>*when i l0ok in the mirr0r i imagine a pretty gurl
`& i think that can*t b me
`til i 0pen my eyes 'nd see the real me

the girl w i t h the br0wn e y e s wh0 has makeup smeared 0n her face

fr0m wipin away the tears

a girl wh0s afraid 0f r e g r e t
a girl wh0*s c0nfused
wh0 can*t make up her mind,
why must i fight my insecurites
why can't i b happy*

I Gave up my world... but you stabbed me in the back...

I'm calm on the outside... but on the inside ive been screaming constantly

I write, not for the sake of glory, not for the sake of same, not for the sake of success, but for the sake of my soul.

<<<<YoU DoNt LiKe WhAt I wRiTe, ToUgH sHiT>>>> ">..I doNt streSs theSe lil qameZ bytchez play cuZ aLL deM hoEs be faKKe aNyWaYs...


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:: 2004 4 April :: 2.03 am
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: dont let me get me

hi!
i talked to michael forever last niite. i went to his game. it was great. even tho i barely saw him. he gots a game toniite i wanna go to this one too! janna went with me last niite, we went to dairy queen! LESBIANs!!! haha but yeha im kinda pissed off at her right now because she was being a hypocrit but i mean everyone is, i uslaly am.
Michael went on muh sn last niite and was talkin to muh friends lol thats great so yeah he got muh password ot everything

the song playing is for muh "LUCKY BOY G"
hehehehehehe i love this song!! listen to the words
!!!!
today was great, i was guna get a hard hat but they were short one so i didnt but i got shovel 3 things of dirt. then like yeah i hava palm because its palm sunday. i finally went to church. i REALLY needed to go n pray for things and actually take communion. yeah believe it or not im really religious, i juss dont show it. as i was leaving the picnic thing tho, bailey this lil girl ran up and gave me a hug!!! i felt so loved. i love workin with lil people. there cute hehee. she was in my group from when i did VBS- Vacation Bible School
get it VBS? lol i do. hmmm i wanna go see michael lol i dunno if he went onmy sn or not today but i dont care i dont have anything ot hide from him. i love him to pieces and i dont care what anyone says
kk im done ima go call him
i love him!!!
~Lauren

2 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 3 April :: 5.16 pm

hehe guys read the comments from the entry before! its hilarious

PradaBaby469: gimme amanda brunos cell right now
TasteZLykECherrY: No.
PradaBaby469: y not
TasteZLykECherrY: I don't want to give it out. She never gave me permission to.
TasteZLykECherrY: sorry.
PradaBaby469: 2 bad im on the phone with her i just lost it and fount it again
TasteZLykECherrY: oh okay good.
TasteZLykECherrY: cause i wasnt going to give it to you.
TasteZLykECherrY: are you going to tell her how sorry you are and what a bitch i am?
TasteZLykECherrY: lol thought so.
TasteZLykECherrY: :-Dhave fun complainging abotu me
PradaBaby469: what r u talking about slut?
TasteZLykECherrY: thats me!
PradaBaby469: TasteZLykECherrY: are you going to tell her how sorry you are and what a bitch i am?
TasteZLykECherrY: but your the one thats with guy for benefits!
TasteZLykECherrY: lol
PradaBaby469: no lmao
PradaBaby469: u dont know anything about me
TasteZLykECherrY: thats what your journal says
PradaBaby469: you stupid fuck
TasteZLykECherrY: thats me!
PradaBaby469: I SAID IM SICK OF IT U DUMBASS
TasteZLykECherrY: yeah
TasteZLykECherrY: but you were...
PradaBaby469: AND I KNO UR THE STUPID ONE WHO KEEPS LEAVING COMMENTS
PradaBaby469: THATS OK UR GONNA GET SO FUCKED UP
TasteZLykECherrY: ooh
TasteZLykECherrY: okay.
TasteZLykECherrY: :-)
PradaBaby469: IM GONNA BEAT UR ASS
PradaBaby469: SO IS AMANDA
TasteZLykECherrY: n no i havnt left comments
PradaBaby469: SO FUCK OFF
PradaBaby469: ILL KILL U
TasteZLykECherrY: nah
PradaBaby469 signed off at 5:11:33 PM.

LOL look guys! im gunna get my ass beat by two poeple!

HOoRAY!
oh yeah im also gunna get killed. i shoudl call the police! lol
bye guys
Lauren
i love michael! hes the bestest!
i love u amanda nad tiffany

2 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 3 April :: 10.42 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: why cant i

I LOVE MICHAEL!!!


i love this song, it reminds me of michael..
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

The problem is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you


Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head's spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
For this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

whenever i think about you (x4)


Hmmmm i love that song! im going to go listen to it ina min!!!
well yeah i pissed off bruno again! haha.
she thinks she can get the last word with me. she might be able to fight but damn if i find out what hurts you, you bet your ass im not going to sit there and let you talk crap to me and me not say anything
you kno what hurts me
i kno what hurts you
sucks when people do it back, doesnt it?
i said that to her
her away message riight now is
"fuck you lauren"
ha
she knows i didnt say it now. Sooo she can juss kiss it.
besides that, im ina happy mood.
Michael has my journal on favorites lol. im not going to write diff tho, i mean if he dont like what i write, too bad. thats for everyone. like amanda said i changed everything around,
the whole convo is in
www.woohu.com/~running-from-herself
sooo i didnt change anything,
but i think im done. i wanna go call muh boy!! and tlak to him!! me n janna are going to his game toniiet! were going to show him our walrus impressions!!! lol!!! janna that was the mostest fun!
i love yah guys
call da celly!
MUAH
Lauren

9 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 2 April :: 10.28 am
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: soak up the sun

i just got home from the movies with michael. oh it was so perfect. erika n jenna kept giving me n him dirty looks but thats the way the cookie crumbles. i talked to michael. he said he said the thing about only going to the tires because she sucked. he said i never said it n he did jokingly. so all this fighting with bruno for nothing. hmm
but yeah we kissed. it was great. i love him to death. i kno weve only been going out for what? 5 days? i dont care. so far hes turned out to be the best outta n e boyfriend. even reid hahaha! reid wanted shit but michael doesnt which is REALLY good! cause haha he wasnt gonna get n e thing...
me n petunia (alexa) are talking again. we started talkin again today in the media center. her and alexa votek are running against me but what the hey? ooh well. i love michael! haha i cant get over it!
me and janna hada lil fight earlier, but were better. i told her it felt like ourfriendship was taking a downfall.
courtney is in disney riite now. i hada really nice nite with manada n muih parents. it was great. amanda bought this friar gnome thing and i named him gnomie! daddy took us to te mall to eat !! hah ai got chinese or japanese i dunno the diff and i ate too fast so my stomak kinda hurt at the movies but near the end i felt all better snuggled up against him. hes in my phn as, "my lucky boy G" lol cause yeah as u kno everyone hasa nickname for him that hasa G in it.

I ran up the door, closed the stairs, said my pajamas, and put on my prayers. Turned off the bed, and hopped into the light, all because you kissed me good night!

comment me if you can tell me whats wrorng with this sentence. lol i wrote it in my suboprfoile thing online.. haha i idint kno till darien told me!
i love yah
and i love michael!
Always
Laur
call
560-2738

4 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 2 April :: 3.43 am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: i just want you to kno who i am

all i want to do is cry... thats how you get to me.... that really is...

wow im crying ot this song

You can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

call me someone

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 2 April :: 2.55 am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: troubled water

Michael is at a baseball game... were hopefully gunna go to the movies tonight. i cant wait to go... i wanna be with him.
i got the 100 signatures i need to run for office aagain.. but i dont kno if i realy want to.

i accidntly stepped on courtneys foot today cause i tripped over it and everyone got all pissed at me... sorry im a fukkn ditz.. sorry shes fukkn hurt!
if its so bad she needs to stay home. im sorry. or she needs to get a wheelchair becaue if she cant even walk on crutches without crying she doesnt need to be at school to make it worse. i want her to get better so she can play but honestly shes making it worse by going to school.

w/e bruno called me a hore and a bitch... wow everything i say gets ttunred around.
then she slike..
"at least i play"
oh well.. i just feel liek crying right now.
everything is wrong

ok that was one time and all this shit lauren what bout u...........u no what thats ok do it talk shit bout me and watch what happens sure nuff ur gunna get ur ass beat sooo its fine talk shit!


that was from amanda.. fuck it

i dont kno..
i really dont kno..
i wanna see michael
i wanna hug him
i wanna be with him
NOW!


iTaLiAnHot T15: W.E. FUCKIN DROP IT ALL IMA SAY IS TALK SHIT U BETTER B PREPARED CUZ U GOT A MIGHTLY BIG MOUTH ND U AINT GOT SHIT TO BAC IT UP WIT
iTaLiAnHot T15: TOUGH FOR U BITCH!
TasteZLykECherrY: i dont ge tit
TasteZLykECherrY: lol

hmmm a threat?
ft myers office here i come

Lauren

fuck you guys, all you do is talk about me but hey, thanks for making me the center of your world





*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 1 April :: 8.50 am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: toxic

Wow im fukkn pissed off right now

TasteZLykECherrY: hi
BaLLeRRicaN489: what do u want
TasteZLykECherrY: to say hi?
TasteZLykECherrY: why are u in such a bad mood?
BaLLeRRicaN489: i'm not
TasteZLykECherrY: then why are u being mean
TasteZLykECherrY: youve been like this since ashleys party
TasteZLykECherrY: ???
BaLLeRRicaN489: cuz i dont like u
TasteZLykECherrY: why not?
BaLLeRRicaN489: cuz ur no good
TasteZLykECherrY: how am i no good?
TasteZLykECherrY: whatd i do this time
BaLLeRRicaN489: everything
BaLLeRRicaN489: u've always been no good
TasteZLykECherrY: what have i done?
TasteZLykECherrY: sumpthin obviously happened
BaLLeRRicaN489: nothing
TasteZLykECherrY: dont lie
TasteZLykECherrY: seriosuly
TasteZLykECherrY: u gotta hava reason
TasteZLykECherrY: n id like to kno
BaLLeRRicaN489: no i dont
TasteZLykECherrY: how am i no good then?
TasteZLykECherrY: ???
BaLLeRRicaN489: i dunno u tell me

HMmmmmm wonder wtf thats all about?!?!?!

anway, we lost 4-3 he didn tput me in pitching because i was late and lindsey warmed up soo whatever works
i got my report card
i havnt hada B sicne 7th grade and i got 2 B+'s!! oh no1! its sad!!!! michael almost did as good as me!! lol suck up!! haha im juss kiddin hunnie!
oh! at my game i hita line drive to the outfeeild n stuff. it was great. i got htis one varsity girl out too!! wooohooo go lauren! i also pissed off our pitcher because i didnt get the one girl out because it didnt get there in time ( i was playin ss) and she told me how to get it there and i said i kno and i dont need her advice until she can throw the ball to first base fROm pitchers mound... haha
oh well
i think im done complaining.. i dont remmeber what else i was gunna riite?
so bye
Love always
Lauren


I LOVE MICHAEL!!!!!

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 1 April :: 5.17 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: its so easy

Hey guys!
Laur here! I saw michael alot today! he saw me suck at pitching. oooh well. i didnt do so hot, janna did tho... oh well, i guess. she can't hit any location tho. hmph, who cares. lol. i juss blew my shot but what the hey! AJ barely watched me in the first place.
Oooh iwanna see michael so bad. i spent alot of time with him today. i loved it. i hope im bein a good girlfriend.
guess what i figured out? Seth freeman even talks about me
Well dinners done
ill ge tback to write when i get home form my game
wish me luck ina comment
Lauren

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 31 March :: 3.17 am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: im lovin it --mcdonald commercial

hi.
school was dumb today
i slept all 2nd period... which is my good ol friend yeearbook. i looked cute today . i wore the neew skirt and a white tank top because well the pink shirt juss didnt go good anmore, i dunno hwy. im not at practice. ortho app.. .cant WAit!!!
lasts niites game i think i told u about os i wont go into more details
uhh..
aj is going to see how good i pitch so i mean i beter do good tomorro... nothing else is fun. i gott type up a lap toniite.. i HATE labs with a passion. but i mean all i gotta do is stick stuff into my own words, but i also got pratice... so much fun.
hmmmmm
michaels the bestest!!! hes sooooo swweeet to me! JANNA got him detention lol. they were talking about BAnd! n how she plays tha TUBA!! honk honk!!! lol janna im seriously gunna get a pic n stick it in the yrbook for yah.
no one really said much today to him, which is a good thing. this Lauren chick is dumb
i dont like her. lol shes mad im goin with michael.
greg hates me... i dont kno why i care. stupid tiffany!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RARrrrh1

who the hell is this

dnaboarder001

lol they kno that i play softball soo..
im out tho
Love
Lauren

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 30 March :: 7.05 am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: one way or another

hi! im going out with MICHAEL GARZYNSKI!!!
Hoooray! hes such a SWEETY! he makes me happy n weve only been going out for what? a day?
all his friends are soo against it...
there like.. "you kno her reputation riight?"
stupid peopple.
i just got home from my softball game. we won 17-5, it was 15-0 but kelly got REALLY hurt and well... she had to go to the hospital.. it was terrible, i feel incredibly badd about it,
kno what? im only guna put WAY deep thoughts in friend sonly because lol id otn care antymore. sorry way off topic.
anyway
i bunted a good bunt and then i hit one to short and it didnt go fast at all because the pitching was sooooooooo SLOW.
oh well.
Ooooh i wanna talk to michael! hes so nice to me its crazii. i love guys like him, i guess im not used to it... he also plays baseball!!! hehe its the short stop n he always starts. hell prolly go to varsity next yr.. lucky guy! k im done
ashiee is gettin me the addy to take the drug n alchol test online... yes ive been 15 for 4 months lol... its ABOUT TIME!
Call da cellie
Love always
Lauren










*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 28 March :: 11.11 am
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: addicted to you

i rememberd to make a entry frends only!! YAYyyy!! oh if u wanna be added juss comment me! be muccch easier.. hehe
anyways, nothing important is gunna be on these pages. i hate what people say/think so yeah..
me and mike garzynski are talking alot... i think he likes me.. YAY!! cause yeah i kinda like him. its odd.. i dunno.. we talked ALOT last niite for like 2 hours about nothing, and like we talked all day too. at first i thought he was really shy, but now, hes opening up!
Mkk, what else did i wanna say that i didnt put under FRIENDS only ?? i dont remember
Call or comment
~Laur

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 27 March :: 10.24 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: yeahh

hi. lemme get this straight to people...
I DID NOT DO ANYTHING WITH GREG
there ok.. its not what people are thinking. like i said in a previous entry, people spread rumors so i dont want to explain anythignot enyone. people need to ge ta damn fukkn life.
anyway~~
i pitched a one hitter. it was sooo great. no on ewa son base until the 5th inning. i lvoed it. i almost hada perfect game! Oo0o0o0oh well... our game vs. Cypress was cancelled for yesturday. im startin both games next week. i did relaly good at practice too on thursday. lets se... yesturday i went home with janna. that was fun, we were gunna take a nap but we ended up eating for like 2 hours. lol it was great, then we tooka walk up to her bros bus stop to get him. then janna straightened her hair and tried to re-curl mine cause i had it done in school and it looked good but camer out! i looked ok yesturday, havnt fora long time!! haha so i was pretty happy. ashleys party was kinda boring.. but hey! at least i was there for her! i fianlyl ghot my white shirt bakk too! haha ive been missin it!!! Hmm... my stomak is peeling now, lol it slike ima bing.. orange, i keep gettin peely!
lol that i think wasa similie~
!
Today greg will officialy stop talking t me thanks to the stupid fat girl who dont kno shit! u kno who yah are!
no what i noticed yesturday?
i bunch of guys at school were wearing pink! Lenny worer pink ot ashleys!
wow ok that was very Random
but oh well
i think im done
i Love u!!!
Love always
Laur
CAll da celly 560-2738

oh yeah guys, im not gonna put much in this journal anymore, peopel have fukkn lame comments an di wanna put stuff that goes on in my life without people being dumb bitches...
from now on this journal is

FRIENDS ONLY
haha only if i remember lol

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 24 March :: 6.30 pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: always

TasteZLykECherrY: i dont kno, and i dont care.
PradaBaby469: w/e lauren, ur a dirty theif, u can keep the shit u stole from me, i dont even care, just know if i see you out of school, it would give me so much pleasure to beat ur ass and hit u straight up in ur shit!! you are trash...low as hell...and its good i have enough respect for greg not to go and tell everyone but hey thanks to you everyone already knows!

Well now, i guess im put in my place... i guess im trash, if she wants to... oh well.. im not a fighter backer... so i guess ima get hurt pretty bad...hope someones around when it happens so i dont get too hurt...if not, ill be in the hospital a while, those big girls can hit pretty hard....

I cant wait to read your lame comments
~me
Call 560-2738

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 24 March :: 3.35 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: i could only imagine

Well then... Hmm...
Softball was canceelled today because we did so good at our game yesturday
5-4 agaist estero. they were undefeated but we beat them! w000t! varsity did too! 2-1!
Greg is saying that im telling people we did stuff? im sorry but thats bullshit
Obviously Tiffany is saying shit because i dont think he pulled her name out of his ass.. but who knows.. hes like
"people are coming up to me asking if i did stuf fwith you"
honestly, im trying to keep him n his girlfriend together, why would i say stuff?
westin walked by me today and did the whole cough slut shit. it ws dumb. alexa juss lightly tapped him. stupid bitch. whatever. i think ourfriendship is down the tube al lbecause of some horny guy. Me n janna havnt been like how we used to ... maybe its just me... i dont feel like i dunno, anything naymore...
wel i guess im done
im very mad /sad riite now.
call me
Lauren

2 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 20 March :: 8.08 am
:: Mood: used
:: Music: paper heart

I juss woke up... i feel so... used... i feel like crying... i think im thinking too much... god damn it... i wish he didnt have her

The ((*mOmEnT*))
may be -TeMpOrArY-
But the ((*MeMoRiEs*))
are -FoReVeR-


y0u Lo0k insiDe a qurLs *hearT y0u*d `sEe h0w mucH she reaLLi crieS b r 0 k e n hearTS `And LieS.. buT whaT y0u*ll see the m0st is h0w `haRd it iS t0 staY l|[ str0nq ]|l when n0thinq is riqhT and everythinq is wr0nq
iTs EaSy ToO beLiEvE sOmeOnE wHeN tHeY tElL yOu ExAcTlY wAt u WaNnA hEaR


.d.o.n.'.t. .j.u.d.g.e. .i.f. .y.o.u. .d.o.n.'.t. .u.n.d.e.r.s.t.a.n.d.

Wow... this is s0o0o true, maybe Greg should read this
.. TRUST .. the hardest thing 2 gain the easiest thing 2 lose

5 *To pieces!*... | *Do You love me?*


:: 2004 19 March :: 6.35 am
:: Mood: awake

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHIEE N CARLOS!!!
hi! goood mornin! its 6 36 and im getting ready go to the beach with greg !!! Hoooray!
MMmmmmk, i slept REALLY good last niite! luky me, b ut damn i got the chills like theres no tomorro! lol.... kk! well i betta go put on muh swimsuit!
MUAH!
i love yah guys!
Call me if yah need me
560-2738
LAur

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 16 March :: 10.05 am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: my sisters music

hi. me n alexa talked last niite. i mean shes still pissed, just not as bad i guess. we both agreed its dumb as fuck.. i talked to greg !!! lucky me! he still said he'll take me to the beach on friday, jj said hed take me a day this week too! amanda elliott will juss her rash is... still there. i told her to blow on it but i dunno if that happend! omg i went to the mall last niite and i wa swearin jsus jeans and a white tank top. i was gunna go to the movies so i looked nice.. .well n e ways...
all these old guys kept lookinat me n the one called me over and i kept walkin and he was like.. "dont be scared"... lol... i went to the food court n got samples of all the chicken cuz i was hungry. theres this one pair of capris that i want at rave! omg me n muh mom found the cutest skirt there. shes getting it for me when she gets back form pittsburgh.
i got sunburnt yesturday!! omg it was great! it was all overcasted and i thought i twasnt gettin any sun so i fell asleep and BAM! i was burned... hahahahaha
mmmk well i think im done rambling!
Ill update LAtA!
I LOVE YOU!!!
Muah!
CAll Muh cell!
~~~~Laur~~~~~

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 15 March :: 11.18 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: why not

wow i think i just lost everything that i just got done typing.. welli dont think i kno i did... anyways im going to think about what i typed before so that i can type it again..
alexa fukknn htes me.. i called ot apologize because i actually DID feel bad about calling her a hoe n stuff and she slike.."i have no respect for u because u called me a hoe and im like 'virgin mary'" i thought that was kinda funny because wlel she did give tyler head ona bus.. and shes like i ran up her bill $50 and she wouldnt even kno that... plus id hafta send her 500 messages to make it $50 so i dont kno.. shes going somewhere with wes ina lil.. porlly to go give him head too... i cant believe she said shes like virgin mary. i mean chad told everyone she wasa bush! soo obviously he/she hada of done somehtin.. i dont kno.
ashley is with monica... agian... shes been over there since.. what friday niite?
janna is at the beach with her family
ryan has to go to some baseball game..
alex is with all his friends form verot.. this break really sucks ass..
chris whats his fuck was like.."hey skank are u going to the beach" n i hada away message up and then hes like.."oh you owuldnt look half decent in one anyway" lol thats bull riite there... i think i look half decent ina swim suit.. but i mean what do i kno.. i gotta butterface... and i really dont wana hang out with other people i dunno why.. amanda elliott hasa rash soo shes not doing anything ... i wish i could drive!
i hate this spring braek. i cant wait till i drive so everyone can kiss me ass and i can get outta here.
someone just clal me or leave a comment
~LAuren

*Do You love me?*


:: 2004 15 March :: 7.47 am
:: Mood: complacent
:: Music: salt shaker

Hi. i dont kno what complacent means so i think thats how i feel. lol...
its SPRING BREAK!!!!! but im bored outtamy mind. my mom is in pa and my dad works 24/7 so yeah bored. ryan said he miiite do stuff today with me cuz he sbeen at tthe beach. yesturday i wass supposed to go with kevin n peopel but well his friends had to go to sanibel or soemthing then everyone got drunk soo.....
ashley i sat monicas so i cant do anything with her... haha os much for celebrating her bday ------
alex n i are starting to talk alot again.. im kinda happy abotu htat. but ima try not to like him again cuz well we already had "our thing"... greg gets his lisence thursday but i dunno if im going with them still. so i ghuess i haveNO set plans this week except for eat. and...listen to music... n do a dman project for biology n enlgish. wutta spring break!!
oh! tryd getting highlights last niite, but it messed up so yeah my head looks liek shit juss like alex's lol.. well his isnt THAT bad.. its actually kinda cute!
carlos came over yesturday for about 10 mins then my sister came home. he honestly wanted to see my room. so i hurried up and cleaned it up and he came up... then we were sittin there and my sister came home. and i tryd to get him out while she was changing but she changed pretty quik.. so she caught him.. haha it was kind afunny. but then after she though we did shit.. her and i hada siser- sister talk.. it was actually kinda nice... hehe its better then my mom knowing alot of shit cuz well.. shes a bitch.
mmmmk
i think im done
ill update about spring break later
i love yah lots
Lauren
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:: 2004 12 March :: 8.54 am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: myneck my back

Hola
we won our game against north!
1-0 it was sooo great
i did good
i got 2 balls at 2nd and got them both out n i hit into the oufeild ona fly n the girl dropped it but there was 2 outs and courtney didnt run so lol... it was kinda pointless but hey! she did a great job pitchin! today kinda sucked tho at the very end of the day..
my team started sayin me and janna n randee were sayin stuff and yeah it was a big ol' thing but yeah ...
i juss stayed after to watch varsity. we won that too!
4-1 damn... greenwave ona roll!
yah kno who i like alot noww?
greg
OMG! alex dyed his hair ! it lokos like piss blonde. lol thought id shaer...
mmmk well i think ima done
Much luv
Call me 560-2738
LaUReN

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:: 2004 10 March :: 9.11 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: sum country thing

HeyHey1 Whoa! look at the time! 9-11 SCARY!
anyways, we lost our game at ft myers again lol... this time it wasnt our faults tho
then, i went ot a little league game riite after and we 10 runned the girls hahah ti was lovely
LOOK how BAD I pissed off alexa!
OOOhhh im sorry but stupid hoes i am not nice too! specially since she cheated on wyatt!!
she woulda still bin going him with u ifhe hadnt broken up with her.... STUPID HOE!
Greg is talkin to me more!! i sat on alex's lap today!! w00t!
but he pissed me off
greg said something then he said
"bin there done that" and then slapped my ass... dumbfuck,.!

TasteZLykECherrY: whyd u cheat on wyatt?
CheeseDanish89: omg, lauren, stop
CheeseDanish89: ...what is ur problem
TasteZLykECherrY: like go out with 2 people at once?"
CheeseDanish89: leave me alone
CheeseDanish89: ... seriously
TasteZLykECherrY: u did it, not me.
CheeseDanish89: it's not ur problem
TasteZLykECherrY: its wrong.
CheeseDanish89: ... well, you've done some things taht are 'wrong' too, so stop bitching at me
CheeseDanish89: and i didn't
CheeseDanish89: ... so jus chill
TasteZLykECherrY: so0o0o0o0o0o many people are calling u a hoe now... cuz more then me jus kno!
CheeseDanish89: from u
CheeseDanish89: ...yea, w.e.
TasteZLykECherrY: haha n other peopel
CheeseDanish89: i don't care
CheeseDanish89: y do u all the sudden hat eme?!
TasteZLykECherrY: hey i lost it to wyatt sooo im not gunna let u cheat on him.
CheeseDanish89: ... tahts crazy, cause people call u a hoe too, so, it mutral, and i've done nothing 'hoeish'
TasteZLykECherrY: hehe i kno they do
TasteZLykECherrY: and i dont care
CheeseDanish89: cool
CheeseDanish89: i g2g
CheeseDanish89: bye
TasteZLykECherrY: dont cheat on wes now
TasteZLykECherrY: now u gotta rep;-);-)
CheeseDanish89: f u
TasteZLykECherrY: :-D
TasteZLykECherrY: byah

A promise means everthing...
but when its broken...Sorry means nothing.

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:: 2004 8 March :: 8.09 am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: i could only imagine

Yeah well of course Kelsey already has Ashley for her bday... what luck.
i mean damn... i never get to be with someone that was like my bestest friend in this state.
i mean it took me 10 years to see her and now shes to0o bizy with kelsey.
im such a crazii jealous bitch but yah kno ?? i dont care
last yr me n ash couldnt be separated and this year we're like shit.
i kno i shouldnt be mad but yah kno... i would like to spend time with her too!
whatever. i shouldnt be so mad
But i am.
Its just.. i dont kno.. anywhere ahsley is.. kelsey is there too. i still dont like her after what she did with ashley.
going out with that david fukk when she knew that ash liked him alot. im sorry but thats like the bitchiest thing to do to a friend.
i was going to make up with micheal today, jannas man, but noooo, he called me a tramp but hes not even a damn virgin! fukkin bozo!
lol bozo isa cool ass word.
Whatever. people are gay anymore.
oh ryan was a REAL ass to me today in math, but he had the decency to make up! im happy that he actually did that.... haha to even remember what he said.. i kinda juss bloccked it outta muh memory but he said that he felt really bad...
kk im done blubberin
Lovealways
Lauren
oh yeah, whoever replyd to that person in my last entry...
thank you.

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:: 2004 7 March :: 8.06 am
:: Mood: blah

i just feel like a damn hoe...

I hate some people...You don't mean anything to me..
...You're what I never wanna be...

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:: 2004 7 March :: 5.46 pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: someday

HolA
Went shopping today
gotta cute shirt. its gotta L on it.. haha
how ironic? lol jk!
Hmm Bored
Alex called me friday niite... he wanted me to go to his house n he said hed pick me up.. but i dunno didnt wanna.. dont kno why... boy am i weird? i mean i did.. but i knew what he wanted soo.. i didnt wanna
Ne ways
i found out my sister reads this journal... hmph oh well. she got pissed when i read hers but hell, i dont give a shit anymore, shes a dumb person anyway all obsessed with nick still. the stupid fuKkk
oh yeha
me and amanda elliott cant wait until the summer
pleasrure island here we come
hitt da celly
LoVe
LaUrEn

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:: 2004 4 March :: 9.28 am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: headstrong

Hi.
Juss got home. and im tired!
okay heres my day... go to bed at midnight...wake up at 5...go to school... have softball.. then go straight to a sofftball game.. WOOoohooo! we won haha 14-1.. i pitched and boy did i suck ass! lol. oh well i only walked 2 and the one was cuz i hit the girl... haha poor thing
neways
next week im participating in... what 4 games?
tuesday-ft myers
wednesday- ft myers, then san carlos
friday- ft myers
soo bizy...
AND TIRED!
i want comments in my journal
~Love to pieces~
Laur

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:: 2004 3 March :: 5.22 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: too many niggas

Y0 yo!
Damnnn SCchool is boring.. nuthin fun. im watching... JAWS! lol.. i went to the ortho today he gave me gumbands!! oh no!!! stupid things, ima forget to wear thum. haha Oo0h well.
You ALL should go to my other journal.. its nuthin special...
www.woohu.com/~running-from-herself
Juss Read The comments. -lol- tryin to say i FuCkKed Reid.. Nah...
~lol.~
Oohh well. Actin like there brandon... lol.. oh well!
janna needs to break up with whats his face RIIITE NOW!!!! I can't stand the kid. NastY greasy ass hair Ewww. I think ima gettin ihighlights!! w00t!!
KK tomorro
every1 gotta go to my game in 3 oaks. i dont remmeber who we play but i be pitchin.. lol but i warn you i cant hit slow pitchin!!
MMMMMMMmk?
KK well i think ima go since im so00o0o0o terriblely BoReD
Love Yah HoeZ!
LauR
HoLlA oN dA cElLy
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:: 2004 29 February :: 4.14 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: titanic

ive been watching titanic with my momma all day... its been relaxing.
i made a new journal.. juss for peopel who call me a hoe
http://www.woohu.com/~running-from-herself/

you shoudl go

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:: 2004 28 February :: 9.08 am
:: Mood: aggravated

>>Woww I SUCK <<

ok well i hada game tonite
i did pretty bad
i had a bunch of balls hit to me at short.. but i didnt throw half because they were already half way there... i have the speed to throw it but out 1st basemen sucks so i didnt throw.. got yelled at
i hit a ball to the fence... everyone was telling the 3rd base coach to send me home.. did he? NO! n i woulda bin safe.. so i was stuck at 3rd. then, i went to steal home, and got caught ina pickle because the ball bounced off the fence os it was closer... n got out...
then, i struck out
then, i popped one up to left feild.. i was ready to fukn crie.. im suprised i didnt..
wills a dick head.. thought id share.. brandon wont talk to me.. i mean he does but well not as much.. its kinda pisses me off but hey whatever works.. what else..
amanda bruno i dunno, she never tells me who says what n it drives me insane...
i dont kno.. today is juss.. BLAH. i dunno i guess.. how the hell do i let softball get the best of me? ooh do i wonder.
i juss wish everyone woulda bin there to see the hit that almost went over. n amy is a varsity pitcher... so everyone can juss kiss my ass....
im out
i feel like shit




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:: 2004 27 February :: 9.19 am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: numb

yes yes things seeming to return to normal, but normal has chnaged

i like that quote.. i got it from nick saldivar.. its actually discribing my life..
me and janna have spent the last 32 outta 48 hours together. its been so great!!! k i hada say that...
Love always
Lauren
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:: 2004 23 February :: 9.05 am
:: Mood: cold

PradaBaby469: thats fucked lauren and u wont say shit about it
TasteZLykECherrY: huh


whoa now people get mad when i DONT tell them my life... pretty odd....
whatever works..
ALways
Lauren

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