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love4skate

:: 2008 5 March :: 9.02am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: We're in heaven- cascada

baby you're all that i need.
Tyler didn't call me at all yesterday, but he called me this morning to say I love you. [: Tori's not at school again, so I'm bored as fuck. I don't have much to say.

Have a good day!
-Em.

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love4skate

:: 2008 4 March :: 9.03am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Bittersweet Symphony.

EAPTWB<3
So i'll probably be updating this thing until I graduate, cause I aide 3rd period. So I'll be updating everyday. Today I found out I don't have to come to school next Tuesday, Wednesday, or Thursday. So hopefully Tyler gets out Monday, that would be perfect! So I can spend those 3 days with him. I watched Cruel Intentions for the first time about a week ago. That's my new favorite, It's an amazing movie.

I don't really feel like typing anymore.
Have a good day!

-Em

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love4skate

:: 2008 25 February :: 10.00am
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Boosie

Damn, looking at this is ridiculous. It's been so damn long. I'm a senior now, and graduating in 2 1/2 months. I have a wonderful boyfriend, Tyler William Bauer. I have a best friend Victoria May Cosgrove. My boyfriends in jail at the moment. He went in 2/13/08 and his courtdate is 3/4/08. So hopefully he gets out a couple days after that. But we don't know. My birthday was 2/15/08, 18! Holla! I got some new piercings, Septum, Smiley, and Lip. Tattoo soon, hopefully. I listen to rap more often than anything else. I don't have a job. But I have a car waiting in the garage for me to get a job. I got kicked out of school Last february, and I just got back this year. I love art, hopefully that will be my field in college. But we'll see. I'm hoping Tyler and I stay together for a long time. I really love him, so I hope things go well with him. I'm going crazy with him being in jail. It's a terrible feeling. But I will live.



Everyone have a nice day!



EAPTWB<3



I'll probably never update this again, or even think to look at it.♥

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spacietraci

:: 2006 6 January :: 1.06pm

Nothing week gone, NICKS HOME AGAIN!!! im soo excited about that one, i hate him being in CHICAGO... i feel soo bad that i didnt spend more time with kane while she was home, but its so hard when you have to work 6 days a week and then the day you have free to do something josh takes the day off of work... what the HELL.... SORRY GIRL. i miss you tons though.

What is NEw
JOSH is mad at me, because i told him its rather annoying when he alerts my phones leaves a message calls my work, and then calls my parents wondering what im doing.
GO back to School on tuesday , not really looking forward to that
BEST BUY SUCKS... its not their fault that they dont sell the cd dash kits for there stereos
I still havent gotten my system hook up but i guess thats not anything important to get done.
I have to work all weekend LONG not fUN...

well i gotta get around for work. so im out for now

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spacietraci

:: 2006 3 January :: 11.47am

I HATE LOOKING FOR TEXTBOOKS ONLINE.... but they just save soo much damn money that you can not pass it by....

HOPE everyone had a wonderful CHristmas and NEw Years :)

not a whole lot going on in my life at this time... but not spending enough time with kane while shes home... hopefully thursday we can do soemthing i dont have to work at all that day...

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spacietraci

:: 2005 8 December :: 9.42am

So i guess i was supposed to hang out with kurt last night but i blew him off. so basically ruined are friendship and anything that we may of ever had again, because he told me if i did that again he wasnt going to talk to me anymore and that he was just going to stop trying because it's not worth his time. sooo yes i think i decided that i need to be open and faithful to josh and really work on our relationship. Because honesty there is really nothing wrong between us, i just think at some times i get scared because its the rest of our lives that we are talking about. Kinda scary that is.
Christmas is coming soon, im soooooo excited cause that means KANE IS COMEING HOME!!!! AS WELL AS NIKKI!!!!!! it should be very fun im soo happy i love them to death.....
Anyways i gotta finish my english paper so i dont have to come back to this lovely class but then it kinda sucks because this is my internet time....
Everyone have a wonderful WEEKEND!!!!

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love4skate

:: 2005 7 December :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: everytime I die.

bleh.
I drive tomorrow. And we get to go to Mc Donalds. YAY! Stuff happened today; but I don't really have time to write. I have to leave in a few minutes to go get Stephen. :)

I really like him.
But I love Jordan.

BLEH.

it turns us on to turn you down.

emilypray.

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love4skate

:: 2005 6 December :: 12.13pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: keyboards.

So today; not that exciting. Just the plan regular day. I've decided that I'm not going to speak of Alison anymore. I don't care about her or her life anymore. Or Amberly, Christina, and Eryn. They can die for all I care. But if they don't I don't care about that either. Anyway. I finally told Stephen that "you're a mean face; especially when youre with Carissa. You never talk to me when your with her" "but you were with tim brown." "im glad he was with me so I wouldnt have to walk all by myself" "is that why you were mad yesterday?" "i dont know whatever" *gives me a hug**puts his head on my head* and says "I'm sorry". Little does he know.. I saw what he did to Carissa when I was standing behind them.. I don't think he knew I was there. But I saw he put his arm around her lower back and grabbed her shirt a little bit.. then let go. He does that to me.. but I don't want him doing it to her. I don't know. Angel said if I like him as much as I think I do.. then I should like him for a while. :) But. I don't know. My dad called the cops on me the other night. Yeah. I need a cigarette. Thank god for Lauren. CAN'T WAIT TILL I GET OFF THE BUS TO SMOKE THAT BITCH.

I'm gunna go.

emilypray.

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love4skate

:: 2005 5 December :: 12.35pm
:: Music: There's a read why these tables are numbered honey, you just haven't figured it out yet.

Ok so I just wrote an entry that was nice and long. One of the best entrys ever and the fucking power went out at school.

sorrykids.

Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better, and you can't stand it

And I know, and I know, it just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up.
I've never been so surreptitious, so of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch.

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love4skate

:: 2005 30 November :: 12.10pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: typing.

we real niggas; ya'll hoes.
so carissa is meeting stephen with me after 5th period now. did anyone care to know how i felt about this? apparently not. i mean; its not like i can be all "i dont want you to walk with us." i work with her now and i dont wanna start drama. these past few days have been hell. alison got her friends to call me 4953475 times. so i called her and bitched her out. she bitched me out as well. i wont make myself look big and bad or anything. all she kept saying was fuck and i was like dude chill out. and whatnot. it was kinda funny actually. then on top of that my brother found my pack of cigarettes when i went to tim browns house. i guess they just happened to "fall" out of my purse. but whatever. i took them back. i found them in my moms purse. and she came in and shes like "give 'em to me". and i played it dumb; ofcorse. and i was like "im gunna give them to my friend so she can have them". OHHHH. tim brown burned me a cd with a bunch of cool bands. i only know a few though.
panic! at the disco. (my favorite band of all time.)
blood brothers.
and i dont know the others. i'll find out who they are. theyre really good though. :) thanks to tim. im going to his house after school; my mom doesnt know yet; but i dont care. we're going to tell the bus driver that im his cousin or something. lol. i dont really have anything else to say. and i dont feel like typing anymore.
i love my jordan michael chandler.

emilychandler.♥

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love4skate

:: 2005 29 November :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: kids.

stupid bitches talk shit.
well; today. didnt see stephen. well i did in the morning. and after 5th period. but i only saw him for a few seconds because i had to ask heather for a ride home because i dont wanna ride home with michelle. (i dont know if alison is riding home with her). so yeah. im kinda sad about that. i turned to go to heather and stephen screamed BYE EMILY. and i turned around with a depressed face; and was like bye. :\ but he had carissa to walk with him SO EVERYTHINGS OK. but the hallways were so busy; considering we were leaving the portables and it was raining. so everyone was running for some sort of shelter from the rain. and some of the weird kids were dancing around in it.. thats lame if you ask me. but thats besides the point. i was walking with tim brown today and i screamed out I FUCKING HATE ALISON. for no reason; well the only reason would be because i hate her. but i didnt know she was walking down that hallway. ive never seen her there before. but what was even funnier is that at that moment tim asked me if alison was near by and i looked and she was walking by it was so funny. i cant stress enough how much i hate her. i know we've gotten in our little pity fights.. but she went too far this time. and im always the one to give in. well its different now. i dont think she'll ask me to be friends with her. she can go get a boyfriend on her own this time. i wont be there to help her get some pity dick; fucking slut. i cant stop thinking about everything shes done.. and how bad she makes me look. standing next to her; guys wanna get in her pants. with me guys wanna get to know me better. but thats totally besides the point. from what i've heard from the guys shes done stuff with.. "she sucks; man. i didnt even cum". exact words from a few guys. its so funny. i hope she reads this and thinks about how much i know and how horrible and fucking stupid she was towards me. this is the most dumbest entry i've ever posted before. i sound stupid. i dont sound inteligente at all. and another thing; i feel stupid for wasting my time and writing this about her.. shes not worth the time. but since i have nothing else to do i'll keep talking. lol. all she can do is talk shit. and behind my back might i add. she wont say it to my face. its so funny. and im thinking about being friends with me and alisons mask enemy. alicia. i realized alicia didnt do anything wrong for me to hate her. alicia wasnt the one that had sex with alison's (her best friend of 5 years) boyfriend.. i mean we dont COMPLETLY blame alison.. but freedom of speech. she couldve stopped it. but she didnt. shes..... well..... a slut. i said it to her when she walked by before lunch. she deserves every single thing im giving to her. shes so self centered and she thinks everything is about her; when it isnt. and i know im going to lose alot of friends because of this.. but honestly. I DONT CARE. i did nothing wrong. and for her to go and tell everyone that she broke up with her boyfriend (tim brown) because I (MEE!!!) was ALL over him.. BULLSHIT. tim brown is my best friend in the whole world.. why in the world would i be ALL over him? and you know what's funny... alison knew tim for one night and she was ALL over him at homecoming. (that first night). i dont take back anything i've said; and will say. i dont regret it. she deserves every single thing she's going to get. and another funny thing is.. she doesnt do anything BUT talk shit behind my back.


Alison: go ahead and cry your eyes out. go get sympathy from your pathetic in your life kinda friends. because; you know how to do that.. and personally i wont do it anymore. im not going to give you sympathy because your parents got in an accident. im not going to give you sympathy because you lost one of the best friends youve ever had. i wont give you anything but pity. pity for thinking your better than me. you may be older; skinnier and well i was going to say smarter but we all know im smarter.. so yeah. anyways; but i have such a better everything besides looks compared to you. im not a slut. the most ive done is make out. i would never do anything with my bestfriends boyfriend. EVER. and i would never tell your secrets to other people. i would never let someone take my phone and text you and call you a bitch. i would never say "no wonder people call you a bitch" just because you wanted to know if i was alright. i would never ditch you for another guy. never have and now... i never will.

you fucking bitch; i hope you get backstabbed like you backstabbed me.
FUCK YOU.

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spacietraci

:: 2005 29 November :: 10.41am

Well thanksgiving went alright i guess you could say we went to josh's and then up to muskegon to see my sister and my family. it was very good to see them and everything. I got to see Kane so that was all exciting i cant wait till she comes home for christmas break. and then Nick came home as well b ut his was a secert until he got almost to town so i was soo happy to see him, especially since things werent going so well between josh and i. so he always helps with things like that. I love him to DEATH.

I went to Katelyn's Bday party on saturday it was sooo good to see all of them. they really didnt think that i was going to come so it was a good surprise for them. I love them soo much and MIIISSSS THEM LIKE EVERYTHING.

i've been wondering how things would be right now if things were like they used to be with kurt and i. yes i still wonder all about that. i guess im not over him and i really wonder if i ever will be. is that bad? i guess he will just always be a part of me, that i just cant get rid of. something special i guess.
well class is about over, kane i hope things are getting soo much better for you.. i will talk to u soon... Love ya...

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love4skate

:: 2005 28 November :: 12.29pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: kids.

fuck bitches.
i dont know if alison knows yet or not.. but we're NOT friends. ANYMORE. fuck her. she lies; makes herself look good; and wanting too much attention for my liking. SO FUCK HER. cassi might as well die now; i'm gunna fucking beat that bitch down.

WATCH IT.
kbye.

i love tim brown.

Read more..

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love4skate

:: 2005 28 November :: 9.31am
:: Mood: artistic

I LOVE SHELBER AND TIM BROWN.

TREMENDOUS TRIO; BITCHES.
you jealous.

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spacietraci

:: 2005 22 November :: 5.52pm

so josh threathen to sell my house today because he has decided that i dont care two shits about him and that if i go to muskegon to spend thanksgiving with my sister i minus well be expecting to come home to a empty house with out him and find a for sale sign in the yard.... yeah it was a very interesting afternoon this weekend. i finially told him i feel like i cant do anything by myself and that he is always by my side. and i dont understand any of it. I think he basically just gave up on the whole relationship thing. but who knows anymore. i figured i would just let him blow over and what not. he says hes not staying at the house tonight untill i want him to come back home. but he says i better be at home when he gets out of work. i told him he better call because i will probably be hangin out with courtney since that is what i do on tuesday nights. so i can bet he wont leave tonight.

Kane i know that i need the interenet hopefulllly sooon because it sucks not having it though thats for sure. BUT IM SOO EXCITED THAT UR COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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