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:: 2019 8 March :: 10.29pm

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:: 2019 21 February :: 9.03pm

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:: 2019 10 February :: 8.09pm

Honestly I just feel like a waste of space, time, and energy, and know people would be better off without me. Maybe I should just leave.

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:: 2019 5 February :: 8.34pm

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:: 2018 19 December :: 5.36pm

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:: 2018 19 December :: 4.44pm

I'm in so much pain. I have to have surgery. I'm so scared. I don't know what to do.

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gideon

:: 2018 23 October :: 6.22pm

Time
How is anyone?

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:: 2018 15 October :: 9.50pm

"Unfulfilled expectations of others" - the sole source of my unhappiness.

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:: 2018 30 September :: 3.16pm

I feel pretty damned overwhelmed.

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:: 2018 20 September :: 5.53pm

I don't like my job.
I've given it some time. I don't like my job.

It's just okay. It doesn't pay me what I think would be suitable to drive out there every weekday. Maybe if I had 1 more dollar an hour...

It doesn't really feel "beneath" me but I feel like I was lied to. They said it wasn't a call center. It basically is but with email, and I learned just today, some phone calls (usually if you're speaking to someone who is older who doesn't really get the point of email).

This company has acquired so many other companies in the past that their system is pretty screwy. There are tons of ways to get the information you want and they try and teach you all of them, rather than just teaching you the one, most efficient way. I get that some people might like to do things differently but if they just start at the job, surely the most efficient way is the better way for them to learn on?

My coworkers and bosses are dope and the environment is dope. Everyone has been super welcoming and they feed us all the time and do fun events like picnics and water balloon fights and egg races... But they don't like marijuana at all as they're not based in Washington. They drug test more than once and it's not a good idea to talk about with coworkers. That's something I don't want to jive with.

I probably could stay there for a long time. I probably could stay there the rest of my life and I'd earn enough to live in the Spokane area. But I don't want to. Because it feels pretty soul-sucking... They lied about it not really being sales too. I am doing support but if there are opportunities, we should be up selling. There are competitions to up sell. I don't believe in the work. There's nothing positive or helpful about my job other than I make people more money. I don't feel fulfilled.

They also do charities. Yesterday was my best day at work so far because a pet rescue was there and they had doggies and kitties. And after 30 years I finally have figured out my dream job - rescuing and rehabilitating dogs. Can I do that? I doubt it. There's prob not enough money in it to live on. I'm going to try to look it up though. See what kind of non-profit funding I can find.

So anyways, I am going to start looking for something else. But the only thing that's bad about a full-time job is that you don't have any energy to do things like looking for a different job in your off time.

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