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2004 22 September :: 8.52pm
forgive me...
im so sorry woohu...: (
I don't want us to drift apart too
I feel like I don't even know certain people anymore it's so sad and NO it's not michelle she always thinks i'm talking about her.lol
School is upsetting everyone has beaten it to death I won't go into the details....but it truely is disheartening to actually try and care and still not excel...I mean as of now I think I have straight Bs except for As in english and dance....that's really not so bad but I am BUSTING my ass for those mediocre grades and it can really only go down from here. Last year I got Bs just from not doing anything and when I think of all the slacking off I did....man if I tried last year I woulda ha straight As it's ridiculous. But actually giving a shit does come with the stress and the obligation to do well...these days I will stay up until 2am and study even if I know it won't help....just so I can say I tried I feel guilty if I don't.
So i run on 3-4 hours of sleep and don't eat much during the day and typically don't get home until about 6:30 and it is having some major side effects. I keep slippin gback into that altered hormonal state of conciousness where I get these depressed breakdowns and rage outbursts I can't control it. I had one of my episodes while I was driving somewhere last weekend and ended up alone in some random parking lot in the middle of the night
in a kinda bad area just trying to calm the fuck down and get home. It was scary.
I really can't even think about guys right now...there is this one guy who seems nice but shy and I don't approach him unless people force me to. I'm not into persuing anything right now I just need a nice happy thought....when you get close to people you realize they are assholes at heart it's just a general rule.
maybe I'll find someone to get "close" with at Danielle party haha. I'm loving this fuck homecomming idea hopefully it will work out.
wow this was pretty depressing good thing no one pays attention to this journal anymore.
I missed you woohu
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2004 17 September :: 6.45pm
:: Music: tech romance
dude crying is like... ugh. i dont know WHY i'm freaking crying. its not right. am i lonely, am i tired, am i frustrated? idk what the hell i am. i want for someone to just hold me for like hours but im too scared to ask my parents to take me down to boca when we're going north to eat dinner and probably see a movie. sniff. i dont know.
live just gets to ya sometimes.
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2004 15 September :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: angel of mine
itz crazy how things like this just happen..
well it started off as a pretty good day..normal stuff..then brice told me what happened..yesterday his cousin and one of his closest friends got into a really bad car accident..it was two guys..koby and willy..koby died in the accident..he was just 19..willy got hurt so bad that his leg had to be amputated..so many people were affected by what happened..especially the football players..koby graduated last year from ATL..i didnt know him personally but i knew of him and knew some of his friends..today before cheer practice we went to the AV room with all the football players and some basketball players so Coach Bean and some other people could talk about what happened..we went out of respect u kno??..neways..it was really sad..Coach Bean was saying all these really nice things about koby and what a great person he was..and how motivated and determined he was too..and he just broke down crying..and with me i get emotional easily when it comes to things like that..so i got all teary eyed..after some coaches and teachers spoke football players spoke about him too..wagums got up there and said really nice things so did CJ and preston..and alot of other guys too..all the guys were in tears..it was sad..it really makes you think everything over..and realize what's truly important in life..it's true what they say "live life to the fullest" and "live every day like it's ur last"..because u never know what could happen..and unfortunately it takes something this tragic to realize it all
R.I.P Koby Pierre 1985-2004
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2004 14 September :: 7.39pm
:: Mood: jumpyyy
:: Music: 99 problems
wow..itz definately been a whileeeeee...
sorry..havent updated in a while..errr...i been so busyyy lately tho..cheerleading..school in general..all that good stuff..well to pick up where i left off..damage to my house due to frances consisted of shingles flying off the roof..the screen blown out and no power..our power was out for like a week..but i spent that week at my dadz which was pure hell..but hey it was better than being without light or air..oh by the way..for those of u who dont kno yet..i made a live journal too..so i'll be going back n forth..it's waves_of_hope.so check it out if u get a chance..immma still write in here tho..x0x0
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2004 13 September :: 10.18am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: ..wr0ng wayy -->> subLime..
. l0l .. i'M WEiRD .
l0l, i stayedD h0me t0dayy. 0kayy, lemme explaiin wut's wr0ng wit me. yesterdayy, me nd miKe we're watchiing TV at hiisz h0use nd my leg fell asleep. well, that was ar0undD 4pm nd well, my leg hasn't w0ken upp yet nd it's lyke 18 h0ursz later. l0l, i dunn0 wut's wr0ng wit me .. it's numb nd i cant feel s0o i'm g0iin t0 the d0ct0r nd then pr0lly gettiin an ultras0undD dun at my j0b nd then g0iin straight t0 w0rk. newh0, my wh0le weekendD was spent wit my baller babyy, miKe. we went t0 li0n c0untryy safarii 0n satuRdayy. we g0t t0 see 2 li0nsz fuck .. it was the shyt. we g0t int0 a huge fiight thuRsdayy cuz he sw0re 0n 0ur relati0nshiip that he w0uldn't get barsz 0ne niight nd he didD nd it made me feel lyke 0ur relati0nshiip was w0rth nuthiin t0 hiim. s0o wen i pulledD upp at hisz h0use, i c0uldD tell he was fuckedD upp s0o i went t0 get my keyysz nd start my car nd leave but he st0le my keyysz nd w0uldn't giive them back s0o i startedD walkiin d0wn the street ndD i was screamiin at hiim nd made hiim feel lyke shyt basicallyy. then i g0t my keyysz nd left. then i went back cuz he w0uldn't st0p calliin me. went back .. f0ught m0re nd dr0ve 0ff again. he calledD me nd t0ldD me wen i spedD 0ut 0f hiis drivewayy i ran 0ver nautica (( 0ur puppyy )) nd br0ke her 2 back legsz nd he made me feel badD s0o i dr0ve back 0nce again t0 fiindD that the d0gg was perfectlyy fiine nd he juss saidD that t0 get me t0 c0me back nd then he t0ldD me that he'd be heart br0ken wit0ut me nd that he l0vesz me m0re than anyy 0ther gurl he's benn wit. s0o we were fiine after that. it was a big drama fiight but i'm gladD it's 0ver. yesteRdayy, i calledD a t0w truck c0mpanyy f0r miKe s0o he c0uldD get hiis truck fixedD beiing the baller gurlfriendD i am .. haha. he hadda flat tiire but we didnt have a biig en0ught jack t0 liift it upp cuz he has a huge truck .. l0l. we juss hung 0ut nd y0u kn0. l0l, we hadda g00dD weekendD. i l0ve hiim s0o much .. ahh, it's great. later gat0rsz. <33
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2004 7 September :: 12.01pm
:: Mood: hungry
hello dear friends.
it's been a while since i've updated here.
frances is over and now we get to worry about ivan. doesnt that sound like fun boys and girls?? heh. i highly doubt it. anyhow, there wasnt much damage to our house. we lost a few shingles and screens. i lost more than half of my precious moments collection. yuh- some crying there. mommy said she'd try to replace them, but its not the same. but i guess its better than nothing.
i got to talk to my buddies. everyones good. :D. now im here at my aunts in davie. boring here- but better than home. grandpa broke his hip. :(.
well i gotta go eat.
much love to all. <3
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2004 3 September :: 3.11pm
no one can make u feel inferior without your consent
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2004 3 September :: 3.06pm
peanut butter jelly, peanut butter jelly, peanut butter wit a baseball bat
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2004 2 September :: 6.32pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Old 80's/90's music
so damn hot but so youngg- ok that's not that 90's music lol
I think my houses is one of the few houses that the windows rn't boarded up lol. I think besides that, we're ready. My mom spent $80 just on candles- she's crazy. She loves candles and flowers- what girl doesn't, I guess? Everything in our house is falling apart neway lol, so I think my parents dont care at this point. But in all seriousness I hope everyone does stay safe and takes the right precautions.
I wonder where we will all be in two years from now ? I guess another chapter in the book of our lives. I really hope I keep in touch wit some of u ppl tho, cuz some of u totally rock. If u dont know how u r, somethin wrong witchu! Seriously, we all have so much potential. We CAN be the people who CHANGE THE FREAKIN WORLD, if we apply ourselves. Everything starts with an intention. And if ur intention is strong enough, God sees it through.
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2004 1 September :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: ..meaNt t0 live -->> SwitChf00t..
. HURRiCANE iS C0MiNG .
s0o we're gettiin hiit by a hurricane this weekend. all s0uth fl0rida sch00lsz are cl0sedD t0m0rr0w nd fRidayy .. 5 dayy weekendD! but i'm siick asz fuck n0w. it suxx. me nd miKe are d0iin great. he b0ught me fl0wersz last weekendD. l0l, madD ad0rable. i g0t t0 see hiim last niight .. went 0ver there after w0rk. s0o siince i'm 0ff my REG .. we did it. l0l, it was g00dD. went h0me nd w0ke upp relle siick. it suxx .. i have the flu. s0o t0m0rr0w i'm helpiin my rentsz b0ardD upp the h0use f0r the hurricane .. which isz guna ruiin my weekendD. but newh0, that's b0ut all that's g0iin 0n. sch00l's gettiing hardD. i 0rderedD my class riing yesterdayy. nd i b0ught the cutest purse. well, i'm tiredD s0o i thiink imma g0 t0 sleep. xoxo. LATER. ii l0ve miKe <33
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2004 1 September :: 6.36pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Go0dies-Ciara
THE HURRICANE'S COMINGG!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!..lol..everybody is definately freaking out with francis..pat is boarding up the house too..lol..seriouslyyyy..paranoid people man..lol..neways..no school friday..half day tomoro..i might not even come to skoo 2moro..they're thinkin of leaving to tampa earlier than we had planned..so yupp..by the way a livejournal is under construction for me..my user name is waves_of_hope..just thot i shudd share
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2004 31 August :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: cary brothers - "blue eyes"
i cry get upset for absolutely the weirdest things.
or for nothing at all!
mothereffing heart isnt functioning right.
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2004 31 August :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: in pain
:: Music: Sunshine
ouchiez
i was definately dropped today from a stunt at practice..it was on accident but dayumm that shit hurt..imma be all bruised up now..:(
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2004 29 August :: 4.44pm
news update:
i have switched over to livejournal. i'll still be using woohu, but i think i'll probably use that one more. my user name is misscinderella_
see you there. xoxo.
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2004 29 August :: 2.39am
:: Mood: nostalgic
walk down memory lane....
well i already updated lj for the night so here i am again....i am being such a journal slut.
but anyway just had the most random conversation with john he hasn't tlked to me that much since school started and he IMs me out of nowhere tonight and starts getting all nostalgic and talking about things in the past that i don't think he even admitted to me back then...it was weird lol he eventually informed me he had been drinking and it all made sense.
i got over john a long time ago but i liked that we were still able to maintain some kind of friendship...we really had a lot of fun times together haloween...playing in the fountains at cityplace....hema's party....the back of danielle's dad's truck.... going to the movies....kicking nick out of the car lol....all of the stories i used to write him and the odd random text messages that would like brighten my day, he was the only one i managed to stay in contact with while i was grounded last yr it saved my sanity really...lol the day i took him shopping and we went on our adventure to publix and the "lake" by my house and the bookstore because i really am kinda smart lol...so many inside jokes it was just nice to look back and to know that he hasn't forgotten all of the good times. He's really happy with kassie now though and i really am happy for him because when you get down to it he's a pretty good guy.
wow this entry was so like upbeat and positive idk where that came from. i'm gunna have to be such a bitch to him nxt time we tlk to make up for it lol
<3
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