:: 2004 10 April :: 6.53 pm

It's been a long time since I've been in here. I'm at my grandma's house right now celebrating easter with the fam. It's been nice. I felt like I was five because were all like 16 and up and my aunt made us look for eggs. It was kinda of childish but quite relaxing in the same sense. I've spent the last few days just thinking about stuff, and I haven't quite reached a full conclusion. But I just want to say for the record, that I am so in love with you. And I can't wait to see you again and I'm sorry because we were suppose to hang out today, but I got dragged here. But I will see you soon. hopefully tomorrow. Well, I gotta go. Bye.

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:: 2004 25 March :: 10.24 am

It's been a long time since i've written in here. a long time indeed. Times have changed since i've last wrote. emotions have rised to a different level. first of all, you speak. I enjoy hearing you talk, especially when it's about nothing at all. i've noticed something, though, Your spirit and my spirit together are the untamed hell. we look at life to live, not to escape. Our differences have collided and they keep us apart. your body craves for love, but my soul needs recognition. the perplexity in my brain is starting to take me over. I worry that I am in love with Him to much and that it bothers you. maybe not. I just don't know what to say. My life does revolve around Him and that's all I know. Let me talk about him. there is one thng that I have heard and I believe with all my heart, "Only that which is the other, gives us fully unto ourselves." you make me.

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:: 2004 17 March :: 9.01 pm

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So use it and prove it
Remove this whirling sadness
I'm losing, I'm bluesing
But you can save me from this madness

Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me
Nobody knows it but you've got a secret smile
And you use it only for me

So save me I'm waiting
I'm needing, hear me pleading
And soothe me, improve me
I'm grieving, I'm barely believing now, now

when you are flying around and around the world
And I'm lying alonely
I know there's something sacred and free reserved
And recieved by me only

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:: 2004 9 March :: 10.38 am

I kinda llike it when my sisters are gone, my dad actually acknowledges my presence.

Life is swell right now. Beisides the fact that I feel like I'm going to spew all over the place. Hopefully this sickness isn't anything to horrible. and I hope it doesn't get to worse.

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:: 2004 8 March :: 5.53 pm
:: Music: FInch

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:: 2004 4 March :: 9.57 am
:: Mood: content

If you open your eyes just a little wider, you will see that I am here. I've been standing in the same place the whole time. Molly will never change. Sure I will grow up and somethings may alter a little, but I will still be Molly. As for you, you can tell me anything, antytime. Doesn't matter to what extent. you are a good friend and I am yours. I know that I might be busy a lot, but I'm not one to just excuse a friend because I have something to do. Catch me at any given moment and tell me your world and I will NOT turn away. I'm here for you just as I always said that I will be. For as long as I can be.

As for you, you are the most beautiful creature that has ever stepped into my presence. I don't know what to say. "I love you" just doesn't seem enough. I can't wait for California...

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:: 2004 1 March :: 6.25 pm

At lunch I heard you laugh. You call your self a follower of God, but in return you sit and laugh about Him being brutally beaten, and joke because He actually went through the most horrible way to die. And you think it's funny?I will not condemn you because that is not my place, but I do in fact have to say this...shame on you.

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:: 2004 29 February :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: happy

It's perfect, so perfect. I couldn't want anything more, anything less. There's something different, I know, the pit of my stomach tells me so. I love touching you. And when you hold me, I don't ever wanna let go. I would love to lay with you forever. I know that this will make it alright. I have you, and you have me. And it's perfect.

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:: 2004 25 February :: 9.53 pm

It really hurts me to look at her when she's like that. When she sits there and pretends that she's okay, when everyone knows that she really does hurt. I know that she just wants some sort of reason or conclusion to why it's like this. Of why she is the way she is. She cries from the inside everyday. But yet she is one of the most beautiful people I've ever seen. Her eyes are like the ocean when I look in them. So big, and empty, and blue. It kind of makes me wonder how God could create something as beautiful as her, but yet make her as sensitive and scared as she is. She must know that He is real, and only He can save her. If I could give her all my answers and all my faith I would. Then she wouldn't have to worry anymore. I'm sorry that I cannot give it you, just remember that when you are weak, He does give you strength, just put your pride aside and and know that He is.

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:: 2004 24 February :: 10.30 pm
:: Music: Mozart-"Three Strikes Again"

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:: 2004 23 February :: 7.29 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: "Happy"-Matthew West

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:: 2004 22 February :: 8.39 pm
:: Mood: mellow

God spoke to me.


Sometimes the things we want the most are the things we can't have until we realize how our lives are suppose to be.




I'm sorry Jesus, please forgive me of my sins.

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:: 2004 18 February :: 10.01 am

I knew that what I felt was real. when I touched your face and told you I loved you. I didn't want it to be another mistake. but I think this is it, this is where I draw the line. I don't want any thing else. I knew that He would show me the way. All you need is hope. I don't believe I've ever been more happy in my life...ever. Thank you Lord.

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:: 2004 10 February :: 10.36 pm
:: Mood: happy

story time...
...it was a deep trait, but she hid it inside so the world couldn’t see.

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:: 2004 9 February :: 10.29 pm
:: Mood: ecstatic

Je vous aime...






...I know what it means now.

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:: 2004 8 February :: 9.33 pm
:: Mood: loved

This weekend I realized that I wasn't a nothing...that's pretty exciting if you think about it. Jesus is great.

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:: 2004 6 February :: 9.14 pm
:: Mood: content

The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or her reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. She attempts to remedy this by intense activity and by insistence on getting her own way. Faulty self-control can lead to ungovernable displays of anger.

Strives for a life rich in activity and experience, and for a close bond offering sexual and emotional fulfillment.

Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner and seeking a rather unrealistic perfection in her sex life.

Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Sensitive and sentimental, but conceals this from all except those very close to him.

The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

Under considerable stress due to the demands of the existing situation. Trying to extricate herself from the things which restrict her or tie her down.

-I couldn't have said it better.

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:: 2004 5 February :: 6.29 pm
:: Mood: crushed

thoughts for the day...
You know what's sad, to you I feel numb. I read woohu today for the first time in a couple of days, and wow. I am so nad right now, that I'm sad in the same way. How could you say those kinds of things? I'm just trying to live life the way that I want and the way that God leads me. There may be a few choices that you don't agree with but that's not up to you. I'm not just some little puppet that gets to sit around to ever rule you do. That's not the way that I live. I'm gonna be crazy, I'm gonna be wild, and I'm gonna ba happy doin' it. So I'm sorry if I don't fit into your little mold. I'm happy with Matt. He's hapy with me. End of story. Oh and another thing, don't judge those you don't know...

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:: 2004 2 February :: 7.24 pm
:: Mood: happy

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:: 2004 29 January :: 4.32 pm
:: Mood: relieved

Mayonaise
Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it, doomed
Pick your pocket full of sorrow
And run away with me tomorrow, June
We'll try to ease the pain, somehow
Feel the same way
No one know's where our secrets go
I'll send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so drearie, dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the heirlots of my perils, scream
And I fail, but when I can, I WILL
Try to understan, that when I can, I WILL
Mother weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given, back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
That cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling
So bad, but when I can, I WILL
Words defy the plans, but when I can, I WILL
Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it
No more promise
No more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me?
I just want to be, ME
When I can, I WILL
Try to understand that when I can,
I WILL

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