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goodbye

:: 2019 20 July :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: No one cares how I feel

My faith in people will be my downfall. I don't know why I have so much hope for others to love me as much as I love them - friends - partners - this is why I haven't gotten close to anyone else in a while. This is why I don't let my guard down anymore. People want different things than you do - whether that means time spent together, affection, humor, closeness, goals - whatever it is, I always pick wrong; I always hope for more.

I don't know what I'm expected to do anymore. If you try so hard for so long and you're let down time and time again, how are you supposed to be expected to be calm and cool and collected? How are you supposed to assume the best any longer?

All the red flags just pass me by with my rose-colored glasses. They are all unique, beautiful people that will eventually come around. Time has shown that's not the case and people will continue to disappoint me and I will continue to love them just as I always have.

I'm so fucking weak.

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spud

:: 2019 15 July :: 2.45pm

recorded on 7.10.19
POD 20

In which I am joined by Nick and Sam. Nick wrote the songs. Sam is an open mic legend here in Grand Rapids.

We were rehearsing for a gig at Mulligans Pub; an establishment whose threshold I had not darkened in nearly a decade. It hasn't changed at all.

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spud

:: 2019 10 July :: 10.25am

Recorded on 7.5.19
POD 19

In which I am joined by Eliot. He wants to start a 90s cover band, but neither of us sing. The set list is epic ... if we can ever learn all the songs. Or find a vocalist.

Links to stuff we mentioned:







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spud

:: 2019 5 July :: 11.30pm

PART 2
POD 18.2

In which I am joined by Doyel and Jaclyn. They JUST GOT ENGAGED! Also, Jaclyn and I are nerds, but Doyel doesn't care.

Links to stuff we mentioned:







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spud

:: 2019 26 June :: 6.13pm
:: Music: (part 1 of 2)

Recorded on 6.24.19

POD 18.1

In which I am joined by Doyel and Jaclyn. They are rad, and fun, and you should probably just be friends with them already.

Links to stuff we mentioned:


LILLY THE KILLING MACHINE




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goodbye

:: 2019 30 May :: 9.40pm

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spud

:: 2019 24 May :: 11.15am

Recorded on 5.22.19
POD 17

In which I am serenaded by Alec.

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spud

:: 2019 18 May :: 1.23pm

looks like it's time for
yet another DRUM BREAK!

I happened across an old recording of this drum pattern I'd written for basement audio lab. It was a crappy demo version consisting of me tapping on my legs and kicking the mic stand. It was virtually unlistenable, with a horrendous click track going in the background. I was surprised to find the pattern came much more naturally to me this time around, and the click was not necessary. I just wanted to make a better recording of the part for future reference. I don't know what prog rock band I'm going to join someday that will have a need for a part in 7/8 time, but you never know. When the time comes, I guess I'll have this to contribute.

Doing fills in 7 is hard. It's not a natural thing to feel when you were raised on groups of 2 and 4. Most people understand 3, I guess. Waltzes and such. Sometimes you'll hear radio stuff in 6 (which is really just 2 groups of 3, or 3 groups of 2, depending). 5 and 7 are a lot trickier, since you're mashing a 2 and a 3, or a 4 and a 3, or 2 twos and a 3 together at once. Makes it harder to find the downbeat. Actually, what I really like to do is carry it over 2 measures, then the "down" beat becomes the "up" beat for the second measure, before it turns back around again.

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spud

:: 2019 16 May :: 10.52pm

I went to the KCCC meeting tonight
They were having elections. I am now officially Trustee #3 on the Board of Directors. Which is mostly an honorary title, but it was nice of them to include me.

I decided to celebrate at a place down the road ... with a poke bowl:




then i was like, wait...

poke bowl = poke ball?

2 Wasted Their Money | Spare Some Change?


goodbye

:: 2019 13 May :: 10.29pm

Time is a rubber band.

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spud

:: 2019 14 April :: 10.46pm

Recorded on 4.3.19
POD 16

In which I am joined by Mike. He will make you want to have his babies, with piercing blue eyes and gravelly baritone.

Links to stuff we mentioned:







1 Wasted Their Money | Spare Some Change?


spud

:: 2019 9 April :: 11.30pm

recorded on 3.29.19
POD 15

The second episode with Kevin, in which we were highly inappropriate. You've been warned.

Links to stuff we mentioned:







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spud

:: 2019 3 April :: 10.47am

Recorded on 3.27.19
POD 14.2

The second part, in which snacks were had and recording quality suffered accordingly. You've been warned.

Links to stuff we mentioned:







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spud

:: 2019 2 April :: 6.30pm

Recorded on 3.27.19
POD 14.1

After much deliberation, names were left un-bleeped. If we talk about you and you want your name bleeped, please forward your bleeping requests to: complaints@spud.com

Links to stuff we mentioned:
THE OFFSPRING IS A GOOD PERSON BAND

CAKE IS ALSO A BAND

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spud

:: 2019 26 March :: 11.28pm

No new podcast yet, just a fun video I wanted to share. There's a lot of good stuff here, if you're into recording drums.

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spud

:: 2019 19 March :: 11.15pm

recorded on 3.19.19

POD 13

Happy hostful super-mega-ultra-blood-oath-moon-equinox thing.

Enjoy a podcast.

Links to stuff I mentioned:
meeting guide app

"demo" site - sandbox mode engage!

current (i.e. lame) site

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spud

:: 2019 12 March :: 8.20am
:: Mood: Woo

3 Wasted Their Money | Spare Some Change?


spud

:: 2019 10 March :: 10.26pm

Recorded on 3.6.19
POD 12.2

Jess came back! And we talked for so long, I decided to split it into two episodes.

Here's the big cliffhanger! We mostly talk about god, or the potential lack thereof.

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spud

:: 2019 8 March :: 11.13am

recorded on 3.6.19
POD 12.1

Jess came back! And we talked for so long, I decided to split it into two episodes!

Get ready for a big cliffhanger. Or don't. Whatever. We won't judge your level of preparedness.

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spud

:: 2019 2 March :: 1.01pm

Recorded on 2.26.19
POD 11

Thanks to Jessica (not Jess) for joining me on this episode, in which smartphones, will smith, sharknado, and student loans are discussed.

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