make a screen name and then pretend your someone else because its just B-A-D! naughty naughty! unless of course, you know you wont get caught, haha nahhh you shouldnt, it could really hurt someone in the long run. well i have to go get my shit together for tomorrow, and watch a movie...im thinking LOTR! woooo....well leave me lots of comments....well, you dont have to, bu it would be the right thing to do! later g's

Day two
howdy journal! school was good today...again. somethings wrong with that picture, when im actually enjoying school haha. i have 2 tests tomorrow...eeeek! algebra and some atmosphere test! shibby! oh well, il do good, seeing as im in such an upbeat mood, im gonna go get this roll of film i took to CVS like 3 weeks ago with pictures of Shane and this really great picture of jeremy sander, casey, and brittany fixing jermeys bike...its funny. so maybe ill post a few on here. tonight me and katie -watie are going to work out for a couple hours to get in shape for summer in Kansas, whoop! and saturday were going to Wild Adventures. yay! its gonna be rockin and rollin. were seeing a Sarah Evans concert, and katie said that we have to ride all the rides till we get sick...hell ya im down! lol im still on my diet, its day 2 and im doing well. and the fact i gave up soda and am working out is gonna make me feel a whole lot better about myself. well im gonna go clean and do h/w till i go to the gym with kates! much love niggas!

Day One
sup journal. i just realized that probably know one reads this journal and i dont know why i bother updating. ill probably keep it for a while longer though. well today, suprisingly, was good. we didnt do anything hard, and it went by rather fast. and gym was fun, for once. i was thinking today about how much i want to just pack up and move to California. haha, its crazy i know but god i love it there. i wouldnt mind moving to La Jolla. but i really domt give a fuck, just as long as there is a beach and hot guys, im GOOD! i just love the lifestyle there, so laid back and carefree. Georgia can be so boring and dreary. but i LOVE my friends to death. without them i couldnt survive Richmind Hill, haha. that includes my friends in Rincon...hah. well i think friday im gonna walk home with Casey so i can talk to John again. i havent seen him in a while, i miss his face...ya know. and tomorrow me and Katie are dragging our fat asses to the Gym! haha yay! and saturday im going to Busch Gardens and a Sarah Evans concert with Katie! its gonna be gnarly as hell! im so glad tomorrow is thursday, only 2 more days and the weekendf shall be here! ok how about today i took a nap on my moms bed and woke up with drool all over me! haha sick i know....but thats me and i cant help it. so i suggest not sleeping near me. i didnt get to go to church tonight :( on a count of my dad didnt come home in time...oh well ill go next wend. cause i have to meet Luke. Katies friend...wel im out yall. peace niggas

Back To School
hey journal, im about to go to school. i had a 3 day weekend but it ended up being 4 for me. i stayed home cause i was "sick" lol. just kidding i really was pretty sick, so i chilled with my aunt and grandma. they are leaving tomorrow =( tonight im just coming straight home from school and taking a nap, lol. peace

Neal
hey journal. today was a happy day and a goal-ful one too. well i woke up at 10, took a shower and went into savannah with my aunt mom and g-ma. we went to Bass [[to see Ash]], Van Huesen, Bed Bath and Beyond, then we went and ate at Chilis. it was good but i got full so fast i nearly chucked. then we went to the mall. i got a shirt from Pacsun and i went to Hollister. Their clothes are REALLY cute, i wanted everything in thats store. but something dawned on me while i was in there. i need to lose some weightage. and im so sick of all these 3 day diet shits. so my g-ma recommended the South Beach Diet. so i said okay ill try it. so me and my mom are now on that diet, and we are going to the gym together...Katie will probably come along too. anyways, last night was FUN! my dads friends Rich, Donna, Jason, Jackie, and their son Jeffery came over for dinner, they are so funny we had the best time. and we played all these ganes like Mad Gab and Trivial Pursuit...it was radical. and my mom got so drunk and she kept teling me i could get a tattoo and i was like "MOM! im 14...im too young!!" even though i should have been like "okay, lets go now!" haha. but yes, its been a good weekend. and tomorrow, me sue and my grandma are going to Hilton Head...woot woot
well right now we are having a bbq so im peacin out....later gators

through the cloudy town of hell....
so last night was the dance. it was fun but really short. before the dance i went to katies she did my hair and makeup. then we went and got x-tina and to the dance we went. me and christina had the best time dancing with Trey Ferrell and Kristin and Cory...it was fun. we just didnt care who was there just as long as it was fun. then me, katie, brittany, matt, ricky, and liam all went to Star Castle. we played laser tag. we played boys against girls and the girls...whooped there asses! ...just to prove girls are better then boys. today im just chillin with my grandma and aunt and we are having a party...not that ill be hanging out with those ppl coming but i will be grubbin g on that food. tomorrow i need to go to the mall. i need some new clothes. and im so glad monday is a holiday i dont think i could take school on monday. well i dont have much to say because im bored and tired.

bwahaha
hey journal, i know its been a looooooooong time, but my computer is a retard eddie, and it just screws up randomly so finally it is working again. so much has happened yet so little. school is all the same, we are getting progress reports on my BIRTHDAY for christs sake! im really happy about my birthday...i have no clue what im getting [[thats a first]]. well some really shitty fucking shit happened a couple days ago...lemme tell you what happened. ok well i just met this kid Cameron a couple days ago...and i wasnt interested, but i thought he was pretty cool. then i found out he's in 7th grade, which is cool, i dont really care how old ppl i chill with are. well i was walking to Casey' and he just starts following me all of a sudden, and he kept making really rude comments about my butt...and i was seriously offended and i told him to go fuck off, but he wouldnt leave. well i told him earlier i like John Szeker alot, and he told me all of a sudden that John said i was ugly, well i was really hurt by this because i mean...i really like john so when i hear i am ugly to him, ya... well i told Casey and i just started cryin because that really lowered my self esteem. well Caseya nd Brittany went up to John today after school and were like "whats up with you saying shit about Liz?" and he said he never said i was ugly, he said Cameron was sayin g shit about me, and now i dont know who i believe...but just a week ago John said i was cute so maybe he is telling the truth...im gonna ask him tomorrow whats up with them saying that stuff, and i really want to know the truth. maybe i need to get over him...hmmm? well i think i might be going to the dance with Andrew Mcauley, which is cool because i like him so thats cool. i cant wait till the dance becauseim going bowling afterwards and itll be great. this friday im going to see Barber Shop 2!!! for my b-day...im happy. well im out dogs. peace.

let him fuckin tweek!
hey journal, whats crackin? i havent updated in a while b/c my computer is a retard, so i came to Casey's to work out some issues on my journal. well me and and Case didnt go to school today because i had a field trip thay i didnt wanna go on and
Casey is a faker, haha. last night me and her walked to the b-ball game but we didnt wanna stay because of some...problems. and i gave the sign i made for Brian to someone, so hopefully he liked it. hmm, we we just got back from Randals and Cameron walked with us and hes really nice bu talks little, i guess hes shy? hmm, and Johnny was bein a fucking idiot and messing with some little kid, who was like 5...uhg. well im out for now, peace and love to the bitches and hoes.

peace out neazeys

To Jean Marie and Berta
in my most recent entry i talked about how i really didnt have many true friends, but i just realized that Jean Marie and Roberta rock my world. i literally love those chicks so much and i wanted to dedicate this entry to them for being so hardcore. Jean makes me laugh more then anything, and Roberta makes me feel cool because she laughs at stuff with me! and i looove that! and i need to spend some more time with dem girls...because they are off the hinges haha. if yall are reading this I LOVE YOU TWO ALOT!

-Dj White Chocolate

p.s: this is my new fav song...bwahha

Im just a kid and life is a nightmare.
wow, i just got done babytsitting for 5 and a half hours for the most rambunctious kid ever, but i made 40 dollars so thats good...well i have been doing alot of thinking and i realized i really dont have any true friends...i mean the one person i love the most out of all my friends is well, Casey. because she understands me compltely, shes awesome to be with, and i hate it when people criticize her when they dont even know her. it really tweaks me...but seriously i know all my friends probably talk behind my back, im sure someone is talking about me now...and ill admit i do it to, but i realized a true friend, wouldnt do that and i feel bad for everything i've said about my "friends". i mean i've probably had 1 really true honest to god friend, and she moved out of my life...and that sucks. and i know some of my friends who are reading this are probably thinking that im either insanly right or a mean ass bitch. but either way, thats how i feel and i feel that alot of people havent been truly genuine with our friendship, and i would rather have 1 true friend then a bunch of bad ones. and seriously, before you go and talk behind your supposed friend's back, think about it...because its not cool to do that, and another thing...if you sit there and pick out someone's faults , they might be great friends with that person and they might not appreciate that either. all im saying is be true and genuine to your friends. if my friend does something that bothers me or hurt me, ill be up front with them, and if they get offended by it, well im sorry. and another thing i was thinking about is when people use people. its just moraly wrong to use someone to get to there brother/sister or whatever it may be. and in most cases there brother and/or sister wont like you for using there sibling...so take a step back. im just so sick of hearing about people talking behind my back and then greeting me with there half ass smiles like we are best friends. no, and i think its really low when someone says stuff about someone they dont know. i dont understand how you could even talk about someone you dont know...all i know is...if you wanna be my friend, be straight up and dont talk shit, thats seriously all i ask in someone. nothing more nothing less. well change of subject...tomorrow i think me and my mom are going to get my Valentines Dance dress. yes, yes i am going...but all i really want is to go bowling, that should be grand. im kinda iffy about the people who are going though...but my mind is like going so many different way right now. like a BIG part of me just wants to greet strangers to make new friends, and a small part of me just wants to hang out with the norm. but i really would like to meet new people. if you go to my school and we havent reallt talked a whole lot before i/m me online or something because seriously, im so up for anything and everything [except sex...bwhaha] and i so need some new friends [not that im getting rid of the old ones] so i/m me [viva la bam182 or shaka brah122] and we'll talk. well im out. much love to the neazeys and bitches.keep it real.