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2010 1 September :: 9.41am
:: Mood: Michelle used Bide!
:: Music: All I Really Want ~ Alanis Morissette
Expand on that for me
I am waiting in the wings for something knew to come along
Something new to sweep me off my feet
A poetic brilliance
A kindred spirit
To commence intellectual intercourse
And create new ideas and wavelengths
Reach into the expanding universe
Unhindered
Flowing enlightenment destroying my veins
My heart beating furiously
Losing control
A radioactive brilliance immolating my mind
Transcending all physical boundaries
No nerves or headaches
Just a vast nothingness filled with everything
Kitten!
Last week I adopted a little black and white kitten from a vet's office in Wilton--she was surrendered as part of a litter of seven, all needing homes.
She'll be 5 weeks soon, and she's the sweetest little thing. I've been taking her to work with me and she's a big hit with the kids, unsurprisingly. She's so friendly and curious and playful. I truly love her.
I've decided to call her Hachi--her namesake is a character from the anime/manga Nana, but hachi is also the word for eight in Japanese, which I find appropriate, since I got her in August.
The day before yesterday was the sixth anniversary of my father's death, and probably thanks in large part to Hachi, I'm doing pretty well. In his honor, I bought a telescope to look at Mars, which on that same day was closer to Earth than it has been in 60,000 years. It didn't work out, unfortunately. But at least I tried.
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2010 19 August :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: passive
:: Music: look of love ~ lesley gore
soon
i got my driving license
and i will attend college soon
i went to the honors retreat in hiram
this is all good
i think maybe
maybe
biology
and philosophy
let us look into that
Panic attack woke me at 2:00 a.m. last night. Paced trembling about the house for what seemed like ages but may have only been half an hour--I didn't look at the clock again.
My sleep has been fitful and easily disturbed lately, which is odd, since I haven't had any sort of caffeine in weeks. I've been shying from the idea of consulting a psychiatrist, not because I have anything against psychiatry but because I'm tired of having to pay for medical appointments. It has not been a healthy year for me. Still, maybe I should. Things don't seem to be improving all too much and I'd rather not continue suddenly waking in terror in the middle of the night.
In other news, I'm getting a kitten next week, one of a litter surrendered to a vet's office in Wilton. I'm very excited and have already started to stock up on kitten supplies. I will prove it happened with pics once she comes home with me.
