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2005 10 December :: 5.18pm
i'd say i don't care anymore. i think i want that to happen cause i'm not doing a very good job. why can't i have two or three? who says that's wrong? i'm still not over all those stupid things either. it's like it wasn't almost two years ago.
and it's official. again. christmas is horrible. it's so dumb. i don't want presents. i don't want trees or lights or family or friends. i want to do something good for someone who needs me. NOT because it's christmas, but because i should be a good person all year. then maybe i can feel decent. i miss my peepers. i think they're the only thing i don't hate.
i hate everything. la la la lala.
and the paranoia is coming back. good times.
so sad. meh. nothing makes sense. i'm contemplating jumping off a bridge. head's up.
love,
useless.
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2005 9 December :: 11.05am
ha ha ha ha i'm homie home home home homies.
just hanging out with griffin and tyrone and apollo. it's good stuff.
i love being here so much. i'm all alone all day and i'm watching boston public. best show ever.
i don't even feel sad. i like school, but i'm not overly attached to anything.
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2005 7 December :: 11.43pm
my last night in 120 shilling. it's good. everyone is being so cute and nice. i wish it had been like this the whole time. ahh. life.
going home tomorrow. my goodness. i'm so excited.
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2005 6 December :: 9.03pm
algebra final finished. i can say that i paid attention, never skipped class, passed all of my tests, did all of my homework, asked questions.
i even though i understood most of it.
that's never happened before.
so if i don't pass we can finally say that i don't get it. and then i can take it again.
or drop out of life. whatever.
and if i do pass. . .hmmm. it's cause for celebration because i can't even add in my head. or count.
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2005 2 December :: 1.07pm
some people make me so sad. if you're drunk at 1 in the morning and wake everyone up and get written up for it you should probably just go to hell. cause i'm sick and even if i wasn't i wouldn't want to be woken up at 1 in the freaking morning.
i almost passed out in target yesterday. that was fun.
and i'm kind of sad to be moving out. christan is being very cool.
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2005 28 November :: 10.12pm
there is a violence in me.
anger and resentment all the time. uhhhhhhh.
i'm sorry sorry sorry. i pray all the time, but i don't think i'm doing it right cause i don't feel any better or changed.
and avoiding the situation? is that good or bad? is it right to sit here in the tension and the silence wishing i could not be so mad.
ok.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2005 28 November :: 4.04pm
:: Music: motion city-when you're around
sssoooo. tizzle was gizzle. more like grizzle though.
i think i love kids. seriously. i thought i hated the sixth graders, but i don't. even the ones that i thought hated me don't really. they make me feel good even when i don't do anything. and they make me feel weird because i don't remember much of being 11. i don't know exactly how to treat them, but still. . .i'm in complete and total awe.
and the preschoolers are so great and sweet and smart. i love them. if i were a kidnapper my tiny little room would be full of little kids. that sounds kind of sick. that's okay.
ho ho ho. i love cheese its. but you know what i hate?
Nextel Phones. They are stupid and also dumb and redundent. I hate them so much I want to smash them into the ground. No one wants to hear your stupid conversations or that stupid ugly chirping noise. and you don't have to talk so loud. no one cares that much. What is the point of having a walkie talkie unless you're on some kind of crazy mission to save the world. but you're not saving the world, you're annoying me please die in a horrible accident.
chirp chirp die. i will bury your grandchildren.
i'm moving out of my room with jenna skenna. she is nice and isn't stupid and doesn't have a nextel. i won't have to cut myself anymore. and she lives on the cool third floor. i can get away from chuck and all the gansta wanstas.
i love robots, puzzles and jake huizenga.
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2005 27 November :: 4.15pm
my stomach hurts now. i think i left my english folder at home, but how could i have done that? i remember packing it.
everything isn't shitty and still i want to throw up and die.
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2005 15 November :: 12.18pm
here's a warning for everyone. don't hang out with AARON DANIEL COHEN. not only does he listen to the backstreet boys and billy joel, he has really dumb ideas and makes people cry.
but only i can say that because he's my dumb brother and i love him*
*sometimes.
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2005 13 November :: 10.44pm
I wanna be I wanna be like that mountain
I wanna stand taller and bigger than rest
See I just wanna be a guy who wins all the time
I wanna be a big star a king and rule my own life
And God I know that it's wrong
So please just make my heart right
Inside and destroy my pride
_the rocket summer
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2005 9 November :: 10.55am
so this is one of those days where everything feels kind of crappy and i can't work up any gratefulness.
andrea and alli got me to skip aerobics. that's okay with me as long as i don't do it next week.
but seriously. i woke up in such a bad mood this morning.
my roomate is so dumb.
she woke me up no less than five times last night. it's usually only twice.
but here's the deal. every tuesday my floor goes out for chicken strips at the roadhouse. i don't like to go because they come back to late and i have to get up at 7 on wednesdays. so i'm up in my bed reading and you can't see me very well from the floor. chuck comes in and wonders asks where i am and christian says the lounge because she knew i didn't want to go. i thought she was just covering me like a good roomate.
but maybe she's just stupid and didn't know i was in my bed. she's like that. so she leaves to somewhere, i don't know where and i didn't really care. except that she left the tv on which is why i don't think she knew i was there, but you never know. she's pretty rude.
then i called her to see if she was coming back. but she didn't take her phone. i decided to turn the tv off anyway.
i went to bed around 10:45
at 12:30 ish i get a phone call. from ole' roomie. i didn't answer it because i was sleeping.
But then. . .i hear my voicemail from my room.
ummm?
Then christan starts talking and leaving a message for her sister on my phone because she thought she got a new phone.
we don't even have the same area codes. and my voice mail says 'this is sarah'
so this means she isn't paying attention to my phone ringing or hear sarah or reconize an area code and she didn't put my number in her phone when i gave it to her a month ago.
and then she calls again so i turn my phone off. and then she woke me up from moving around and lights and stuff like that.
i'm being so mean. but i don't even care. she drives me crazy.
And then this morning we had to have a debate in english about globalization. does that make sense? everyone was just making stuff up and one person in my group didn't even understand her topic and was getting all mad when the judges called her out on it.
Here are some good things though
I made my schedual early because they still think i'm in the honors college
i love jake huizenga
i don't think i even have to write paper five in english
that's it.
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2005 3 November :: 12.04am
oh yes. score and a half for me.
who got a 95 percent on their math pretest??
hmmmm???!
AND ALSO STARTED MY JOBBIE???
me. that's who.
i'm so awesome you can't even stand it.
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2005 1 November :: 1.12pm
alright. good times. i didn't know you little guys would work so fast, but i'm already feeling it.
ABCDEEE. ha ha ha ha.
that one's for my sunshine/robot!
yay for everything!
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2005 31 October :: 11.36am
:: Music: early november-ever so sweet
i think i have become the biggest lowlife ever.
eh.
but i'm changing right now.
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2005 30 October :: 4.43pm
:: Mood: shame
:: Music: lumberjack song
there is nothing better than sitting here with my cat.
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