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:: 2004 3 August :: 12.27 am
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: ..h0w c0me -->> d12..

. l0ve lyke y0u never benn hurt bef0re .
it was a g00d weekendD .. i guess. MiKE met my parentsz nd they lyke hiim a l0t. then after that 0n satuRdayy, i dr0ppedD hiim 0ff nd me nd eRin went t0 see WHiTE CHiCKS finally! l0l, it was g00dD. we came back t0 my h0use nd t00k sh0tsz which didnt d0 SHiT. talkedD t0 miKe f0r the niight. yeSterdayy, went sh0ppiin wit eRin nd then we went t0 miKe's h0use. eRin b0ught shyt f0r NAUTiCA (( the puppyy's name )) nd then we went back d0wn t0 daVie f0r AJ's partyy thiingy. eRin was madD high cuz miKe g0t her fuckedD upp. it was g00d stuff. she triedD t0 act n0rmal nd she did prettyy g00d .. l0l. then we went back t0 miKe's nd i g0t pissedD 0ff cuz he was s0o fuckedD upp nd alm0st fuckedD upp my car lyke 8oo timesz. we were sp0sedD t0 g0 b0wling but me nd eRin were the 0nlyy 0nesz that were guna actuallyy b0wl which w0ulda benn gayy s0o we didnt. then phiL nd taYja (( phiL's bytch ass h0e ugly trail0r trash gurl )) came 0ver. then chRistina (( uglyy wh0re )) nd redD came. s0o me nd eRin left nd miKe g0t pissedD 0ff. i left cuz he was talkiin sum shyt nd i g0t madD at hiim. then taYja was talkiin sum gayy shyt b0ut me nd eRin. i wantedD t0 hit that bytch s0o badD. s0o me nd eRin left nd went t0 jaCki's. then miKe calledD nd wantedD t0 see me s0o i dr0ve all the wayy t0 findD 0ut he w0uldnt c0me 0utside nd see me s0 i left nd went t0 eRin's f0r the niight nd that was it. t0dayy, we w0ke upp nd went t0 miKe's. then we left t0 g0 t0 w0rk. i was late by lyke 1o minutesz nd i thiink eRin was a little late t00. after w0rk, i went t0 miKe's. saw jaCki nd met patRick, deViin, chRis, nd juStin. then miKe g0t lyke jeal0us 0r sum shyt s0 we left. went t0 get whiite nd it was madD gayy. we went by the place he's tryiin t0 get. it's g0t a living r00m, kitchen, bathr00m nd bedr00m. i lyke it a l0t. i h0pe we can get it. it's $6oo a m0nth th0. we juss talkedD b0ut h0w we relle d0 l0ve each 0ther nd shyt. newh0, i g0tta madD headache s0o imma g0. LATER.

<33 SiSi

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:: 2004 31 July :: 2.07 pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: ..c0nsequenCe -->> inCuBus..

. LiFE iS S00 G00D .
s0o i g0t 0ff yesterdayy. g0t my car back wit it's NEW paintj0b. gettin new tiresz 0n it t0dayy. it is s0o PiMP. miKe was sp0sedD t0 meet the rentsz last niight but he didnt nd my m0m let me see hiim newayy. s0o i spent my niight wit hiim. it was s0o g00d. he g0t a puppyy f0r me. it's a baby german shepherdD .. we thiink. we havent namedD it yet. but it's s0o0o0o cute. we went sh0ppiin f0r it last niight. it was g00dD. t0niight, me nd eRin are g0iin t0 the m0vies nd then stayiin at my h0use but my parentsz wana meet miKe t0niight s0o i have t0 get eRin later nd chyll wit miKe f0r a lil bit. uGh, it's c0nfusin. but last niight, miKe t0ldD that i'm the 0ne he wantsz t0 be wit nd then he saidD it . i l0ve y0u. nd i saidD it back nd i relle am s0o0o0o falliing f0r hiim. it was a g00dD niight. newh0, that's b0ut it. hung 0ut wit jENNY f0r a lil nd hadda g00dD tiime. miKe t0ldD me jENNY is a relle c00l pers0n nd it was c00l. i'm gladD he getsz al0ng wit her. iightyy, im 0utt. LATER.

<33 SiSi

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:: 2004 28 July :: 11.33 am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: ..LaSt s0ng -->> AAR..

. FREE iN *2* DAYYSZ! .
yAy .. i s0o cant wait. but i did learn n0t t0 lie nem0re t0 my parentsz 0r i'll be fuckedD. i saw MiKE 0n m0nDayy f0r lyke 2 sec0ndsz. it was g00dD. but i dunn0, he's intimidatedD by my m0m nd i wish he wasnt nd he saysz i dun understandD nd i d0 but i kn0 my m0m already lykesz wut she hearsz b0ut hiim. i dunn0, but that's benn 0ur biggest thing s0o far. nd he sayysz that he dun wana hurt me nd he wantsz t0 be wit me nd he didnt sayy n0 b0ut n0t meeting them. but fRidayy, my m0m nd my dad are guna g0 0ut t0 eat wit me nd miKe. imma pick hiim upp nd bring hiim there nd then after me nd hiim are guna g0 t0 the m0viesz. i h0pe he g0es. he juss dun want my parentsz t0 see the tatt00 0n his leg nd i dunn0, he's wantsz them t0 lyke hiim which i relle thiink theyy will. but yea, that's b0ut it. cept i br0ught my car t0 MAAC0 yesterdayy nd it's gettin paintedD. jENNY went wit me nd we hadD crazyy funn. l0l .. g00d dayy. my fuckiin NEW $9o straightener br0ke nd it suxx s0o0o badD. newayysz, EdDY calledD me yesterdayy cuz he missesz me but i'm n0t l0siin miKe 0ver hiim. it juss w0nt happen. but i g0tta take a sh0wer. wRite m0re later. xoxo

<33 SiSi

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:: 2004 16 July :: 11.52 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: ..pieCes 0f me -->> aShlee simPs0n..

. juSs thinking .
i feel lyke i've ruinedD my lyfe. i've br0ken all trust between me nd my parentsz. i feel lyke theyy dun care nem0re. lately, i feel lyke miKe is the 0nlyy 0ne wh0 seemsz t0 care. i tell hiim everyything n0w. he kn0wsz m0re b0ut my lyfe then i d0 .. if that's p0ssible? but wen tearsz start r0llin d0wn my cheeksz, he's the first pers0n i call nd wen i tell hiim stuff .. he actuallyy listensz nd he alwayysz kn0wsz wut t0 sayy nd he tellsz me the straight upp truth. it feelsz g00d t0 kn0 that he's n0t 0nlyy my b0yfriiendD but s0me0ne i can talk t0. it was never lyke that wit edDy. me nd miKe tell each 0ther all the little detailsz nd shyt nd it juss g00d t0 kn0 he's there f0r me thru all this. s0o my m0m f0undD 0ut b0ut hiim nd i ran awayy. g0t threatenedD that she w0uldD call the c0psz 0n mike. s0o i came back h0me nd gr0undedD till AUGUST 1. it suxx but she saidD if me nd miKe are still t0gether by that tiime, i'm all0wedD t0 see hiim. which is a g00d thiing if y0u heardD the shyt she was sayiin b0ut hiim bef0re. s0o it's helpiin me t0 get thru this. i'm still thiinking b0ut m0viin 0ut th0. i dunn0, i think i'd have a better relati0nship wit my family if i did. juss thinking. s0o phiL is being super dumb b0ut all this nd he's actiing lyke a fuckiin pussy. but wutever. newayysz, g0tta g0 babysit in a few. i'll write m0re if i can later. xoxo (( oNe ))

<33 SiSi

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:: 2004 9 July :: 5.36 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: ..b0iling p0intsz..

. SuRvEyy .
An X if its true, an _ if its false. add one of your own at the end.

(_) I have never been drunk
(_) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(_) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(_) I never ridden in a taxi
(_) I never have been in love
(_) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(x) I have never cut myself on purpose
(_) I never have been in a fist fight
(_) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I never have been arrested
(_) I never made out with a stranger
(_) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(x) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(x) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(x) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(_) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(_) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never went to a prom
(x) I never bungee jumped
(_) I never have been to a pop concert
(_) I never have dated someone for over a year
(_) I never ate a mango
(x) I never killed anyone before ...or have i...
(x) I never went sailing
(_) I have never had a job
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me.
(x) I never have gone sky diving
(x) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(x) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(x) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(x) I have never been out of the country
(x) I have never made out in a carwash.. sounds fun though
(x) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(_) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(x) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(_) I have never broken a bone.
(x) I have never been able to think of original "I have nevers"
(x) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(x) I have never been whale watching
(x) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
(x) I have never had everything perfectly fine at one time

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:: 2004 8 July :: 1.37 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: ..if i aiNt g0t y0u -->> aLicia keyysz..

. GUESS WH0's BACK?! .
<-- ERiN'S back .. w00t! l0l, i havent seen her yet but me nd miKe are DEF seein her t0m0rr0w. s0o miKe's bdayy was g00d. madD pe0ple were 0ver. phiL, chAz, atHena, chRis, zaCh, m0m0. it was c00l. but miKe made every0ne leave f0r a little bit s0o me nd hiim c0uldD chyll. it was c00l. t0niight we g0t int0 a fiight .. but we're 0ver it n0w. it was my fault cuz i saidD s0methiin but he t00k it lyke i didnt trust hiim which t0tallyy isnt true. i have s0o much respect f0r hiim cuz he's actuallyy waitin till i'm readyy t0 have sex. nd he understandsz the reas0n i dun want t0 n0w isz cuz i will get attatchedD lyke i did wit edDy nd i'm afraidD t0 get hurt again. i'm happyy wit hiim nd i juss want hiim t0 be happyy wit me. nd he t0ldD me he was .. he sw0re 0n us that he was s0 it made me feel better. newh0, sum0ne DEF firedD a gun in fr0nt 0f his h0use yesterdayy .. i was madD scaredD nd he went 0utsiide lyke s0o readyy t0 beat sum0ne's ass nd phiL was 0ver in less than a minute which was straight 0f hiim.

s0o jAX came back yesterdayy .. yAyErZz. havent seen her yet but will DEF see her t0m0rr0w. nd same wit my ERiN. well, nuthiin much t0 sayy relle. juss benn w0rkiin my ass 0ff! damn, t0m0rr0w isz already fuckin thuRsdayy. it's madD crazyyness. i'm 0utt (( oNe ))

<33 shaWna

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:: 2004 6 July :: 12.49 pm
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: ..eRin's v0ice 0n the ph0ne..

. haPpy bDayy miKe .
yay .. t0dayy's my baby's bdayy. s0o t0dayy is the dayy we're supp0sedD t0 fuck .. but i'm 0n my REG .. it sucksz. newh0, i went 0ver there last niight nd we hung 0ut nd juss talkedD. phiL was there wit sum gurl aTheNa .. she's c00l.

s0o the weSt c0aSt was g00d. the first niight, all i member is gettiin relle fuckedD upp. nd the next m0rniin i hadda badD ass headache. satruRdayy, me nd riA b0ught lyke 8oo l0ttery ticketsz nd w0n b0ut $12o. nd then f0r the 4th .. 0mg, s0o fuckedD upp! we were takiin madD teQuiLa sh0tsz nd we met these 2 kidDsz at the beach nd went swimmiing at 2.3o am. nd m0nDayy we headedD h0me nd i g0t t0 see miKe!! l0l, it was great stuff. t0dayy, i g0tta g0 t0 w0rk. jaX getsz back t0niight nd eRin c0mesz back t0m0rr0w! <33 i'm 0utt. (( oNe ))

<33 shaWna

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:: 2004 30 June :: 12.41 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: ..WuT is iT t0 buRn -->> FiNCH..

. L0VE, HATE, LiFE, nd CERTAiN DEATH - ALL iN JUSS 0NE BREATH .
me nd miKe are d0iing great! i've seen hiim everyydayy f0r the past 2 weeksz. nd t0niight isz the last niight t0 see hiim until m0nDayy! but isz 0k cuz maybee n0t seeing each 0ther f0r 4 dayysz will be g00d f0r hiim t0 w0rk shyt 0ut wit phiL nd chAz cuz phiL still lykesz me nd w0nt see miKe until we're n0t t0gether (( which isz gayy cuz phiL hadda a chance t0 be wit me )) but miKe saidD he dun car nd if phiL wantsz t0 be a pussy .. then wutever. nd isz guna be g00dD f0r me t0 be wit my familyy .. even th0 imma miss hiim lyke CRAZYY. aHh, it's guna suck s0o0o badD. but he's calliin METR0 PCS t0dayy s0o he can get his text-messagiing h00kedD upp s0o wen he cant talk .. he can juss sayy cute shyt. l0l, s0o yea, t0niight we're guna g0 d0wn t0 the beach nd juss talk nd shyt. i think it will be madD cute. well, i havent calledD edDy in lyke a m0nth nd he juss s0o happensz t0 call me last niight at 3am nd tell me that he missesz me nd talksz ab0ut h0w he l0vesz me nd wantsz t0 be wit me. i kn0 i sh0ulda t0ld hiim riight there that i have a man .. but i t0ldD hiim i'd thiink b0ut it. n0w, i kn0 f0r a fact .. i'm n0t guna d0 nethiing t0 fuck upp me nd miKe nd i c0uldD findD a milli0n reas0nsz why miKe isz better f0r me .. but - i GET WEAK WEN iT C0MESZ T0 EDDY! but i thiink im juss guna tell edDy straight upp .. the truth. newh0, eRin c0mesz h0me s00n .. YAY . i S00 CANT WAiT!

s0o jAx left yesterdayy f0r NEW Y0RK. it sucksz ass but we hung 0ut the last c0uple 0f dayysz nd alm0st b0ught a puppy! 0h yea, miKe nd me r guna buyy an 0range nd whiite kitten nd isz guna stayy at miKe's place cuz my rentsz w0nt let me have 0ne. he wantsz t0 name it TiGER nd i wana name it CRUSH. but i guess we're juss guna have t0 pick 0ne. l0l. but jAx t0ldD me sum crazyy shyt the 0ther niight. g0d, i wish she never went thru it. i relle hate t0 see her hurtiing s0o badD inside nd i wana make her feel better. but i'm happyy she t0ldD me. nd i'm even m0re happyy we're bec0miin best friendsz again. jeNny nd me went sh0ppiin a c0uple dayysz ag0. she's g0iin 0ut wit sum new kidD aLex. ALEX JACK0FF .. l0l miKe nd jeNny. she hasnt met miKe yet but she's talkedD t0 hiim 0n the ph0ne.

s0o miKe bl0wsz glass nd he t0ld me he's guna make me a glass r0se. h0w incrediblyy cute isz that?! i seen his REEFER pipesz he's bl0wn nd they're baller awesum! l0l, i s0o cant wait f0r the r0se! 0k, i g0tta d0 sum shyt nd get all my cl0thesz washedD bef0re i start packiing. i'll write b0ut my triip wen i get back. HAPPY 4TH 0F JULY every0ne. have a g00dD weekendD! xoxoxo (( oNe ))

<33 shaWna

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:: 2004 27 June :: 12.56 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: ..s0mething c0rp0rate..

. i dun want it t0 happen again .
0k .. s0o me nd miKe are d0iing 0k .. i guess. i dunn0. last niight, we g0t int0 a fiight cuz he wantedD t0 fuck nd i didnt .. yet. nd he was lyke well, im tiredD nd it's tiime f0r y0u t0 g0. nd he was lyke get 0ut nd he kept bytchiin s0o i g0t my shyt nd startedD walkiin t0 my car nd then he gave me a hugg nd he was actiing lyke he wasnt madD nd sayiin he wasnt nd i'm lyke wtf .. y0u t0ldD me y0u w0uldnt keep askiing nd y0u w0uldD wait, but everyydayy .. y0u ask me 0ver nd 0ver. nd i t0ldD hiim b0ut why i dun want t0 riight away cuz 0f the wh0le j0hn carmichael thiing nd he seemedD t0 understandD nd i t0ld hiim i was s0rry nd he was lyke i'm n0t pissedD nd i dunn0. it made me think that this is guna be a sexual relati0nshiip nd i t0ldD hiim that t00 nd he's lyke h0w is it guna be a sexual relti0nship if we havent hadD sex. that's wut it's basedD 0n th0 .. nd juss cuz we havent fuckedD dun mean it's n0t sexual. everyytime i g0 0ver there, we h00k upp nd that's all we d0. i dun want it t0 be lyke that. it will never last if it is. ugh .. shyt is c0nfusiing. imma g0. (( oNe ))

<33 shaWna

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:: 2004 26 June :: 12.32 am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: ..DaRe y0u t0 m0ve -->> sWitChf00t..

. lyke t0dayy never happenedD bef0re .

Basics
Name::shaWna
Age::16
Height::5'3 .. sh0rtyy
Hair Color::bl0nde .. well, dark bl0nde wit highlightsz
Eye Color::veryy blue
School Life
What's your school's mascot?:STA raideRsz
School color(s)?:bLue nd g0ld
G.P.A.?:3.4
Who is your favorite teacher?:mrs. m
What do they teach?:ge0metryy
Is this your favorite class?:yea .. cuz we dun d0 nethiing at all .. is a big j0ke
Internet
Do you use any instant messengers?:yupp
If so, which ones?:AiM
About how many hours a day do you spend online?:i'm alwayysz 0n cuz i have DSL but actually at the c0mp .. lyke 1 t0tal.
Do you have a digital camera?:n0pe
If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?:---
Music
Do you play any instruments?:n0pe
If so, what one(s)?:---
3 Favorite Genres Of Music::punk . r0ck . rap
3 Favorite Bands::D12 . arm0r f0r sLeep . bRandD nEw
Do you go to concerts and/or shows?:yea
What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?:$ 2o.oo
What is the least you've ever spent?:fRee
Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?:suRe
Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?:n0pe
Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?:umm .. n0
Word Association
Blue::water
Camera::friendsz
Boy::immature
Pretty::m0delsz
Pants::0ff
Music::punk
God::g00dD
Sweater::c0ld
Live Journal::w00hu is better
MTV::punK'dD
Labels:
Do you think labels are dumb?:yuhh
Why or why not?:cuz y0u cant judge a pers0n by the wayy theyy l00k
What do people label you as?:a st0ner .. seri0uslyy
How/Why did you get this label?:cuz i hang 0ut wit all the p0theadsz nd c0me t0 sch00l fuckedD upp all the time
Which Is Worse?
Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?:em0ti0nal pain
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?:g00d charl0tte
Being Deaf/Being Blind?:beiing blindD
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?:being b0redD
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?:d0minant leg
Love
Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?:yea .. y0u can l0ve s0me0ne after 2 weeksz but t0 be iN L0VE .. it takesz much l0nger
Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?:i dun think s0o cuz if y0u've never benn l0vedD then y0u dun have t0 feel that h0rrible pain that seemsz t0 take f0rever t0 g0 away ..
Are you romantic?:i can be
Are you in a relationship now?:yeaa .. wit miKe . xo
If so, for how long?:n0t l0ng at all .. 6 dayysz t0dayy
If not, how long have you been single?:bef0re this .. lyke 3 weeksz
Are you a virgin?:n0pe
What song describes your love life right now?:i miss y0u -- incubus
Randomosity
War: Good or Bad?:can be b0th .. g00d by pr0tectiing us // badD by all the dyiing pe0ple
What do you think of designer labels?:i l0ve them .. LV baby!
Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?:bRitneyy spearsz .. i think paRis hiLt0n is awes0me!
What is it with guys and cars?:i dunn0 .. but isz h0tt. t0wer sh0psz .. l0l
Do you sing?:in the sh0wer
If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?:i cant sing that g00d.
Kiss or hug?:kisses
What color is your room?:pink . purple . babyy blue
How old is your mom?:47 .. ?
Black and white or color photos?:black nd whiite
Who cuts your hair?:Debra .. my hairdresser
What color is your toothbrush?:green wit TAZ 0n it
What color is your hair brush?:black nd grey
What kind of hair products do you use?:herbal essences . bi0silk . rave
Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?:n0 .. but i lyke walmart wayy better
Are you sXe?:y0u tell me ..
Are you sexy?:am i ??
What color to people tells you looks nice on you?:blue .. it bringsz 0ut my eyesz
What color do you think looks nice on you?:blue
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?:DEF cl0thesz
Who do you sit with at lunch?
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?:n0 wayy
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?:edDy .. i l0ve c0untryy accentsz!
What is the website for one of your favorite bands?:.. i0n0
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?:0lder .. every0ne else is immature
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?:yupp
Who was the last person you hung out with?:miKe <33
What did you and that person do?:umm .. cuddledD, talkedD, h00kedD upp
Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?:yupp
How often do you bathe?:everyy dayy t0 everyy 0ther dayy
Are you a people-pleaser?:i think s0o
Do you dye your hair regularly?:every 3 m0nthsz f0r highlightsz
What about your eyebrows?:every 6 m0nthsz
Do you wear makeup?:yupp
If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?:yes i am
Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?:un - editedD
Can you beatbox?:n0pe
Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?:n0 .. nd i hate it even m0re! l0l

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