ummmm...so it's new years eve and im at dans house with tyler. we just played hide and seek for a lil whil...zACk is at a concert and Danny cant come over..!!!:(...were goin to a bon fire at 9:00...it will be fun i hope.. Teddy bear andf Tyler are having but sex right now.. it's funny to watch hehehe...I love teddy bear ......The End

"Tomorrow is here again"
I put on a plastic smile
But deep down inside I still feel denial
i act like everything is alright
Im sick of always having to put up a fight

Tomorrow is here,time to start over again
But somehow I still feel the pain within
I call for your name...your not there
But for some reason this time I dont care

You called me names that made me cry
And sometimes I just wanted to die
no more, I said it's over, the end
Your no longer someone I thought was my friend

I found someone new who cares for me
Now I feel stupid cause i could never see....
the games you played, and the things u said
made me feel like i was nothing...Like i was dead

He's different hough
when I look into his eyes
I can see that he would never make me cry
He loves me and I love him

Get out of My life, leave me alone
No more of your bullshit excuses over the phone
He's the one, and your just gonna have to deal
Cause, I no longer care how you feel
Stefanie Farris

Hey guys write me comments and tell me what you think about my poem.. emo? Gay? sucks? rocks? you hate it? u like it? whatever just tell me ur opinion!!!

Having a moment
Its like almost 1:00 an today was ok... i sat alone in my room for a long time when i was forced to get off one of my only loves (mi computer..kinda pathetic). So i was in my room and i got to thinkin about alot of things that botherd me and i went into emo mode and i had some "emo time". i listened to Thurday and Furhther Seems Forever and i thought for a lil while. it was good i cleared my head and it's ok now....it's hard to put my finger on exactly what was wrong , b ut hwta ever it was im ok now.. so thats good.. i talked to one of my other loves teddybear on the phone for a while and we tried to decide what to do tomorrow for new years eve... but we didnt really come up with much ...all i no is that me, him, tyler, Danny and hpefully zack are gonna hang out and were gonna find somthing funa nd exciting to do..it will be cool i hope :/ ? i was just sittin here and typin and ashlie imed be with a funny question:

Ashlie:do you know what pragmatic means?
Me:H/o
so i went and looked it up for her and it means.......

Pragmatic: concerned with what is practicable, expedient and convenient, rather than with theories and ideals; matter-of-fact; realistic.

.....Just incase any of u ever hear that word now u lnow what it means !!!hehehe ur welcome:)

I think im gonna go get some sleepage done.. SO if i dont see or talk to any of u guys Happy New year and dont get to wasted and get raped or molested or throw in a sewer .. yah u get my point.. if u plan on drinking be responsible (hehehe yah right, snicker, snicker) bye everyone!!

um...bacon??
Today was kinda fun nothing that exciting really happened tho. Mi grandparents came to town, we went to perkins with them. Then i came home and attempted to ride mi motor scooter that goes like 30 mph but it scares the shit outof me sinc ei wreked on it on Christmas day. So i decided to come inside and go on mi computer... so thats what i have been doin for like 3 hrs...fun..fun..fun. omg the emo game is sooo fun i wooped that games ass the other day, everyone should play it!! www.emogame.com Go there!! its fun, yah tomorrows new years eve and i have no idea what the heck im gonna do. i think ill probaly chill with zack, danny and teddy! it will be fun. I hope.i dunno what were gonna do tho. oh well, i wish someone would come online right now like none is on and its pissing me off cause i want to talk to someone!!!!ahh yes mi lover teddy bear came on i think i will im him!! thats all for now.. i think ill go and talk to teddy now,

whooo hooo this is mi first entry..so exciting..well i guess not. so today is Monday i went to teddybears at like 4:00. Danny and Zack were there. we fucked around and did a whole lot of nothing. then we decided to go to the moives, there we met with ashlie, tina and tina's boyfriend. danny was suposed to see Stuck on you with me teddy and Zack but he ditched us so he could chat with ashlie the whole time... its ok i still wub u!! hehee it was a really funny movie.. for a while i thought i lost mi retainer so i went and walked around to look for it and when i was comming back i found it right in the doorway to the theatre, so thats good. It's really expensive to replace them!!.
After that we walked around and i had an obsession with gwtting somthing with whipped cream on top but then wheni finally got money from beging "the Bear" i decided to get icecream instead.. I dont no Y? oh well.. over all it was a really super night!!! tomorrow mi grandparents are gonna be here so if u cant reach me thats why,sry in advance,,hehe .. i love u teddy!!! bye everyone!