2004 25 June :: 11.07 am
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: ..kiNd 0f peRfeCt -->> aRm0r f0r sLeep..
. caN i juSs be s0methiing, s0mewheRe in y0ur r00m .
well, same 0ldD shyt. i've g0ne 0ver miKe's h0use twiice a dayy f0r the past 5 dayysz .. bef0re nd after w0rk. we've hadda l0tta talksz. i g0t madD scaredD. see, this kidD naCh0 g0t hiim in al0tta tr0uble wit the c0psz lyke a c0uple yearsz back nd then he saw naCh0 lyke tueSdayy nd he wantedD t0 fiight hiim. s0o n0w everyy niight, naCh0 will drive by nd juss layy 0n his h0rn in fr0nt 0f miKe's place nd i'm s0o scaredD s0methiing is guna happen .. nd n0t f0r the fact he's guna get hurt, but that he's guna get in tr0uble. cuz he's g0t madD gunsz nd i kn0 if ne0ne triesz t0 fuck wit hiim .. he'll sh00t them in a heartbeat .. but i dun want hiim t0 g0 all crazyy cuz then he'll endD upp in jail. it scaresz the shyt 0utta me. 0mg, last niight was s0o funny. phiL calledD miKe's ph0ne fuckedD upp 0ff his ass nd h0ly shyt .. he was beiin s0o crazy .. he was lyke fr0m n0w 0n, i'm glider guyy - hangiin 1o in maui. l0l, i was lyke wut the fuck phiL. it was great shyt. i c0uldn't st0p laughiing. damn, next weekendD imma miss hiim s0o much cuz i'm g0iin t0 napLes f0r 4 dayys nd he's haviing a partyy .. i wish i c0uldD be here f0r it nd his bdayy is the 6th. But i'll be back the 5th s0o i get t0 see hiim 0n his bdayy .. s0o it's all g00dD. nd then eRin gets back the 7th!! yAyErSz.
i relle h0pe me nd miKe w0rk 0ut. i'm startiing t0 relle lyke hiim n0w. he makesz me smile .. all the tiime. nd wen i'm wit hiim .. i'm s0o happy. y0u kn0, i havent sm0kedD weed in lyke 4 dayysz. i d0 it cuz it makesz me happy .. but it c0uld NEVER make me this happyy. i want hiim t0 quit everythiing (( cept weedD )) th0. cuz i wana make hiim happy lyke he's makiin me s0o he dun have t0 d0 barsz 0r c0ke 0r X n0 m0re. i thiink i can d0 it. =]
s0o juss waitiin f0r hiim 0r eRin t0 call. i'm stayiin at his h0use t0niight. his m0m is the fuckiin BEST! she's guna lie t0 my m0mmy nd pretendD t0 be jaX's m0m 0r sumthiin. this is great nd miKe t0ldD me she relle lykesz me. everyytiime i c0me 0ver, she givesz me a huge hug nd she's juss super nice. l0l, iighty .. imma g0. Later ----- (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 22 June :: 12.45 pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: ..sLow m0ti0n -->> juVi..
. miKe <33 .
s0o me nd miKe startedD g0iin 0ut last niight. i'm happy .. he's happy .. that's all that matters riight?! newh0, i went 0ver there bef0re w0rk nd after w0rk. wen i finally saidD yess after w0rk .. we startedD t0 talk b0ut wut he expectedD in a gurl nd wut i expectedD in a guyy. 0ne 0f the thiingsz he saidD which was s0o cute was that he was lyke .. 0ne thing i relle want is y0u t0 be my best friendD. i wana be able t0 trust y0u wit my wh0le heart nd tell y0u everythiing kn0iin it will stayy between uss nd i want y0u t0 be able t0 d0 the same wit me. wen y0ur haviing a pr0blem, i want y0u t0 c0me t0 me nd cryy 0n my sh0ulder. i've never hadda best friendD lyke that .. i th0ught i did but then theyy startedD talkiin shyt. <-- it was cute. it made me happy nd that's wut i wana be f0r hiim. he saidD he's happy that i saidD yes. we talkedD b0ut respect, trust, l0yalty, cuttiin d0wn 0n drugsz, shyt lyke that. it was g00d. s0methiing crazyy is i've seen hiim lyke everyy sec0ndD i c0uld siince thuRsdayy niight nd i'm n0t guna see hiim t0niight nd i already miss hiim. Nd me nd edDy never saw each 0ther nd i miss hiim as much as i miss edDy nd i juss saw hiim last niight. aww .. it's cute. newh0, chAz calledD eRin last niight nd eRin hadda t0 pretendD that she dun kn0 b0ut his gurl but chAz startedD talkiin shyt b0ut miKe nd h0w he dun wana hang 0ut wit hiim n0 m0re cuz he's a druggiie nd i t0ld miKe cuz i th0ught it was fuckedD upp .. s0o we went t0 chAz's nd he was lyke i swear t0 g0d imma break his jaw but chAz w0uldnt c0me 0ut cuz he was scaredD 0r sum shyt. s0o we went back t0 his h0use nd juss hung 0ut nd talkedD. then i left t0 get jaX fr0m aLex's but she s0ldD me 0ut. yeaa .. gayy shyt. iighty, i'm g0ne. xox (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 21 June :: 12.49 am
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: ..ranDom shyt..
. m0re dRama shyt .
0k .. s0o i went 0ver miKe's h0use t0niight. f0undD 0ut fuckiin chAz's ass has a gurl that he's benn wit f0r 4 yearsz nd she livesz wit hiim! h0w the fuck was he guna try nd pull that shyt 0ff?! w0w, wut a dumbass. s0o miKe t0ld eRin cuzs he didnt want her t0 get hurt nd n0w she kn0wsz why i was s0o madD at her wen she didnt tell me riight awayy. phiL isz tryiing t0 h00k upp wit eRin n0w. miKe t0ld me that everythiing he's benn sayiin ab0ut me has benn true nd c0me fr0m his heart nd n0t juss sayiing cuz he wantsz t0 get in my pantsz nd he saidD he w0uldD pr0ve it t0 me by waiting till i'm readyy t0 fuck. it's niice t0 kn0 he respectsz me. he t0ldD me he's waitiing f0r my answer still 0n g0iing 0ut wit hiim. i'm guna tell hiim yess .. wen i see hiim t0m0rr0w 0r wen i chyll wit hiim thuRsdayy. but yea, i relle think this will be g00d f0r me t0 be wit hiim nd eRin nd jaX b0th want me t0 be wit hiim. newayysz, we h00kedD upp lyke we did last niight nd it was AMAZiNG. w0w .. crazyyness .. l0l. We dun everyythiing but fuck nd imma wait 0n that 0ne .. f0r the fiirst tiime. but sidesz that chAz nd phiL are stupidD thiinkiing they're guna playy me nd eRin. 0utta all 0f them .. me nd eRin b0th trust miKe riight n0w. he tellsz thiingsz exactlyy h0w he feelsz .. lyke i d0 .. isz g00d shyt. yea, i'm startiing t0 lyke hiim .. yAy! 0k .. tiredD n0w .. l0ng niight. xox
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 19 June :: 12.34 am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: ..0n ndD oN -->> eAm0n..
. w0w..crazyy c0uple 0f dayysz! .
damn, d0 i have a fuckiin wh0le l0tta shyt t0 sayy .. this isz guna be the l0ngest j0urnal entry ever. 0k, let's start wit thuRsdayy. g0t 0ff w0rk at 6 pm cuz the niight ladyy didnt c0me in. went t0 jaX'z h0use nd sm0kedD wit her br0. then we were guna g0 t0 the m0viesz but we wantedD t0 chyll wit pe0ple s0o i was lyke .. let's chyll wit this kidD miKe (( phiL nd chAz's h0meb0yy )). s0o we went 0ver there nd phiL was there. i felt wierd nd jaX knew it s0 she was lyke i want y0u t0 meet my b0yfriiendD aLex. s0o we left cuz i wantedD t0 meet hiim newayysz nd he 0nly livesz lyke 5 miinutesz away fr0m miKe. s0o we went t0 aLex's h0use nd w0w, he's an awesumm kidD. me nd hiim are pretty straight friendsz n0w. then we went t0 b0nefiish (( her 0ld j0b )) nd chylledD wit p0tter, hannah - yuCk!, nd sum 0ther awesumm kidDs. then we went back t0 miKe's nd jaX was drunk 0ff her ass nd she was talkiin b0ut fuckiin her b0yfriendD t0 me nd miKe. then me nd jaX left nd went t0 her h0use nd passedD 0ut. fRidayy, w0ke upp nd cashedD 0ur checksz, went sh0ppiing nd then hung 0ut at aLex's f0r a c0uple h0ursz. then luChi wantedD t0 chyll. s0o we were 0n 0ur wayy 0ver there nd aLex texts jaX sayiin he's guna g0 chyll wit haNnah which isnt c00l cuz haNnah wantsz t0 fuck hiim 0r sum shyt. s0o jaX wantedD t0 g0 t0 haNnah's t0 bytch hiim nd her 0ut s0o i went 0ver there nd thiingsz g0t fuckedD upp. jaX g0t s0o pissedD that she punchedD a liight p0st nd br0ke 2 of her fiingersz. s0o insteadD 0f g0iin t0 the h0spital .. she wantedD t0 g0 t0 miKe's .. l0l that's g00d stuff. then she hadda g0 h0me s0o she c0uldD tell her parentsz wut happenedD. s0o i went t0 miKe's nd s0o much happenedD. he t0ld me he relle lykedD me nd he saidD that i'm s0o h0tt that wen he l00ksz at me he c0uldD jerk 0ff nd fantasiize b0ut me. l0l, he was drunk .. nd s0 was i. l0l, then we made0ut nd he fingeredD me nd i suckedD hiis dick. it was a g00d niight last niight. i left at 12.3o am nd went t0 riA's f0r the niight cuz i hadda get my car fixedD this m0rniing. s0o we w0ke upp nd i g0t my car fixedD! i g0t a wh0le new fr0nt end. it's awesumm shyt. it juss has t0 be paiintedD nd he has t0 straighten the framew0rk 0r sum shyt s0o wen the wh0le fam leavesz f0r the h0use we rentedD iin napLesz f0r 5 dayy 0n 4th 0f juLy weekend (( guna be crazyy! )), the guyy is guna take my car back nd fix it upp nd take it t0 hiis friendD t0 get it paintedD. yAyErSz!! i s0o can't wait. s0 while i was waitiin f0r my car which t00k 6 h0ursz, i watchedD lil' anDy nd then my sis nd anDy came h0me nd we all went 0ut t0 dinner. it was wierdD wit juss the 4 0f us. s0o t0niight .. went t0 jaX's nd gave her sum shyt she left it my car then we hung 0ut wit daN baRt0n, chRistian, nd sum 0ther kidD. sm0kedD a blunt (( shiitty 0ne )) nd juss chylledD. then i left nd went 0ver miKe's. phiL came 0ver while i was there (( he's beiin s0o gayy! )) nd he was all barredD upp nd he wantedD t0 g0 t0 bL0ckbuSter s0 me, hiim nd miKe went nd we g0t kiLL biLL cuz i relle wantedD miKe t0 see it nd Lord 0f the riingsz. s0o we g0t back t0 miKe's h0use nd he's lyke phiL y0u sh0uldD g0 .. nd shyt. nd phiL g0t pissedD cuz he saidD it's fuckedD upp h0w i'm hangiin 0ut wit miKe nd all this shyt nd then he walkedD 0ut nd me nd miKe startedD t0 watch kiLL biLL but h0nestlyy, we didnt watch n0t 0ne minute 0f that m0vie .. l0l. he fingeredD me nd ate me 0ut nd shyt. then he did sum freakyy shyt which felt damn g00d. l0l, nd i t0ldD hiim he made me wet nd he went fuckiin crazyy nd alm0st bustedD. l0l, then he was juss talkiin b0ut h0w he wantsz me s0o badD nd then .. he askedD me 0ut. nd me, the gurl wh0 wantedD sum0ne s0o badD, t0ld hiim i juss wantedD t0 be friendDsz but we c0uldD still h00k upp nd i th0ught that w0uldD make hiim happy but he was lyke .. n0, i want y0u all t0 myself. i wana be wit y0u. nd he juss kept sayiin shyt lyke that nd then eRin calledD nd we were switchiin the f0ne fr0m me t0 hiim s0 she c0uld talk t0 b0th 0f us nd wen i g0t it 0ne tiime he was fuckiin wit me s0o badD. l0l, nd then he startedD m0aniin in the f0ne nd he hung upp 0n her. l0l, we came s0o cl0se t0 fuckiin but i hadda be h0me at 11.3o nd since he livesz in p0mpan0 i hadda leave at 11.15 nd it was already lyke 11.o5 0r sumthiin nd i didnt wana quickiie .. l0l, i want it t0 be g00d. nd the funniest part is wen he was walkiin me 0ut t0 his car .. there was lyke sum 13 or 14 year 0ld gurl wit her her friendD nd he was lyke y0u wana sh0w them wut theyy can l00k f0rwardD t0. l0l nd he pickedD me upp nd put me in the bedD 0f his truck nd was hardc0re makiing 0ut wit me nd he was lyke m0an s0o i did nd the little gurlsz were juss stariing at us .. it was funny as fuck. nd he t0ld me that 0ne 0f them livesz a c0uple h0uses d0wn nd has benn in l0ve wit hiim since he was lyke 13 nd she w0uldD lyke c0me t0 his d00r nd ask f0r hiim .. l0l, it was funny stuff. yea, s0o then i left nd he saidD he wantsz t0 hang 0ut t0m0rr0w niight s0o imma try t0 g0 0ver there t0m0rr0w.
but yea, summ crazyy weekendD nd it aiint 0ver yet! l0l, my feeliingsz f0r miKe are wierdD. he's fuckiin h0tt as hell nd awesum at everythiing else .. haha .. but i juss dun want ne0ne riight n0w but i'd l0ve t0 juss be friendDsz --wit benefiitsz-- f0r n0w. i dunn0, he t0ldD me t0 thiink b0ut it nd let hiim kn0 if my mindD changesz. newh0, i'm juss guna have t0 thiink ab0ut it. l0l, s0rry f0r readiing my st0riesz b0ut fuckiin wit miKe but heyy, y0u readD the shyt. l0l cant wait f0r t0m0rr0w niight.
... f0rg0t t0 save this nd i juss g0t 0ff the f0ne wit eRin. she pretty much calledD me a slut but in an indirect kinda wayy ..? maybe i am .. i wish i c0uld be lyke her nd wait f0r the riight pers0n .. i mean, i kn0 imma fuck hiim nd he'll be the 3rd pers0n alreadyy .. it's crazyy. ugh, i dunn0 .. n0w i feel lyke a disgustiing pers0n. newh0, tiredD as fuck s0o i'm g0iin t0 bedD. niight. (( oNe )) --> i l0ve y0u jaX!! x0x
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 17 June :: 1.28 pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: ..311 cdD..
. thiNkiing thiinGs 0ver nd 0ver aGaiin .
0mg, wen will all this drama END! i swear 0nce 0ne thiing is fiine, s0methiin else gets fuckedD upp. last niite, edDy t0ldD me he l0ved me nd me nd jaX are gettiin t0 be g00d friendsz again. s0o i wake upp this m0rniin nd phiL c0mes int0 me nd eRin's c0nv0. nd n0w we're fightiin again .. whiile she's 1ooo milesz away in iNDiANA. i hate her friendD haiLee .. she's is a tw0-facedD bytch .. she h00kedD upp wit phiL nd i fuckiin cant standD her ass. UGH!! nuthiin will ever w0rk 0ut riight. this week has benn 0kay. w0rkiin nd then d0iin shyt after w0rk .. chyllen wit riA nd jeNny. t0niight after w0rk, i'm stayiin 0ver jaX's h0use nd then we're g0iin sh0ppiin fRidayy. i h0pe it takesz my miind 0ff all this shyt .. i fuckiin hate drama! newh0, weiNer thiinks i'm stupidD f0r bec0miin jaX's friiendD again but 0utta all my friends .. she is 0ne that was ALWAYS there f0r me nd alwayys knew wut t0 d0. Wen i g0t int0 all that shyt in SEBASTiAN, jaX was 0n the ph0ne wit me 24.7 nd telliin her dad that theyy neededD t0 c0me get me cuz i was scaredD t0 shyt .. whiile eRin was gettiin drunk 0ff her ass wit fRanKie nd juStin. see, little shyt lyke that is wut makes me thiink eRin d0nt care. h0nestlyy, if i was her, i w0uld t0ld haiLee it was bytch wut she was d0iing .. but n0, eRin acts lyke it's fiine cuz she g0t everythiing she ever wantedD .. chAz. Nd she sayys h0w she dun wana get in the middle 0f it .. but she listens t0 haiLee explain t0 her h0w awesum phiL is .. that's gettin in the middle riight there. g0d, the 0nlyy 0ne that understandsz riight n0w is jaX .. thank g0d we're gettiin t0 be best friends again .. i miss telliing her everythiing .. i l0ve her s0o much .. l0l, she the greatest! nd i'm s0o happy f0r her nd aLex .. they're madD cute t0gether. y d0es he have t0 g0 t0 c0llege 0utta s0uth fL0rida. it suxx .. everyy l0ng distance relati0nshiip d0es but i think she can get thr0ugh it. <33 0kay, i feel a little bit better. Later h0esz. (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 12 June :: 11.22 am
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: ..i miSs y0u -->> inCuBuS..
. n0 m0re dRama! .
Thank g0d all the drama between every0ne nd their m0m these last few daysz isz 0VER. I wasnt guna g0 0ut t0 dinner wit eRin last niight juss t0 make her madD .. but i did nd we talkedD b0ut al0tta shyt. I juss dun care b0ut phiL nem0re .. fuck hiim. chAz isz awesum as hell nd that's wut i care b0ut. After dinner, we went t0 T0WERSZ nd i saw amBer ch0pski nd i g0t t0 meet her h0tt new man. l0l, they're cute t0gether. Then we juss chylledD back at eRin's h0use nd she t0ld me i c0uld readD her j0urnal .. the 0ne 0n paper .. isz relle pers0nal nd shyt. Nd w0w, i never knew she caredD s0o much ab0ut me. It made me cry nd wen i readD the 0ne ab0ut h0w much she l00ksz upp t0 my m0m nd h0w she wishesz she c0uld be apart 0f such a great family .. it was juss such an em0tional part 0f last niight. I'm s0o happy i g0t t0 see h0w she relle felt .. it sh0wedD me she relle d0es care. Newh0 .. t0niight, i'm g0iing 0ut wit jeNny. l0l, yesterdayy we went t0 weSt paLm nd t00k A1A all the wayy back .. it t00k lyke an h0ur nd a half .. but we g0t t0 see all the h0ttiesz at the beach .. w00t! Then i talkedD t0 jaX nd she startedD cryiin cuz she miissesz me s0o we're chyllen 0n sunDayy .. ALL DAYY. l0l, nd then m0ndayy .. 8 h0ur shiift!! 0 wellsz, i'm g0ne 0utta herre. Later st0nersz. (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 11 June :: 9.07 am
:: Mood: hungover
:: Music: ..heYy n0w -->> Pp..
i wAnna get sum BUdD! .
Last niight was straight. cLipper partyy g0t b0rken upp .. fuckiin suckedD. Soo i didnt kn0w wut t0 d0 nd the c0psz were f0rciin pe0ple t0 help clean upp .. s0o i left. I was driviin h0me nd my sis calledD nd she's lyke c0me 0ver .. we g0t madD weed nd driinksz .. s0o i went 0ver there nd guess wh0 was there .. B0BBY! 0mg, i was s0o happy t0 see hiim. We g0t fuckedD upp lyke crazyy .. nd that'sz the reas0n why i'm h0me s0o early .. i never slept. It was such a g00d niight .. nd i relle neededD t0 get all this anger 0ff fr0m the last c0uple dayysz .. shyt still aint the same but eRin's j0urnal will pretty much tell y0u wut's g0iin 0n (( link is in the prev. 2 entries )). Sides that, summer startedD! g0t examsz 0utta the wayy. t00k sum pix wit niCk, chRistie, taRa, sc0tt, yaNNi!!, c0LLin, keL, jaX, madD pe0ple .. nd a special 0ne 0f me nd mr. weiner! It was g00d. Soo t0dayy i g0tta g0 t0 weSt paLm bCh nd pick upp my new straightener! t0niight, i think? i'm g0iin wit eRin nd her fam t0 the dinner thiing bef0re she leavesz .. i dunn0, it dependsz 0n if we're fightiin 0r n0t. Newh0, nuthiin relle cept i havent felt this g00d till last niight in a l0ng tiime .. is niice t0 kn0 my sis caresz. l0l, ilu s0o much. Nd w0w, has b0bby g0tten h0tter. My sis t00k sum pixx 0f hiim nd andDy, hiim nd me, s0o imma try t0 steal sum. l0l, iighty, i'm 0ut. o yea, i g0tta w0rk an 8 h0ur shift m0nDay .. this fuckiin suck ass! Heyy, m0re m0ney th0. (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 7 June :: 9.49 pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: ..pUnk'dD..
. FuCk l0vE .
s0o, i'm 0ver tryiin t0 have s0me0ne t0 l0ve me. Saturdayy was t0tal crazyness. Me, eRin, chAz, nd phiL went t0 m0m0'sz h0use! Funn asz hell .. caLic0 g0t fuckedD upp lyke a m0fuck! G0t fuckedD upp 0ff my ass nd phiL decidedD t0 fuckiin leave me nd g0 t0 sleep s0o i hadda watch eRin nd chAz make0ut nd then i went t0 miKe'sz. phiL g0t pissedD but fuck it. Last niite .. edDy calledD me. Fiirst tiime in lyke a m0nth. I went 0ff 0n hiim s0o badD. Was a t0tal bytch nd i saidD s0rry t0 hiim t0dayy. But he saidD he l0vedD me nd i was lyke dun sayy it if y0u dun mean it. He was lyke fuck y0u then .. thatsz sum fuckedD upp shyt .. blah blah. Nd i was lyke i'm n0t fuckiin ar0undD .. i'm beiin seri0us. He g0t all pissedD nd hung upp lyke 8 tiimesz nd kept calliin me back. Then i t0ld hiim i wantedD t0 g0 t0 bedD nd he said ' ilu ' but i didnt sayy it back nd juss went t0 sleep. TalkedD t0 hiim a little while ag0 .. sp0sedD t0 talk t0 hiim later t0niite .. w0nt happen. Newh0, yesterdayy .. i was relle pissedD nd i wr0te in my livej0urnal f0r sum reas0n instead 0f here .. thisz is wut i wr0te ::
i fuckiin hate my lyfe. i hate h0w 0ne m0ment i'm happy nd the next i'm cryiin my eyesz 0ut. i hate h0w nuthiin ever w0rksz 0ut f0r me wen every0ne else is happy. i hate h0w it takesz s0o much f0r me t0 trust a pers0n nd then theyy let me d0wn. i hate h0w i can never fiind the riight guyy nd wen i relle lyke s0me0ne, i get let d0wn. i hate beiin a bytch nd l0siin friendsz, i hate beiin a fuckiin p0thead .. nd beiin kn0wn f0r juss that. i hate gettiin pissedD 0ver stupidD thingsz. i hate the pers0n i am, insiide nd 0ut. i hate everythiing ab0ut myself nd i miss the daysz wen the w0rst thiing that c0uld happen t0 y0u was y0u fall nd get a cut. i hate feeliin s0o hurt 0n the inside. i hate this s0o much. i juss wish i c0uld have a n0rmal lyfe f0r 0nce nd stayy happy f0r m0re than juss a day. i cant stand this nem0re. i juss wanna leave this place nd never c0me back .. start a new lyfe sumwhere, where n0 0ne kn0wsz my past nd i can start all 0ver again nd leave everythiing behindD. N0thing is here f0r me nuthiin at all. I dun even kn0 why i'm writin this in here cuz it startedD as sum stupidD j0urnal nd i'm actually writiin h0w i feel. Lyfe fuckiin sux nd i dun wana live it n0 m0re. I'm g0iin t0 bedD.
Newayysz, t0dayy has fuckiin suckedD. g0t sum shiitty gradesz in my classesz nd then sum0ne fuckiin st0le my wiper bladesz. there'sz 0nly 0ne thiing that will make me feel better .. but i w0nt sayy it. Later babesz. (( oNe ))
W a N t . a . K i S s ?
2004 3 June :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: ..b0neR'sz miiX..
. 5 dayyz -- TiLL SUMMER! .
5 dayysz nd i aiint even that excitedD. newh0, i'm n0t relle iin that much tr0uble cuz 0f last sunDayy but wutever. chAz nd eRin are gunna g0 0ut .. he'sz gunna ask her 0ut .. i'm lyke 110% sure! l0l, juss benn w0rkiin. i t00k next weDnesdayy 0ff fr0m w0rk t0 g0 t0 the beach wit LiTa, kaTie, nd jeNny .. gunna be funn. Thisz weekendD will be super funn. fRidayy, aLex aBauL'z partyy nd t0weRsz wit jeNny. satuRdayy, g0iin t0 weSt paLm wit jeNny. satuRdayy niite, eRin's m0m's h0use .. cuz she livesz riight by chAz nd phiL. s0o me nd eRin are chyllen wit them. sunDayy, me nd eRin are gunna tan nd sunDayy niite .. SHREK 2 wit CEFALi!! l0l, cant waiit. g00d stuff. sch00l is bec0miin fuckiin DRAMA w0rldD. Pe0ple relle needD t0 st0p talkiin s0o much shyt! Nd i saw an EDDY twiin after w0rk t0dayy .. nd he gave me hiis number .. cept i missedD the last 2 numbersz s0o i cant call hiim n0w .. but DEF a h0ttiie .. l0l, i keep thiinkiin b0ut hiim .. Nuthiin else relle .. 0h yea, i have a LiVEJ0URNAL t00 cuz eRin has 0ne .. but i'm n0t guna wriite in it a l0t.
Iighty, DEF tiredD as fuck s0o i'm 0ut. I get payyedD t0m0rr0w. w00t! Nd Rey Pedraza .. such a h0ttiie .. l0l, h0ttest guyy at my j0b .. nd sweetest t00. g0tta l0ve hiim! <33 (( oNe ))
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2004 31 May :: 10.28 am
:: Mood: upset
:: Music: ..n0ne..
. c0uLdD laSt niiTe be aNy w0rse?! .
0k s0 i t0ld my m0m that me nd eRin we're g0iin t0 niCk'z partyy wen we were relle g0iin t0 phiL'z. Well, phiL nd chAz were 0ut all niite nd dayy the niight bef0re s0o we let them sleep nd then we were guna c0me 0ver nd g0 t0 sum partyy. We hadD nuthiin t0 d0 f0r lyke an h0ur s0o decidedD t0 g0 t0 riA'z h0use .. it was all straight till we left.. My m0m calledD my sis nd the babyy pickedD upp the ph0ne nd said that eRin nd shaWna hadD juss benn 0ver there. Well, my m0m fuckiin went crazyy .. she calledD me nd was bytchiin me 0ut nd telliin me t0 c0me h0me. So0o we startedD 0n 0ur wayy h0me nd i n0ticedD that sum guyy was f0ll0wiin me. I g0t 0ff the highway, he g0t 0ff the highwayy..i turnedD, he turnedD. I calledD my m0m nd t0ld her wut was takiin s0o l0ng but she didn't believe me. So0o i hadda g0 h0me .. the car f0ll0wedD me right t0 my fr0nt d00r nd then juss left .. scariest thiing ever. I g0t h0me nd i g0t bytchedD 0ut badD nd n0w i'm gr0undedD f0rever nd my parentsz dun trust me at ALL. Lyfe suxx s0o badD. My parentsz w0nt even speak t0 me .. i hate beiin here .. i wana leave s0o0o badD. Newh0, yea .. that was my niite .. great. Saturdayy, me nd eRin saw a m0vie then went by the beach .. didn't get h0me till 1.3o am .. rentsz didn't care. g0tta g0 .. lyfe DEF suxx. (( oNe ))
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