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:: 2004 10 April :: 3.45pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: unearth

wow, im a loser this is my 3rd time updating today :-X ahh its ok, i hope that you all are enjoying these journal entries. (im bored):

i follow the crowd @ woohu.com
I do it because it's cool

What type of Woohu user are you?
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I scored a 78% on the "Are you SEXY?" Quizie! What about you?

I scored a 76% on the "how sexual are you" Quizie! What about you?

i took all the sex quizzes, lol :) iheartderek<3

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:: 2004 10 April :: 11.07am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: nothingface

this is me...

and now - derek <3...

...and now thanks to tiffany [ www.woohu.com/~cherries ] i know how to put pictures in my journal!!!

now all i have to do is send in my $2 to andy!

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:: 2004 10 April :: 7.54am
:: Mood: rejuvenated
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine

amazing day <3
omgggg yesterday was an amazing day. i went to get my nails done because i was seeing derek but i ended bumping up into some girl and my one nail got really fucked up. oh well, i took the 6:44 train bellmore and met up with derek and got a hug :) then we walked to the movie theater and bought 2 tickets to i think the movie was called the whole 10 yards maybe? lol. after we bought the tickets we had like 20 minutes so we went to see some car that i personally didn't like but derek did because it was a stick. yuckkkk. we went in to see the movie and i coulda sworn that he didn't like me cause it seemed like he didn't wanna touch me or whatnot. BUT during the movie our arms were pretty much on top of eachother. during the movie brian bleeped me so after the movie i called him back and he wanted to know what i was doing and i told him that i was in bellmore and wouldn't be back into oceanside/east rockaway till sometime after 11. sooo after the movie we walked around and then ended up in the train station parking lot looking at cars and derek goes to me 'would you be mad if i kissed you?' and i said 'yeah, cause i have something in my mouth' and he said 'spit it out' and i did and then he kissed me :-D. after that we ended up holding hands and walking. then we ended up hanging around on the benches by the train station looking at the passing cars and saw an unmarked cop car :-O well, when it was time for me to get my train we hugged and i didn't want to leave him :( but he is damn well close to perfect.


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:: 2004 9 April :: 9.38am
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: marilyn manson - the beautiful people

hopefully a good day
i just wanna tell everyone how incredibly amazing the antique store was. i have never seen such cool stuff! blahh im talking to christian and he's yelling at me for nothing again. LMFAO :) it's actually funny when he gets mad at me. but anyways - derek says we're hanging out around 7 or so today, i hope we actually do because i need someone to calm me down and also to get me out of this piece of shit town, hey that rhymes - haha. well, im bored - very and i need to take a shower so im going to listen to some music and talk to some people (like the new journal by the way?) i'll be changing it to a cool leopard looking background because now im obsessed with leopard due to the bench thingy i got yesterday. i decided my room is going to be painted red and all my other stuff is going to be leopard. it's going to look SOOOO cool :)

guy's are confusing :-/

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:: 2004 8 April :: 7.32pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: switchfoot

i just came back from furniture shopping. we went to some antique store that was going out of business. they had the most AMAZING stuff!

-a leopard velveteen bench
-a cool as hell chair from the 50's
-2 horsey things (that are cool!)
-6 shotglasses in a holder
-a lamp

i love antique/thrift shops

Which Punk Band Member will you marry? by butt-hole
You will marryChris Carrabba of Dashboard Confessional
Number of kids5
Cost of your wedding$91,602,071
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

[(i was bored)]

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:: 2004 8 April :: 11.45am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: judas priest

i love my joshy :)
i love my bestest friend joshua liam lyons!!!

happy birthday sweetie we love you more than life *happy 16th* hunni bunches of oats

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:: 2004 7 April :: 10.21am
:: Mood: mad
:: Music: finch- what it is to burn

what the hell?
i just wrote a HUGE entry and woohu deleted almost everything i wrote :(

-matt is coming over today
-i went to sweet hollow rd. and mt. misery last night (didn't see anything interesting)
-eddie is giving me a 10 inch dildo..lol
-sherri came over
-i got coldstone (birthday remix)
-tried to get eddie or roberto to take us back to mt. misery/sweet hollow rd, no go :-/

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:: 2004 5 April :: 9.16am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: something corporate- konstantine

well, last night was aright. my mom didn't get up till like 4:30 and then we went out to dinner to iHOP and then to the supermarket and then i came home. i came online and talked to chris (from bellmore) and he picked me up for alittle and we went to coldstone but it was SOOO busy, grr i was soo in the mood for coldstone. thennn we drove around for alittle bit and then he decided to drop me off and we'd hang out another time when he had more time and we'd go to the brew :). i found out that he's going to ozzfest (and so am i) so im going to hang out with him there too. after he dropped me off i saw kristi and paris, last night was a pretty decent night :)

me=guy confusion :-/

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:: 2004 4 April :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: crampy
:: Music: nothing

i miss joey
i miss marlo,eddie,ryan,denny & jack
i miss my old house
i miss my messy room :-/
i miss how we used to have fun together
i miss jenna<3
i miss seeing sammi and laina every weekend
i miss late night phone calls with jaymes
i miss shows with jenn
i miss colin and the glen cove bowling alley
i miss him pretending to care
i miss his touch
i miss us bitching at eachother all night
i miss 'the crew'
i miss broadhollow theater (camp -kim,chris,and kevin)
i miss the monster in the corner at the mall
i miss going to the mall with *him*
i hate the way he makes me feel
i hate regular snapple and soda
i hate that i love him but i hate him
i hate that i can't get him out of my head
i hate having cramps
i hate being me
i hate when people yell at me
i hate having only 1 bathroom in my apartment
i hate living on the second floor of a house
i hate that i can't stop thinking of him
i hate that i like too many people
i hate that he has been away from me for too long :(
i hate being without him
i hate when people piss me off
i hate a bitch from lynbrook on my boces bus
i hate how he makes me feel
i hate fighting and hatred
i hate people who are racist
i hate the racial slurs people make about me being jewish
i hate when people don't answer me online
i hate when people are sarcastic (it clashes w.my personality)
i hate a lot of rap
i hate bathing suits
i hate the beach
i hate when people steal my cell phone
i hate when my phone dies
i hate cleaning
i hate male chovanistic guys
i hate when girls get bitchy over nothing
i hate PMS
i hate reading books that are boring
i love derek
i love making fun of people who make fun of me
i love my cell phone and the computer
i love drinking
i love being myself
i love urban outfitters
i love pac sun
i love when i talk to *him*
i love woohu.com
i love my friends on woohu
i love hanging out with sherri
i love going to ozzfest :-D
i love josh & timmy
i love being in plays
i love erica
i love singing in the rain
i love my black planet chair
i love having him there for me
i love the mall
i love the color red and black
i love having tips
i love the song 'the reason' by hoobastank
i love dancing to funny rap songs
i love being stupid with my friends
i love going to concerts
i love the downtown
i love walking around aimlessly
i love just being on earth
i love samm,scutch,jenn,vix,and lauryn
i love maris,jessy,krys,and chris :)

now you go.
i miss____
i hate____
i love____

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:: 2004 4 April :: 11.29am
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: toxix -britney spears

i am an indie snob!

How indie are you?
test by ridethefader

You're just too cool for school, aren't you? You're pretty narrow minded
and opinionated with regards to music (and probably most other things
as well). But you're allowed to be, because you really are better
than everyone else. You take pride in obscurity.
You probably prefer vinyl too, you elitist bitch.

indie snob?!?! huhhhh what?!?! crazyyy

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:: 2004 3 April :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: grr...pissed
:: Music: eh, some cooking show

[ series 1 - your ]
-- Name : marissa
-- Birthday : nov 16th 1988
-- Birthplace : oceanside, NY
-- Current Location : east rockaway, NY
-- Eye Color : hazely
-- Hair Color : brown with blonde highlights
-- Righty or Lefty : righty
-- Zodiac Sign : scorpio
-- Font : tahoma baby!

[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : anything really - rock,metal,punk
-- Cartoon : umm rocket power?
-- Color : red/black
-- Rose: i love red roses :)
-- Slushy Flavor : umm idk
-- Magazine : cosmopolitan (theres sex stuff in there)
-- TV Show : any day now,everwood,7th heaven
-- Song at the Moment: the reason (hoobastank)
-- Language : english (cause i can speak it)
-- Spice Girl : i dont really remember...
-- Food & Beverage : cheesy fries from outback and uhh diet coke
-- Subject in School : ummm lets say health issues
-- Weekend Activity : going to concerts
-- Ice Cream Flavor : cake batter w.crunch bar from coldstone :)
-- Roller Coaster : i dont like em

[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : lol,brb,bbl,bbs
-- The last image/thought you go to sleep with : derek<3
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : eyes
-- The Best Name for a Butler : maxwell
-- The wussiest sport: not sure....
-- Your best feature : my hair
-- Your bedtime : umm i dont really have one
-- Your greatest fear : umm idk
-- Your greatest accomplishment : honor roll?
-- Your most missed memory : the cruise :)

[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King : mcdonalds
-- Single or group dates : single
-- Adidas or Nike : adidas
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers : chicken fingers baby
-- Dogs or cats : cats, my cat
-- Rugrats or Doug : rugrats
-- Single or taken : taken
-- Monica or Brandy : i can't tell you, i dont really know
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : neither
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : fuck you with all your BS music
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : nesteaaaa
-- One pillow or two : one
-- Chocolate or vanilla : chocolate
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : hot chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee : coffee
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers baby ;)

[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : pretty much
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : yes i do :)
-- do you think you've been in love? : yes
-- Want to go to college? : uh huh
-- Like high school? : no, i hate it
-- Want to get married : yes i do
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : yeah i do
-- Believe in yourself? : not at all
-- Have any tattoos/where? : don't got any
-- Have any piercings/where? : 1 in each ear :)
-- Get motion sickness? : in elevators
-- Think you're a health freak? : not at all
-- Get along with your parents? : with my mom, but not with my dad at all
-- Like thunderstorms? : ah, they scare me!

[ series 6 - the future ]
-- Age you hope to be married : 23
-- Number and Names of Children : 2 adopted, shoshanna and ryan
-- Where do you see yourself at age 20? : college
-- Descibe your Dream Wedding : just being with the man i love all night long <3
-- How do you want to die? : in my sleep
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? : psychologist,radio broadcaster on like z100 would be fun too
-- What country would you most like to visit? : austrailia

[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
-- Best eye color? : blue
-- Best hair color? : dark brown
-- Short or long hair? : crew cut :)
-- Best height? : 5'6" or up
-- Best weight? : that doesn't matter to me
-- Best articles of clothing? : pants?
-- Best first date location? : walking around holding hands
-- Best first kiss location? : anywhere
-- What facial feature do you find the most attractive? : eyes

[ series 8 - other ]
-- When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal? : not too long ago
-- How many rings until you answer the phone? : depending
-- What's on your mouse pad? : nothing
-- How many houses have you lived in? : 4
-- How many schools have you gone to? : 7
-- What color is your bedroom carpet? : i have wood floors
-- Would you shave your head for $5,000 dollars? : NEVER, i loveeee my hair!
-- What was the best time of your life so far? : nothing really
-- Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? if she was better than everyone else
-- Would you marry for money? : nope
-- Have you had braces? : nahhh
-- Do you pluck your eyebrows? : no, i have my signature triangle on my left eyebrow
-- Do you ever cut or hurt yourself? : sometimes i dig my fingernails into my arm
-- Would you live without a computer? : no...lol
-- Do you drink enough water? : sometimes
-- Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: not usually
-- What is your favorite fruit? : cherries, im addicted :)
--Do you eat wheat bread or white bread? : wheat, cause thats what mommy buys
-- What is the last movie you saw? : i really couldn't tell you
-- Do you kiss on the first date? : sometimes...if it feels right
-- Are you photogenic? : not at all
-- Do you dream in colour or black and white? : i dream in both :)
-- Are you wearing fingernail polish? : acrylic tips with red polish!
-- Do you have any dimples? : dimples are only in the middle of your cheeks..no.
-- Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most? : both
-- Do you want to live to be 100?: if im healthy, yeah
-- Do you think women should be expected to shave their body hair? : ummmm idk
-- Do you like salty food or sugary food the most? : salty - im a salt fiend
-- Is a flat stomach important to you? : important? nahh
-- Do you or have you played with a ouija board? : haha yeah
-- Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? : unless there extremely degrading to another person, yes
-- When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off? : off
-- Do you believe in magic? : yeahh
-- Do you have nightmares frequently? : no but i have WEIRD ASS dreams
-- Do you like your nose?: haha, yeah im happy i didnt get the big jewish/italian nose that runs in my family
-- Do you think you can draw well? : nahh
-- Do you listen to music daily? : yeahh
-- Do you like to watch cartoons? : not really
-- How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? : over 10
-- Do you like your friends? : they wouldn't be my friends if i didnt like them

5 things that scare you:
1. dying
2. rapists
3. being in a car going really fast
4. the dark, sometimes
5. neat freaks

5 things that make you laugh:
1. idiots
2. my friends
3. people who are dickasses to you and then try to be your friend
4. prank phone calls
5. me- lmfao

5 things you love:
1. my friends
2. metal music
3. concerts
4. my cell phone
5. derek<3

5 things you hate:
1. when CDs skip
2. when people are mean
3. when people steal things
4. boy bands
5. the snow

5 things you don't understand:
1. depression
2. suicide
3. my life
4. why people steal
5. cliques

Right now you are:
1. talking to corey on the phone, ughh
2. talking to matt on the computer
3. being mad
4. thinking
5. loving derek <3

please fill out the entry before this :(

what do you have 2 say 4 yourself?


:: 2004 3 April :: 1.16am
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: some TV show i dont know

1. Your name (optional):
2. What You Think About Me:
3. Am I one of your friends?:
4. Am I nice to you?:
5. HONESTLY do you think I'm Hot, Pretty, Cute, OK, Ugly, Disgusting?:
6. Do you ever think about me off line?:
7. What do you like best about me?:
8. What annoys you most about me?:
9. Two words to describe me:
10. Do you notice a strange habit I have?:
11. What is the nicest thing I have done for you?:
12. When you hear my name what do you think of?:
13. What is my best feature?:
14. What person do you picture me with?:
15: Where do you think we'll be in 10 years?
16: Do we spend a lot of time together? If so, what was one of the best times we've ever had together?

Opposite Sex
17. Would you ever go out with me?
18. Would you ever kiss me?
19. Would you ever take a trip to a deserted island with me?

Put an 'X' or a remark for Each one that Refers to Me
20. Outgoing -
21. Shy -
22. Caring -
23. Nice -
24. Sweet -
25. Mean -
26. Weird -
27. Crazy -
28. Smart -
29. Stupid -
30. Dark -
31. Bright -
32. Funny -
33. Freaky -

34. Say anything about me:

im lazy,fill this out...please??

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:: 2004 2 April :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: kinda happy
:: Music: cradle of filth

im in my new apartment :) most of our stuff is in here except that i don't have a bed or any furniture, lmfao. well, im really tired and my back is KILLING me. i have to hang my clothes up and stuff and blah blah blah. well, i hope that everyone's weekend is going well i will update when i actually have something to write about - I LOVE YOU GUYS!

->brian i love you, thank you for all the hard work you put in helping me move in :P xo <3


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:: 2004 30 March :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: the reason-hoobastank (its me and dereks song)

1) Using band names, spell out your name:
Maroon 5
A static lullaby
Rage against the machine

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?:
lol, i've tried
3) What song makes you cry?:
good charlotte - hold on

4) What song makes you happy?
the reason - hoobastank (because its me and dereks song)

5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
anything really

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 4'10" and proud mofo
HAIR COLOR: dark brown with blonde highlights
SKIN COLOR: peachy?
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: my ears

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my bat mitzvah pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: until the day i die - story of the year
HOW ARE YOU?: i heart derek, other then that ehh

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: not really...except in hospital elevators
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: any day now
CONDITIONER: herbal essences
BOOK: frank mccourt (im in the process of reading it)
MAGAZINE: cosmopolitan
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: skyy vodka and cranberry juice/mikes
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: parties,concerts,hang out with my friends
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: ummm lets say smile empty soul

h a v e y o u
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: nope, can't say i have
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah, 8th grade was the last one

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: single...but i hope not to be soon cause he's amazing <3
GIRLFRIEND: never, im sorry
SEXUALITY: hetero baby
CHILDREN: i wanna adopt 2
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah, and my heart was broken when he moved to florida :(
BEEN HURT?: yeah, i have plenty of times
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: going out with mafia man
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no, but i need one...you have one for me?
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: my mixtape of greenday,yellowcard,creed and hoobastank
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: black, definitly black
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with my friends
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: honest caring people
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: go to concerts

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: the other day
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: i dont remember
YOU GOT E-MAIL: yesterday
THING YOU PURCHASED: cake batter and crunch bar ice cream from coldstone
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: jerry springer
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: uhhh i dont remember

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: i dont really agree, but im kinda pro-choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: i haven't had a cigarette in 3 weeks, are you proud?
SPICE GIRLS: they were amazing
DREAMS: i have WEIRD ass dreams

i talked to derek today on the phone for a while and he played guitar for me and he called me to say goodnight. he is amazing. we decided today that hoobastank the reason is our song

dmbmustang8766: i love u 2 babi
->aw i definitly love this kid :)

i heart derek
i miss joey so much
i love bacci

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:: 2004 28 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: i hate everything about you- 3 days grace

Nicknames?::riss,rissa,mariss,riss-ma,lil pisster,pissa
Birthday::november 16
Where you living?::new york
Favorite Clothes::jeans and a tshirt
Favorite Shoes::etnies
Hair Color::brown with blonde highlights
Eye Color::hazel
Piercings?::in my ears
Choose or Lose
Morrissey or Marr?::morrissey
Wendy's, Burger King or McDonalds?:wendys
New York or Los Angeles?:los angeles
Paper or Plastic?:plastic
1980s or 1990s?:90's
Fruit or Veggies?:fruit
rock or rap?:rock
sun or moon?:moon
winter break, summer break or spring break?:spring break
Kerry or Bush?:kerry
good or bad?:bad
Now a bunch of giggling 10 year old girls run in
gay straight or what?:straight
describe who you want to be in a relationship with:derek<3
Describe your last ex:ummm flamer.
Now you name some favorites
Movie:schindlers list,gothika,jack,jawbreaker,shallow hal
Song:maroon5-this love
Band:korn,maroon5,something corporate,killswitch engage
TV Show:7th heaven,any day now,everwood
Fast Food Place:wendys
Class at School or activity at work:activity at work
Cereal:cinnamon life
Now I ask you about ur friends:funny,nice,fun to be around
Whos your best friend?:sammi and jaymes
Name the first thing that comes to your mind when u hear...
Linkin Park:numb
Paul McCartney:idk!
Supply and Demand:toys?
Savings and Loan:moneyyyy
past:is gone
regret:everything i've done

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:: 2004 27 March :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: ace of base - its a beautiful life

fun with the boys and then the girls
soo last night was aright. i went to dance then came home and took a shower and then brian,joelle,and eric came over and we chilled in my house for a little then they decided to go to taco bell so joelle drove us and then i went back home and i got a call from kristi and her,leslie,and paris came over and then we drank. it was fun, i lovvvvvve the boces girls sooo fucking much :)

well, saturday was shit - went to charlie browns for dinner then got some coldstone. took some things to the new apartment.

i heart you od

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:: 2004 26 March :: 12.02pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: some airforce movie or something

im in school right now in the science room and my science teacher and charlie are in here. charlie is watching some airforce movie...heh. todays friday i have dance and then i dont know what else..hopefully something good

i have to start painting my new room and move in my shit

i love you all :)

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:: 2004 24 March :: 9.34pm
:: Music: story of the year

my grandma is leaving the hospital tomorrow morning and then going into rehab.

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:: 2004 24 March :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: alanis morrissete - what if gd was one of us?

just a slob like one of us...
haven't updated in a while. my school had gym today LOL we only have 3 days of gym in my school. today we went out into the woods and we did 'project adventure' type things...it sucked soo bad. we stood on a log and i stood in between spencer and kevin and i swear kevin almost made me fall like 30 billion times..LOL we did some like big see-saw balancing shit, lol. ummm idk we're going out to climb the wall and do the high ropes (neither of which im doing) im not sure when. i have to hand in my economics project tomorrow. HOPEFULLY denise finished the poster part of it. if not im FUCKED bill will shoot me well, i hope all of you have a good weekend.

i hate love you <3

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:: 2004 21 March :: 9.49am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: a static lullaby

11 days that grandmas been in the hospital :-/
soo friday i did nothing. saturday i went to look at two apartments and then we went out to eat and then after that i looked at one in east rockaway and we liked it even though its a tad out of our range. after that i went to visit my grandma in the hospital and we stayed there till about 9 and we came home, got white castle (yuck) and i called brian to find out that he was out already and he didn't call me because he didn't know my number! grrrr. well, i came home, talked to derek on the phone for alittle,watched
'camp cool' and room raiders 'maroon5' and then fell asleep. today i want to get my nails done and we have 2 apartments to see today. oyyy school tomorrow and i cant forget to type up my economics project


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:: 2004 16 March :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: creed

hmm...thinking about making my journal friends only


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:: 2004 16 March :: 6.51am
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: nothing

i probably only have like 2 periods of school today because im going to the holocaust museum in glen cove. shiiiiit that reminds me of colin :-/ well, i'll update about the day later. hopefully someone wants to pick me up from school?


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:: 2004 15 March :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: rockell- in a dream

well, school was not too bad. besides for the fact i tried begging my mom not to make me go it was aright. everyone was like 'are you ok?' blah blah blah. i was fine. i felt shitty but i was OK. well, my mom couldn't drive me to school so i got off at the west hempstead stop and paris and mikey drove me home and hung out with me for alittle bit. i got home and blah blah LOL. tomorrow is tuesday and we're going to the holocaust museum in glen cove (about 12 of us) well, that should be fun - derek is going to call me in a bit so im gonna go wait :)


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:: 2004 14 March :: 2.08pm
:: Mood: PISSED
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

quiz - soo freakin bored
DOB:: Nov, 16th 1988
Age:: 15
Location:: front of my house
Siblings:: 2 sisters
Pets:: my cat
Veggetable:: carrots
Animal:: dog
Fruit:: banana
Color:: black or red
Household Object:: computer
Season:: fall
Article of Clothing:: clevage shirt- lol
Drink:: chocolate milk
What's one thing that will always make you laugh?: when samm yells 'IM A LESBIONIC CRACKHEAD'
What's one thing that will always make you cry?: hold on by good charlotte or thinking about eddie or marlo
What's one thing that will always make you angry?: when people lie to me
Do you laugh a lot?: sometimes
Do you cry a lot?: ehh
Do you get mad easily?: oh HELL YEAH i do
What's your strongest emotion right now?: depressed pretty much and sometimes i feel alone
What song brings out your strongest emotion?: Fukk Authority
--What's your favorite...--
Season:: fall
Holiday:: channukah
Age:: 2
Phrase/Quote:: 'i want you to want me, i need you to need me'
Thing to do:: going to concerts
Type of Cookie:: thin mint girl scout cookies
Class:: ummm health issues
Person in the whole wide world:: richie <3
--If You Could--
If you could be anything you wanted (animal, object...) what would you be?: can i just be invisible?
If you could have any super power, what would you have?: being immortal
If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?: being friends with her...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?: that im so anti social
If you could change one thing about your best friend, what would it be?: change how pretty she is...
If you could be a millionare, what would you buy?: my favorite band to play whenever i wanted
--A Deeper Look--
The most important thing in your life is:: my mom and my grandparents
The most important person in your life is:: my mom,grandparents,sammi,jaymes
Your life motto:: care about yourself first before you care about other people
Your best advice for someone else:: don't keep shit inside
The best advice ever given to you:: life is hard, deal
One word to describe your personality:: i think its good
--Friends and Enemies--
Who is your best friend?: sammi
What do you do together?: drink,listen to music,smoke cigs,watch movies,go to conerts
What is it about this person that makes you get along so well?: she is just so amazing
How long have you known them?: 15 years
Who is your worst enemy?: mark
What is it about this person that makes you not get along?: he tried to rape me
Your close friends (besides best friend) are:: jenn,vix,scutch,laur,ris,sherri,josh,tim,larry,sal
Your other enemies are:: jess ragusta,stefanie rodjin,maxine alazraki,jess martinez(not so much anymore)
--Days and Nights--
What time do you get up on weekdays?: 5:00 if i take a shower 6:00 when i dont
What time do you get up on weekends?: around 10 normally but no later than 12
What time do you go to bed on weeknights?: 12?
What time do you go to bed on weekends?: haha like never
What's your favorite time of the day?: 8 at night
Why?: it just is
What's your least favorite time of the day?: the beginning of a school day
Why? cause i got the rest of the day left
What time are you most productive?: mid-day
Are you an early bird or a night owl?: night owl
--Love & All That Good Stuff--
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
If yes, how long have you been dating them?: i dont have a fuckin boyfriend.
If no, do you want one?: yuypp
Who would you want them to be?: i dont know, someone who cares about me...
Are you sure about that?: YEAH
Do they know you like them?: um everyone i like does...
Are you sure about that?: yupp+
On a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you like this person?: 10, if it wasn't 10 i wouldnt wanna date them
Do they like you back?: most of them
Are you sure about that?: yeah i guess
How much time do you spend thinking about this person?: a lot of time

--On a scale of 1-10, how important is ...... to you?--
Music:: 9.5
Friends:: 10
Family:: 10
Love:: 9
Happiness:: 10.
Solitude:: huh?
Education:: 6
Having Fun:: 7

i was bored...so i took this, comment away

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:: 2004 13 March :: 9.08pm
:: Music: frusturated

well, today was a decent day. i hung out with kristi,leslie,john,andrew,and greg. they are amazing they are my boces friends that ride the bus with me in the morning :) soo we hung around all day and did nothing. at 2 my mom took my sisters home and then went to the hospital to see my grandma. currently it is 8:53 and my mom is still at the hospital and sherri is at dougs house and leslie,kristi,andrew,john,and greg just left my house. sherri is coming over my house and yeah. i hope everyone had a good day :)

andrew greg john kristi leslie caitlin amanda danny mark kait lara paris alex ray and mikey are amazing sexy pieces of ass!!! :)

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:: 2004 12 March :: 12.15pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: atreyu

its lunchtime in school..yeahh and im bored as hell

update about the day later :)

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:: 2004 12 March :: 7.14am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: fallout boy

really mad

->sorry, but i just can't stand it anymore. im getting a ride to school today and then i have dance and then probably hanging out with like jaymes and tim and something and maybe sammi jco and scutch and having a little party for all of us who have been friends for 10 years or longer :-P lollll <3333

edit: i have 18 friends and in about 5 journal entries or so not one has commented keep that in mind.

i heart derek

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:: 2004 11 March :: 9.01pm
:: Mood: decent
:: Music: marilyn manson

ehh, bored
color: black and red
movie(s): jack,schindlers list,gothika
car: hyundai elantras (nice looking cars),lamborghini and IDK
song: this love - maroon 5
band(s): metallica,a static lullaby,bleeding through,korn,marilyn manson
girl(s): samm,amy,jenn,scutch,vix,lauryn,maris,jess,krys,chris - and more
guys(s): jaymes,tim,josh,sal,larry,liam,nick,bobby,hillel,derek - and more
tv show: 7th heaven and everwood baby
video game: ummm how about - burnout point of impact 2 for playstation 2?
number: it has to be even!
place to go: a couch,the mall - HEHE
word(s): mmk,asscock
store: pac sun,urban outfitters
screen name: maj0rd0rkage,m3ntalshorty
city: new york city,los angeles
radio station: how about KROCK?

->quick quiz cause i was bored. i got off the bus and right away went to the hospital to see my grandma then i went to taco bell for dinner and then we went to see some apartment. i thought it was pretty nice but my guess is that my mom didn't like it. OH WELL :-/ see ya later alligatorssssss


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:: 2004 10 March :: 11.55pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: evanescence

well, today was an aright day. i went to therapy at 5 and then i went to the hospital to see my grandma. she had been there from 10 am and she didn't get a room until about 8:30 pm, stupid fuckers. she's in soo much pain and it hurts to see her like this. oh wow, this shit fucks with me emotionally. i'm not going to sleep yet and at 12 im calling richie because he keeps me somewhat sane :) i love him a lot and it sucks so much that he lives in california :(

Nucklee: i dont know you said you got back from the hospital i just started freaking
maj0r d0rkage: aw why?
Nucklee: i thought something happened to you
-->aww he cares. it's nice to know SOMEONE does.

i wish i had never met you, so then i wouldn't have to spend every day wondering why i can't see you :-/ <3

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:: 2004 9 March :: 6.24am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: metallica

life sucks :(
omg i feel insanely sick right now and im thinking im gonna have to go to school. I think im going to get dressed and then lay on the couch so my mom know's i don't feel good. i've been absent from school SO FUCKING MUCH already but like i feel sick and i can't stand it. Mannnnnnn, this shit really sucks being sick and all, and we have to move. Our landlord isn't renewing the lease and shit because they say 'they have to do work in the house' and me and my mom know that that's just a sack of shit. We looked at 2 apartments in queens and they were aright. I don't think i could live in queens...im just not that urban of a girl but hey well see. My mom talked to my principal and my pricipal gave my mom a list of towns that we would move to that i would still be able to go to pace. All this shit always happens to me like honestly 1 good thing happens to me and another bad thing happens to fuck it all up. Sucks, but what can you do? nothing. Well, i hope everyone's life is going better than mine right now :-/


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