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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 8 March :: 10.09am
:: Mood: really shitty
:: Music: fallout boy

bored and home sick :-/
im really sick and i can't stop coughing and im bored and can't fall back asleep otherwise i won't fall asleep later so im stay up.

I scored a 88% on the " Sex Needs?" Quizie! What about you?

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 7 March :: 9.46am
:: Mood: alittle tired
:: Music: nothingface

going to meet the new landlord when my mom gets home - i hope he likes us, my mom seems to like the house plus i can go to PACE still because the house is in east rockaway about 6/10ths of a mile or something? lol!

i<3richie

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 7 March :: 12.41am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: blink 182

nothing really to update about
i dont really have anything to update about. i took a survey and i was gonna post it here but i accidentally deleted it. OH WELL. well, i went to bellmore for about an hour and hung out with bryan (that was fun...not) then i took the train home and i saw sammsta and jenn <-i love those girls with all my heart. i went home and i talked on the phone for alittle bit and now im about to call richie. blahh aright lovers have a good day!

i<3richie
derek is sexy
jaymes bfffl
OD we had some good times
tim=amazing
josh has a NICE CRACK!

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 6 March :: 1.34pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: dont want you back - eamon

well, im bored amy left like an hour ago? im babysitting my little sister alexis. bryan just came on and im going to his house around 7 and i dont know when im leaving. OD got me in the worst mood yesterday before dance but i really dont wanna talk about it and maybe if you guys are lucky i'll update about everything that he said later. i wanted to get fucking twisted last night. close, but no ciagar. i went to amy's house for alittle and we watched american pie and then her dad drove us back to my house cause we were gonna meet up with brian and 3 of his boys. that didn't work out too well because they got pulled over for speeding - GRRR and then they went home. i talked to bobby last night for alittle but thats it. hopefully tonight i'll get fucking twisted as hell :-/

i<3richie

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 29 February :: 9.47am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: switchfoot - we were meant to live

soo last night biancas mom picked me and amy up at my house and dropped me,amy, bianca,and christina off at 7-11. we had some guy to buy us beer but the 7-11 guy said that he knew it was for us so he wouldn't sell it to him, we were soo fucking mad. so finally amy found someone to get weed and we walked to KFC in oceanside and waited there. while we were waiting an undercover cop in a crown victoria with tinted windows that were rolled half up tells us that he's a taxi and asks us for a ride we were like nahh no thanks. umm i think he was trying to get us for prostitution - lol. soo amy gets the weed and shit and then we had no where to smoke it so we walked down lawson and everyone smoked. then we start walking towards wendys and we notice someone is following us and we got scared - HAHA even though it was only big black mike, lolz. sooo we get to wendys and were just chilling there and then biancas mom calls her and her and christina left. then amy called brian and we walked back to my house and yeah i tried to get eric over here,and then eddie and then kyle but none of it worked cause it was like 1 in the morning sooooo today im going to go with my mom to get my grandma to the doctor. should be fun times update later :)

iheartodandrichieandhim

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 28 February :: 11.34am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: a static lullaby- lipgloss and letdown

well, i called corey back to tell him i love him and no answer or answering machine - whatever i tried, but thats it. i'll update later tonight when i get home if i go out :-/

i think im gonna start deleting my friends because no one ever comments and it really sucks sooooo IF YOU DONT WANNA BE DELETED post a comment here. ALSO if you wanna be added i'll add you if you comment

<3 laterz

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 25 February :: 8.10am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: everyone smoking cigarettes outside yelling

i missed the bus,my mom is mad and drove me to school. i got to school 20 minutes before i ever would have. oh well, i'll update about the day when i get home, k?

bye<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 23 February :: 2.40pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

well, its 2:31 on monday february 23rd and i would've been out of school - if i had went to school. i didn't go to school today because i felt like shit. my mom went to the doctor. ummm i hate a boca 'meatless' burger with barbeque sauce and it was good. lol very interesting right? i have like $100 i think im going to take my mom out to dinner..today maybe? idk. friday i went to the horse tracks with my mom,amy,and her boyfriend lonnie who is so nice. i bet on a horse (6) and i would've gotten 68 dollars if he won and he came in 2nd place. holy shit was i mad. i would've been up 78 dollars but he didn't win so i was only up 10 lol but i got to keep the 20 that lonnie used for the starting bets. saturday i hung out with sherri,amy,and brian and we drank and shit and then later at night lonnie took me and sherri to get bagels at 24 hour and ice cream at TCBY. it was fun times. well, thats all because sunday was a nothing day and today im sick so im not doing anything today and tomorrow is school. we have to wait until what, april for another vacation? lalala school is almost over. i might graduate half a year early because i am taking economics now instead of in 12th grade. well, i hope everyone is having a good day :)

i<3youall

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 22 February :: 4.53pm
:: Mood: shitty
:: Music: some shitty rap music

First best friend: samm and jaymes
First real memory of something: sleeping in laundry baskets with my cousin
First real kiss: my boyfriend in 7th grade
First Job: carvel
First screen name: actingbug1
First self purchased album: spice girls i think
First funeral: my great aunt frans
First pets: dog- casper
First piercing/tattoo: my ears
First true love: tomm
First enemy: jessica ragusta
First big trip: florida
First play/musical/performance: i was in project rescue in 3rd grade
First musician you remember hearing in your house: billy joel prob.
Last cigarette: last night
Last big car ride: when i drove to florida
Last kiss: a while ago
Last good cry: ummm when when jack died
Last library book checked out: i dont remember
Last movie seen: ummm save the last dance?
Last beverage drank: snapple?
Last food consumed: mint chocolate chip ice cream
Last crush: him<3
Last phone call: my mom
Last tv show watched: i dont know?
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: my silver and white etnies
Last item bought: i dont remember
Last disappointment: OD not calling me last night :(
Last soda drank: last night?
Last ice cream eaten: today :)
Last shirt worn: my koRn 'still a fuckin freak' one

Here's a New 1 ...

[name ]: Marissa Leigh Fein
[ nicknames ]: riss,riss-ma,rissa,mariss,rissy,lil pissa,shrimp,marizzle
[ born in ]: oceanside
[ resides in ]: east rockaway
[ good student ]: pretty good
[ eyes ]: hazely
[ hair ]: brown with blonde highlights
[ shoe size ]: 7-8 somewhere in that range

Last time you...
[ had a nightmare ]: i dont remember
[ said "i love you" and meant it ]: today
[ ate at mcdonald's ]: in wantagh a couple of weeks ago
[ dyed your hair ]: umm like 7 months ago
[ brushed your hair ]: last night
[ Washed your hair ]: when i took a shower
[ checked your e-mail ]: today
[ cried ]: a couple of days ago
[called someone ]: last night at like 10
[ smiled ]: right now
[ laughed ]: 1 second ago

Do you...
[ do drugs? ]: not anymore
[ sleep with stuffed animals? ]: i sleep with my pug and my yorkie that OD gave me
[ have a dream that keeps coming back? ]: yeah...when i was like 5
[ play an instrument? ]: i used to be able to play violin and clarinet but not anymore
[ believe there is life on other planets? ]: yes
[ read the newspaper? ]: sometimes i do
[ consider love a mistake? ]: depending
[ like the taste of alcohol? ]: yeahh pretty much :)
[ believe in god? ]: nahh
[ pray? ]: nuh uh
[ go to church? ]: im jewish...
[ have any secrets? ]: tons
[ have any pets? ]: my cat dusty
[ talk to strangers who instant message you? ]: yupp
[ wear hats? ]: yeah
[ have any piercings? ]: in my ears
[ have any tattoos? ]: nahh
[ hate yourself? ]: yes
[ have an obsession? ]: haha yeahh
[ have a secret crush? ]: yuppsss
[ collect anything? ]: shot glasses
[ have a best friend? ]: yeah, i love you all so much<3
[ like your handwriting? ]: ehhh sorta its like a combination of print and script
[ have any bad habits? ]: yupp
[ care about looks? ]: alittle
[ boy/girlfriend's looks? ]: nah
[ friends and other people? ]: nah not at all
[ believe in witches? ]: yup
[ believe in satan? ]: nope
[ believe in ghosts? ]: yes i do
Current...
[ dress ]: pajama pants from my bat mitzvah and a koRn shirt
[ mood ]: pissed
[ make-up ]: none
[ music ]: some shitty rap music
[ taste ]: nothing
[ hair ]: straight and down
[ annoyance ]: fake people and shit
[ smell ]: nothing
[ thought ]: emohogotuoytnawi
[ fingernail color ]: nothing right now
[ refreshment ]: none at the moment
[ worry ]: nothing
[ crush ]: why do you care?

Last person...
[ you touched ]: my mom
[ you talked to ]: sherri
[ you hugged ]: uh i dont remember
[ you Instant messaged ]: chris
[ you yelled at ]: my mom
[ who broke your heart ]: ...

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 22 February :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: tired/shitty
:: Music: nothingface

im updating now but i have nothing to write about. basically everything was written yesterday when i was drunk..HAHA. umm i'll update tomorrow about sunday and monday at school.

laterloverz<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 21 February :: 9.41pm
:: Mood: drunk
:: Music: maroon5- this love

im drunk, i got bagels and ice cream. i asked the guy if i was slurring my word...LOL it was fucking funny as hell, i dont know what else to write so thats it. aright? i'll talk to you later

i<3danrichieandod

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 20 February :: 11.54am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris

quiz..im alil bored
Name: Marissa
Nicknames: rissa,riss,mariss,riss-ma,marizzle,shrimpy,lil pissa
Screen name: m3ntalshorty,maj0rd0rkage
Sex: Female
Birthday: 11/16/88
Height: 4'10"
Hair color: dark brown with blonde highlights
Is your hair long or short: long
Eye Color: hazel
City born in: oceanside, NY
Location now: east rockaway, NY
Siblings: 2 sisters...nikki(8) alexis(6)
Parents married/divorced: divorced
Who are your closest friends: samm,jaymes,amy
Who makes you laugh the most?: joshy lyons
Who knows the most about you?: samm and jaymes

+++WHO WAS YOUR CRUSH IN...+++

Kindergarten: shane
1st Grade: kenny
2nd Grade:
3rd Grade: billy/bryan
4th Grade: billy/bryan
5th Grade: david
6th Grade: david
7th Grade: matt/bacci
8th Grade: john/tomm/joey
9th Grade: emilio *ew*
10th grade: richie
11th grade: ---
12th grade: ---
Boy/girlfriend status: single and wanting him <3


+++OTHER STUFF ABOUT ME+++

Do you have a job: i used to
What are you scared of: being alone forever
Who's your role model: my mom
Most interesting thing you've done this summer: drank too much alcohol
What store do you shop at the most: pac sun,h & m
Are you a ditz: haha sometimes


+++FAVORITES+++

Day of the week: saturday
Thing in your room: my bed
Cousin: jamie and lauren
CD: korn(issues),pantera,killswitch engage
Song(s): maroon5 (this love)
Animal: dogs,horses,cats
Ice Cream: box of chocolates,chocolate and peanut butter
Alcholic Drink:mikes,long island ice tea,sky vodka and cranberry juice
Thing to do: play soccer,tennis,dance,acting,singing
Movies: jack,schindlers list,october sky,gothika
Hangout: my house
Favorite pizza topping: i like buffalo pizza so - buffalo chicken
Where do you see yourself in 10 years: college
If you could live anywhere: san fransisco<3
Dream house: anywhere but ehre
What age do you want to get married: around 25 if possible
How many kids do you want: 1 or 2 so i can spoil them
Girl's names: shoshanna (nice and jewish..lol),savannah,cheyenne
Boy's names: jacob

+++HAVE YOU EVER...+++

Been in love?: yes
Lied?: Yes
Cheated on a test?: Yes
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: once and i felt really guilty
Tied your shoes together?: no
Eaten something with a lot of fat?: yeah, plenty of things


+++FEELINGS SIDE+++

Worst Feeling in the world: being alone,being hurt
Best feeling in the world: being with someone you love
Can you define love? no, you can define real love
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Are you ticklish?: hahaha,yes.


+++OPPOSITE SEX+++


1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes,and smile
Perfect "dream" date: dinner and then cuddling on the couch
What do you look for in the opposite sex: personality
What does the opposite sex not know about you: cuddling is better than any sexual thing


+++NIGHTIE NIGHT+++

What do you wear to bed: pants and a shirt
What's your bed time: anytime i want
Do you wish on stars: i try
Is there a TV in your room: nope
What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: nothing really
How many schools have you been to: 8 different schools
Are you passive or aggressive: more passive
Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
Would you rather be hot or cold: cold
What is your curfew: about 3?


+++FRIENDS+++

Person you can trust the most: samm/jaymes
What is the best quality of a friend: honesty,trust,caring
What friend do you have the most fun with: everyone :)
Name your friends: samm,amy,scutch,jenn,vix,lauryn,maris,jess,krys,chris,selma,sarah,leigh,cassidy,sherri,jen,jaymie,jaymes,tim josh,larry,liam,sal,nick,and so many other people that i really don't feel like writing down ...BLEHHH


+++SILLY STUFF+++

Do you glow in the dark: uhh nope
Do you posses magical abilities: sure why not
Do you keep your underwear and socks in the same drawer: yes
Can you name all 4 Teletubbies:lala,dipsy,what asre the others?
If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: mostly everything
Have you ever tried to kill yourself: never tried but i've thought about it
Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves?: eddie commited suicide.......
What are you addicted to?: my cell phone?
Do you like jewelry?: ehh alil
Do you wear a watch?: nah, never

Do you believe in God?: no
Do you believe in love at first sight?: nahhh
What are your favorite tv show(s)?: everwood,7th heaven,friends
What color tooth brush do you use?: i dont rememeber
Is the glass half empty or half full: emptyyyy
Are you listening to any of your CDs at the moment:no, but im listening to splash waterfalls

my mom's bringing pizza home, but sherri probably can't come over this weekend and now im fucking mad as hell.

<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 20 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: splash waterfalls- ludacris

im listening to splash waterfalls by ludacris and SHIT this song gets me fucking horny...heh.

well, the days have been alright. i have a pack of cigarettes and only smoked one when i was stressed and aggravated and yeahhh so thats good. cigarettes are not a daily thing for me anymore, there more like a stress reliever, just like alcohol was to me.

today:friday, i dont know whats going on today hopefully something but its ok if nothing happens, lol. sherri is coming over today and we might go to the witches brew with her and her friend crystal and her friend. well see what happens tonight and if anything else is going on. OH WELL.

saturday sherri,amy,and brian are going to be here and were going to drink and shit and amy and brian are going to smoke. thats really it. this vacation is over and i honestly cannot believe it. it didn't really go fast but still i can't believe that its already over, shit.

iheartodandrichie<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 16 February :: 9.59am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: nothingface

last night was fun. we went to drop my sisters off at my dads girlfriends house and then we went to wantagh to pick sherri up. after that amy,sherri,and i went to the witches brew and had some espresso and DAMN that shit was good and it made me pee so fuckin badly, haha. we hung around there and called some people to see who we could hang out with. we wanted to hang out with roberto but he was tired and he had to go to work at 3 so he said no.

i saw yoni and he was staring at me and kept talking to his friend about me and it was getting me really mad and everything. i wanted to fuckin punch him in the face.

so we get in the car with my mom and we drive to the wantagh bowling alley and we were waiting till 9:30 for allison,dave,and sam to come and it was like only 8:30 so we walked to wendys and then hung around in there and then went back to the bowling alley then met up with the people and they played a game and then we went back to allisons house. OK? yea.

i<3richieandod

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 15 February :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: hoobastank

well, i have nothing to write here besides the fact that i changed the look of my journal around :) i got a new background,cursor, and perdy colors and all that shizzle. well, i hope that you like it so leave comments about the sexy changes to my sexy journal.

i.wuv.richie.and.od.<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 15 February :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: hoobastank



which groupmember are you?


well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.

i.heart.richie.and.od.<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 13 February :: 9.21am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nice to meet ya ma-bow wow

well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!

iheartrichieandod<3`

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin

|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie

|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination

|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against

|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost

|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies

|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done

|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH


|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!

|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk

|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally

|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)

|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.

|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie

|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...

|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5

valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/

well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..

school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.

iheartrichieandod<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year

well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.

one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...

im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh

iheartrichie<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

school today was...
fine.

ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.

bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled

when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.

iheartrichie<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 5 February :: 10.27am

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band NameDashboard Confessional
RoleKeyboardist
TrademarkWell-Worn Doc Martens
Love InterestSupermodel
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Who will give you an orgasm? by leslie13
Name
Age
Virgin?
So, who will make you moan?Your Soul Mate
How?Orally...yummmmy...
Will it be good?It'll be fucking amazing!
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What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:Saves the Month
You sound like:Bright Eyes
You will be signed to:Jade Tree Records
Your emo lyrics are:"Your empty promises make me want to hold your hand again"
Name:
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What Are You Most Likely to Utter During Sex by UMAJohnnie
Name
Sexuality
Age
Most Likely to Say"If I had known when you suggested sex toys we'd have to stop every three minutes to wind them back up..."
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Your Threesome by soleta
username
age
middle name
locationIn a bathroom stall
Partner the firstKiera Knightley
Partner the secondSala Baker
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Your rockstar husband by girl_rotten
Username
HusbandBenji Madden of Good Charlotte
Wedding DaySeptember 10, 2007
Number of Kids1
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Most Likely Male Celeb To Bang ::Edited:: by lifeoflindz
Your Name
Age
Virgin?
Your ManJohnny Depp
Where?Parking Lot
You sayFucizzel Mizzel
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can you tell i was bored like whoa??

i<3richieandod

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 5 February :: 6.26am
:: Mood: sick as hell
:: Music: anal cunt

holy shit i feel sick :-/
omgggg i feel fucking sick as hell and i cant go to school otherwise i will SERIOUSLY die. omg i will kill myself i feel so sick. shit, i hope they don't kick me out for 30 days while im on this education probation :-/ ahh fuck it they wont, all the teachers are like in love with me - haha. :)

sooo yesterday was not a bad day.

busride to bocessat by myself because nikki wasn't on the bus.
busride to pacesat next to matt and listened to the 'fuck me,make love to me' song by uhh ludacris? haha its soo funny!!!
1st period-BBAdid some excel shit, and just chilled around on the computers ...
2nd period-SSdid some worksheet with ciara and the other new girl and then did another 3 worksheets on my own
3rd period-healthwowww fun ass class, haha theres about 17 kids in this class and its like a regular class and mr. reiss is the teacher and so far its a fun class considering i've already finished taking high school health..HMMMMMMMM.
4th period-englishworked on questions after reading a 3 page version of julius caesar yesterday in class, i sat next to eric and he's really really nice.
5th period-mathwent to mrs. neumans and worked on assignment 3 of which i did wrong, SHIT.
6th period-lunchate a bagel with paul and then nikki,kerry,and eric came in and ate. i always just sit around with connie or sit in the 'health,intro to occ,art room' because thats our 'cafeteria' lol. i don't want to go outside because i know i will smoke a cigarette and i really dont want to but oh well if it happens it happens..right?
7th periodearth science, my teacher, scott, is really nice and we worked on a lab
8th period-intro to occmy teacher (jonny b) is nice but old and annoying. we worked on some sheet and i met denise who is from glen cove and is supposedly really good friends with colin- oh gd...
9th period-economicsi talked to denise alittle more and she's really nice the we did some worksheet and then mr. reiss came in and we talked about how denise was from amsterdam and she smoked a lot of pot there..haha funny ass shit.
busride to bocessat with matt again and jamie wanted to fight im not sure who?
busride to erockhe got on the bus and my heart like fuckin melted<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 3 February :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: dj sammy

HASH(0x87b00b0)
borderline


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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the sad part is..this kinda describes me :-/

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 3 February :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: the krystal method

PACE!!!
well, yesterday i started pace. it's pretty cool. we get like no homework and we do no work in class either- haha. when i walked into the school the smell of pot just fucking enveloped me, haha it was soo fuckin funny. i met a bunch of nice people-nikki,cammy, eddie,alex,nikki,amy,matt,kendall,cjizzle(haha),scott and just a bunch of other people
oh yeah and then theres ciara and andrew. school is fun, its like one big happy family and the school is tiny as hell. blah i could see myself having a lot of fun in this school.

2.2.o4- sammsta's 16th birthday!!!

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 1 February :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: talking to corey on the phone

ah so last night sucked because i didn't get drunk...HAHA. im such a loser. well, im on the phone with corey and then at like a quarter after eight were bringing my sisters back home. after we do that my mom is taking me to kohls and were gonna get a shirt for me to wear tomorrow at my first day at pace. rawr im soo nervous :X ahhh. yeahhhhhhh.

ok so last night amy came over and she had bought handcuffs from CVS and jokingly she handcuffed herself to the chair and got herself stuck so we called my moms boyfriend and he came over to help us get her out. sooo after that brian and nick came over and just hung around and shit and then they wanted weed so they called someone and they brought it. 5 minutes after the car left greg calls me and told me that he was in that car and he was in front of my house and i asked him why he didn't just tell me to come outside. oh well. yesterday was my last day of being grounded so im really excited that next week i get to go out, YAYYYYY!

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

iheartodandrichie<3

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 31 January :: 11.33am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: from the game skateboard park tycoon

haha<3
haha last night is why i love samm,jenn,and scutch. last night casey dropped off some of that infamous drink for us and we drank and lala and got drunk and stuff. haha then while were sitting on the computer samm's cell phone rings and guess who it was? JEN DEGRASSI! lmfao, the fat bitch actually had the nerve to call jennCO ugly. omggg bitch. haha so we were piss drunk and barely had a clue what she was saying so YEAH! lol. well, today i have no clue what im doing. richie came and picked sammster,jco,and scutchy at around 3:15am well, its all good.

tonight i have to go to my sisters 50 dance or something, its gonna suck big fat monkey balls. IF YOU WANNA DO SOMETHING AFTER CALL MY CELL PLEASE!!!!

i.heart.od.and.richie.<3

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 30 January :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: ozzy osbourne

woop
samm and jenn are here, great, and were really bored...FUCK!

to cure my boredness
name: Marissa Leigh
piercing: ears, but i want my eyebrow
height: 4'10" baby and proud
shoe size: 7.5/8?
hair color: brown with blonde highlights
last...

movie you watched: willard
movie you bought: save the last dance
song that was stuck in your head: me myself and i, beyonce (I DONT KNOW WHY!)
CD you bought: killswitch engage?
person you've called: sammi
person that's called you: jenn
tv show you've watched: friends
person you were thinking of: him<3

do...

you have a bf or gf: nah
you have a crush on someone: yes, a huge one...
you wish you could live somewhere else: anywhere but here...
you think about suicide: Sometimes...
others find you attractive: maybe, idk?
you want more piercing: yeahhhh my eyebrow
you want more tattoos: yucky
you like cleaning: i wish i was a neat freak but haha if you've ever seen my room i think you could answer that yourself- NO
you like roller coasters: ahh, too scary
you write in cursive or print: a mixture
you carry a donor card: uh no..
long distance relationships: no
using someone: i would never, i know how it feels to be used....FOR HEAD
suicide: i would never have the guts
killing people: never. but i feel like it sometimes
teenage smoking: bad.
premarital sex: if your in love with the person
driving drunk: never...i lost a friend to that :(
gay/lesbian relationships: just not in front of me
abortion: depends but basically no

favorite...

food: mmm caesar salad
thing to do: dance
thing to talk about: alcohol
sports: tennis, is dancing a sport? lol
color: black,red,hot pink
drinks: mikes hard lemonades,chocolate milk
clothes: sweatshirts and tight jeans
book: oohh old boyfriends,mothers blessing
holiday: channukah :)
car: ummm caddy escalade,honda civic or accord,lincoln navigator

have you...

ever cried over a girl or boy: yeah, once or twice
ever lied to someone: yeah i have, a lot
ever been in a fist fight: yeah
ever been arrested: almost

what...

shampoo do you use: herbal essences
perfume/cologne do you use: NONEEEEE
shoes do you wear: etnies,vans,nikes,adidas
are you scared of: heights,spiders,blahh any bug

number...


of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: about 10 maybe alil more
of people I consider my enemies?: a lot of people
of things in my past that I regret?: wow, so many things. 1=ecstacy 2=starting to drink

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 30 January :: 9.01am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: creed

yuck
im feeling better,but im so tired and drained.

OH WELL

anyway im going in for my earth science midterm and then going to lunch for an hour and then i have my math midterm. ugh im gonna fail so miserably probably. this SUCKS.

rawrrr i<3richieandod

...he know's he could have my heart if he wanted. but still, he refuses *

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LOSERxDORK

:: 2004 30 January :: 12.09am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: soundtrack to mama mia

well, im going to make this short because im fucking depressed as hell. so sum shit up:

I FUCKING HATE MOST GUYS

im on the phone with richie and he makes me feel soo much better, ah i love him <3

xo

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