rayray - Woohu.com http://www.woohu.com/~rayray Woohu / Woohu.com http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=608120 Today I spent the majority of the day sitting on my butt. I went down to my dads to visit.. and see his harley.. He bought a motorcycle yesterday. And I ended up spending most of my day down there. And the 2 hours before I went down there I was making ringtones. And for like 30 minutes while I was there I was making ringtones.. And for the last 45 minutes, I was making ringtones.. I think I made a little over 20 of them today.. And now I sit here and wait for mike to bring me home a pop.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=608120 Sun, 11 May 2008 00:12:27 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=608017 I applied for a student loan last night. Today my loan was approved. Tomorrow, my money will be sent to MCC. Finally, all my ducks are afloat and in a row. My birthday is in 32 days. Right now things are going really great in my life. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=608017 Wed, 07 May 2008 19:36:18 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607933 I am not eligible for a Pell Grant. Therefore I have to get Student Loans. I am mad because tuition is due Thursday. Fucking cock suckers! http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607933 Mon, 05 May 2008 16:06:25 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607730 I have tough girl exterior that i show to everyone except my family. Which also means that my family gets to me most of all. They know what pisses me off, and makes me cry. My brother most of all, knows each and every button to press, like he's dialing his best friends phone number over and over and over. Today I got told that I am too small to be a corrections officer. And that if I work in a mens prison facility, I will be gang raped.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607730 Mon, 28 Apr 2008 20:15:51 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607417 You'd think I'd be used to this bullshit. The feeling like shit because my mom puts rolling cigarettes and shuffle board before me. Especially when its for something I NEED. I need her to find her 2006 Tax info. There isnt a want for it, it is an important need. I need it for Financial Aid. I need it to get money for college. I need it so that i dont have to ask for money elsewhere, and take out loans. But whatever. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607417 Sat, 19 Apr 2008 11:37:23 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607390 I didn't go to Ohio. I stayed home to relax, and do some more self-cleansing. I visited Katelyn today. I haven't seen her in a very long time, and I feel as though I have abandoned our friendship. Financial Aid stuff is cluster-fucked. I just watched the movie Juno. I liked it. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607390 Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:09:24 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607297 Spending the weekend in Ohio. I hope it brings some sort of solution to my madness lately. Doubt it though. For the moment, the tears have stopped. The uncomfortable feeling is still there. Still burdening me. I feel.. blah. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607297 Tue, 15 Apr 2008 21:53:25 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607184 I sit. I weap. I wipe away tears. It's how I start my day, and how I end it. I cry at the drop of a hat. I know I'm an emotional wreck and that I have some emotional issues I keep throwing in the back of my closet. Hoping that someday they will escape through a crack somewhere. Sadly, I never know what starts these fits of tears and uncertainty. Especially when everything in my relationship with Mike is great. I have a job, and I am enrolled in college. My bills are paid, and I'm slowly getting caught up. I really have nothing missing. However, there is a huge hole. And that hole that keeps attacking me at moments like these, is hurting me. This uncomfortable feeling it gives me, is hurting me physically. I am always tired. My body aches. And I can't find a cure.. I've spent the last few weeks doing a spring cleaning of my thoughts. So far, I feel as though I worn myself weak, and accomplished nothing. It's like running on a treadmill. Right now, I would love to burst into tears, and curl up in bed. But there are too many things I need to get done. Anyway.. My dad talked to his girly-friend last night on the phone for 2 hours last night, even though she broke their date for last night. He is so happy, and giddy. And I love seeing him smile. I have been waiting for this for years. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607184 Fri, 11 Apr 2008 16:35:07 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607108 So I am still waiting for that student id number. I called and left a message with the admissions lady.. Being that it is spring break this week, I highly doubt i will get a response this week. Anyway to go more indepth about the things my last entry contained.. My dad had a date-ish type evening saturday. I am happy for him, and he's happy, and he smiles a lot too. I spent time with my mom on saturday. We played cards. It was entertaining. And lastly, Mike's fish.. We had a power surge, and his fish was fried. He swam all weird and retarded like for a couple moments, and then nothing. It was sad. But now I must shower. Sandpaper dust does not leave a very attractive odor behind. And let me tell you, I would be so very happy if i never had to see sandpaper again. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607108 Tue, 08 Apr 2008 17:36:08 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607042 A big weekend has just ended.. My dad had a date. I willingly went to see my mom. And Mike's fish died.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=607042 Sun, 06 Apr 2008 23:04:22 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606968 So finally we have 2 running vehicles again. I am waiting for my student id number so I can register for summer classes. I just finished cleaning, but I still have some more to do.. But I am running out of ambition. Tara is moving to Texas. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606968 Wed, 02 Apr 2008 18:44:55 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606822 Now I just wait for an answer and the days to pass.. As well as my student ID for MCC so I can register for classes. Not to mention take the placement test. They set me up with a time, but I can't do it at that time because I have this thing called work that I must attend so I can bring home a small paycheck at the end of the week! Yippy. I dread most of it. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606822 Wed, 26 Mar 2008 16:49:34 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606734 I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away But they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein That I keep on closing You cut me open and I I seriously love that song. Everytime I heard it on the radio, I'd never catch the name of who sings it. Finally tonight I withdrew from my laziness and found out. So now I just sit here trying to prepare for tomorrow. I have some cleaning left to do. Inside I have a lot to say. However, I don't feel that this is the place or the time to share any of it.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606734 Sat, 22 Mar 2008 22:23:36 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606577 I got a new phone yesterday. I hate it. It doesn't do what I want it to do. So I am going to have them order me the one I really truly want, that they don't carry. We are getting a new couch today. Can't get much better than free! It's in great shape, and its extremely comfortable. Shannon got laid off yesterday. Martin told her that she had the "Rachel thing going on". I laughed. I filled out an application for admissions at MCC. I got to the section where I have to fill out what program I want... And I stopped. Thought I knew, but now I changed my mind, again. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606577 Sat, 15 Mar 2008 12:32:53 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606521 Things have been going pretty good.. My sister had her first ultrasound yesterday.. My baby neice or nephew :D http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=606521 Wed, 12 Mar 2008 18:45:23 EST