2007 19 January :: 10.03 am
I needed to save my thing for max, because my hard drive is getting wiped out. ergh.
Pretty long, Don't waste your time, unless its one of those nights. Thoughts throughout the week.
Starting new information forum.
not forum. I just wanted to use that word, just another e-mail broken up and written through out the week :)
(you'll get a kick out of this)
Commericalism is becoming greater by the day.
The other day in my English class, we were going over vocabulary (shut up) & the my teachers method of well, teaching was to compare the words to commericals on televison, and words you find on CD's. (explicit) Then they instantly knew the defination. They said, 'naughty, bad,'
I cannot get into this deeper at the moment, but I will. I thought it went well with our telephone conversation last week.
This is just a quick section before I go to Biology, write later. By the way, it's Jan. 16th.
Later I will make a hit on MLK, Jr.
May be disputable, but I have thoughts.
Herm. - later
okay. Have time.
Just got finished with a presentation. Still yellow.
so. Anways, the word I couldnt think of was expident, and you know the whole expedia.com thing? Well that's how they but that together. I just thought it was ridiculous and you are absoultely correct when you say that.
Oh yeah, and I disagree with your take on MLK Day.
He wasn't politically correct. Yes, he was the face of the blacks/ gain towards civil rights movement but that dosent mean he did things clean.
Everywhere he went there were riots (can blame on people) It was ridiculous if you ask someone (not black) how things were at the time.
Why don't we have a malcom X day if the riots were eqvilent?
I am all for civil rights and not a racist, which you know. But, come on now.
Have you thought about Global warming lately? I just was looking things up.
herm. I really am concerned.
since 1979 land temperatures have increased about twice as fast as ocean temperatures Temperatures in the lower troposphere have increased between 0.12 and 0.22 C per decade since 1979, according to satellite temperature measurements.
Over the 1 or 2 thousand years before 1850- world temperature is believed to have been stable, with possibly regional fluctuations such as the Medieval Warm Period or the Little Ice Age.
Argh, I wish there was something to be done.
Most of it is caused by Green house effect - which we've spoken about once.
& other things such as CO2 and Methane.
I like how we all are aware of this stuff and no one gives it second thoughts.
Sometimes I am embarrassed to say I live in a place like this. It's not all bad.
(Can you see through my optmism?)
I'm trying, I really am. I have met a couple people to keep an intelligent conversation with,- but by next year, I will be left with no one at school.
So, there's this thing called KCTC or something. Where I can get out of school to do something & go to a different place for classes for something I want to go to school for. I'm thinking about bullshitting the school and saying I want to go into cosmotology just to get the F out of here.
I feel bad that I cannot seem to enjoy the whole highschool thing as other do. but I can't pull myself together to.
It's all ridiculous. I don't enjoy anything.
All of my proxy sites are blocked now & I am finished with this class. I don't know what to do with myself. I hate just sitting around.
I'm kind of rambling to keep my mind off things.
My mother = more insane than ever.
I think I should take on Buddhism.
It's very intresting.
The whole jesus thing dosent work for me.
I'm just looking for something to believe in. I really want it, but my mind denies me faith.
I truely wish I could be something more than an atheist.
How do you stand strong with atheism?
You've given me reasons, but do you ever have your doubt.
Sometimes I really wish I could just act like a typical 15 year old girl.
It drives me crazy, I hate being so different.
It's not that I want to fit in, I just want people that are like me for.
I still have two years until graduation and I'm already counting down days.
I get my licencse in four months.
I'm not exactly excited for it either. I really hate driving. It kills me. everytime.
But this summer, I'm going to most definately make a trip out there.
I miss it dearly.
It would be very nice to see the two of you.
and luprica :)
Highschool students try so hard to be something they think is cool. All sterotypes.
It's very, very, Very annoying
Ah fuck, later gater.
ergh, did you hear bushes speech? It was very intresting. He's pro more troops to iraq but congress just ruled him out in a quest for peace.
America. It's impossible. Oh man.
So, I was thinking of bringing my friend Jessica to your territory when I come.
Don't put her in the sterotypical highschool student I am forced to hang out with. Yeah. It started like that, but she's very mature.
The physiology of Jessica.
Jessica is 15. She's lived a [nottobad] pretty sheltered life.
but, from things she is aware of, stays open-minded.
She enjoys some of our music. More my level, than yours, in music stand point.
She's an exultant person, but not to the point of irritating. & pretty optomistic. Sometimes I doubt her senseablilty with things, but I've been proven wrong more than once.
I think you would enjoy her company. Tell me your thoughts.
She's ergh, goofy.
Alyson will enjoy her, more than you because unlike you, she has fun.
I know, I suck at the whole enjoying myself thing also.
Remember the gathering?
I was close to drowing myself in the punch-bowl.
Anyways. I have to go to choir.
Sometimes I get really sad. I get sad for so many different reasons.
Most of them are things I cannot help.
Do you ever want to cry and hope it fixs the world?
mean what you say