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:: 2004 2 April :: 10.22 pm
:: Mood: kinda happy
:: Music: cradle of filth

im in my new apartment :) most of our stuff is in here except that i don't have a bed or any furniture, lmfao. well, im really tired and my back is KILLING me. i have to hang my clothes up and stuff and blah blah blah. well, i hope that everyone's weekend is going well i will update when i actually have something to write about - I LOVE YOU GUYS!

->brian i love you, thank you for all the hard work you put in helping me move in :P xo <3

iheartderek<3

2 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 30 March :: 11.16 pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: the reason-hoobastank (its me and dereks song)

1) Using band names, spell out your name:
Maroon 5
A static lullaby
Rage against the machine
Incubus
Sepultura
Slayer
Atreyu

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?:
lol, i've tried
3) What song makes you cry?:
good charlotte - hold on

4) What song makes you happy?
the reason - hoobastank (because its me and dereks song)

5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
anything really

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 4'10" and proud mofo
HAIR COLOR: dark brown with blonde highlights
SKIN COLOR: peachy?
EYE COLOR: hazel
PIERCINGS: my ears
TATTOOS: nahh

r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: my bat mitzvah pants
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: until the day i die - story of the year
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: nada
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold :-/
HOW ARE YOU?: i heart derek, other then that ehh

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: not really...except in hospital elevators
HAVE A BAD HABIT?:yahh
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: any day now
CONDITIONER: herbal essences
BOOK: frank mccourt (im in the process of reading it)
MAGAZINE: cosmopolitan
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ice tea
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: skyy vodka and cranberry juice/mikes
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: parties,concerts,hang out with my friends
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: ummm lets say smile empty soul

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yeah i have
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes, i have
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: nope, can't say i have
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: she knew, but yeah
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: nope i haven't
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: lol deff
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah, 8th grade was the last one
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: of course

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: single...but i hope not to be soon cause he's amazing <3
GIRLFRIEND: never, im sorry
SEXUALITY: hetero baby
CHILDREN: i wanna adopt 2
CURRENT CRUSH: derek
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah, and my heart was broken when he moved to florida :(
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: i miss joey <3
BEEN HURT?: yeah, i have plenty of times
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: going out with mafia man
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: umm no
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no, but i need one...you have one for me?
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: my mixtape of greenday,yellowcard,creed and hoobastank
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: black, definitly black
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with my friends
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: derek
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: im not sure
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: honest caring people
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: go to concerts

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: the other day
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: i dont remember
YOU GOT E-MAIL: yesterday
THING YOU PURCHASED: cake batter and crunch bar ice cream from coldstone
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: jerry springer
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: uhhh i dont remember

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n
ABORTION: i dont really agree, but im kinda pro-choice
TEENAGE SMOKING: i haven't had a cigarette in 3 weeks, are you proud?
SPICE GIRLS: they were amazing
DREAMS: i have WEIRD ass dreams

i talked to derek today on the phone for a while and he played guitar for me and he called me to say goodnight. he is amazing. we decided today that hoobastank the reason is our song

dmbmustang8766: i love u 2 babi
->aw i definitly love this kid :)

i heart derek
i miss joey so much
i love bacci

6 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 28 March :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: i hate everything about you- 3 days grace

Name::Marissa
Nicknames?::riss,rissa,mariss,riss-ma,lil pisster,pissa
Age::15
Birthday::november 16
Where you living?::new york
Height::4'10"
Weight::ummmmm
Favorite Clothes::jeans and a tshirt
Favorite Shoes::etnies
Hair Color::brown with blonde highlights
Eye Color::hazel
Glasses?::nah
Braces?::nope
Piercings?::in my ears
Tattoos?::nopes
Choose or Lose
Morrissey or Marr?::morrissey
Wendy's, Burger King or McDonalds?:wendys
New York or Los Angeles?:los angeles
Paper or Plastic?:plastic
1980s or 1990s?:90's
Fruit or Veggies?:fruit
rock or rap?:rock
sun or moon?:moon
winter break, summer break or spring break?:spring break
Kerry or Bush?:kerry
good or bad?:bad
Now a bunch of giggling 10 year old girls run in
gay straight or what?:straight
describe who you want to be in a relationship with:derek<3
Describe your last ex:ummm flamer.
Now you name some favorites
Movie:schindlers list,gothika,jack,jawbreaker,shallow hal
Song:maroon5-this love
Band:korn,maroon5,something corporate,killswitch engage
TV Show:7th heaven,any day now,everwood
Fast Food Place:wendys
Class at School or activity at work:activity at work
Cereal:cinnamon life
Now I ask you about ur friends:funny,nice,fun to be around
Whos your best friend?:sammi and jaymes
Name the first thing that comes to your mind when u hear...
dog:barking
trees:tall
dishes:dirty
Linkin Park:numb
Adobe:huh?
Paul McCartney:idk!
Hawaii:hot
Supply and Demand:toys?
Savings and Loan:moneyyyy
sex:guys
snow:white
past:is gone
regret:everything i've done
Mexico:pretty
drill:saw?

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:: 2004 27 March :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: flirty
:: Music: ace of base - its a beautiful life

fun with the boys and then the girls
soo last night was aright. i went to dance then came home and took a shower and then brian,joelle,and eric came over and we chilled in my house for a little then they decided to go to taco bell so joelle drove us and then i went back home and i got a call from kristi and her,leslie,and paris came over and then we drank. it was fun, i lovvvvvve the boces girls sooo fucking much :)

well, saturday was shit - went to charlie browns for dinner then got some coldstone. took some things to the new apartment.

i heart you od

I think im broken


:: 2004 26 March :: 12.02 pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: some airforce movie or something

im in school right now in the science room and my science teacher and charlie are in here. charlie is watching some airforce movie...heh. todays friday i have dance and then i dont know what else..hopefully something good

i have to start painting my new room and move in my shit

i love you all :)

6 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 24 March :: 9.34 pm
:: Music: story of the year

my grandma is leaving the hospital tomorrow morning and then going into rehab.

15 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 24 March :: 9.06 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: alanis morrissete - what if gd was one of us?

just a slob like one of us...
haven't updated in a while. my school had gym today LOL we only have 3 days of gym in my school. today we went out into the woods and we did 'project adventure' type things...it sucked soo bad. we stood on a log and i stood in between spencer and kevin and i swear kevin almost made me fall like 30 billion times..LOL we did some like big see-saw balancing shit, lol. ummm idk we're going out to climb the wall and do the high ropes (neither of which im doing) im not sure when. i have to hand in my economics project tomorrow. HOPEFULLY denise finished the poster part of it. if not im FUCKED bill will shoot me well, i hope all of you have a good weekend.

i hate love you <3

I think im broken


:: 2004 21 March :: 9.49 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: a static lullaby

11 days that grandmas been in the hospital :-/
soo friday i did nothing. saturday i went to look at two apartments and then we went out to eat and then after that i looked at one in east rockaway and we liked it even though its a tad out of our range. after that i went to visit my grandma in the hospital and we stayed there till about 9 and we came home, got white castle (yuck) and i called brian to find out that he was out already and he didn't call me because he didn't know my number! grrrr. well, i came home, talked to derek on the phone for alittle,watched
'camp cool' and room raiders 'maroon5' and then fell asleep. today i want to get my nails done and we have 2 apartments to see today. oyyy school tomorrow and i cant forget to type up my economics project

iloveyouall

35 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 16 March :: 7.19 pm
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: creed

hmm...thinking about making my journal friends only

<3

I think im broken


:: 2004 16 March :: 6.51 am
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: nothing

i probably only have like 2 periods of school today because im going to the holocaust museum in glen cove. shiiiiit that reminds me of colin :-/ well, i'll update about the day later. hopefully someone wants to pick me up from school?

iwanthim<3

24 broke me | I think im broken


:: 2004 15 March :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: rockell- in a dream

well, school was not too bad. besides for the fact i tried begging my mom not to make me go it was aright. everyone was like 'are you ok?' blah blah blah. i was fine. i felt shitty but i was OK. well, my mom couldn't drive me to school so i got off at the west hempstead stop and paris and mikey drove me home and hung out with me for alittle bit. i got home and blah blah LOL. tomorrow is tuesday and we're going to the holocaust museum in glen cove (about 12 of us) well, that should be fun - derek is going to call me in a bit so im gonna go wait :)

iheartyouall<3

I think im broken


:: 2004 14 March :: 2.08 pm
:: Mood: PISSED
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte

quiz - soo freakin bored
--Background--
DOB:: Nov, 16th 1988
Age:: 15
Location:: front of my house
Siblings:: 2 sisters
Pets:: my cat
IF YOU WERE_ WHAT WOULD U BE?
Veggetable:: carrots
Animal:: dog
Fruit:: banana
Color:: black or red
Household Object:: computer
Season:: fall
Article of Clothing:: clevage shirt- lol
Drink:: chocolate milk
--Emotions--
What's one thing that will always make you laugh?: when samm yells 'IM A LESBIONIC CRACKHEAD'
What's one thing that will always make you cry?: hold on by good charlotte or thinking about eddie or marlo
What's one thing that will always make you angry?: when people lie to me
Do you laugh a lot?: sometimes
Do you cry a lot?: ehh
Do you get mad easily?: oh HELL YEAH i do
What's your strongest emotion right now?: depressed pretty much and sometimes i feel alone
What song brings out your strongest emotion?: Fukk Authority
--What's your favorite...--
Season:: fall
Holiday:: channukah
Age:: 2
Phrase/Quote:: 'i want you to want me, i need you to need me'
Thing to do:: going to concerts
Type of Cookie:: thin mint girl scout cookies
Class:: ummm health issues
Person in the whole wide world:: richie <3
--If You Could--
If you could be anything you wanted (animal, object...) what would you be?: can i just be invisible?
If you could have any super power, what would you have?: being immortal
If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?: being friends with her...
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would you change?: that im so anti social
If you could change one thing about your best friend, what would it be?: change how pretty she is...
If you could be a millionare, what would you buy?: my favorite band to play whenever i wanted
--A Deeper Look--
The most important thing in your life is:: my mom and my grandparents
The most important person in your life is:: my mom,grandparents,sammi,jaymes
Your life motto:: care about yourself first before you care about other people
Your best advice for someone else:: don't keep shit inside
The best advice ever given to you:: life is hard, deal
One word to describe your personality:: i think its good
--Friends and Enemies--
Who is your best friend?: sammi
What do you do together?: drink,listen to music,smoke cigs,watch movies,go to conerts
What is it about this person that makes you get along so well?: she is just so amazing
How long have you known them?: 15 years
Who is your worst enemy?: mark
What is it about this person that makes you not get along?: he tried to rape me
Your close friends (besides best friend) are:: jenn,vix,scutch,laur,ris,sherri,josh,tim,larry,sal
Your other enemies are:: jess ragusta,stefanie rodjin,maxine alazraki,jess martinez(not so much anymore)
--Days and Nights--
What time do you get up on weekdays?: 5:00 if i take a shower 6:00 when i dont
What time do you get up on weekends?: around 10 normally but no later than 12
What time do you go to bed on weeknights?: 12?
What time do you go to bed on weekends?: haha like never
What's your favorite time of the day?: 8 at night
Why?: it just is
What's your least favorite time of the day?: the beginning of a school day
Why? cause i got the rest of the day left
What time are you most productive?: mid-day
Are you an early bird or a night owl?: night owl
--Love & All That Good Stuff--
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
If yes, how long have you been dating them?: i dont have a fuckin boyfriend.
If no, do you want one?: yuypp
Who would you want them to be?: i dont know, someone who cares about me...
Are you sure about that?: YEAH
Do they know you like them?: um everyone i like does...
Are you sure about that?: yupp+
On a scale of 1 to 10, how much do you like this person?: 10, if it wasn't 10 i wouldnt wanna date them
Do they like you back?: most of them
Are you sure about that?: yeah i guess
How much time do you spend thinking about this person?: a lot of time

--On a scale of 1-10, how important is ...... to you?--
Music:: 9.5
Friends:: 10
Family:: 10
Love:: 9
Happiness:: 10.
Solitude:: huh?
Education:: 6
Having Fun:: 7

i was bored...so i took this, comment away

I think im broken


:: 2004 13 March :: 9.08 pm
:: Music: frusturated

well, today was a decent day. i hung out with kristi,leslie,john,andrew,and greg. they are amazing they are my boces friends that ride the bus with me in the morning :) soo we hung around all day and did nothing. at 2 my mom took my sisters home and then went to the hospital to see my grandma. currently it is 8:53 and my mom is still at the hospital and sherri is at dougs house and leslie,kristi,andrew,john,and greg just left my house. sherri is coming over my house and yeah. i hope everyone had a good day :)

andrew greg john kristi leslie caitlin amanda danny mark kait lara paris alex ray and mikey are amazing sexy pieces of ass!!! :)

I think im broken


:: 2004 12 March :: 12.15 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: atreyu

its lunchtime in school..yeahh and im bored as hell


update about the day later :)

I think im broken


:: 2004 12 March :: 7.14 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: fallout boy

really mad
COMMENT PEOPLE, THIS IS MAKING ME REALLY MAD HOW ALL I DO IS WRITE THESE ENTRIES IN HERE FOR YOU GUYS TO READ (ALL MY FRIENDS) AND I HAVE A FEW OF THEM AND NONE OF YOU READ IT OR COMMENT. AND IF YOU READ IT YOU CAN'T JUST PUT A LITTLE COMMENT ON THE BOTTOM? IDK IT JUST MAKES ME MAD

->sorry, but i just can't stand it anymore. im getting a ride to school today and then i have dance and then probably hanging out with like jaymes and tim and something and maybe sammi jco and scutch and having a little party for all of us who have been friends for 10 years or longer :-P lollll <3333

edit: i have 18 friends and in about 5 journal entries or so not one has commented keep that in mind.

i<3richie
i heart derek

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