silentcriez - Woohu.com http://www.woohu.com/~silentcriez Woohu / Woohu.com http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=619630 so its been forever, havent done these things in so long. It was a trip reading back through all that i have been through. so much that i have shut out. so anyone reading this knows, i actually moved to florida. have been talking to my mom happily. I go to school at florida gulf coast university and i am seriously still as confused as i ever was. here fgoes nothing, maybe i will keep up with this,.... http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=619630 Tue, 24 Nov 2009 21:16:30 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=586403 sometimes you are granted the privelage of taing a step back and seeing yourself... maybe not literally in you but seeing something that just makes you realize soemthing that youve needed to see forever...and sometimes things can change and can grow and you can learn... because learning is so important... learning how to love and how to care and be with someone... to worry about them and pray for their success...im not sure what im even rambling about... but i know you understand... maybe im reading all the signs wrong... maybe there arent even any signs....whatever the case may be.... i saw myself today... and i saw myself loving you... http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=586403 Thu, 13 Jul 2006 23:46:39 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=584141 so its been a while since ive typed in here alot of things have changed... i guess daner and are closer... and went to see my mom in florida... and bonnaroo is in 2 weeks!!! so me n danas anniversary i guess is officially september 7th haha hmmmmm its tough trying to catch up on things when so much has changed. just went camping in the cape with jimmy dana timmy jimmi christina stacie ryann sarah keri lindsey tristan and a bunch of other ppl it was fun lol hmmmmm well idk right now thats about it ohgh waitttt prom! haha daner and i went it was fun i love him http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=584141 Thu, 01 Jun 2006 22:16:14 EDT http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=574200 so yeah im cute.. i took dana out yesterday to dinner at a little italian restaurant in newton called appetito it was cute haha a little fancy tho! (i could barely say the names of the food haha) well i had a good time, and he seemed to as well... i adore him... blahhhhh http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=574200 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=573150 so i couldnt have spent new years a better way... i had such a good time being with him we just relaxed and played with eachother... i love it i love it when he touches me when he tells me things when he holds me when i fall asleep in his arms. i love him.. and i know he loves me too.. sarahs party was fun i basically just sat with dana teh whole time but i finally had someone to kiss on new years! my first kiss of 06' horrrayyyyyyyy well im lazy so ill write more later http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=573150 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=572783 the best christmas present i could have recieved Amanda- the time we have had has been good-shitty. i look at the times when we first hung out and i remember maine too. i wish life was like the week in maine. at times i hate you i want to just leave you on the side of the road and drive off you make me mad at times. i wouldnt trade the times we have even though i hate the bad times. i like you and i cant hide it, but i'm just scared to "commit" to you. i care too much to take you, and then hurt you. but i never would do that to you. lol you told me to write that i care about you. lol no but really i do, and when your out with ppl i guess i am jealous. but when your with those kids i hate it. i get really jealous and i cant stand it, but who am i to say anything. i dont know anymore to say ive said alot. im sorry :( but i http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=572783 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=572782 i love him..... uhhh i probably shouldnt but i do... and i somehow think he might love me too? crazy huh... http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=572782 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=567965 AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MY DAD WALKED IN ON ME AND DANA!!!!! http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=567965 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=567773 so shits kinda fucked... im sick of people... and im sick of my emotions i wish i could hate you.. i wish i could get you out of my head i wish you werent all i think about i wish that you would treat me rigth and i wish we coudl be happy together... well last night we went to the BU hockey game it was funnnnnnnnnn http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=567773 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=566782 I saw the stars begin to appear in the night sky, I counted each one and found one which shined brighter than the rest. I closed my eyes and made a wish. My mind rifled through millions of thoughts, and wants until it found my greatest wish. My dreams to become an actress. As I laid in my bed pondering my wish I somehow dosed off. The morning sun peaked into my windows and woke me up. Just another day, and just another wasted wish. I went about my daily routine, ate breakfast, got dressed, and went to school. On my long walk home I thought some more about my dream, and decided maybe I should just give it up. What use was wishing on a star anyways? I arrived at my house to find a package on the front steps. It was addressed to me so I opened it. Inside the box was another box, and inside that another, and another and another. Finally I opened the last box and inside was the business card of a talent agency. Puzzled and excited I ran to my house phone and dialed the number. A young woman answered the phone and explained to me what had been sent to me. They told me that I had been reffered to them by an unidentified source which told them great things of me. After meetings, and many delliborations they asked to fly me to Las Vegas. I packed up everything and left my entire life. I performed in small venues and plays making a substantial amount of money. But it wasn’t enough for me. The hunger for fame and money enveloped all of my thoughts. I found myself lost in my empty home, filled with glorious art, and trivial objects. 3 years had passed from that day, and I’d yet to talk to my family, or any of the loved ones from back home. It was an empty feeling, but still I trucked on to fulfill my dreams. It wasn’t long before a major production company heard my name. flown once again away to a new location. California was different, walking down the streets I felt out of place. I had come from a small town, and ended up in the lonely city of L.A. I didn’t want to be alone anymore. As I walked the boulevard that night, I saw the stars begin to appear in the night sky. I counted each one and found one which shined brighter than the rest. I closed my eyes and made a wish, just like before, but this time I knew exactly what I wanted. I fell asleep that night with such hope, and elevated expectations. The sun peaked into my windows once again and I woke up excited to see what my wish had to bring. But I didn’t find another box, or any other sign. I didn’t find anything, the day after that, or the day after that, or the day after that. It was then that the reality hit me, I had received what I deserved, and felt more alone than ever. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=566782 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=565867 i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu i need youuuu were weirdos together.. i love it and were okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy itll be okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=565867 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=565597 you dont have any worries about where they are or what they feel cuz all that matters is that second when you just laying next to eachother and time just seems to fade off like the rest of the world when your together the house your in could fall and the entire world could be closing in but when you turn to see their face you forget and rember you safe and how hes gonna keep the walls from falling on you even if the walls did come tumbling down it wouldnt matter anyways because what you shared in that second is more precious than any material possession nothing else matters you look around and see all the walls and the world just burning everyone running around crazy with drama and he grabs your hand and walks you through it on a path that has no bumps then you relize your not walkin at all your still in bed hugging its been four hours and hes still there hours which passsed like seconds, trailing off into a dusty bed of memories. eyes heavy, breath steady, hearts beating.. the superficial veil of a world melts away under the blankets. and your eyes closed now, holding tighter to one another you hear nothing except his heart beat with yours beating as one and you feel something greater than any feeling in the world the feeling of knowing your wanted your needed something more powerful than hate, and deeper than lust something that cant be bought or made someting that had to be shared something thats pure and never touched your almost scared its almost too much its overwhelming but you listen, and you flow along with the cadence of the moment like two parts of a song coming together void when played alone, together create music like no other create an emotion running deep within your veins lost in a moment looking in your eyes -- i need your drug to live you need to heal my addiction Loving and the caring for that person that you experience. Their pains become yours, their joys are shared. routine days become void without their smile are empty without their kiss like a drug like i need you to be sane to be normal to feel right you feel not real with out them like your in a movie like everythings just fake and your living your days waiting for them to return to the way they were and every one is on fast forward and you cant keep up your falling down, falling behind, everythings moving forward as you regress your slowing, and the worlds moving faster spinning with no regards to you and you need your drug, you need you toxins to get by like some one has erased only half of you form the paper you look down and you cant see your body cuz he was you taking what they wanted, and leaving bewhind an empty shell washed up on the shore waiting till you gave them everything, to take it all.. and leave you empty handed building you up to let you fall so fast your hurt is seen by all a once hidden fear comes crying all too loudly bleeding through your ears like all the wasted time and all the wasted words all the night with out sleep cryin for him something he'll never even hear a cry heard only to those who have loved and lost those who can embody you, and feel your breaking heart whove tasted the bitter salts of deciet the tempting fireds of desire and the sweet of sudden romance but your too scared to tell them so you put on a mask to hide for a while a day at most so ppl will believe that your fine and can go on your living your days alone, when in a crowd of people trusting no one feeling empty in a room of smiling faces decieving faces the faces blurr, and you cant see very well, you dont know whats real and what youve conceived inside your mind what you want to believe and whats really in front of you you start to trip over your own feet and right when your about to hit the ground his hand grabs you pick you up brush you off and walk away in a haze you wave goobye but as you do some one new, fresh, comes up and grabs his hand the one you once held on to in the rain and he smiles the same way he smiled for you for her and your whole world goes black suddenly he hits the pause button, and holds my breaking heart in his hands im frozen in this moment, and i see an icey stare that hovers over your expression some sort of want some sort of need, if you want to leave then go, what tie holds you back here? something must have called you, something must have tempted you did you see it in her? did you feel it when you kissed her? or did you see my eyes? did you feel my skin when you touched through taste he came back for that moment to let you know that he has moved on and slowly puts your heart back on the ground wet and slowly beating, not normal does he not feel? how could he turn you off like a tv he has to know what feelings you felt and how strong they were your world slows down, then suddening reverses, you watch the words on the screen, seeing your tears played out in movie form.. your rewound back trailing through time, and suddenly its stops. Loving and the caring for that person that you experience. Their pains become yours, their joys are shared. and again i need your drug to live you need to feed my addiction.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=565597 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=563538 everythings down the drain.. i love him... i had the worst night of my life onm saturday... everyone is fake, and i knew it all along.. but i guess i just forgive too easily.. im easily duped.. and im an idiot for even believeing that ppl can change.. we havent seen eachother in going on 3 days and its not that much but from going from being together everyday it sucks.. when all i do is shit i dont wanna be doing and i just think about if hes even thinking of me.. he didnt even call me back today like he said he would.. i wandered around in the rain.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=563538 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=562406 so i havent updated in a long time.. school sucks like i dont think ive ever hated school this much.. but i hate it and i dont wanna be there.. but i decided what i wanna do with my life in a more realistic manner.. ill go to college for production and then produce myself ;-) well i feel so amazed by having what i want.. i love it and i love being with him.. and its all so overwhelming we fight every second but i wouldnt trade it for the world.. i love getting mad at him and then making up 5 seconds later.. ugh... write more later http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=562406 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=560171 well.. scott left for college the 26th.. i havent updated in weeks.. cuz uh nothing really interesting has ben happening.. i guess i am alot happier now.. hm... and uh i guesss thats it.. http://www.woohu.com/readcomment.php?id=560171 Wed, 31 Dec 1969 19:00:00 EST