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:: 2006 28 July :: 5.16 pm

If you could be God's worst enemy or nothing, which would you choose?

Which is worse: Hell or nothing?

A minute of perfection was worth the effort. A moment was the most you could ever expect from perfection.

When did the future switch from being a promise to a threat?

The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person.

There are worst things you can do to the people you love than kill them.

No matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close

Reality means you live until you die...the real truth is nobody wants reality

What we call chaos is just patterns we haven't recognized yet.

Since change is constant, you wonder if people crave death because it is the only way they can really get anything finished

Until you find something to fight for, you settle for something to fight against.

Maybe we dont go to hell for the things we do, maybe we go to hell for the things we dont do

What you don't understand you can make mean anything.

Just for the record, the weather today is bitter with occasional fits of jealous rage.

The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last. stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought, a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.

If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character...Would you slow down? Or speed up?

People have to really suffer before they can risk doing what they love.

It's because we're so trapped in our culture, in the being of being human on this planet with the brains we have, and the same two arms and legs everybody has. We're so trapped that any way we could imagine to escape would be just another part of the trap. Anything we want, we're trained to want.

We all die. The goal isn't to live forever, the goal is to create something that will.

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

People dont want their lives fixed. Nobody wants their problems solved. Their dramas. Their distractions. Their stories resolved. Their messes cleaned up. Because what would they have left? Just the big scary unknown.


:: 2006 7 April :: 3.19 pm


thinking of you
Everyday your in my head, and I wish you hadn't left, you meant so much to me why coulnt it last. Even after yould gone i couldnt let you leave my life this dark... i just want you to know that maybe i was wrong , you were always right. If you take me back i will be able to sleep tonight. please dont make me dissapear dont shun me from your sight I hope that one night we will end this all and be happy again. one night to mend and saturday i will be yours. Summer should stay winter is a cold unneeded time. please i have been defeated. i cant go a day without thinking your name and seeing your face distance doesnt matter it is but a game love is a virtue. virtues mame. please think of me when your sitting in the sun, shed a tear when your having all your fun. ove missed you all these months. we havent spoken in so long. please think of me when you sing you songs keep me in your mind when your all alone please dont leave me now. i miss you.


:: 2005 8 August :: 10.16 pm
:: Mood: excited

You're above average. Probably 6 or 7 inches.
People would like to think that you have a
small penis but they're just tiny-peckered
losers with homosexual tendencies. They've
seen it when they stood too close to you at the
urinals. They know that you could beat them in
a sword fight anyday. Hoorah for you.

How large is your penis?
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:: 2005 24 June :: 11.47 pm
:: Mood: confused

yeah i just got back from laser skate it was fun i got to hang out with one of the girls i like and we made a kid that asked her out jelous lol her boyfriend is so feckin dumb i dont think he really likes her he accually gave her permissin to cheat on him with anybody I HATE HIM
he stole her from me and i am going to get her back soon ... prolly after summer cuz shes at her grandmas and i donno that #


:: 2005 18 June :: 10.51 pm

Hands Down

"My hopes are so high that your kiss might
kill me"

Your a lover- deep and compassionate. You want
someone to come in and take over your life, and
show you how to live.

You deserve the best.

Which Dashboard Confessionals song are you?
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:: 2005 17 June :: 11.07 pm
:: Mood: content

You are a tiger. The only cat drawn to water...you
are the shaman of the rainforest. You long to
help others but have self respect and take of
yourself. When trouble approaches you are ready
to face the challenge and protect those you

What is my spiritual animal?
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Blue: You live through your emotions, intense highs
and lows. Life, for you, is all about love -
giving love, getting love and sharing love.
Honesty is important to you, but sometimes it
is difficult to be honest if you think it may
hurt someone's feelings.
Blue is deflective. You turn attention away from
yourself to others and often neglect your own
Secret emotions: Suspicion and Sensitivity

What color is your aura?
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:: 2005 17 June :: 9.26 pm
:: Mood: creative

lost cause
this is anouther "song" i wrote if u like it comment if not ... screwoff

lost cause

My dear friends I thought you should know I'm leaving here because I'm unhelpable. I'm a lost cause and this is so true what I'm going to say to you. I'm not going to be around much longer just forget who I am. I cant believe whats going down I cant stop myself. Please tell me your holding on dont be like me. All I've got to say is come one come all to the end of it all we can sit right down right here on the ground and I'll tell you we are the lost generation no helping us now. I'm a lost cause. Lost forever im never going back never looking back here again. They say dont go you can make it till the end. If you give up now it will haunt you forever nad after, but ive been a lost cause as long as i can remember.Dont go. As long as i can remember. My hopes are down my life could be better but instead its staying still. I'm in a battle with myself for the right to stay or leave just remember to forget ... forgive me please. Without you all is lost. I'm a lost cause. For now we are apart and I cant concentrate on anything my hopes my dreams myself a lost cause only you can help. So for now get ready i will see you again and when our paths cross you will see how to save the cause.

well there you go if u like coment if not dont



:: 2005 13 June :: 11.20 pm

wow i neeed to get a life basicly thonly human contact i get is frum my parents its sad ... well i dont really have more to day so tata children

and remember to get your pets spade or neudered ;)
lol have a sphadoinkle day,


:: 2005 8 June :: 11.43 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: taking back sunday-bike scene

well i have come to the conclusion that my life is a feckin bore i have nooen to hang with sept my friend jake potter and he is friggen annoyin most the time i cant believe im saying thhis but i cant wait for school to start again
with as much love as one person can give to others while being taken,

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:: 2005 28 May :: 11.12 pm
:: Mood: bummed

wholey shit
this is going to be the first time i will miss school its wierd but i wont be able to see the girl i like cuz she is gonna be gone most of the summer the only good thhing so far is i found out my bro has an account here on wuhoo and i copied sumthin i liked from it and here it is
i feel bad for you, yes you, the type of person who gets cought in words and other poeple. the type of person who rests so deeply on other peoples shoulders. the type of person who dosent know enough about love to know you can misuse the word. the type of person who can stare at the city lights and still breathe. the type of person who dosent know that they cant get anywhere when they are stuck on someone elses heal. the type of person who dosent know the deepest cuts will let you know who really matters.

the type of person who dosent know that all they have is themselves and it will never change.

dont forget to love you friends and family before we all end


:: 2005 22 May :: 2.03 pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: 101.3 the fox

yeah i just got bak frum me dads and im really bored and wish someone was online .... even tho my comp is so freakin slow this sux but other than that i spanked my friend (it sed 2 on her pants) and i signed her butt it was pretty sweet im gonna try to sneak into her room some time she sed if i could find the right windo i could so ima have fun wit dat
tata fo now


:: 2005 25 February :: 6.39 pm
:: Mood: blah

yeah im bored and tired but i got a g/f and i signed my friends pants lol ummm yeah i learned a new song its "hands down"-dashboard confessional i love tat song so i made my big bro teach me :)
well ttyl
dylan i kick ό

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:: 2005 17 February :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: crazy

yeah i havent updated in a while cuz my life is boreing the most exiting thin thats happened is i went skating wit friends and had a girl on each arm and i learned 2 new songs on my bass yay ima go skating again tomarrow at lazer skate fun fun fun


:: 2005 5 February :: 7.04 pm
:: Mood: bored

yeah i just go internet on my laptop so im happy and i dont gotta worrie bout viruses any more so yea it rocks

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:: 2005 4 February :: 10.13 pm
:: Mood: angry

this sux i talked to the driver and all he did was move me up to the frunt so i sed screw it and went to my moms office so yeah im not gonna ride unless i have to any more


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