Through The Window

C'est la vie...

I have found my life to be chaotic but absolutely satisfying. I could say that I almost never have a moment to myself but then I would be lieing and that wouldnt be nice to do I do have moments to myslef I just spend them thinking about what homework needs to be done and how I am not going to get it done enen though I created a schedule to get it done over the weekend when in all actuality I could just get it started. But between working two jobs, chores, school, homwork and odd jobs that I pick up, which seem to be alot more right now which is quite spectacular, I really barely have enough time to sleep. But my eyes are so dried out and tired that I cannot see the screen anymore so ....

Later Gators

Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2008 31 January :: 11.45am
:: Mood: Sore/tired/irritated

Once Again...

I had a specfic reason for not getting a white car and that was because nobody can see it in the snow and I think people just hate my car

Examples:

1.) Backed in to in the parking ramp at school last winter
2.) Ticket
3.) Backed in to at H2 parking lot and took off this January
4) Rear ended yesterday and took off

All in less than a year

Story of my life.

But I look on the bright in that I can still drive my vehicle.

Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2008 10 January :: 3.02pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: It Must Be Love- Alan Jackson

(Sigh)....In a Good Way.........

I have 5 1/2 hour break today. Almost nothing to do and I have a hour and a half before my next class. I have already had lunch, ran, worked out, and went for a very long but relaxing walk north of campus. I was also able to talk to myself and I think I may have created a pretty awesome book while talking to myself.

I like being back at school. Although I would like to be at home and riding the horses in this wonderful spring weather in January.

Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2008 6 January :: 5.05pm

I am going to do it this time. Whatever it takes. I am sick of being this way. Its time for a change and now I am going to make the change and make it stick not matter what it takes.

1 Broken Window | Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 30 December :: 2.24pm
:: Mood: Sick

Flu...I hate it. I dont like throwing up especially when I cant control it. I feel better now. But I still feel like crap.

Chrissy I envy your trip to Kansas, it has to be warm and enjoyable and I want to be there. But I just miss you. So much to say and so little time to say it.

Jon is over right now to play video games with Mike. It is almost weird. Almost.

1 Broken Window | Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 24 December :: 3.43pm
:: Mood: Achy/content
:: Music: Green Day

Contentness...I think it is a Good Thing...

I am content....

I came to this realization last night. I may not be the perfect weight, size, intelligence or girlfriend but nobody is. I realized that it is not about what I think I should be but what I am to everybody else. To everybody else I am beautiful and smart. To him, I am everything that he could ever want. I like that. He tells me everyday. I really like that.

I may have a different opinion tommorow but today this is what I think.

2 Broken Windows | Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 17 December :: 10.10am
:: Mood: sick

Almost done....I can hardly wait.

I dont feel very well today. My breakfast did not want to work in my favor today and ended up exiting the way it came in. As much as I want to believe that I have a fever...........I probably dont. But I feel like crap. My back hurts and I shoulder is killing me and I am just a whiner but when I dont feel well thats the way I get.

So close to being done....

I like him. I realize that.

3 Broken Windows | Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 11 December :: 9.13am
:: Mood: Tired

"I believe everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you can eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"

-Marilyn Monroe

Thank you Chrissy

2 Broken Windows | Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 4 December :: 9.17am
:: Mood: exhausted

The end is near but not soon enough. I want to keep going and I force myself to everyday. So close yet so far away. But the end is soon and I anticipate every morning.

Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 27 November :: 12.04am
:: Mood: content

Portions for Foxes Lyrics
Artist(Band):Rilo Kiley

There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talkin' trash but I never say anything
And the talkin' leads to touchin'
and the touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And It's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just bein' around you offers me another form of relief
When the loneliness leads to bad dreams
and the bad dreams lead me to callin' you
and I call you and say "C'MERE!"

And it's bad news
Baby I'm bad news
I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news

And it's bad news
Baby it's bad news
It's just bad news, bad news, bad news

'Cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me - like you

'Cause we'll all be
Portions for foxes
Yeah we'll all be
Portions for foxes

There's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleepin' inside of you
and the talkin' leads to touchin'
then touchin' leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left

And it's bad news
I don't blame you
I do the same thing
I get lonely too

And you're bad news
My friends tell me to leave you
That you're bad news, bad news, bad news

That you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
Baby you're bad news
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
and you're bad news
I don't care I like you
I like you

For some reason this sums it all up. For some reason.

Throw your rock through my window...

runningfreak

:: 2007 3 November :: 9.07pm

Just another day...

I really wanted to come to Ohio. Dont get me wrong, I am overjoyed to see my Aunt Betsy and the rest of my mothers side of the family that I so rarely see but at the same time I could have just as well stayed home and studied. I prolly wouldnt have done much studying but still. This is riduculous. Everybody is doing there own little thing with the people they ALWAYS spend time with. It is actually rather annoying. I could have gotten alot of things done this weekend. No big deal I suppose. The concert for my Grandpa is tommorow at 4pm so after that is a long way home. Hopefully I will sleep most of the way like I did coming to Ohio. Sleeping makes the trip seem less agonizing. Sometimes I wonder if not getting very much sleep is a good thing cause it really pays to be exhausted when travelling and you arent the one driving. Anyways, I watched my sister play at her volleyball game againest Ashland University in Ashland today. They won all three games. Ashland was ranked #9 in the nation and Hillsdale was ranked #13 I think but who knows now. She was happy to see me. She was happy to talk on the phone the night before as well. I think she misses me. Thats cool. I had a feeling that she would, sometimes I kinda miss her too.

I am still as bubbly as ever. I stop and think about like have before and that usually detours me from how I want to feel. But this time it hasnt and I hope that it doesnt. I was even told how it really wasnt worth pursueing based on how his life is and usually I would listen especially since it was coming from him but this time it didnt matter. I really like this feeling and I can only hope that it is going to stay for a while.

Throw your rock through my window...