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2008 6 December :: 2.30pm
I turn 21 tomorrow.
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2008 4 December :: 1.40am
I think I would be happy in life if people argued more.
Lots more. Like in the good ole days, put forth in smoking circles and Socratic meetings.
A great deal of our world has sprung forth from consenting adults ripping each others viewpoints apart. Its a lost art. Or rather, perhaps a refined one.
I think the real problem is that we've became so used to empty attacks and general idiots assaulting our own viewpoints that we've decided there is no good involved in listening to the next affront to our world view we happen to come across.
Its a form of laziness, or perhaps a coping mechanism. I tend to think laziness.
Most people get blocked from having a crack at my viewpoints because most people are downright retarded. I could hunker down and debate something controversial quite a few times each day, but a good deal of it would just be pointing out how stupid people are. Not in a mean way, but in a "you probably shouldn't get your facts from Fox news and Wikipedia stubs if you intend to think critically about it" kind of way.
I can only face palm several hundred times the absolute mental drivel of the varied notions of abiotic oil, or noah's ark, or the physical evidence a young earth before I just begin to take the opening statements for these things as a good sign that whomever this person is, they probably don't have the capacity to add anything to the conversation.
I imagine I do the same thing to people as well. I bet more often than not I get pidgin holed into a darkened corner of other peoples minds.
My high horse tends to be a well researched opinion. Perhaps I should lead that stead around by the reins a while.
Oh well.
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2008 1 December :: 11.20am
I think an overabundance of turkey is the only thing I've missed.
My neighbor bought an expired pumpkin pie. And I got one just before this, his was three pounds, mine was two.
He doesn't eat expired food because he's a weirdo like all my other roommates.
So anyway; the entirety of my thanksgiving was spent eating about 4 pounds of pumpkin pie and otherwise amusing myself.
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2008 21 November :: 2.39am
And i still won it.
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2008 19 November :: 2.08pm
I've currently gotten 54.2 percent of available points in chem (asuming an 80, which is lowball, in the lab section)
Thirty percent of the points are still up for grabs.
I need a 77 percent to get a B-.
0.542 + (x).3=.77
I need to get a 76 percent average between my next two exams.
If I get the B-, a 4 credit E turns into a 4 credit B-, and my GPA jumps from a 2.75 to a 3.0.
Add in a decent semester from my other classes, and I could break, or at least be safely on the side of 3.1.
shits actually looking up a little.
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2008 18 November :: 3.45pm
In My Own Little World
It's been a while since my last post. Sorry about that. I've just been in my own little world lately. I also haven't been blogging much probably because life has been decent to me the past couple weeks and I don't have too much to bitch about. What I do have to bitch about, I don't really want to blog or talk about.
So what have I been up to? Ha! Wouldn't you like to know :)
I got my nose pierced. A ring instead of a stud. I'm still getting used to it, but that kinda sucks because I forget it's there and I bump it. ha. It's healing nicely though. I'm going to get a smaller hoop when I can change it.
I cancelled my subscription to World of Warcraft. It's not a big thing, but it kinda is to me. I spent alot of time playing that game, and I met a lot of cool people that became good friends. I played for about a year and a half. But, for a while there I let it take over my life. It became my escape from reality and it consumed me. Yeah, I'm a geek, lol.
I went out and bought myself a few Mindless Self Indulgence CD's the other day. They fucking rock.
My back hurts. That is one of the many shitty things about being single. Lol. After a few years of it, you get used to getting back massages (if you are with somebody that loves giving them to you). I do miss those. I'm debating going to a little massage place down the road from me.
The other cook at work keeps changing the radio in the kitchen to Christmas music. For fucks sake, it's not even Thanksgiving yet! He says it's happy music to him, and I agree. But, it's also depressing to me. The past few years have been stressful. I hate not being able to buy what I want for the people I care about. I usually can only get a few things for my parents and for my boyfriend, but thats all I can really afford. It's especially hard this year because I don't have a significant other to share the holidays with. Talk about lonely.
Well, I guess I did have things to bitch about :)
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2008 18 November :: 3.55am
so, i saw the first cut of the summer film today. well, it's already been through several revisions. but this was the first public screening.
i will say, some things turned out really well. some did not. i'm glad to see that it came together okay, at least. i would have been pissed if it sucked, and surprised if it was out of this world. i still think some of the big problems with the story are in the script itself, and are therefore beyond fixing at this point. i also think that cleaning up the audio will do wonders. and that is going to be a formidable task. i'm just wondering if my class next semester is going to have to do all that. it would be interesting. then i'd have my hands on it during two phases of the process, instead of just one. that would be weird.
other than that, just business as usual. falling steadily farther behind in all of the important classes, with the one class that i'm doing best in the only class i'm actually making headway on.
it'll all come together in the end. i just hope the collision isn't too catastrophic for me to keep it together.
and in the meantime, just keep plugging away at it, little by little. but i am also running out of time, which means a step up in pace is in order.
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2008 17 November :: 12.01pm
I have a french exam in one hour that I am not prepared for.
I'm fairly sure I just failed a math exam two hours ago.
But I think I'm going to be okay, and that's all that really matters right now.
[edit] I think the French exam went all right and I've almost eaten an entire tray of sushi. Yippee.
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2008 12 November :: 7.47pm
On a side note.
If the turd smears to far, you may not have flushed enough of it.
@#$%^ this class is annoying.
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2008 11 November :: 1.14am
:: Music: Coldplay
ATTENTION!
Yo Internet Peeps:
My radio show is currently up and running. It has been for several weeks.
I'm sick of not having any listeners. The show sucks, because I don't try, because nobody listens, because I didn't advertise very well. Or at all.
So, I will be attempting to change this.
The show is currently: MONDAYS @ 4PM LISTEN HERE!
I'm thinking about doing a couple of themed shows. Maybe one entirely off of youtube, or one entirely of "red hot jazz" (think 1920s).
If you can't listen at that time, I totally understand. Which is why when I reschedule next semester, I will be asking for your input as far as what times on what days are good times to have my show, so I will hopefully have more listeners. Because I want to do something that everyone will enjoy, at a time that is convenient for them.
So, hopefully you can listen at that time for the next couple of months.
More updates will come later.
Peace,
Chris
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2008 10 November :: 2.58pm
I haven't updated in a while. I haven't had time. No. That's incorrect. I haven't had the motivation.
Something is wrong. I'm sleeping all of the time and always tired. It's not depression. I went to the doctor's and they told me I had a viral infection and anemia. A week later, it should be better, but I slept for over twelve hours last night and I've been laying down every chance I get.
I went home on Sunday for a family reunion and the only things people said to me is that I look like a poster child for anorexia and I look tired. I've lost almost eighty pounds. I'm trying to stay stable at 130.
Although my test came back negative for mono, I still think I probably have it. Why else would I be so tired all of the time? Everything is suffering because of it: my grades, my attitude, my dealings with my friends and brothers.
I just want to wake up and be okay.
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2008 10 November :: 2.54pm
Musics of the world. Wtf.
The way to pull 10 pages of B.S. is not to spew a continues stream of B.S. at at blank paper. Eventually, the stream of B.S. will become unstable and fall apart. At some point you end up with different sections of B.S. that don't mix together. The paper will fail.
The Proper method is to gob out one dense lump of B.S. Then, Smear this intellectual turd all over the remaining pages until all the pages are mostly covered.
Think of the turd itself is the thesis statement. All your idea's combined into a dense lump. The sections and sub points are all some facet of this original idea (see turd). The parts where you ripped a chunk off the original lump and proceeded to smear it around a specific page or two.
I guess the point I'm trying to make here is that knowing how to write the dam paper is whats important. Rarely will they care if the concept or idea is faulty.
Unless your teacher is good.
Mine is.
So I've got to eat that turd and see if i cant digest it into something usefull.
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2008 9 November :: 12.08am
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2008/11/05/palin-didnt-know-africa-i_n_141653.html
Dear lord; I would think its a joke; but the factor doesn't do jokes.
Nothing has shaken my confidence in people as a species than this... recently anyway.
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2008 8 November :: 9.04am
This is when the Muslims invade to socialize our country right?
Or was it when Rev. Wright would lead an army of black panthers to take over the sup. court? Wait Wait; this is when the Russians invade.
(Edit)
http://africa.reuters.com/world/news/usnTRE4A45OU.html
Okay Okay, 1 of 4, your still all crazy, and It proves Joe right.
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2008 7 November :: 9.54pm
Well, shows over.
Now 'bout 'dese Ballot Proposals...
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2008 4 November :: 2.46am
Greetings From Cloud Nine...
I just want to thank Mark and Jessica for getting me out of the house and popping my "rock concert" cherry. And also for helping me to discover my love for Mindless Self Indulgence. I'm listening to their music right now, and I'm wondering why I was not listening to them before. I am seriously buying all their albums the first chance I get!
Other than that, life is good. Thursday and Friday were the best 2 days I have had in a very long time.
I've made some tough changes in my life the past couple days with more possibly coming up, and the only thing I can really say about it right now is...I can't remember the last time I was this happy about my life. For once I am looking forward to what the future may bring :)
I'm closing some doors, and opening up new ones.
Work has been good. I had a talk with the owner about some issues, and to my surprise, things got alot better at work.
For once I can finally say this with meaning: I am happy.
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2008 6 November :: 7.40pm
Some twat sent me a link to join a facebook group touting a new idea to drive gas prices down.
If everyone refuses to buy gas from company X, then company X will be forced to lower gas prices!
Morons.
If in fact, it did work; then everyone whom doesn't care, or doesn't have enough money to care (example, the entire wallmart crowd) would simply begin buying gas from company X the instant a noticeable disparity formed between the prices.
Not to mention that Companys A, B,C, and W,Y,Z, would just start buying the surplus gas from company X as soon as they started getting swamped.
Likely, Company X would be able to gouge company's A-Z while they work out supply concerns in the wake of company the X boycott. Eventually, company X would take a minuscule loss on the filling stations by selling them to companys A-Z, and resume selling their refined crude either directly to their previous gas stations, or to the distribution system of A-Z.
The. Only. Way. Gas. Is. Going. To. Come. Down. Is. To. Use. Less. Of. It.
(Pending. They. Don't. Decrease. Supply. Just. To. Spite. You. Anyway.)
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2008 29 October :: 5.37pm
I love myself and I don't care if I am the only person in the whole world who does.
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2008 29 October :: 1.26am
:: Mood: contemplative
recollections
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i feel like i've lost a lot of my pizzazz. (or maybe you spell it pissass. depending on how many laxatives i took that day.) you know? i feel like i used to have more vitality, more everything. not that i was a driven, self-motivated type of person. not that i was spastic or rambunctious. i just feel like i had an undercurrent of motion that just isn't there anymore.
nowadays i let the simplest things prevent me from getting anything done, and i really don't feel the need to try and innovate, or make new things happen. i'm content to attempt, and fail, to merely recreate those which have come before. nothing outstanding. nothing superb. i just settle for okay.
but that really doesn't seem right. i don't want just an okay life. i don't want just okay friends. okay coworkers. okay family. that's not how it works for me. i feel like everything about my life up to this point has been outrageous. and now it's just mellowing out. i guess it's my job to keep it outrageous. but i have a lot of fucking jobs right now, which i guess is what's bogging me down. so, adding the job of unbogging myself to the pile doesn't really work. it'll just exacerbate the problem.
so, i just need to get a few things out of the way, one at a time, so that i have a bit more freedom to have some of that guilt-free, sporadic, funtime. where my energy is put to its most effectively pragmatic use. because clearly i don't get shit done when it comes to actual work. but give me something fun to do, and i'll forget to eat, sleep, and go to the bathroom, i'm so diligent.
and faking myself out to think that the "work" stuff is actually "fun" stuff doesn't cut it. believe me, i've tried. although, i have discovered that some of the "fun" stuff is actually "work". but since it falls under "fun" in my classifications, i can still do that, at least.
i guess we'll make it happen eventually. and until then, i'll just have to tough it out. but i want to be fun and exciting again. none of this boring, grumpy, old man nonsense. that suits me at times. but i don't think this should be one of those times.
i'll get there, and i'll enjoy it. but i'm not there yet. and there's no sense in rushing it.
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2008 28 October :: 5.03am
:: Mood: Not sure
:: Music: Country (B-93)
Huh...
I cannot fathom how I managed to stay up reading my World Religions book and doing ungodly amounts of laundry on an hour and a half nap at 11:30 pm and liking it. I figured "Whats the point of going to bed, I need to be up at 5:30am anyways and with my luck I would prolly sleep through my alarm and miss my test which would be a bad thing." So I made eggs and toast at 3:15 am, read the paper, bleached some whites, folded previous loads of laundry, listened to the radio and finished my chapters on Confucionism and Taoism. I still have homework due by the end of today but the load is less intense since I have accomplished half of it on my adventure of spountanious laundry doing and homework completion.
I am definately going to feel this later. It is my long day today meaning school goes from 7:45am to 9:30pm
YEAH!!!!!!!
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2008 26 October :: 3.50am
Answer This.
Why do we fall for the people we know we can't be with?
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2008 24 October :: 4.12pm
Looking for a part time job?
I am currently looking for a 3rd cook. With only 2 cooks working, it's very hard to get any days off.
It's not a full time job, we are only looking for somebody to work part time.
You MUST have short order/line cook experience.
The kitchen opens at 4:00pm every day with occasional early Saturday hours depending on if we have a special event going on.
The latest you will clock out is 1:30am, and that is if you are closing the kitchen on Friday or Saturday. It's earlier on other days.
With the holidays coming up, we have more large groups/events/ company parties/benefits/ and banquets planned. We definately need another cook to help with those.
You must be over the age of 18.
Apply at Westwood at the Crossing, 5760 W River Rd Ne Belmont, MI 49306. Anytime after 5:00pm is great.
Thank you.
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2008 24 October :: 3.21pm
:: Mood: Happy for once?
Rock Out!
I hate never having 2 days off from work in a row. When I get home, I'm tired and don't want to do anything. The night of my day off, I feel more like going out, but I have to work the next day. Grrrr...
I've been in a decent mood lately. I want to thank Jessica and cuzzy Mark for that! 5 of us are going to the WGRD Freak Show on Oct. 30th! I'm so excited! Shockingly, it's my first concert ever. Well, I've been to many orchestra and symphony concerts, so this is my first "rock" concert. I'm finally getting out in the world lol.
I had quite a conversation with my boss (the owner)the other day. I wish I could blog about the specifics, but I'm afraid the wrong person will read this. All I can say is it put me in a good mood, which is rare working there. But things are definately looking up :)
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2008 24 October :: 2.47pm
Well, on the bright side; it was dam near time someone took the cedar springs stupid crown off my family's back.
Thanks kid; best of luck with everything.
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2008 22 October :: 11.33pm
Mecca
http://www.roodharigen.nl/
I'm pretty sure this is where the end of the world will be plotted.
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2008 21 October :: 10.50pm
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one laughing, the only one aware. I just can't shake the feeling that sometimes I see things in a way that no one else can even comprehend.
Central won against Western. For those of you who don't know, it's a big deal. There are five state troopers parked about two hundred yards away from my apartment to keep things "under control." This is probably the quietest Saturday night of the year as of yet.
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2008 18 October :: 2.46am
Hopeless Romantic
I've been sick for a few days now. Thursday was the worst. I was in bed all day on my day off. I didn't do anything or get anything done except fill the transmission fluid in my car.
I'm still pretty sick. Runny nose, headache, coughing, sneezing, lightheaded, sleepy, etc. Tomorrow is going to be really long. I got paid today, which means I have errands to run before work. Bank, gas, etc. Then I have to get to work at 11:30am. I work until kitchen close, which will be at 1:30am at the latest. I have to be there early because there is a lot of prep work to do for the 250+ guest wedding. When they all get there, it will be very hectic in the kitchen, espically with the crazy owners.
So, I'm looking at a 14 hour hectic day, while being sick. Not fun :(
Getting paid every two weeks was really fucking up my routine for a while. For years, I was paid every week. But with the bi-weekly paycheck, I would get it and think I had alot of money, and it went quicker than usual. I've cut out some expenses in my life (like going out to the bar with friends and such), and it's helped. I'm paying my bills, and keeping up with things. I can't wait to pay off my credit card debt I racked up when I was broke and couldn't find a job :) I decided that I'm going to take a little out of my check every time I cash it, and stash it away, out of sight, out of mind. Like having another account for savings, but I won't take anything out of it unless I save enough to pay a large chunk of my debt, or if I need it for an emergency. It will be nice to know I have emergency money :)
Other than work stress and being sick, things are going alright. I finally called my sister the other night on my way home from work. We both are not the greatest at keeping in touch with each other. I do wish we were closer, but there are alot of deep issues that keep us apart. I wonder if we will really be like close sisters again.
I'm pretty sure that I really upset a friend of mine because of a blog I posted a while ago that had alot to do with him. The words I wrote were harsh for a few reasons. That maybe he would realize he wanted out of his situation, or maybe that he would be mad enough to get over me...and make it easier to do so. I'm not over him yet. Even after this long. What we had was too intense in comparison to other relationships to not think about what it would be like again. But, maybe it's time for me to give up and finally get over him.
I am a hopeless romantic that happens to be a Cancer as well.
I always hated thinking that I needed a rebound to get over him and move on with life (no, this is not about the person talked about above). But, I think I need it. I tried being the single girl that wasn't looking to be in a relationship, but damn, I'm fucking lonely. I don't feel complete unless I have another half. In the past, I ended up going into new relationships after ending things with him, but those relationships would fail and I would go back to him. This time, I don't have a rebound. The older I get, the pickier I am with dating. I'm getting to the point where I want to run back to him, but it wouldn't go anywhere if I did. He can't get anywhere in life by himself, and I can't help him anymore. He holds me down from getting ahead in life and I don't see it changing.
Well, I have to get to bed so I can get up early.
Blah
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2008 18 October :: 9.08pm
@#$@#it, STOP BLINKING!
(edit) - Why in the lord would he not stop blinking.
It never ended.
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2008 15 October :: 4.25pm
I am withdrawing from chemistry. It is going to make me a happier person.
I'm taking French and three literary theory classes next semester. Probably.
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