2004 17 December :: 3.08 pm
:: Mood: impressed
:: Music: radio
and ive crossed your mind?
blah blah blahhh ..
nothing to say -- theres my update. blahh.
my niggas <3
its all in your goodbyes
2004 12 December :: 11.15 am
:: Mood: ew
:: Music: the used
you know you hate when you see the same thing in one person that you hated in another. and all along you were thinking it was different, no way there could be two of them. and then you start to think, maybe its not them - maybe its me. because what are the chances of it happening twice? pretty slim if you ask me. which leads me to my mood of 'ew'. i dont like to think that its me but its a possibility and thats whats gay. and nobody knows what im talking about unless you were there, and nobody was there. so dont worry about it. im not even gonna bother with it. its no big deal - i mean im trying not to make it a big deal. but it keeps coming up so how does that make anything easier. its ridiculous. im beginning to hate this 'seen this once before' bullshit. .. and people say they wanna try new things. ha! how can you if the same thing is everywhere you go! or you bring that thing with you! either wayyyy.. urrr.
but anyway, this is kind of gay to say and to hear. but i was told that if i was angry about something that nobody knew about - therefore i couldnt vent - to go bake a cake. and it just so happens that we have cake mix and what not. so i am going to do that and take your word for it. ykwyr ;). oh yeah, im likin my new layout. even though i did it only yesterday out of boredum. hmm i wonder why? .. i hate the way people treat people anymore, i swear. but, until whenever i feel like updating again, im gone.
aw man we got school tomorrow. im sick of that shit too!! well, at least christmas is comin up. =)
1 never thought wed make it out alive |
its all in your goodbyes
2004 11 December :: 1.47 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: uo
havent touched this in a while
its been way long since i updated this. well i did on my birthday and that wasnt even a week ago. by like a day it will be.. but it wasnt an update. it was everyone sayin happy birthday to me. .. anyway. i dont know.. nothins really new. the party was nuts -- mad people showed up. i had alot of fun even with the 'drama' .. so its like 2 o clock right now. im just sittin here .. doin nothin. its raining .. woo
lately ive been doin NOTHIN soo .. the only thing i did was go out thursday. ants sister picked me kate sam ant and jenna up from school. we all got dropped off at ant's. got changed into 'dirty jersey' clothes.. as i was saying lol. and then after that we met up with jason and colby and started walkin. tweet caught up to us on his bike after a little bit and we all kept on walkin to calabrese. someone kicked the football into the street and some mercedes was drivin by and hit it and it went flyin. i was like.. dayyyyumm. lol. so it was raining cold rain and maddd people still showed up. got all muffed up and muddy. tackled a few people. yess =). gay thing: I DIDNT EVEN GET PICKED. I WAS THE LAST PERSON AND I WAS JUST THROWN ONTO TWEET'S TEAM. GAY AS FUCKIN HELL. I SERIOUSLY WAS ABOUT TO SIT IT OUT. WTF IS THAT GUYS?? .. ew.
well im mad tired, im about to sleep more. im seriously sick from all that rain. i was sick before i got there and then i just got sicker. so im hacken up alot of shit right now. haha. its soo gross. im about to go smoke haha. jk .. it would hurt so bad if i did cus my throat is like gone. =\ .. i need more cds burned guys .. anyone, anyone?
im out | laterr
its all in your goodbyes
2004 5 December :: 11.06 am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: hawthorne heights
its my birthday!! =P
hmmm.. the party was this weekend. alllottttt of shit happend.. hahahaha. but no matter what i had fun. i love you peeps lol.. nigga wtf is juice?! .. hahaha yessssss. cant wait till next year.....or next one? .. maybe new years? ..=O .. did you guys have fun?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE HAHA --
GotGasInMyBlood5: happy birthday!
Ride An SnM: happy birthday!
lFullCollapse: happy birthday Valencia Amiel? Amato
KatiePimpstress: aww HAPPY BDAY!
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Phat 31198: happy the day that you came out of the womb and got smacked on the ass by an old man day
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ShAdYViLle139: happy birthday my nigg
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littLe biG x kiD: happy birthday punk:-)
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o sweet x misery: happy birthday vee i love you soo freakin much
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joeboxxer08: happy birthday sexy!!!!!!!!
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Certified828: happy bday hunny
Causeway2nowhere: happy birthday vEE!!!!!!!!!!!
Causeway2nowhere: woo wooo
thats all for now. .. im sure ill have more by tonite. .. later <3
16 .. whaaaaat yeahhhhh okkaayyyyy!
its all in your goodbyes
2004 25 November :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: sick and tired
:: Music: underoath
i feel like tearing it open tonight, tonight.
just got home from my gg's.. wasnt really PLANNIN on goin since im crazy sick but yeah, i guess it turned out that way. i went to bed at like, i dont know, say 12:3O last night. and i kept waking up every hour choking on my spit. it was disgusting. so yea, i couldnt sleep. ended up getting on here at like fuckin 9 in the morning. talked to my mom for like an hour -- fuckkkkk i gotta call her..anyway .. um whenever i was done talking to her i went back to sleep because i didnt feel good. woke up like every 2O minutes cus i was havin trouble breathing =\.. then i woke up for good at like.. i dont know.. like 12. .. talked on here a little. got in the shower by like 2:3O and then when i got out and ready and all. left to go to my gg's. got there around 4 and stayed until .. 8:3O .. got home around 9. now im drinking my tea haha. .. well just got off the phone wiht my mom too .. shes moving up here? .. [haaaa] .. ANYWAY.. im goin .. cus i had the intention of making it a good update but theres nothin to say .. laterr
partys in a week --- give me your 3 bucks by tuesday so i can go get the stuff!!.. its better to pay ahead bc then i can get it before hand .. if everyone pays at the door, you lose 2 bucks and youll be here before the drinks and all .. thatll be gay. GIVE ME 3 BUCKSS AHEAD OF TIMEEEE.. wooo im almost 16!!!!!!!!!!!!! .. gettin a car this time next year! HOLY SHITT !!! =D..
its all in your goodbyes
2004 22 November :: 12.02 am
:: Mood: feverish
:: Music: ---
lets get retarded in here .. ?
man tylenol is such a life saver <3
well yea my last update was ..well. alot of bs news. and no, i havent gotten any of my shit back. but i found 2 things that i thought were stolen.. a pair of socks..gay ones. and a cd. .. wow. thats not even like a percentage of the shit taken. but w.e. they all deff got theres comin. but then again, i say that, yeah .. but i still want my shit back. whether they die or not. and its reallll gay like.. i get a song in my head and wanna listen to the cd .. but oh wait..thats right. i CANT bc i dont own it anymore..........reall fuckin gay.
might as well update about what ive been up to..
just the weekend --
wait..what did i do?
no monday i did something --
went to my aunts with sam to watch the eagles kick dallas's ass =). good game haha. hung out with my cuz yO.. lol leeshaaa hahaha .. yesss. had fun had fun haha. i love that house <3
tues-thurs .. nothin
..dont remember at all. haha .. tried to get sam to come here but she didnt..
SATURDAY: <--day i did shit! finally! lol
sam came over and we chilled and around..6:3O we got dropped off at tweets for a fireeeee. yessss.. at first it was pretty bad. like so much tension cus tweet was mad and just.. yeah. made things really .. awkward. sam was mad.. everyone was mad adn then all the happy ppl were annoying everyone else.. so it was like UGHHHHH kill a bitch! tension haha. it was cool tho.. all the happy ppl ended up leavin.. [ well ant and kate left before this to go eat cake =P mm cakkkeee ] and THEN all the happy ppl left.. so it was cool after then. ended up bein me sam tweet this kid alan and dave.. just chillin under the 'lean to' haha .. talkin. bs'in haha. .. uhmm idk.. the thing fell on tweet hahaha poor guy. and dave with the fuckin tractor hahahahahha "i gotta practice..".. then standin up and riding it.. haha.. anddd he came back from goin alone to get wood jsut to ask someone to come with him bc it was 'scary' haha .. and idk. the horse fartin.. oh geeze.. and bein RIGHT there when we had to walk that way..fuckkk that and *walks the other way* hahahaha ohh mann. good times good times lol.. "hey girlfriend" hahahahaha fuckin PIZZA guy was on like... the herb or somethin hahahahahahahahha omg i love it hahahahahah that was soooo fuckin funny sam haha. damnnn.. phew.. tear* haha. anyywhooo um.. idk. me and sam are good at the mating call for the goats! andd idk
once again, another dramatic weekend. pshhhht its gettin OLD biAtchs!!
soo tired.....oOo .. i experimented with me and sams hair. hahaha =X
YO IM STILL MAD ABOUT THESE CUNTS STEALIN MY SHIT!!!!sdkjfak!J9d8sf9asdkfjsdklfa9898 >:O
2 never thought wed make it out alive |
its all in your goodbyes
2004 14 November :: 12.17 pm
:: Mood: yea go die
:: Music: hawthorne heights
why im so angry..
well .. i deff dont feel like retyping this so heres the first convos i have. the best versions of the story on record.
[ 11.13.O4 ]
lFullCollapse (1:13:30 PM): whats wrong?
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (1:13:30 PM): :'(
lFullCollapse is away at 1:14:37 PM.
VoicE x unhEard (2:53:28 PM): i was at sams last nite and my step mom ashley and that kid were here .. and when i got home this morning i noticed a lighter that was DEFF up in my room in my drawer before i left was downstairs on the coffee table .. so i went and checked my room and in the drawer to see if maybe theyjust hadt he same lighter..yea no it was my lighter and my bowl was missin .. so i went and looked in my step moms room [ cus all them are at a funeral or they were when this shit happend] and i didnt find it..so i came back up here and noticed my fuckin walkman was gone..and i looked up and like my whole cd thing was EMPTY.. so i started flippin out cryin and shit.. my dad was downstairs on the phonetalkin to ashleys dad tryna find out who that kid was and all .. then i went tosee if anything else was missin and alli found was like.. perfume and clothes of mine..and last nite we were on at sams and i wasnt idle anymore..so they were in my room around like at least 11 - 3 am.. its fuckin bs. i fuckin punched my door and i think i broke my hand its hard as hell typin this so .. anyway called the cops ..cus um thats like 5OO$ of MY SHIT missing.. i mean she aint even supposed to be here let alone in my room ..shoppin .. basically. we went to teh police station and got a restraining order on her and she has to give my shit back.. so its done. .. but like..how fucked up is that.. she fuckin went in my room and took w.e she wanted..fuckin CUNT .. and i would fight her if she fuckin showed up here today but my hand is too messed up
Auto response from lFullCollapse (2:53:30 PM): cross out my eyes
i know you planned it
you know i love you
and i can't stand it
VoicE x unhEard (2:56:42 PM): and yeah its over shes fuckin leavin FiNALLY but..fuckin ashley still went and took my fuckin shit and ughhhhhh im so fuckin pissed off. at first it was just like.. wow wtf cryin..nwo its like go fuckin die you cunt bag ..who does that??????????? ughhhhh .. and i seriously hope theres nothin wrong with my hand
lFullCollapse (2:58:42 PM): thats really fucked up
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (2:58:42 PM): fuck this shit fuckin cunts
lFullCollapse returned at 2:58:42 PM.
lFullCollapse (2:59:05 PM): ahsley is your sister that was at the one party?
lFullCollapse (2:59:34 PM): but you need to chill with all this" im going to fight you" shit because your goin to get your ass kicked one time
VoicE x unhEard (2:59:59 PM): that was all her craig
VoicE x unhEard (3:00:04 PM): tellin me to fight her
VoicE x unhEard (3:00:13 PM): she called me up bitchin at me for her moms shit
VoicE x unhEard (3:00:23 PM): like 3 weeks ago
VoicE x unhEard (3:00:43 PM): and yeah ashleys the sister that was at the one party
VoicE x unhEard (3:01:23 PM): and right now i dont give a fuck if i lose the fight as long as i get a hit in cus she deff needs to be hit.
VoicE x unhEard (3:01:25 PM): or shot
lFullCollapse (3:01:53 PM): im just saying sometimes the whole tough guy act is a bad idea
lFullCollapse (3:02:06 PM): especially because theyre crazy
VoicE x unhEard (3:02:28 PM): i havent said shit to her about fightin her.
VoicE x unhEard (3:02:51 PM): some shit is outta anger csu im deff pissed the fick off right now
lFullCollapse (3:02:55 PM): and i would fight her if she fuckin showed up here today but my hand is too messed up
lFullCollapse (3:03:04 PM): oo
VoicE x unhEard (3:03:05 PM): if she came to me
VoicE x unhEard (3:03:08 PM): but
VoicE x unhEard (3:03:21 PM): i never said anything to ashley or HER ..
VoicE x unhEard (3:03:28 PM): im sayin it to you yeah..
VoicE x unhEard (3:04:17 PM): and they are fuckin crazy they fuckin had a shopping spree in some random persons room..fuckin freaks
VoicE x unhEard (3:04:30 PM): ughhhh that pisses me off that they were even in here'
lFullCollapse (3:04:51 PM): they took your cd player and cd's?
VoicE x unhEard (3:04:58 PM): i only know 4 out of 25 cds that she took..she took so many that i dont even lknow which ones
VoicE x unhEard (3:05:05 PM): my pinkl walkman
VoicE x unhEard (3:05:15 PM): and fuckin clothes!
VoicE x unhEard (3:05:18 PM): who does that/??
VoicE x unhEard (3:06:06 PM): its so frustrating
lFullCollapse (3:06:15 PM): yeah
VoicE x unhEard (3:06:34 PM): their messed up in the head
VoicE x unhEard (3:06:39 PM): like whoa
VoicE x unhEard (3:06:58 PM): i mean im glad shes out..or is gonna be buty im not forgettin my shit bein stolen
lFullCollapse (3:07:32 PM): true
VoicE x unhEard (3:08:00 PM): yeah
VoicE x unhEard (3:08:30 PM): im tired of typin already .. so
VoicE x unhEard (3:08:34 PM): i think im gonna get off here
lFullCollapse (3:08:35 PM): later
VoicE x unhEard (3:08:45 PM): later
.. the list of shit they stole.. THAT I KNOW OF.
PINK SONY WALKMAN
GOLD NECKLACE WITH ANGEL CHARM
TOMMY HILFIGER PERFUME
GOLD DOLPHIN NECKLACE
RED HANES TANKTOP
BLACK HANES TANKTOP
WALLET WITH THE WORD 'DORK' ON IT
BLACK&WHITE FILAS [ SNEAKERS ]
RED CAREBEAR SHIRT
YELLOW FUZZY MONKEY PJ PANTS
BLACK ANKLE SOCKS W/ GREEN STARS
PINK ANKLE SOCKS
DARK BLUE ANKLE SOCKS
PINK BOYSHORT UNDERWEAR
LIGHT BLUE BOYSHORT UNDERWEAR
HALF BLACK HALF WHITE EYELINER
BLACK LIQUID EYELINER
SILVER [FAKE DIAMOND] HOOP EARRINGS
FROG MOOD RING
1. TAKING BACK SUNDAY - TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS
2. TAKING BACK SUNDAY - WHERE YOU WANT TO BE
3. NEW FOUND GLORY
4. NEW FOUND GLORY - STICKS AND STONES
5. SUM41- ALL KILLER NO THRILLER 7 SERIES
6. MUDVAYNE - END OF ALL THINGS TO COME
7. COLD - YEAR OF THE SPIDER
8. GREENDAY - DOOKIE
9. CKY - INFILTRATE - DESTROY - REBUILD
11. COHEED AND CAMBRIA - IN KEEPING SECRETS OF SILENT EARTH:3
12. BLINK182 - TAKE OFF YOUR PANTS AND JACKET [BURNED]
14. THREE DAYS GRACE
15. NO DOUBT - TRAGIC KINGDOM
16. AVRIL LAVIGNE - LET GO
17. DRUMLINE SOUNDTRACK
18. SIMPLE PLAN - NO PADS, NO HELMETS..JUST BALLS
19. SMILE EMPTY SOUL
2O. SOMETHING CORPORATE - NORTH
21. THE STARTINGLINE - SAY IT LIKE YOU MEAN IT
..and im still lookin.. theres at least 5 more cds that were taken.
yesterday afternoon -- went to the police station and filled out paperwork for a restraining order on her.. got court this thursday 8:3O am.. and she wasnt home for them to issue it to her so they said to nonchalantly [oh man cant spell that one] call them and theyd come over when she was home..
what happend last nite --
VoicE x unhEard (11:29:59 PM): shes home
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:03 PM): my dad said
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:03 PM): that
littLe biG x kiD (11:30:04 PM): what happend?
littLe biG x kiD (11:30:06 PM): ..
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:30 PM): he called ashleys step mom and she said she thinks they were goin to california bc tahts what ashley was sayin.. or w.e..and my dad was like "idk they dont have any money" and i was like "UHMM SHE DEFF JUSt STOLE LIKE ALL MY CDS..SO SHE DEFF HAS LIKE 5OO BUCKS TO SPARE..." and he was like "but i gotta go to work so dont say nothin just stay up here.. and if anything happens call me at walmart.. but ill do the thing in the morning" and then she came in and he was like "nvm shes heere..but im leavin..just keep makin that list". .
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:34 PM): she fuckin stole madd more then i realized
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:24 PM): ew
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:28 PM): wtf .. mad gay
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:40 PM): hes still gunna do it in the morning?
VoicE x unhEard (11:33:47 PM): yeah
[[----list was here.. ]]
littLe biG x kiD (11:43:37 PM): holy shit she needs to die .. that toook wayyy to long!>:o
littLe biG x kiD (11:43:42 PM): for you to type*
littLe biG x kiD (11:44:20 PM): she took your filas=-O>:o>:o>:o>:oDYKE
littLe biG x kiD (11:44:45 PM): ew .. underwear?!
littLe biG x kiD (11:44:47 PM): ewwww
VoicE x unhEard (11:44:49 PM): YEAH
VoicE x unhEard (11:44:54 PM): shes a SKANK
VoicE x unhEard (11:45:03 PM): look at what my a/m was right before ANT imed me an then you came back
VoicE x unhEard (11:45:11 PM): Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:25:29 PM): FUCKIN BS I FUCKIN HATE ASHLEY KRAMER SHE NEEDS TO DIE. IF YOU WANT SOMEONE TO JUMP PLEASE, BE MY GUEST. CUS SHE DEFF DESERVES IT. FUCKIN WHORE ASS CUNT. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AND WHOEEVER THE FUCK SAID SHE WAS HOT AT MY LAST PARTY CAN GO DIE TO BC NAHHHHH SHE AINT. YOUR JUST FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD. EW I CANT FUCKIN STAND HER.. GO DIE thats why you got fucked in the ass and bragged about it. what a fuckin dirty ass smut
VoicE x unhEard (11:45:34 PM): +bowl**
littLe biG x kiD (11:46:28 PM): hahah niice
littLe biG x kiD (11:46:30 PM): and yeah i know
littLe biG x kiD (11:46:31 PM): ewWW
littLe biG x kiD (11:46:35 PM): who takes underwear?!
littLe biG x kiD (11:47:35 PM): if they were goin to cali... they prob were like .. ugh you font got shit to take .. and your bitch ass cunt told her you werent home so take your shit andd she didnt have a problem with it .. siince shes madd gay and was about to "fight you"
littLe biG x kiD (11:47:39 PM): wow
littLe biG x kiD (11:47:41 PM): they do need to die
littLe biG x kiD (11:47:44 PM): like realll bad
littLe biG x kiD (11:47:45 PM): ew
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:09 PM): nasty ass cunt bag smutfaced uglly dirtyyyyyyyy ass shady lien btiches!!
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:12 PM): >:o
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:13 PM): ew
VoicE x unhEard (11:48:29 PM): im gettin her jumped
VoicE x unhEard (11:48:39 PM): and having ppl call her house and fuck with her
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:49 PM): dude we should all get nigger masks and FUC KHER SHIT UPPPP
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:50 PM): everybody
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:52 PM): guys andall
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:56 PM): yess
littLe biG x kiD (11:48:57 PM): 8-)
VoicE x unhEard (11:48:58 PM): yeah sinec shes such a man
VoicE x unhEard (11:49:00 PM): i dont fuckin caer
VoicE x unhEard (11:49:01 PM): care*
littLe biG x kiD (11:49:25 PM): what get masks and jump her ass
littLe biG x kiD (11:49:37 PM): haha
littLe biG x kiD (11:50:42 PM): yo im like 1111193578460973450845 % serious about jumpin that dyke ass bitch
littLe biG x kiD (11:50:48 PM): ever sicne she called ERIC A GEEK! i swear!
littLe biG x kiD (11:50:50 PM): >:o
littLe biG x kiD (11:50:58 PM): this is like WAYYYYYYY to far
littLe biG x kiD (11:50:59 PM): too
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:00 PM): ew
VoicE x unhEard (11:51:16 PM): yeah DEFFFFF
VoicE x unhEard (11:51:23 PM): danielle said shell help me jump her
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:31 PM): 8-)
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:34 PM): thats 3
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:35 PM): ..
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:40 PM): i want a mask though
littLe biG x kiD (11:51:41 PM): hahaha
littLe biG x kiD (11:59:35 PM): brb
VoicE x unhEard (11:59:56 PM): ok
littLe biG x kiD is away at 12:00:53 AM.
littLe biG x kiD returned at 12:02:37 AM.
VoicE x unhEard (12:03:57 AM): that wallet had my picture of you in it..my IDs.. all my pictures that were left over from last year..my 4thgrade picture...
littLe biG x kiD (12:04:21 AM): pictures of me?
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:28 AM): yeah
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:32 AM): the school one
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:34 AM): last years
littLe biG x kiD (12:04:42 AM): oh jeeze ..
littLe biG x kiD (12:04:45 AM): greatttt
littLe biG x kiD (12:04:50 AM): so she can deff stalk me too now
littLe biG x kiD (12:04:51 AM): ew
littLe biG x kiD (12:05:00 AM): and whoever else you had in tehre
VoicE x unhEard (12:05:06 AM): ..she knows who you are
littLe biG x kiD (12:05:08 AM): did you see my a/m?
littLe biG x kiD (12:05:10 AM): i know
VoicE x unhEard (12:05:23 AM): no
littLe biG x kiD (12:05:26 AM): but still its better to just remember .. the nhave a constant one of a pictuer
littLe biG x kiD (12:05:28 AM): here
littLe biG x kiD is away at 12:05:32 AM.
VoicE x unhEard (12:05:35 AM): i know
Auto response from littLe biG x kiD (12:05:35 AM): who fucking steals underwear from another person?
eww can you say dirty smut, dirty smut.
littLe biG x kiD returned at 12:05:36 AM.
VoicE x unhEard (12:05:45 AM): pretty much
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:05 AM): but you gotta like sing it like .. "dirrtyyy smut. dirtty smuttt"
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:17 AM): oh
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:21 AM): well
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:22 AM): idk
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:24 AM): haha
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:24 AM): lol
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:27 AM): how bout iyell it
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:32 AM): that too
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:47 AM): in like a demon voice .. likie IM GUNNA KILL YOU DIRTTYYY SMUTTTT DIRRTTY SMUTTTTT
littLe biG x kiD (12:06:54 AM): yo we could so make a song about her
VoicE x unhEard (12:07:21 AM): yeah.."this bitch ass cunt..brags bout gettin it in the BuTt
VoicE x unhEard (12:07:22 AM): "
littLe biG x kiD (12:07:28 AM): haha
VoicE x unhEard (12:07:53 AM): 'calls us geeks.. talk about freaks..'
littLe biG x kiD (12:07:58 AM): hahaha
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:16 AM): who smokes with THEIR MOMMMMMMMMMM
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:16 AM): ?
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:18 AM): haha
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:31 AM): and no we DID NOT SMOKE WITH NANNI SO IT DONT COUNT!
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:32 AM): lol
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:51 AM): but thats cool watchin your nani smoke
littLe biG x kiD (12:09:59 AM): ... w/ their mom aroud their 6yr old little sister
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:59 AM): she fuckin hit that with her mom
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:05 AM): i knowww
VoicE x unhEard (12:10:07 AM): ..IN OUR BOWL
VoicE x unhEard (12:10:15 AM): fuckin SKANK WHORE
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:24 AM): wonder what they were smokin .. ohhhhh i know .. "regulare weed"
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:27 AM): hahahahhahahaa
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:28 AM): lmao
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:30 AM): =-O:-D:-D:-D:-D
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:37 AM): i crack my self up sometimes
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:39 AM): ;-)
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:42 AM): you know it
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:52 AM): fucking dumbbasss druggies dont even know wtf their talkin about
littLe biG x kiD (12:10:54 AM): pshhttt
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:03 AM): damn.. GET A FUCKING CLUE
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:31 AM): i mean wtf .. i didnt know you were tryna get your gas tank filled too
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:32 AM): like wtf
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:34 AM): regular..
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:35 AM): yehah
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:37 AM): okayyy
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:39 AM): wtf
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:43 AM): dummb asss heell
VoicE x unhEard (12:11:44 AM): mad dumb
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:45 AM): llll
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:46 AM): lol
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:56 AM): no i want unleaded..
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:58 AM): wait...
littLe biG x kiD (12:11:59 AM): no
littLe biG x kiD (12:12:01 AM): regular..
littLe biG x kiD (12:12:03 AM): 8-)
VoicE x unhEard (12:12:07 AM): ...what
littLe biG x kiD (12:12:12 AM): nothing
littLe biG x kiD (12:12:20 AM): i guess you gotta be in a laughin mood
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:03 AM): oh
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:04 AM): probalby
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:08 AM): i dont get it either wayt ho.
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:10 AM): tho*
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:13 AM): dude she even asked for like she was gettin gas .. "uh yeah 2O of regular.."
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:19 AM): what a geeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkk
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:24 AM): she has room to talk about us
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:25 AM): okaYYY
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:28 AM): she needs to be shot
VoicE x unhEard (12:13:28 AM): ..
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:37 AM): in the head 8 times and then ..
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:42 AM): in the heart .. like 2O
littLe biG x kiD (12:13:43 AM): more*
littLe biG x kiD (12:14:12 AM): noo .. torture her 1st .. shoot her legs then arms then stomach thenn kill her
VoicE x unhEard (12:14:14 AM): stabbed in the back...
littLe biG x kiD (12:14:15 AM): 8-)
littLe biG x kiD (12:14:23 AM): literaly yes she does
VoicE x unhEard (12:14:45 AM): you can put your screw driver in the backs of her knees and into her elbows
littLe biG x kiD (12:14:57 AM): okay sounds good
VoicE x unhEard (12:15:03 AM): sounds great
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:09 AM): hmm and you can make her go retarted WORSE .. wit the hphone to the head
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:13 AM): yes deff
VoicE x unhEard (12:15:24 AM): im cuttin off her ears too
VoicE x unhEard (12:15:31 AM): ill make her eat em
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:34 AM): and makin her eat it
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:41 AM): and sew her outh shut till she swallows it
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:44 AM): yessss
littLe biG x kiD (12:15:48 AM): 8-)great minds i tell yah
VoicE x unhEard (12:16:18 AM): yeah
littLe biG x kiD (12:17:03 AM): its soo cold in this bitch
littLe biG x kiD (12:17:10 AM): fuckin room is always freezin
VoicE x unhEard (12:17:36 AM): i know
littLe biG x kiD (12:17:55 AM): my back hurts
littLe biG x kiD (12:17:56 AM): urr
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:02 AM): and im still not completely DONE my room
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:04 AM): all fuckign day
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:07 AM): and stil not done
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:11 AM): wtf is that?
VoicE x unhEard (12:18:16 AM): takes long
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:27 AM): too fucking long
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:48 AM): damn .. it took like literally about .. 12 - 11 .. almost fucking 12 hours~
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:48 AM): and not done
littLe biG x kiD (12:18:49 AM): wow
VoicE x unhEard (12:19:07 AM): nuts
littLe biG x kiD (12:19:14 AM): yeah i know
littLe biG x kiD (12:19:16 AM): gayyy too
littLe biG x kiD (12:19:32 AM): i hat eto go but im mad tired too
littLe biG x kiD (12:19:39 AM): yo does she have the phone?
VoicE x unhEard (12:19:51 AM): yeah
VoicE x unhEard (12:19:55 AM): im not leaving my room
VoicE x unhEard (12:19:56 AM): so ..
littLe biG x kiD (12:19:57 AM): ph of fucking course
littLe biG x kiD (12:20:00 AM): oh i nkow
littLe biG x kiD (12:20:02 AM): its fine
littLe biG x kiD (12:20:17 AM): and dude .. if shes near you when you go pee or w/e ..
littLe biG x kiD (12:20:31 AM): dont say nuthyn .. just imagin thelook on her face tomorrow when she gets served that shit
littLe biG x kiD (12:20:37 AM): and has 2O to get the FUC KOut
VoicE x unhEard (12:20:45 AM): yeah well
littLe biG x kiD (12:21:03 AM): shell go crazy and the wholle time you can laugh in her fucknin face and she cant do NOTHING
littLe biG x kiD (12:21:07 AM): and you will get your shit back
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:08 AM): i keep thinkin about how they chilled in myroom and stood there and just fuckin shopped.. 'ooothis ones good.. oh yeah tbs yess" yeah no so..
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:14 AM): i deff wanna punch someone right now
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:18 AM): i couldnt even slepe
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:25 AM): bc i kept rememberin noticin my cd player was gond
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:27 AM): gone*
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:35 AM): im sick of her fuckin shit and her and all of it..go fuckin DIE
littLe biG x kiD (12:21:36 AM): madd gay
littLe biG x kiD (12:21:41 AM): yeah i know
littLe biG x kiD (12:21:45 AM): i agree 13058456%
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:56 AM): yea
VoicE x unhEard (12:21:57 AM): h
littLe biG x kiD (12:22:28 AM): ok well stay in there ... and idk .. ill talk to you tomorow im not goin nowhere hes commin here so
littLe biG x kiD (12:22:30 AM): well talk
littLe biG x kiD (12:22:45 AM): i wish i was tehr to see the look on her face tomorrow haha yessssss8-)
littLe biG x kiD (12:22:49 AM): ok well im goin
VoicE x unhEard (12:22:56 AM): later
littLe biG x kiD (12:23:02 AM): later.. good luck andd TRY and stay outta shit
littLe biG x kiD (12:23:03 AM): later
this morning --
VoicE x unhEard (11:12:24 AM): hes calling now
littLe biG x kiD (11:12:50 AM): =-O:-D
littLe biG x kiD (11:12:51 AM): is she around>
littLe biG x kiD (11:12:51 AM): ?
VoicE x unhEard (11:12:54 AM): yeah
littLe biG x kiD (11:13:10 AM): when hes on the phone?
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:13 AM): she was sittin there .. and i couldnt just be like "HERE dad HERES the PHONE.. do you need it?"
littLe biG x kiD (11:13:17 AM): like does she know whos hes tlakin to>?
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:29 AM): so she went in the kitchen to make angie cereal
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:42 AM): so i was like "uhmm.. what are you doin???" and he was like "wheres the phone?"
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:47 AM): and i gave it to him
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:47 AM): haha
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:52 AM): yesssss FUCKIN CUNT
VoicE x unhEard (11:13:56 AM): i better get my SHIT back to
littLe biG x kiD (11:13:59 AM): haha all secretive
littLe biG x kiD (11:14:02 AM): yesss
littLe biG x kiD (11:14:23 AM): you will and my mom said if not - then shell get you some of them bitches for Xmas
VoicE x unhEard (11:14:26 AM): im gonna laugh when they knock on the door..i want her to answer it too hahahahahahaha
littLe biG x kiD (11:14:34 AM): hahaha
VoicE x unhEard (11:14:40 AM): like "yes?"
VoicE x unhEard (11:14:45 AM): "are you charlotte kramer..?"
littLe biG x kiD (11:14:48 AM): theyll be like .. charlotte kramer? .
VoicE x unhEard (11:14:52 AM): "here.2O min then your out"
VoicE x unhEard (11:15:11 AM): then itll be "HES A PERVERT THEY HAVE SEX IM NOT LEAVING ANGIE HERE HELL FUCK HER TOO"
littLe biG x kiD (11:15:14 AM): and not allowed within 1oooo yards of here
littLe biG x kiD (11:15:25 AM): tuhhhhhh
VoicE x unhEard (11:15:27 AM): shes not allowed to call or anything
VoicE x unhEard (11:15:31 AM): or have anyone else call
littLe biG x kiD (11:15:35 AM): =-Ohaha yess
VoicE x unhEard (11:15:55 AM): im gona go downstairs
VoicE x unhEard (11:15:56 AM): haha
littLe biG x kiD (11:16:06 AM): dude .. call me?
littLe biG x kiD (11:16:06 AM): \or cant you?
littLe biG x kiD (11:16:16 AM): i mean when your dads done
VoicE x unhEard (11:16:50 AM): YEAH I can call i think
littLe biG x kiD (11:17:03 AM): haha okay ddOOO ITT
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:17:03 AM): downstairs awaiting the TRO8-)
i just better get my shit back and then she can die..
be back when shes OUT
littLe biG x kiD (11:17:06 AM): lol
littLe biG x kiD (11:17:11 AM): nvm your not in my lunch you wont get aht lol
littLe biG x kiD is away at 11:17:51 AM.
littLe biG x kiD returned at 11:25:02 AM.
littLe biG x kiD (11:25:06 AM): ugghhhhhh fucking comcast
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:25:06 AM): wow fuck that....
littLe biG x kiD (11:25:06 AM): talks to much
littLe biG x kiD (11:25:10 AM): grrrr
littLe biG x kiD (11:25:16 AM): WHY NOW
littLe biG x kiD (11:25:16 AM): lol
littLe biG x kiD is away at 11:25:42 AM.
littLe biG x kiD returned at 11:27:36 AM.
littLe biG x kiD (11:27:41 AM): wth was that
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:27:41 AM): .....
she needs to go die
littLe biG x kiD (11:27:41 AM): i called
littLe biG x kiD (11:27:51 AM): and it was like coughhh coughh laugh laugh and then click or w/e
littLe biG x kiD (11:27:57 AM): it was rather wierd lol
VoicE x unhEard (11:28:08 AM): her
VoicE x unhEard (11:28:16 AM): she took the phone to call someone to leave
littLe biG x kiD (11:28:19 AM): ew
littLe biG x kiD (11:28:26 AM): well times a ticdkin....
VoicE x unhEard (11:28:42 AM): shes such a fuckin cunt
littLe biG x kiD (11:28:43 AM): ew
littLe biG x kiD (11:28:43 AM): wtf
littLe biG x kiD (11:28:51 AM): whatd the cop say?
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:16 AM): and she came in and was like "blah blah blah" and i was like "yeah and what about my fuckin shit? my cds.. all that? huh.. YOU DIDNT DO THAT EITHER..RIGHT?" and she was like "no..idk.. i wasnt here i was at a funeral..you hvae too many of your friends here" .. and i was like "no uhm they were deff fuckin taken LAST NITE when YOU were here" and she was like "i wasnt ehre ig ot home at 12" an di was like "yeahwell you were here at fuckin 12 .. with your daughter" and she was like"no i was alone" and i was like "BULLSHIT BULLSHIT ASHLEY WAS HERE IN THE MORNING"..
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:35 AM): now shes sayin that shes gonna get custody of angie cus she "has a judge in the family"
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:38 AM): wo
VoicE x unhEard (11:30:38 AM): w
littLe biG x kiD (11:31:05 AM): haha
littLe biG x kiD (11:31:05 AM): what a freak
littLe biG x kiD (11:31:19 AM): hopefully somebody will realize she needs to go away in a pysch ward or sumthin
littLe biG x kiD (11:31:25 AM): she erally needs help:-\
VoicE x unhEard (11:31:38 AM): yeah deff
littLe biG x kiD (11:31:56 AM): she needs one of those fuckin padded rooms
VoicE x unhEard (11:31:57 AM): i said last nite ..shes right she was here aloine but she fuckin knows what day im talkin about
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:01 AM): yeah defffff
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:38 AM): and when i was on the phone w/ you my dad was lIke "you need to go out" talkin to max and she was like 'tuh she dont do that EITHER'.. uhmmmmm yeah i deff do stfu you fuckin cutn ass dyike
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:40 AM): damnb
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:42 AM): sdlkfoi*&(Wrweuoifksdf
littLe biG x kiD (11:32:42 AM): so she can accosiate with anyone .. or w/e thast word it
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:43 AM): UIGH
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:52 AM): CANT?
VoicE x unhEard (11:32:56 AM): or can
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:28 AM): cant*
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:29 AM): and wait..
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:38 AM): e 'tuh she dont do that EITHER'..
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:42 AM): ?
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:45 AM): what do you mean
VoicE x unhEard (11:33:46 AM): talkin about puttin max outside
VoicE x unhEard (11:33:53 AM): hold on
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:55 AM): yeah you do
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:58 AM): even i do that shit
littLe biG x kiD (11:33:59 AM): ok
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:33:59 AM): wow go fuckin dieeeeee and get the fuck outta my house
littLe biG x kiD (11:40:43 AM): ok im goin to do my hair .. ill be back .. i guess uh if i take more then like idk .. call if you wanna
littLe biG x kiD (11:40:49 AM): but ill bb
littLe biG x kiD is away at 11:41:39 AM.
VoicE x unhEard (11:43:38 AM): she said that i took 25O of her cds..when uhmm she dont own 25O and even if she did...my thing holds 1OO and i have at least 9O cds of my own....
VoicE x unhEard (11:43:38 AM): wow
VoicE x unhEard (11:43:40 AM): makes sense
Auto response from littLe biG x kiD (11:43:41 AM):
tell how would you feel
youd probably give up to
if nobody believed in you..
andd the convo with my mom ...
VoicE x unhEard (11:45:55 AM): read your email
VoicE x unhEard (11:46:06 AM): and we got a tro on her
VoicE x unhEard (11:46:09 AM): finally
DiLallaL (11:46:16 AM): OK
DiLallaL (11:46:43 AM): WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
VoicE x unhEard (11:46:50 AM): restraining order
DiLallaL (11:47:07 AM): what happened
VoicE x unhEard (11:47:18 AM): read the email i sent you
DiLallaL (11:47:47 AM): ok give me a minute
VoicE x unhEard (11:47:51 AM): okay
VoicE x unhEard (11:48:05 AM): brb
DiLallaL (11:48:20 AM): nice
Auto response from VoicE x unhEard (11:48:20 AM): go die
DiLallaL (11:52:21 AM): your step mom dosn't live with you anymore?
DiLallaL (11:52:45 AM): can you get your stuff back?
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:09 AM): they just took her out of here. and i dont know.
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:13 AM): i dont know who even has it
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:15 AM): or where its at
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:25 AM): it says on the tro that theyre to return it
DiLallaL (11:53:28 AM): I'm sorry that happened to you thats terrable
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:31 AM): and if not its against the judges order
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:40 AM): yeah well people are pretty f***ed up
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:50 AM): all of them people have mental disorders
VoicE x unhEard (11:53:53 AM): seriously
VoicE x unhEard (11:54:04 AM): pathelogical liars, bipolarness, cleptos
DiLallaL (11:54:43 AM): I hope you get it back
VoicE x unhEard (11:54:59 AM): yeah me too its like 5OO dollars worth of shit
DiLallaL (11:55:09 AM): I am glad that woman dosen't live with you any more
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:13 AM): they shouldnt have even been in my house
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:16 AM): let alone my room
DiLallaL (11:55:21 AM): are you happier now
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:24 AM): or going through my stuff
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:27 AM): no i want my shit back
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:30 AM): you dont do that
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:36 AM): just bc im not home....
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:44 AM): doesnt mean go in my room and grab what you can
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:44 AM): no
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:49 AM): they ramsacked everything
DiLallaL (11:55:52 AM): where was your dad
VoicE x unhEard (11:55:58 AM): and theyre just gonna deny it
VoicE x unhEard (11:56:07 AM): he went to work at 9:3O
VoicE x unhEard (11:56:12 AM): they got here some time after that
DiLallaL (11:56:32 AM): how did they get in the house?
VoicE x unhEard (11:56:38 AM): my step mom
DiLallaL (11:56:54 AM): are the other kids still living with you
VoicE x unhEard (11:57:04 AM): they were all hangin out and smokin bc there was madd ciggarettes filling like 2 ashtrays when theyre not even allowed to smoke in the house
VoicE x unhEard (11:57:09 AM): just me and angie live here
VoicE x unhEard (11:57:26 AM): but shes talkin shit sayin shes gonna get custody of angie..shell probably throw around some lies sayin my dad is a pervert and shit liek she already said
VoicE x unhEard (11:57:36 AM): which got her hit last time she said it
DiLallaL (11:58:21 AM): she sounds like a real winner
DiLallaL (11:58:55 AM): does she have keys to the house?
VoicE x unhEard (11:58:58 AM): the cop said its not theft though because i dont have 'concrete evidence' that THEY did it..like it could have been someone who broke in.. and i was like "wow how bout no because they all were here.."
VoicE x unhEard (11:59:03 AM): yeah she lived here
VoicE x unhEard (11:59:14 AM): since 15 minutes ago she did
DiLallaL (11:59:32 AM): maybe you should change the locks
DiLallaL (11:59:56 AM): your dad better keep her away from you
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:11 PM): i got court on thursday about it all. but i made my dad go to the cops for my shit being stolen and he made it a whole thing about getting a restraining order on her..then it was like in the "fine print" part of it that i am to get my stuff returned
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:25 PM): we are changing the locks. .. were moving soon anyway
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:26 PM): who cares
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:37 PM): i want my shit back .. if she tries anything ive beat her up before i cand o it again
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:40 PM): can do*
VoicE x unhEard (12:00:47 PM): im gettin ashley jumped for stealin my stuff anyway
DiLallaL (12:01:22 PM): have you figured out where you are moving yet?
VoicE x unhEard (12:01:28 PM): no
VoicE x unhEard (12:01:40 PM): my dad said he saw a house in marlton i was like "no..."
DiLallaL (12:02:38 PM): isn't that where the mom and dad live?
VoicE x unhEard (12:03:19 PM): yeah
VoicE x unhEard (12:03:28 PM): i dont want to live there im graduatin from winslow
DiLallaL (12:03:56 PM): how far away is that
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:05 PM): is what?
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:07 PM): fromw here?
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:08 PM): where*
DiLallaL (12:04:26 PM): from where you live now
VoicE x unhEard (12:04:40 PM): like .. 4O minutes i guess
DiLallaL (12:05:03 PM): why are you moving?
DiLallaL (12:05:18 PM): Because of the crazy lady?
DiLallaL (12:05:32 PM): do you own the house?
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:00 PM): no bc our house is being sold
VoicE x unhEard (12:06:05 PM): or it already is.
DiLallaL (12:06:50 PM): so you are renting the house
DiLallaL (12:07:16 PM): how much is it to rent a house up there?
VoicE x unhEard (12:08:00 PM): i dont know
VoicE x unhEard (12:08:03 PM): this is 1OOO
VoicE x unhEard (12:08:04 PM): a month
DiLallaL (12:08:37 PM): I am going to order your stuff now
VoicE x unhEard (12:08:44 PM): okay
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:03 PM): how long does it take to get here?
DiLallaL (12:09:09 PM): it's for your -day but if you want to open it sooner it;s ok
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:16 PM): no ill wait
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:18 PM): thanks
DiLallaL (12:09:34 PM): it should take a week
VoicE x unhEard (12:09:46 PM): nice
DiLallaL (12:10:10 PM): what do you want for christmas?
DiLallaL (12:10:19 PM): let me know
VoicE x unhEard (12:10:33 PM): i dont know yet. i gota make a list. if i dont get my shit back then i guess THATS my list.. ughhh
DiLallaL (12:11:22 PM): Let me know, I will talk to you later I Love you
VoicE x unhEard (12:11:29 PM): oko bye
DiLallaL (12:11:52 PM): Bye
yeah well.. im pretty pissed off because of the cunts.. soo yeah.. dont expect too much joy from me for a while.. at least until i get my shit back. WHICH I FUCKIN BETTER.
6 never thought wed make it out alive |
its all in your goodbyes
2004 14 November :: 10.47 am
:: Mood: PISSED THE FUCK OFF
:: Music: THURSDAY
its all in your goodbyes
2004 10 November :: 11.07 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: funeral for a friend -- storytelling
i wish it was how we planned
last update -- shits done. fixed.
okay this fuckin sucks. like 2 days ago my light bulb on the right side went out in my room. and now i think the left one is about to go out. im gonna be sittin here in the dark because i dont think we have anymore light bulbs. and the shitty thing is, i cant get the bulb out without dropping it and it breaking all over the floor.. cus well.. since my BED broke its like a foot lower.. anyhow. im sittin here watchin the midget.. and shes watchin country bears. oh yes lol. i cant believe that son of a bitch told him he was adopted hahahaha .. 'mom..dad.. am i adopted?' mom: " well of course not hunnie" as the brother mouths "yes you are" and shakes his head. hahaha asshole.. ughhhhh this fuckin bitch keeps jumpin on the bed even though i say stop everytime.. wtf dont she get? .. haha. .. hmmm --
party info .. [ so far ]
dec 3-4 .. which is a friday and a saturday
im sure drinkin is fine....
16th birthday bitches.. presents money stufff you knoww .. haha
i dont know times or anything
but my dad said.. if i dont find a way to pay for it myself then it doesnt happen bc we cant afford to put in..with movin and all. and were mad broke as it is.. =\ .. so pitch in.. or else we dont have nothin...so if you dont help then either..dont bother comin cus it wont be no fun ..or itll be mad gay or just straightedge.. lol
and im doin chores and shit around the house and watchin my sister to get money and all of it is goin to the fuckin party. so i think some of yous could put up at least a dollar or two..anything helps. thanks youu
im goin to bed.. or somethin.. later
[ ha, mad gay update ]
5 never thought wed make it out alive |
its all in your goodbyes
2004 8 November :: 12.22 am
:: Mood: exanimate
:: Music: hawthorne heights in my head
just a thought..
ok ive thought about this alot. .. so here goes. after this .. im lettin whoever needs to know that i put this in my journal, givin them the link, and hopefully theyll read and it can go from there and be done.
well ive found alot out about myself this week. by gettin into fights with craig i realized shit. and you know what, your right. yeah, you could have said it in a 'nicer' way, but i guess it took that for me to fuckin notice. first thing, the annoying thing. completely understand that. sorry. if things end and were still on that level then ill work on that. second, that im wayyy to attached to you. ok you deff didnt have to say 'let me go cry now' bc..i told you why i cried them like... what? 2 times we got into bigg ass fights. and i fuckin cried over you so you of all people shouldnt be the one to make a comment about that. but i get it. ill start caring as much as you from now on. and the nick comment that was made. maybe i did fuck that up because i got mad over not bein answered fast enough. that makes sense. i am madd impatient sometimes. ill stop. but in my 'defense' : i said guess what.. and you know that 3 minutes, especially online, is wayy long for someone to be like what to a guess what.. so the moment was passed. thats why i didnt tell you what it was.. not because i was mad. yeah, i was talkin to sam and i assumed you were ignoring me to talk to alyssa. especially bc you answered me as soon as she went away. but i found out, through an argument with sam, that you were watching tv. way to tell me.. but w.e. another thing, i had no clue that you fuckin thought i act like im your girlfriend. i deff feel madd dumb. first of all, you should have told me yourself that, not me hearing it from sam. and second of all, if you would have told me, i would have done something about it. i didnt even think that.. but ok. i guess me gettin mad at you at all is gonna start to mean i act like we go out.. seriously, i got a new outlook. its cool. im sorry that i was acting that way though. i mean i hate that it got so bad that you thought that about me. and even if you were gettin points across, you owe me an apology for the nick comment and the let me go cry thing. bc that was just bs. im not gonna say this again.. i HATE when someone knows the story but still uses it against someone later on in an argument. for example: if you knew someone hurt themselves. and you and that person have talked about it before. and you know why theyve done it and what not. 2 months later you get into an argument or a fight, and you fuckin tell them to go cut themselves. you knew why they did that and all but bc you were mad..you went and said that shit and used your knowledge of them against the person. even though they told you to talk about it not for 'ammunition'. as jess would say. and to clear shit up, i deff wasnt mad bc you were tryin to get with alyssa.. it was bc SINCE that whole idea began you started gettin meaner and meaner about things. and eventually not things, just towards me. and yeah, i know i got mad for dumb shit but once you made messed up comments it wasnt me bein ridiculous anymore. but im fine, im sorry and i hope your sorry for what you did. blah blahblah. its over. youll read this and .. move the fuck on. this has gone way to far.
oh yeah, and one other thing. if your sayin im acting like we go out because im gettin mad over stuff and makin it a big deal that we arent talkin..then think of it this way: if me and sam got into a fight..and i said mean shit to her... or w.e.. and we ended up not talkin.. but i wouldnt apologize ..shed complain and shed talk to ppl about it and try to get their opinion. and you know itd be gay if we werent talkin.. its the same situation but bc its with craig.. its more like im actin like we go out.... but then again, i know that i can be like that.. like w.e.. i talk about him alot and what not....i guess and shit. but it looks like that way more bc the fights between a guy and a girl. and i guess nobody gets that i see him as a best friend? ...everybody gets sad and makes it a big deal when theyre fighting and not talkin to their best friend.. or is just me? you dont see it the way i do, so? doesnt mean im acting gay. but its obviously whatever to you guys. so i give up worryin about it like that. cus it just causes problems. yada yada im done.
and i got up outta bed to get this shit down. so if you got a comment then comment..on here or tell me yourself. you know my screenname.. and if you already read this before i told you to.. then uhm, you better let me know. please..
6 never thought wed make it out alive |
its all in your goodbyes