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:: 2004 3 September :: 8.19 pm
:: Mood: Sleepy clean and worried
:: Music: Same ol' shit

Hurricane Madness?
God I hate when I write a whole journal then it gets deleted well here goes the 2nd try. I now no longer have a laptop..it died. RIP you good ol' thing. I have to get a new one so that means no more funness at home...if there will be a home to go to! But I am hopeful. Right now I'm on my friends laptop where we are refugeeing until the hurricane goes away. Let's see I guess I should clue you into whats been goin' on in my life the past few days. Lemmie think ok wednesday we had one of those PTA days, where we come into school at 11. Sorta like an exam day. Well the day before I wrote Ryan a note telling him my feelings on our relationships current status on how I felt like he would rather be with his friends then me then I'm just someone he has to see and talk to, but anyways. Yah I wanted to talk to him about that note that day. I get to school at the appointed time and I'm hanging out with Amber but Ryan never shows up but I wasn't expecting him to be there in the morning cause he had gone to IHOP before and I expected him to be late. I go to Spanish class and I'm just thinkin' about Ryan and I and what's goin' on with us lately. I get to drama class and we do our shit in there and after drama I usually see Ryan goin' to my American history class I get to the spot where I usually meet him and he is nowhere to be seen. I'm gettin' a lil' suspicious and worried thinkin' that my note angered him or somethin' and he didn't want to see me. I get to American history and we have a sub who can't read our teachers note to give us so we basically have the period to ourselves. Well my friend Charde and I usually talk about our boyfriends because even though they are totally different they are exactly the same if that makes any sense. I was telling her my situation and we were exchanging our stories and what not and she was giving me advice. Now I knew that half of this advice wouldn't work because since Ryan is actually different then her boyfriend he wouldn't care about half the things she recommended. She was telling me that if he didn't change the way he was acting that I should break up with him (but thats a very hard concept for me to even think about). Either that or take a break to make him realize how good I am...but I don't think I'm that important but whateva'. She was also saying how I'm too nice to him and whenever I get mad at him I should express my anger and not act like I'm not angry and do nothing about it...like I always do. I began thinking about everything that she said and what I should do. I told her I wouldn't do anything or say anything until I got to see him at the next class change or at the end of the day when he walks me to my buses. The class ends and I wait for him at the other spot and instead of seeing Ryan my friend Jose comes up to me and says "We have to kick Ryan's ass" he said this playfully of course but he then said "He skipped school today" after that I tuned him out and I was just like thank you Jose. I was angry the fact that he didn't tell me he wasn't going to school because he always tells me when he isn't and for him always saying how he's going to do bad in school and then he goes and skips agg I just got mad (this of course was adding on top of everything else). I get to my Marine bio class and Helen and Sparks were like are you ok? I just nodded and walked inside and sat down thinking about everything. I text him acting as if I didn't know about him skipping cause I wanted him to tell me and I'm just like "how's your day?" he replies "Lazy and yours?" I said something but I don't remember then I said "How are your classes today?" and he says "I didn't go to school today" I said "Oh really? Thanks for telling me" then he texted "What? Am I supposed to tell you?" I then said "Well I was expecting to see you and I wanted to talk to you about something" he replied "Right" (I was getting way angrier at this time) I was like "Fine forget I even texted you then" he said "Fine with me" I finally said something mean but later I found out he laughed about what I said so it was sorta pointless but I said "Asshole" then he said "ok?" then I finally just let it out "Don't you even care don't you ever get mad!?" and he was like "Fine FUCK OFF AND STOP FUCKING TEXTING ME GEEZE!" that one did hurt...I was glad he finally showed emotion but it hurt none the less and some tears fell but I tried not to let anyone see. It was nearing the end of class and I send him one more text it said "This will be the last time I ever text you if thats what you want but are we breaking up?" he said "I don't want to but if thats whats happening then fine" I was loosing all composition at that time I also had to stay after school for Drama club and we had to audition today for the Dessert theater. I get to the Drama room and I go to the back and I don't talk to anyone I prepare the sign in sheet and get ready to take notes. I'm tryin' to hold back tears just thinking what would happen if Ryan and I broke up and it was hurting me so much. My friends are looking at me and Lorelei comes up and is like what's wrong? I'm tryin' not to let my feelings out and I'm just like "I think Ryan and I are breakin' up" and more tears fall and then Lorelei is askin' alot of questions and I was like shh I have to take notes casue Brandon had gone up to audition. I didn't really pay attention to him though...I was in my own world. I text Ryan again and ask if I can call him and he just says "Go for it" I let Aliya take the notes (thanks Aliya for everything) and I go outside and call him and we start talking about everything and emotions were flying and I'm crying and I'm saying how maybe we should take a break. Cause he says he feels like around me I'm holding him back even when I'm not. Well I was just cryin' and cryin' and Lorelei comes out halfway in the convo and is rubbing my back and wiping my tears and singing For good...(not a good song at the moment Lauren..) But god I love that girl she is such a great friend. I was askin' Ryan if we should break up and he said I don't want to be the ones to say the words, I wasn't going to say them since I seemed the one to be the problem I was going to let him decide. He had to get into work and Drama club auditions had ended and I think Ryan might have cried a lil' towards the end but I'm not sure. I was just like are wer still dating? He said yah and I was like get to work, then he said he wasn't going to then I was just like go to work so you don't get fired and he finally agrees but he sounded angry at me for it. Lorelei had taken me home and when I get there I had to pack cause we were being evacuated for the hurricane and I needed to fix my room up. I'm sittin' in the floor of my room and I'm tryin' to picture me without Ryan...and I couldn't I couldn't picture not being able to be in his arms and looking at someone else with the love I feel for him and kissing someone else and everything. There are also other reasons why it would be hard for me to leave him also but I text him telling him everything and he texts me back saying he didn't want to break up with me and all of that stuff. I said I was sorry for what I said and he said his sorrys. I wanted to give him a hug but he was at work and so I was going to wait till he got off then ask him to come over so I can see him. I text him and he says I'm already home I was just like Oh... but he decided to go back to eckerds to "Find his wallet" He came over we talked and I think everything is ok...but I don't really know. I think we needed this almost break up but I'm not sure if everything is going to be ok. I don't even know if I will see him this weekend, cause of this wonderful hurrican headed our way. So yah all of this is goin' on and happened...but I think Ryan still needs to hang out with his friends...I don't want to hold him back...I just seem to do it without knowing it. Whatever though. I'll ask him if everything will be ok between us and I hope it will be. But for now I must think about this hurricane and weather or not I will have a room when I get back home. Lets hope so! Well I'ma gonna get some ice cream and talk to some people online then go console my lil' pouncer butt (my cat pounce). Be careful all of you that have to experience the hurricane!

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 31 August :: 6.26 pm
:: Mood: Run down
:: Music: Wicked

Dancing through life!
Well I went to New York this weekend...and oh my god..it was so awesome! We went to go see Boy from Oz at least that was what was planned. I saw the new house in Jersey and it is uberly perfect. Umm oh yah my mom surprised me on saturday with two orchestra tickets to wicked...I about died. It was so..there are no words. I cried from the begining to end. Hugh Jackman is so funny! And...he is just so talented. The guy that was in Boy from Oz that is now my new friend Michael Mulheren who's in a bunch of tv shows movies ect...he is so cool. I just had a great weekend. Today I wrote a depressing note to Ryan so I will see how that works out. Tomorrow I get to sleep in yay for me. Also theres a hurricane comin' our way so I'm probably gonna be screwed because I live on the beachish. Anyways I'm gonna finish my taco.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 22 August :: 4.29 pm
:: Mood: Lazy
:: Music: Nsync...I know I'm a loser...I just had to listen to the old days..but wait that'd be backstreet boy

OLAY
Well everything is happy now tonight when Ryan picks me up to go to Helen's party I'm going to give him an uber big hug and much lovin' God I'm lazy right now..I don't want to do anything and it's stormin' again and I feel all icky from the resturant. Well I'm gonna rest for an hour or so so love hugs and kisses.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 22 August :: 6.44 am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: Wicked

I hear her soul is so unclean..mere water could melt her..
I think Ryan might be mad at me or something...he doesn't return my texts and I don't know to me it just seems like he is. I would talk to him about it but I don't want to bug him after work cause he's starting to go to sleep early and I don't know. I seem to not know alot. All I do know is that for the past two nights he hasn't said his usual goodnights to me at all. I'm probably wrong about this whole thing....but still it makes me wonder. I visited Ryan last night at his job when I was at the movies with my parents. We talked a lil' bit since he was on his break. I brought up the subject about my last entry and he said good stuff then a customer needed to be helped and my mom called me so I had to go. Everything feels so unclear right now almost as if something is different and I'm not aware of it. I should stop being a worry wart and think everything is ok like it always has been. I need to get ready for work so I gotta get outta here.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 20 August :: 9.51 pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: My own tears....how pathetic does that sound

ick...
::Waves finger in the air:: wooo yay for unhappiness...I'm upset right now cause look another friday night and what? I get to spend it alone...yay for me. Let me explain, last friday I was supposed to hang out with Ryan but he calls at around 6 and asks if he can reschedual cause he was down in Boca with his friend Justin. I was like fine, I was upset of course but then I find out later that he was hanging out with his bestfriend cause he needed some guy time. Which is understandable so I wasn't upset with him, but still a bit bummed. (We hung out the next day and saw a movie which was nice...but yah anyways) This friday (today) Ryan and I were supposed to hang out but then he got schedualed to work so we decided upon going out after he got off at 8 to dinner or something. Eight rolls around I ate like some bacon to hold me over and all that good stuff I get a call from Ryan at like 8:15 he says that he got into an argument with his boss and people quit so he had to work till 9 and he already had a few slices of pizza...I was just like....AGGGHH! in my head of course. I asked if we were going to hang out and he said if I wanted to but I wanted to actually go out and eat with him not go out me eat and him sit there...cause I hate when that happens but I never quite got an answer but in the end of the phone call he says goodnight so we weren't going to hang out which leaves me in tears like the stupid person I am who gets too emotional. My mom didn't make it any better either I called her to tell her I wasn't going out and I told her what happened and she said that wasn't nice of him that he should have just had a snack like I had so that we could of gone out at 9 then she said something along the lines of him using me..but at that point I was about to cry so I stopped paying attention and had to cover up the tear soundyness in my voice...But in the end I tried to tell her that he wasn't that he wanted to still hang out with me but I said no...she actually didn't sound convinced but whatever. So thats the wonderful mood I'm in right now. I got upset and put my laptop on the floor and away message up and Ryan IM's me saying he apologizes and would I like some ice cream...but by the time I found it....he was already signed off. So I don't get to see Ryan at all this weekend so it seems...I never get to see much of him anymore not even at school. I get to see him maybe once or twice a day sometimes not even...and they are usually for either 10 or 2 min intervals. I think everyone else see's more of Ryan then I do...lucky me. Well Cheers to a fuckin' glorious night....
*Gah someone made a very good point which I should put in here....I know it's not Ryan's fault that we can't see each other much or hang out much...and right now I'm just upset cause another one of our plans got sent to crap....I just want to see more of him like I used to but thats life and this is what I get and I should just be happy that I get to see him at all..
**Just realized something else...I'm getting all emotional about this is because I miss Ryan...I just miss being able to be with him alot...and I just miss hanging out with him.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 19 August :: 5.35 pm
:: Mood: Hungry..
:: Music: Seether and Amy lee "Broken"

ULTRAMAX "Time released"
I'm getting really bad about updating on here...I could if I wanted...but nothing interesting has happened in my life that would make me want to. I hopefully get to hang out with Ryan friday night and go to dinner..but we will see how that works out. Ross gave me a good little pointer about a certain person Thank you Ross. Also good luck with you and your pursuit with Kylelee she is an uberly awesome person. Devin I wish you a speedy recovery with your sickediness...and to all the little people who mad this...wait wrong speech. Well I'm gonna go find food now...mmmm anglehair pasta with grilled chicken....::dies::

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 15 August :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: Blech
:: Music: Stuff

Hehe stuck on you.
Well it's been awhile since I've updated on here. I started school wednesday and all is well. School is alright so far, my AP english class is really hard even on the first day but it's cool I got some friends in there. What else has happened....nothing really exciting I saw Princess Diaries 2 and Bourne Supremace they were both really good. Well thats all for now.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 8 August :: 9.12 pm
:: Mood: Sleepy again
:: Music: None

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-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 8 August :: 8.37 pm
:: Mood: Happy beyond happy
:: Music: Seether and Amy lee

Holy shit fuck!
Holy crap holy crap holy CRAP! Ok we bought this house in Jersey and I will put the pics on here soon and the house is like uberly perfect. On a really clear day you can see Ney york, and the whole area it's by is perfect. Bruce Springsteen lives by there and so does Jon Bon Jovi and they take there kids to school and all that shit. Well the lady who found us the house was frans (stepdad) friend. Well this lady is like super nice and her brother is in A Boy From Oz....with Hugh Jackman. Well she is gonna try and get tickets for my mum and I...and if she does I get to go backstage and meet her brother AND....HUGH JACKMAN!!!! ::snoopy dances::. The lady says that Hugh Jackman has the softest skin and is the super nicest guy ever and that him and his wife are madly in love. How AWESOME would it be...if I got to sing for him.....::dies at the thought:: Holy shit my life would be complete...But anyways the house is by this town that has 64 resturants 2 movie theaters the works. God i'm going to post the pictures on here now...once I figure it out. Oh also at work today I'm the orange juice girl and Jorge and I came up with a bargain if I sold 100 glasses of orange juice I get an extra $20 on my paycheck. Well come round the end of the day I had only sold 98...so I bought two orange juices and it didn't ring so I'm a bit peeved about that. I just found out that the house was built in 1912 and it used to be a sears model house, but now it's be renovated and made all pretty like...it's half a million dollars...eep, and it's the cheapest house in that area so yah...

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 6 August :: 10.14 am
:: Mood: ..Waking up
:: Music: Whatever is on this movie 13 going on 30

Thriller!
Umm I took this lil' thing cause my friend sent it to me..and she really wanted me to do it. So if you want to you can take it if your really bored and have nothing else to do and just post it...blah whatever.


Welcome to the Summer 2004 edition of getting to know
your friends. What
you are supposed to do is copy (not forward) this
entire e-mail and paste
it onto a new e-mail that you'll send. Change all the
answers so they
apply to you, and then send this to a whole bunch of
people including the
person who sent it to you. The theory is that you will
learn a lot of
little things about your friends, if you did not know
them already!

1. What time do you get up? anywhere between 4 a.m. and noon, depending on the day of the week..

2. If you could eat lunch with one person, who would
it be? The sexy and gorgeous…Johnny Depp

3. Gold or silver? White gold

4. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Umm…Shrek 2?

5. What is/are your favorite TV show(s)? Will & Grace, I love the 90’s, that 70’s show

6. What did you have for breakfast? Breakfast is evil.

7. Who would you hate to be stuck in a room with? Stupid people…not that I’m smart I just get frustrated really easily when people don’t understand what I’m talking about.

8. What inspires you? Seeing some form of a production of a musical…I’m so in awe and it makes me strive to be there even more.

9. What is your middle name? Aisha

10. Beach, City or Country? City

11. Favorite ice cream? Strawberry, Superman, or stuff with chocolatey numminess

12. Butter, plain or salted popcorn? Butter duh

13. Favorite color? Black…wait that’s a shade who cares.

14. What kind of car do you drive? 2004 Jeep Wrangler

15. Favorite sandwich? Grilled cheese with chicken and tomato

16. What characteristic do you despise? People who want a lot of….pity

17. Favorite flowers? Black or purple roses

18. Where would you go on vacation? Cruise around the world to European countries

19. What color is your bathroom? This pretty swirly blue color

20. Favorite brand of clothing? I dun have one, I’m happy with bell bottoms and a tight shirt or tank top.

21. Where would you retire? Hmm I dunno, too young to worry about it

22. Favorite day of the week? Any that ends in Y

23. What did you do for your last birthday? I went to the mall with my friends then had them spend the night…it was interesting

24. Where were you born? Long beach, California

25. Favorite sport to watch? Skateboarding

26. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? Umm I’m only sending it to two people and one already took it..

27. Person you expect to send it back first? Ryan

28. What fabric detergent do you use? I don’t remember

29. Coke or Pepsi? Peach tea

30. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Both hehe I’m special

31. What is your shoe size? 10-10 1/2

32. Do you have any pets? Yush 1 kitty, 2 stupid dogs, 1 birdie

33. What is your favorite season? October, November, December

34. What time is it? 12:29 AM

35. Name as it appears on birth certificate? Chasmin Aisha Hallyburton

36. Nicknames? Chaz, squishy, Jungle woman, teh Chaz, poof poof…ect.

37. Number of candles on your last birthday cake?I don’t get cake ::le tear::

38. Kids? 1 or 2 maybe

39. Hair color: I think dark brown now

40. Piercing: 1 in each ear

41. Eyes? A pretty dark brown I like my eyes

42. How much do you love your job? Love + job = A big resounding NO

43. Residence: Delray beach, Florida

44. Favorite Food? Tamales

45. Been to Africa? No

46. Been toilet papering? Sorta

47. Have you ever been in love? Yes and I am right now

48. Been in a car accident? No and I don’t want to be

49. Croutons or bacon bits? Both?

50. Favorite saying or phrase? WEEEOOO!!

51. Favorite restaurant? Red lobster yummy cheese bread

52. Favorite nonalcoholic drink? Pina coladas

53. How many times did you fail your driver's test? I haven’t taken it yet but I failed the permit test once

54. Before this one, from whom did you get your last
E-mail? One of my woohu comment post things

55. Do you sing in the shower? Yesh and I lurve it

56. Which store would you choose to max out your
credit card? Any place that has (good) clothes, and video games

57. What do you do most when you are bored? Sing showtunes

58. Bedtime: Ha I laugh at the word.

59. Glass half empty or half full? Hmm I would have to say yes.

60. If you could live anywhere in the world where
would it be? I still have to see the world to decide

61 When is your birthday? November 8, 1988

62. What is your favorite cake? Ice cream cake, or german chocolate cake

63. Time you finished this e-mail? 12:46 AM

*Just change all your answers to your own if you do decide to do this.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 3 August :: 11.51 pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: Reel big fish

JayWalkersAnonymous

you are violet
#EE82EE

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.

Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
the spacefem.com html color quiz





-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 3 August :: 10.41 pm
:: Mood: There are no words to describe
:: Music: What is this feeling.

I am walking on air dear..
Holy shit...I have....how do I explain. I spent the day with Ryan and it was lovely...then shit happened and we talked. Well I'm sitting at home eating and Ryan calls saying that he was going on the ave with a bunch of our friends and he wanted me to go. So I cleaned the kitchen called my mom and I was able to go. He comes to pick me up at around 8:30 and I was afriad I wasn't going to have much time to hang with him cause I had to be home at 10. Well we head down to Rotelli's they have this tuesday special where a pan-o-pizza is only $5 so yah. Lets see it was Helen, Rabbit, Sean, Alex, Vonny, Ryan and me. Ish was muy fun. Time slowly ticked by and we finally finished at around 9:30 so Ryan decided to take me home and everyone else went to Veterans. We get to my house and he was like I want to hug you!. So we got out of the car and hugged...I swear that 20 mins with him I fell in love with him all over again...I felt like I would never see him again and I just had to not let go. I was so happy...the happiest I've been in a long time like that. Well I had to write that I'm good now toodles.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 3 August :: 2.28 am
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Wicked The musical

51L130105074
God I'm tired I just finished watching Face off....such a great movie. Nicholas Cage is such a good looking guy. I really have to get to bed soon. I'm hanging out with Ryan tomorrow, and I have to do some laundry before I go...enh. Well toodles.

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 31 July :: 6.32 pm
:: Mood: Umm..
:: Music: The usual

I do believe I have been changed for the better.
I have stolen the quotes from Nikki's journal cause they were interesting. If you want to add just comment and I will put them in here.

Quotes

~Learn to laugh at your troubles and you'll never run out of things to laugh at.~

~Two wrongs don't make a right,
but three lefts do.~

~Never apologize for saying what you feel. It's like apologizing for being real.~

~If I told you that I need you more than the air I breathe, would you believe me? Or would I have to die to prove it to you.~

~we hurt ourselves on the outside, just to kill the person on the inside..~

~The pain passes, but the beauty remains~

~Love is the affection you subconsciously feel obligated to show the someone your body says is the right one for you to mate with. A weakness, if you will.~

~Don't ever feel guilty about the past
what's done is done.
Learn from any mistakes you might have made.~

~Love is shown in your deeds, not in your words~

~The beauty of the world has two edges, one of laughter, one of anguish, cutting the heart asunder.~

~We always believe our first love is our last, and our last love our first.~

~We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.~

~Life is ours to be spent, not to be saved.~

~You might regret what you do-but you'll regret what you DON'T do so much more.~

~Sometimes there is no time outs,
no second chances
somtimes its now or never~

~How can you be friends with someone if every time you
look at them, it makes you want them even more?~

~i was FiNALLY getting over you,
believing that we were thru...
i even had crushes other than you...
i was walkin with my head up high...
thinking that i wasn't gonna fall...
then you had to smile at me and go and ruin it all~

~"Aerodynamically, the bumble bee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumble bee doesn't know it so it goes on flying anyway."~

~i NoW cOmPaRe aLL gUys i LiKe tO yOu AnD yOu KnOw
wHaT...ThEy NevEr MeAsUre Up...NoT eVeN cLoSe...
AnD thE sAd ThiNg Is tHaT sOme aRe ProBaBlY BeTteR
thAn YoU...BuT i JuSt CaN't SeE iT~

~Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?~

~I love him, O yes I do,
He's for me, not for you,
And if by chance you take my place,
I'll take my fist and smash your face!~

~Good judgement comes from experience. Sometimes, experience comes from bad judgement.~

~No simle is more beautiful then one that is struggled through tears~

~NoThiN iS mOrE pAiNfuL Then ReALiZiN He MenT eVeRyThiN 2 u& u MenT nOtHiN 2 HiM~

~Our eyes are placed in front, its more important 2 look ahead than 2 look behind~

~Fallow ur heart but take ur brain with u~

~You cant go beyond my thoughts, or leave my love behind, because I keep you in my heart and forever in my mind. And though I may not tell you, I think you know it's true.. I find happiness in every thought of you.~

~Whenever I'm down, you always make me smile. Whenever I need someone to talk to, I know you'll listen for a while. Whenever I'm upset, I know you care.. Cuz whenever I'm lonely, you're always there.~

~sex is bad sex is a sin god forgives so lets begin!!~

~YoU NeVeR tRuELy LoVe A PeRsOn UnTiL ThE MeRe ThOuGhT oF yOu HuRtiNg ThAt LoVeD oNe iS EnOuGH To BrEaK yOuR oWn HeArT~

~You think life's a bitch? Wait til ya meet me!~

~I'm not a bad girl... just a good girl that does bad things!~

~Im sorry for seeing u..Im sorry for looking into ur eyes..Im sorry for becoming ur friend..Im sorry for being there when u needed someone the most..'m sorry for seeing who u really are..Im sorry that I look at the sky everynight wishing u were mine..But most of all.Im sorry for my heart that I fell so deeply in love with u~

~Stop Staring at Me! I Know I'm beautiful!~

~We didnt kiss, He just put his arms around me and layed his face on mine~

~Virginity is like a baLLoOn: one prick and it's gone!~

~I know that I oughta find someone new but all I find myself thinking of you~

~Somethings In Life Are Worth Waiting For
And I Believe That Something Is You~

~LoViNg HiM wAsN't ThE pRoBlEm,
GeTtInG tO cLoSe WaS~

~I miss the dayz when u held me* & the dayz i heard ur voice* I miss the days when u were here* us falling apart was not my choice* I miss the dayz when u kissed me* & the feelings u used to show* But most of all* I miss the guy i used to know~

~Be Sexy...Be True...Be Wild...Be You~

~If you're lucky you can get a second chance with the one you love...
Sometimes luck isn't enough~

~If you knew how much u meant to me...you'd know EVERYTHING~

~When you realize
You want to spend
The rest of your life with somebody,
You want the rest of your life
To start as soon as possible.~

~friends are like condoms, they protect you when things get hard~

~Sex is like math. Add the bed, subtract the clothes, divide the legs, and hope you don't multiply!~

~oRaNgEz R sWeEt//LeMoNz R sOuR//iLl OpEn My LeGz N gIvE u An HoUr!~

~I was born to please, and taught to tease.~

~I didnt loose my virginty I know exactly who has it~

~A pretty girl can kiss a guy. A bird can kiss a butterfly, the rising sun can kiss the grass and you my friend can kiss my @$$!~

~Roses are Red, Violets are corny, when i think of you oh baby i get horny! Eat me, Beat me, Bite me, Blow me, Suck me, Fuck me, very slowly if you kiss me dont be sassy use your tongue and make it nasty!~

~Remeber! wrap it before you tap it! no glove, no love!~

~Always wear cute pajamas to bed
you'll never know who u will meet in your dreams~

~I will always luv u, but that don't mean I always like u~

~When it hurts to look back and
you are scared to look ahead,
look beside you and I will be there~

~NeVer Underestimate the power of BEST FRIENDS,
especially when they're TOGETHER~

~*~ Ashes to Ashes
Dust to Dust
Life is short
so PARTY we must!! ~*~

~EveryOne Deserves To Feel Pretty...
So Leave Me Alone~

~DiD iT lOoK LiKe I cArEd?¿?....
OoPs LeT mE tRy AgAiN!~

~LoVe Me NoW, oR lOvE mE nEvA,
bUt If U lOvE mE, lOvE mE 4-eVa~

~i might be sexy
i might be sweet
but without you im incompelete~

~Hey look on the bright side...
not everyone hates you as much as i do..~

~Cry me a river, build me a bridge,
then do us all a favor and jump off it!!~

~There's a lot of fish in the sea
But you're the only one 4 me~

~kute enuf to make you look twice
sweet enuf but not too nice
a lil crazy but not too wild
the kinda grl that`ll make ya smile:-)~

~Sometimes I dream about being caried off by a big giant squirrel.
Does that make me a nut?~

~if your naughty go to your room... if you wanna be naughty go to mine~

~Rosez r red
Violetz r blu
Suga iz sweet
but revenge iz 2~

~Follow your heart, but take your brain with you~

~Day by day, nothing seems to change but pretty soon, everything's different~

~i try not to let school interfere with my social life~

~Today I Love U More Than Yesterday,
but Not as much as Tomorrow~

~Don't look where you fall, but where you slipped~
DoNt LooK DoWn On AnYoNe UnLeSS YoUr HeLpiNg ThEm Up~

~God made all creatures beautiful
He just spent a little more time on some of us!!~

~itz only funny until someone getz hurt...then itz hillerous~

~Friends are 4ever,
Guyz are whatever,
When worst comez 2 worst,
My girlz come 1st!~

~The worst thing a guy can do, is let a girl fall in love, when he doesn't intend on catching her fall~

~Maybe the reason why i havent found who ive been looking for is because i know i already found him, its just up to him to say whether i am the one he wants to be with~

~Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back in time when everything was simpler and carefree? Those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives... the ones that bring back our childhoods, best friends, first love, first broken heart, and the memories...~

~Best friends hang tough. They don't come with Fragile stickers and are not easily scared off, or ticked off. Best friends help you out whenever they can, make time for you even when they don't have any, and trust your friendship enough to say anything. Best friends are cross-your-heart-and-hope-to-die, good-times-and-bad-times, borrow-anything, tell-you-everything, trust-you-with-their-deepest-darkest-secrets, always-and-forever friends~

~people change...
things go wrong...
shit will happen...
but life goes on...~

~love is when you miss them even before they leave and when you can listen to their voice all night and never get tired of hearing them talk when the thought of their name gives you butterflies and you see them smile when you close your eyes~

~I think I really did love u.Maybe thats why Im so protective of u.Why I always am thinking of u,why it bugs me so much when ur mad at me, and maybe thats why my heart wont let u go, because it knows better then my mind~

~Im just wondering,does it hurt you to know that everytime I see you I feel like crying? That when I see your face something inside of me dies just a little bit more, or when I see you frown I want more than anything to kiss your pain away~

~Have u ever hated someone so much that u wanted nothing more than for them to go away, yet still loved them enough that u thought u would die if they did~

~To truly love is to have the courage to walk away and let the one who wishes to be free go No matter how much it hurts~

~I told you that I loved you, and my heart stopped not because I was saying it for the first time, but because I knew I meant it more than anything~

~Don't judge me based on how I used to be, I've changed.
I'm no longer that little girl who'd do anything for your smile.
what if i said that you never mattered
that i never lost one moment of sleep
what if i crushed all your dreams
broke all the promises you swore to keep
tell me how your life would be
if i did what you did to me~

~You can fall in love in an instant. It's letting go that takes time~

~I can't stop thinking about him, and the truth is, I don't want to stop thinking about him 'cause when I think about him, I'm happy~

~Missing someone is part of loving them, if you're never apart then you'll never know how strong your love is~

~a dream is an answer to a question we havent yet learned how to ask~

~never apologize for showing your feelings, when you do so you apologize for the truth~

~It's funny how we set standards for the "right person" to love.. when in the back of our heads we know that the person we truely love will always be an exception~

~People can be just best friends, but at one point or another, one will fall for the other. Maybe it's temporary, maybe it's at the wrong time, maybe it's too late Or maybe, just maybe, it's forever.~

~How lucky I am to have something that makes saying good-bye so hard~

~You only meet your once in a lifetime friend ... once in a lifetime~

~Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you but trusting them not to.~

~Sometimes its better to be alone, no one can hurt you that way~

~The one you let slip away, will be the one you always want.~

~Sometimes it doesn't matter how long it is you waited, it's just the person you're waiting for.~

~As we lay there together, I turn away... afraid you'll see the tears that are about to form in my eyes. You ask if anything's wrong, I smile, and tell you I'm fine... but the truth is I can't stop thinking about how much I'm gonna miss you~

~I remember the worst...I think of the times I cried. I thought I couldnt hurt more but I was wrong. Because the pain of losing you then doesnt at all compare to what I feel now. Because the pain I feel now is the pain of knowing that I will never even get the chance to lose you again~

~I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else. I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself. I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart. I'd rather have the one who holds my heart~

~When I saw you I fell in love and you smiled because you knew~

~i tried to stay mad at you but i cant because when i think of you all i do is smile~

~Those nights when you can't sleep, you just might be in someone else's dreams.~

~loving someone that doesnt love you is like reaching for the stars you kno u'll never reach them but you just have to keep trying~

~maybe the reason we hate eachother is because we cant face the fact that we are still in love~

~feelings never change..u just learn how to hide them~

~Love Is When You Do Things You Swore You'd Never Do~

~You should put a condom on your head, cause if you're gonna act like a dick you might as well look like one~

~If two past lovers remain friends,they were either never in love, or they still are~

~If I hAd NoThInG BuT yOu, I'd StIll HaVe EvErYtHiNg I nEeD~

~There is fate, but it only takes you so far, Because
once your there, it's up to you to make it happen~

~I've always wanted to ask you If you could be with anyone, who would it be? But I've never asked, I'm too afraid the answer won't be me~

~The s p a c e s between your fingers were meant for someone else's to fill~

~Happiness is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth~

~Im consciously aware that you are slowly breaking my heart, but i am also subconciously going to love you with every broken piece forever~

~Even if a day should go by when dont say 'i love you.' There should never be a moment without u knowing that I do~

~No matter how many times you hurt me I'll always forgive you. Some call it stupid, I call it love~

~Loved isn't a word. There's no past tense of love. If you love someone you'll always love them.~

~Everything happens for a reason. So no matter how much something hurts, there has to be a reason~

~A friend walks in when the whole world walks out. But a true friend never would have left~

~It's hard to pretend you love someone if you don't. It's harder to pretend you don't love someone if you do~

~It's weird how you can grow away from some friends, when just a few years ago they were the most important people in your life~

~Friendship is more than just a phone call or a birthday present every year. It is more than just a ride to the mall or a study partner. It is a person who is by your side and sticks with you, just when you feel you're on your own~

~She who is the quietest often has the most to say~

~A best friend is someone who sees through you and still enjoys the view.~

~LOVE-We think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it; when we have it, we fear losing it.It's a constant source of pleasure and pain, but we can't predict from one minute to the
next which it's going to be today.It takes on many shapes and many disguises: We love our parents, our brothers and sisters, our boyfriends and girlfriends, our cats and dogs, our comfortable shoes, and our baseball gloves.Love-it's a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without.~

~Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die tomarrow~

~Today is the tomorrow you woried about yesterday... was it worth it? Everyone has the ability to make someone happy. Some by entering a room others by leaving it. Love life and be greatful for what you have because one day it could all be gone~

~Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't~

~People who ask our advice almost never take it. Yet we should never refuse to give it, upon request, for it often helps us to see our own way more clearly.~

~I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,
I'm sorry I just can't help myself, I fell in love with you~

~You don't deserve me, I know that it's true, but I want u so bad, what do I do~

~Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control~

~I'll never stop loving you. I know, because I've tried~

~I'm Just Me Being Me
And That's All I'll Ever Be~

~The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them and know you can't have them~

~Should I smile,
Cuz ur my friend,
Or cry..Cuz that's all we'll ever be?~

~Everything will be alright in the end...if it's not all right, then it's not the end~

~It's Weird How.... Something So Small
Can Change The Rest Of Your Life Forever~

~Daddy's Little Girl, But Not The Girl That Daddy Knew, Daddy Never Had A Clue~

~2 words guys hate... don't and stop... unless u put them together~

~I lost my teddy bear, can I sleep with you?~

~Too Often We Lose Sight Of Life's Simple Pleasures.
Just Remember, When Someone Pisses You Off ...
It Takes 42 Muscles In Your Face To Frown
But, It Only Takes 4 Muscles To Extend Your Arm
And Bitch-slap The Motherfucker Upside The Head.~

~I feel sometimes, that nobody's held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me. Its like I say 'oh I'm fine' and I walk away. Nobody's ever said 'no you're not.'~

~lifes a dick... when it gets hard fuck it!~

-Chasmin-

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:: 2004 31 July :: 9.09 am
:: Mood: Excited
:: Music: Wicked The musical

Defying gravity
I'm going to the zoo!!!!! And my mommy invited Ryan so this will be cool...now I'm all bouncy damnit!!! Well toodles. I will tell you about it later.

-Chasmin-

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