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:: 2003 3 January :: 12.27 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Weezer Only in Dreams :)

stranger then a gang of drunken mimes
Thought this was fun. :)
1. In my backpack, you would most likely find...
a large, six-eyed monster. Don't tempt me to open it.

2. Make a saving throw versus poison.
Don't tempt me to ram that poison down your throat.
(the funny thing is I know what this means... be afraid!!) Should have picked..Hah. I have armor that gives me +2 immunity to poison, your puny weapons can't hurt me.

3. My goal in life is...
to hurt you. Severely. Come here.

Just thought these options where funny. :) Had a great break.. have fun kids.






Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You?
quiz, by Angel.

1 Smashy? | Step in a Mellow


:: 2002 15 December :: 1.53 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Rob Zombie. :P

Of three things be wary, of a feather on a cat, a shephard eating mutton and the gaurdsman who is fat.

pic of the day Michele-art. This is Starla. Crazy kitty.

Gah! Holidays suck! I just see little reason for it. I mean, sure, giving gifts is fun.. but then there's that little bastard of a nice person who buys you a gift and you're standing their with their gift in your hands, stuttering thank yous while you try to come up with some exuse as to where their present is. I say fuckitalltohell. I'm sick of it. Last year I spent over $250 on people. This year I'm making alot of presents because I can't afford to buy them and my dickwhad brother decides that he doesn't want the present I have for him unless it cost more then the present I got him last year. Well, that's easy.. I got him a huge box of nerds from Sam's Club for $5. But that's not why I rant and rave. Oh no. My brother, the little money leach. Gah. No more.. I'll quit. Happy holidays kids. And don't be upset if you don't get anything from me. I still love you and my religion prevents me from handing out gifts. :P I think.


This is me.. get over it. :)




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:: 2002 20 November :: 4.56 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Fight song in FFVIII.. Thanx alot Drew..

I like the word.. dickcissel.

pic of the day Michele-art. This is Starla. Crazy kitty.

OKÖ So itís been forever since Iíve left my loyal fans an actual, substantial account of my life.

Sorry bout the last post.. shit happens yaí know? Anyway.. so here I am.. still in school. The semester is almost over. Iíve been involved in quite a few D&D games. The Monday/Wednesday game is my favorite. Iím in that with Andrew ("Lock Smith"), Kanani (Persephony or "the broad"), Eric (Dante), Ben (Ariss), Ben (Koote Gnome), and of course the game master who takes many names and forms. In this game Iím playing a fifteen year old half elf named Starla. She was raised in a brothel with her mother. Dante is actually her half brother but they havenít discovered that yet. So shhhh. Just yesterday we decided that she has a nightly curse of kitty ears and a tail. Fun stuff. I love that game. Daveís game is promising to be interesting to. I really look forward to playing it again. Erinís game can suck my imaginary cock. "THE WOLF BITES YOU!" *Glare.. * Samantha calls the Humane Society and has the wolf put downÖ AhemÖ sorry. Right!

So Iíve rebelled against the happy pills. They muddle my mind. I donít think nearly as clear as I used to because of them. So now I take them every other day instead of every morning. It works out that way.

Iím lonely. And I have no idea why. I think what I really want is a secure source of loviní. Not Nutmeg.. I love him too.. but.. just.. yeah. Back on track. Depression is good for the artwork. I have new stuff by the way.. check it out.

Oh yeah!! J Iíve seen Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets twice now! I love that movie.


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:: 2002 24 October :: 3.45 pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: Do you hate her cause she's pieces of you?

I'm a terrible person.

Step in a Mellow


:: 2002 15 October :: 11.24 am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: We are everyday angels, be careful with us cause we'd like to stay that way,

I was thinking, that it might do some good, to rob the senate and steal all their food.

QUIZ BY ME OF ME

{x} Fallen for your best friend? er.. John?? Does that count??
{x} Made out with JUST a friend? er... shhhhhh
{x} Been rejected? but of course. Something has to slash down my self importance.
{x} Been in love? couple of times. It's just a chemical after all.
{x} Been in lust? Mmmmm One of my more preferred chemicals :P raow!
{x} Used someone? everyone has to some extent or another.
{x} Been used? see above question
{x} Cheated on someone? My freshman year in highschool I went on a cheeting spree. There's really no point to it.
{x} Been cheated on? Only recently.. I suppose. It's no fun.
{x} Done something you regret? Don't regret!! LEARN!

Who was the last person...
{x} You touched? Eric! The brat was tickling me! I'll get you yet.. I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE!!
{x} You talked to? er.. the lunch lady?? If IMs count then John
{x} You hugged? heh.. Prince's Royal Guard Josh. :)
{x} You instant messaged? John
{x} You kissed? Two questions up.
{x} You yelled at? Eric of course. What's tickling without yelling?
{x} You laughed with? Peggi, Eric, Kanani and Matt. We were watching Anime and having fun. :P

are you/do you....
{x} Considered a life of crime? Nawh.. I'm too boring.
{x} Considered being a hooker? LOL You mean I can get paid?!?!
{x} Considered being a pimp? According to my neighbor, Krista, I already am.
{x} Are you psycho? Um... best to ask the experts.
{x} Schizophrenic? Sometimes. We tend to argue about it though.
{x} Obsessive? But of Course! I wouldn't be such a packrat/stalker/zoo keeper/freak if I wasn't.
{x} Obsessive compulsive? wee fun
{x} Anxiety? nope
{x} Depressed? Yay for happy pills!
{x} Suicidal? Er... if I don't have my happy pills I can get that way.
{x} Obsessed with hate? Nope
{x} Understanding: Try to be
{x} Open-minded: bah, I'm the deffinition of ~*~ Insert somethig clever here ~*~
{x} Arrogant: I tend to hang with the peacocks.. and birds of a feather flock together.. so even though I don't think so.. I'm sure I am to some extent.
{x} Insecure: Only with guys.. damn my hormones
{x} Hungry:Just finished some fake chinese food and feelin fine :P
{x} Friendly: Indeed
{x} Smart: Like to think so
{x} Moody: Usually people think of moody in a bad way. This definition does not fit me in the least! However I do switch moods quite often and this makes me moody. Ask about the Trinity/Sugarpeep/Feather ratios in me.
{x} Childish: RAA SUGARPEEP! Ask her.. she'll tell ya.
{x} Independent: RAAA TRINITY!... what a bitch though.
{x} Hard working: HA!! Hardly working you mean! Work should be play.
{x} Organized: In my own chaotic way, yes.
{x} Healthy: as far as I'm concerned.
{x} Emotionally Stable: Need I refer to the happy pills again?
{x} Shy: Indeed. Shy about me.. I usually bring out the SugarPeep artillary though.
{x} Difficult: Absolutely. For the sake of argument and just plain amusement.
{x} Attractive: In my own way. I like to think that my personality is prettier.. but I've never really asked.
{x} Bored Easily: I can always find something to do :P
{x} Responsible: Depends on what you're blaming me for.. *wary glare*

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:: 2002 15 October :: 10.19 am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Please be careful with me, I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way.

Weeeeeee weekend

pic of the day

So, I can honestly say I just had the best weekend of my life. It started out Friday at 10 when my math class got out an hour early. Can't bitch about that. I thought I'd wander over to the Renaissance Faire to see if they had started setting up yet. Indeed they were! I helped set up the jail and ended up wandering over to the Shiabruck reenactment group. I sat and chatted with them for a while. And as it turned out they didn't have a queen and asked if I wanted to be the queen for the weekend. How fun is that?! So of course I agreed. I would. I was so excited I lost sleep over it :P
SO the next morning I got all dressed up in my prom dress from last spring and a duster with my blue silk purse from china and wandered over there. The whole place was all set up with colorful tents, venders and fearies. It was as if you'd stepped into a section of the past. There were pirates, mythical beasts, scotts in kilts, and a mass of other critters and characters. The king and I (along with our royal gaurds) spent the foggy morning shopping. I picked up a cloak, a feathery fan, and the kings own gaurd got me a rabbit fur which I added two to.
At one we went to court where we were recognised by the royalty of Grand Valley. The princess was kidnaped by the pirates because she ordered their ship to be towed and cubed. After that the king had me put in jail for having too much fun. My punishment was to do the chicken dance and sing... twice.. I screeched and squacked just to get let go.
So, I put the king in jail for having to much fun torturing his queen. I had to flog him 5 times with a cat'o'nine tails. That was rather akward. So he had me put in jail for humiliating the king. I had to beg his forgiveness and kiss his toes... ew.. Somewhere in there I had my friend Cole beheaded for insulting the crown. That was fun.
So, Kanani (my lady in waiting/princess/sorsoress) and I wandered about a bit more. I had to stop by my room and had a personal gaurd escort me. (In full gaurb.. how fun!) We came back and wandered about some more before I was blessed. Apparently I was Vile, Disgusting, worse then the scumm on the bottom of the preistess's boots, and PUUUUUUUUUUUTRID! Thanx again to the king... Then he challenged me to a dual where I was promptly killed. And all this in one day.
Sunday was quite abit less eventful but still exciting for me. I had lined the hood of my cloak the night before with fur and I'm glad I did. It was so cold. After a bit of thought (and much flirting) the Prince's Royal Gaurd and I decided to run off. Can you blaim me?? He's too cute! So I guess that makes me a heratic and excommunicated from the church. Not that I don't already qualify for that. And that was my weekend. My cheeks still hurt from smiling so much.
Oh yeah! I love muh DEGU!! Kanani and I snuck him in. Shhhhhh. He likes it here I think.
On a general note, school is peachy. I oughta pick up the slack in math or I'm in trouble. Doin fine in chinese.

Mreep! My Pals! Nova, Syris, Vantid, Eldarath, Gonard, and Nauta Ceta. You all mean so much to me :)

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:: 2002 3 September :: 9.51 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: merf.. don't recall what the title is.

Summers gone and done

pic of the day

So summer's over.. I started college. It's.. strangely like highschool but with more homework. The algebra still sucks.. :P Anyway..
Mixed feelings about this summer. The times I saw John probably are what pulled me through. I think Karen is nuts.. but hell.. we all knew that. The time spent at home damn neer broke me. I went through two jobs! Whoo! Workin at the theater and then as a secretary. I can't say I'll miss either. The money was a nice bonus though. :P Right so.. artwork has been delayed: blame Grand Valley.Wrists are scratched up: blame the.. cat.. BASTERD CAT!! *Ahem*

Right so.. yesterday I took the boat from Manatowac (sp?) It was quite interesting. We had 'rough seas' and there were alot of sick people. I stayed up top and ducked the spray from the waves. Unfortunately.. I have coal in places I didn't think possible.. ears.. nose.. = no fun.. the fun level is like this _____. But.. that's besides the point.. which I'm not sure what it is anymore.

MY DEGU IS GONE!! :( I miss him. But since I couldn't take him to college with me.. I guess it's better that he has a home that can give him the attention he needs. Anyway.. gonna go get food then harass the highschoolers :)

Mreep! My Pals! Nova, Syris, Vantid, Eldarath, Gonard, and Nauta Ceta. You all mean so much to me :)

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:: 2002 17 July :: 8.56 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: some evil wrath type music

Peep Wars!

pic of the day again.. I must love him or something... Yay for Blue dragons... really.. just this one. :)

So.. I'm mainly posting this because of the peep wars.

Background: SugarPeep is an animate mallow gryphon peep made of fluffed sugar and other such ilk. She can not be destroyed. Nothing works. When melted each particle of the peep forms into a new whole.. like those funny looking cross eyed worms (planaria).
SugarPeep is part of the Gryphon's Guild, where she met Syris, (a crazey artist gryphon with a rabid sock puppet and a love for comics) So.. this was bound to happen.


Battle One
Battle Two
Battle Three
Battle Four
Battle Five and Final

So those are the peep wars.. silly eh? Maybe someday I'll fight syris again :P


"Three things know a secret--first, the lady in a dream, the dog that barks no warning and the maid that does not scream." ~Threes
"Holding so hard to the ax I forgot how to let go."~Ironrose

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:: 2002 15 July :: 11.00 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: da da da dee da


pic of the day. Yay for Blue dragons... really.. just this one. :)
So.. I just recently got back from two fantastic weeks with John. It was all I had hoped for and more. And now he's off to europe.. and that makes me sad.. and lonely. Before there was always the feeling of "at least I can talk to him if I want" now even that is gone.. but.. it is only temperary. So.. I'll just have to drown myself in books, art, and video games. (as is customary)

Today I "met" my room mate. I really just talked to her over the phone. She seems nice enough.. but I'm always wary of new people. I'm sure we'll get along.

I like my mommy's horsey. He's really cool.

And why is it that my friends seem to think that I enjoy hanging out with them and their boyfriends? Even after I tell them that I hate it... I really question the q-tips that they use...

I'm excited to move out of here.. six weeks.. a little less.. I'm counting it down..



"Three things know a secret--first, the lady in a dream, the dog that barks no warning and the maid that does not scream." ~Threes
"Holding so hard to the ax I forgot how to let go."~Ironrose

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:: 2002 10 June :: 3.56 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Greenday :)

So the whole ordeal was just a huge misunderstanding. I feel stupid for getting so worked up over nothng.. but this is how I am.. :P

So Karen and I are gonna go to Canada. No reason. Maybe it's Stef inspired. *Shrug*

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:: 2002 10 June :: 1.02 am

Stupid Servey.. that I feel I must do.
past
first grade teacher's name: I dunno.. she liked sheep.
last words you said: I typed.. TrinityDarksun: eh.. he screamed at me.. I screamed at him.. he inherited a car I can't drive
last song you sang: Everyday is a winding road..
what's in your cd player: enya, limp bizket, tombraider soundtrack, spiderman soundtrack, Matrix.
what color socks are you wearing: invisable ones.
what's under your bed: erm.. you don't wanna know.. if I don't know.
what time did you wake up today: 10:34 six minutes before my allarm clock.

future
where do you want to go: Anyplace but here.
what is your career going to be: something I like..
where are you going to live: Africa.. maybe..
how many kids do you want: I hate children
what kind of car will you have: african elephant?

current mood: I tend to hate everything right now.
current music: sheryl crow
current taste: apple pie and icecream..
current hair: pony tail
current clothes: shorts.. undies.. bra.. tank top.
current annoyance: ex.. it's inherant
current smell: Cool breeze
current longing: understanding and to be loved..
current desktop picture: would be a big pink gryph...
current favorite artist: Nova woffie
current book: Footprints of Thunder. (yay for chaos!)
current colour of toenails: clear
current worry: my suspicions come true
current crush: only one matters :) And he's so much more then a crush. current time: 1:14am
current wish: I wish I were far far far far away from here.. Here being this planet..
current hate: my life
current situation: the tears have dried on my cheeks, leaving that sticky feeling, my eyes hurt.. my head hurts.. but otherwise I'm just peachy fucking keen. >:P

1. what's the story behind your username? Mallows will fly...
2. name five of your favorite foods: lobster.. chocolate cake.. fish.. crab, chocolate anything, karen's ka-bobs.
3. have you ever had a makeover? I was painted as a tiger once.
4. what's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where? 2 1/2 weeks in China
5. one thing you're grateful for today? the sun came up.. and I love my degu.

Step in a Mellow


:: 2002 10 June :: 12.43 am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: Tiny Dancer~ Elton John



pic of the day. Nova art again. ^^ I'm not a fan.. no way no how!


Right.. so right now I'm a mix of being pissed off and depressed.. It was one hellofa day today.. fighting with my dad about a car I can't drive.. going to work for 7 hours (need I say more) then I get to come home and read John's live journal. (You know... John.. the guy I love entirely too much for my own good)...I was excited.. till I got to his first post at the second paragraph. See his journal "here". Yeah.. so I'm that good friend and not the best girl in the world. I understand that he was probably trying to cheer his friend up.. but it upsets me that this guy says he loves me.. and I believe it.. and he doesn't even care to say that we're boyfriend and girlfriend. How proud he must be. Great.. now I'm crying... Anyway.. I thought I might be over re-acting.. so I asked a friend.. told her the situation and she says "if i had a guy who treated me the way he treats you and then found out he only thought of me as a good friend .. i'd be mad." And then I do get mad.. because I think about it.

It's very hard for me to trust males because of sever past experiances that I'd rather not ever talk about. (Those of you who know.. feel lucky.. there's all of three of you) It hurts me to know that this guy.. that I finally trust.. doesn't care enough about me to feel confident in posting in his journal that we're dating. It hurts.. alot.. And now I'm not so sure I want to go see him anymore. And I was so looking forward to it. So now if you don't all mind.. I think I'll go cry myself to sleep since the only good this is doing me is exercising my tear glands. I'll just make a quick refrence to Febuary 17th's post, second paragraph.

F*ck off and don't tell me to cheer up.. it never works.


"Three things know a secret--first, the lady in a dream, the dog that barks no warning and the maid that does not scream." ~Threes
"Holding so hard to the ax I forgot how to let go."~Ironrose

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:: 2002 4 June :: 12.36 pm
:: Mood: Reflective
:: Music: Spiderman Soundtrack

Josh is stupid!!!

pic of the day.
Yay for Nam-art.. Too bad she's such a bitch.

Anyway. So here I am. Finally making another post. I'm bored off my ass and needed something to do. I felt like going on a killing spree.. but that feeling faded.. now I feel more like this.. Hurah for sunsets.

I'm finally seeing a psychologist. She thinks that the reason that I get episodes of depression is because of when I moved here. That doesn't suprize me though. I do hate it here. As a result, I'm gonna go to Copper Harbor in the UP for two weeks to see how I like it there. I just want to get out of here. To get away from all the stupid people that are so sure that their lives are the center of the universe and that the world will stop turning without them. This town has a serious ego problem that seems to apply to damn neer everyone. I only have.. maybe two people in mind that apply to the not ego centric list.

Things have gotten better between Karen and I. Which is good. It's still not the same.. but it's better. I found that once I stopped trying to change the relationship and just let it flow.. things got better instantly.

Graduation was hot and uncofortable. A whole ordeal I could have lived without. But it's over with.

I got a car. :) It's the cutest damn thing. And a classic to boot. Well, almost. It has one year to go, then it's a classic. If you're interested in seeing a pic of a very simmilar car, e-mail me at Trinitydarksun@aol.com. (Mine's a 78 toyota corolla delux, the pic I have is just a 78 toyota corolla. NO DELUX FOR YOU!!) It's the color.. of. slightly cooked marsh-mallows. How appropriate for me! I intend to fill the inside with pinkness so it can be the raspberry cream puff. But! All of this is delayed until I can learn to drive a stick.

I love degus. Mine was being a brat yesterday.



"Three things know a secret--first, the lady in a dream, the dog that barks no warning and the maid that does not scream." ~Threes
"Holding so hard to the ax I forgot how to let go."~Ironrose

Elfwood Artwork
Email or chat with me:
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:: 2002 13 May :: 1.53 am
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Spider Man.. the old verson

Here's a suprize...



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:: 2002 29 April :: 6.00 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: Enya~ Orinico Flow


pic of the day. NOVA!! I wubbist Nova art.
So.. That pic just perfectly portrays my emotions right now. I'ma mess! Karen wants me to go to prom with her and Andy and four other peeps.. So.. I suppose I ought to find a date.. but who?? Life would be so much easier if the world weren't so damned shy and afraid of what people think! *sigh* course.. I'm a hippo-critter for saying that.. cause I'm chicken shit too. One thing I'll always appreciate... is chocolate.. it's my friend.. all the time. That and swordfish steak..which I have had a recent obsession with.
On another note... ever get so pissed off at someone you love that you could destroy their mental state and send them into depression.. but you don't dare say anything cause you really care about them? That sucks..
Then for some reason.. Andy, my ex from forever and another state ago, has decided he needs to be my personal councilor.. What's up with that?? Not that I really mind a whole lot. I need more people I can talk to.
I worry about our dog Keesha. She's old and I think she might be sick.. and my family litterally treats her like a welcome mat because it hurts her so much to stand and move.
I love Degus. :)


"Three things know a secret--first, the lady in a dream, the dog that barks no warning and the maid that does not scream." ~Threes
"Holding so hard to the ax I forgot how to let go."~Ironrose

Elfwood Artwork
Email or chat with me:
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More Art stuff..


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